I'm only in my twenties. Why am I quiet?

I prefer the busyness of work to the freedom of vacation. I don't think this is a masochistic tendency. I just selfishly found that what I was doing was still alive in the mirror.

It may be that I have seen too much static life at home, which scares me. The Spring Festival holiday, which is not as long as the winter vacation, seems to be a good thing, which makes me eagerly spend it in this hard-won freedom.

I will still meet my old friends, break into the familiar street scenes in the past and try to recall some familiar topics, but when I don't know how to talk about the changes now, I have no choice but to be silent.

I'm a natural troublemaker. I'm too calm, I don't have any waves in my heart, and I usually reflect the opposite signs in my behavior.

But often such abnormal tossing, in the excitement that is about to disappear, seems too clumsy. Just like an actor who is making a curtain call, at the moment when the curtain falls, the gradually dim light has no trace of dissipation. On the contrary, the brighter, the darker the makeup of the actor.

I have to admit, I'm too lazy to forget all the messages on WeChat between classes, whether I reply or not. It's as simple as ordering takeout or changing a bowl of Lamian Noodles after work, and I don't have the energy to focus on those trivial things.

But I have to admit that I think life is a very interesting thing.

After the Spring Festival, I was looking forward to going to school, because those words about dreams, literature and art, melodrama, youth and so on were pinned on school.

Strangely, as soon as the Spring Festival ended this year, I was looking forward to going to work, knowing that I had lost my freedom in school and my spirit and waywardness when I was young. But I still hope for no reason.

When the onlookers made me realize that I wanted to replace loneliness with busyness, I wanted to defend myself.

Actually, I just want to keep walking on the road.

I got rid of the morbid state of staying up late, cleared all my thoughts at night, and there were no people and things in my mind, so it was difficult to lose sleep.

The morning air was fresh, so I began to eat breakfast normally. When I saw the busy people in every shop on the street, I realized that the earth really wouldn't stop turning because of who.

After I tie my work and my ideal closer and closer, I will feel that the air I wake up every day is very fragrant, and I will slowly see the truth in other people's smiles and silently hide some occasional small emotions.

Time after work began to become precious. I used to put things at night, and I always regretted something when I lost sleep. Then I can put my headphones into sleep early, and then sleep well all day.

I have lost my childlike innocence more and more, and I have been unwilling to accept and admit it. These adjectives, which are no different from those of adults, have emerged in recent changes.

At first, like every decent invulnerable adult, I carefully hid something behind my back, like "hiding a knife in a smile." The difference is that this knife hurts yourself.

I will never talk about many past events that got wet by heavy rain again.

I haven't been in love for a long time. In a long rest period, I untied the fetters of vigorous grass. Goodbye, the man who once blushed and his heart beat was half excited, and I don't know whether he was relieved or sad.

Relieved, I no longer dwell on the past, indulge in memories, and feel sad that love and hate are no longer turbulent.

I'm beginning to forget about friendship. You can't talk about your present life with old friends, and you will hide your past feelings when talking with new friends. So old friends became more and more silent, and new friends could not enter their hearts.

Friends who seem destined to come and go are uncertain and can never be counted on. Friends always exist in front of the company, flashing in embarrassing memory changes.

I didn't want my parents to worry too much at first. Let parents bear the heart for more than 20 years, and finally learn to reassure their families after leaving this time. I will see my father off all the way in the wind and rain, and my mother will always cook a table of dishes I like to eat before I leave.

It turns out that the only thing that has not changed in this fickle world for so many years is your love for me. Take care of yourself casually but sincerely before departure, and arrive safely after departure. Let the way of expressing love bloom more in the days before it is too late.

Also began to not inexplicably sad, a lot of things don't need this.

That kind of helpless "just be happy" is really divorced from a joke.

It will be easier to be happy, for example, today's clothes are beautiful, for example, an unmanned subway just has seats, for example, someone in a crowded restaurant just gave you their seats after dinner, for example, today's sunshine just dried the newly washed clothes.

In those almost unchanging days, I wanted to pursue novelty and change too much.

It's just a change in the route to work, a different choice of breakfast, a different figure of strangers, and a regular update of the song list, which can make life a little different.

There is still nothing to celebrate, and no one cries or loses sleep. Even if I want to change the scenery, I don't have time to be with my companions.

The owner of a coffee shop in Fujian invited me to Tibet as a friend. I still remember the plan six months ago. I was quite excited when I promised before, but I had no money. There is no time to say no now.

So, after ten years of nine to five life, he finally found himself at ease and went alone.

Looking at him, it seems that I can see my life in the next ten years. After I just walked out of the confused period of society, what I want in my future life can be spread out more and more clearly, and my heart can be calmed down more and more.

But I still have Qian Qian's absolute feelings to respect the past, and I have a long-planned enthusiasm to respect tomorrow, and I have always silently believed that there will be such a beautiful future rippling in it.

Therefore, the so-called inner peace can still be said that adults in their twenties have learned to get along with the world in an appropriate way, do not compete with themselves, and love such a miserable life.