Girls test whether boys are sincere

I once pursued a girl for 6 months. I liked her very much. It was the first time I knew what it meant to like someone. I would have severe insomnia at night. I did everything possible to take care of her and give her love every day. I make phone calls, send text messages every day, wait for her every day, and when I see her, I will unconsciously become nervous, I can’t tell jokes, I won’t relax, I just fumble for her, and I buy her fruit and food when she has a cold. , placed it tremblingly at her door. It was the first time that she had to go far away to buy something for someone else. The first time she wanted to buy something that she liked to eat, but she threw the thing out and never answered the phone or text message. Back. I just stupidly used the most primitive and direct method to get close to her. I felt like a male lion in the animal world being nice to a female lion. The narrator said that this was courtship. I was also seeking a mate. In order to ask her out, I waited in the wind for two hours. In the end, there was no news at all. Of course I knew that she might like me or not, and maybe she didn’t understand me yet. I said you can reject me. But don't refuse to understand. I hope to tell you with my sincerity that I am worthy of your understanding. If you don't like me, please tell me firmly and I will never pester you. She always said I don't like you in a nonchalant way, and then looked at me, I was the same as before. Until one day, I called and was picked up by a man who said she was taking a shower.

Then I deleted her phone number and never had anything to do with her again.

Three years later, I met my colleague’s best friend and asked her if she had ever liked me? She said maybe. I asked if her boyfriend was so-and-so (my colleague was also chasing her. I had a chat with him. He was definitely worse in ability and appearance than me. He often went to prostitutes.), and her best friend said yes. I was silent, my heart was pricked by an awl, and I felt pain (it really hurt, it was physical pain, not a metaphor), and I said, oh, it’s pretty good. My work at that time was already a level higher than theirs. They are still where they were. Then said, don't tell her you have seen me. Why? Because nothing matters anymore. I chase her and it has nothing to do with her. I know I don't have any skills, but I thought she was the best in the world at that time. I wanted to take good care of her and treat her well. I fell in love with her at first sight and never looked back. I rejected all temptations. At that time, many people knew that I was chasing her like this. It was really not just for fun. I really liked her. I didn’t know how to express it, so I just chased her. Then many women came to comfort me, and there were two others with similar conditions to hers, but I was not tempted. I feel a little guilty now. That night, her best friend wanted to go to a small hotel with me. We were looking for a place in a dark alley. I said I was dizzy and should go home. After going back, I scrolled through her QQ like crazy, and she said that love needs to be conquered, and she thought it was too easy for me, that's all.