Laila's The Bucket List answer

A drop of water falling in the ocean will set off white waves on the shore.

It is summer now, but it is raining. When it rains, the sun stubbornly pierces the dark clouds and casts a sword-like beam. I was deeply attracted by the light and shadow over the city, and I couldn't help but stop and listen to the little girls chattering on the way to school-

"Have you heard? Laila of Class Five has bone cancer. "

"ah? How is that possible? She is still so young! "

"It's really sad, and I heard that cancer cells have metastasized to the whole body and are hopeless."

"No wonder I saw Laila come to school with her parents yesterday. She probably can't go to school again ... "

The girls' comments reached my ears like the wind, but I was indifferent. ?

Just as gorgeous cherry blossoms will still drift in the gentle wind, even the best flower soil can't support life like weeds, and any living individual is fragile and short-lived. I deeply regret Leila's tragic fate.

After bidding farewell to the beautiful scenery of nature, I walked into the classroom with unusually heavy steps.

I went to my seat and opened the drawer. I didn't want a pink envelope to fall into my hand.

It turns out that everything has a sign.

Thanks to the sunshine given by God in the dark clouds, I can regain my expectation of life from "Girls' feelings are always poetry", and I will pass today's exam.

I opened the envelope with anticipation, read it carefully, read it again, and looked up innocently-

"How many Leila are there in our school?"

Of course, there is only one Leila in the school.

When she came to go through the formalities last night, she secretly put this love letter in my drawer.

This makes me particularly indignant.

I have also read many stories about boys and girls who are terminally ill. I remember a girl named Ange. She was as beautiful as a leprechaun. In order not to make the person he loves sad, she will never let the other person know his mind, even if the little girl loves him dearly.

For the whole day, my mood was as calm as the rough sea, and I did badly in the exam, just like a piece of broken tofu. As soon as the bell rang, I went straight to Lila's house angrily. I must make a solemn protest against this selfish behavior!

Half an hour later, I sat in a small villa on the second floor, drinking a cup of English black tea seemingly calmly with the consciousness of sheep entering the tiger's mouth.

Sitting opposite is a well-dressed little girl with fine eyes, which is still in line with the public aesthetic.

I was fascinated by her and almost forgot the central task of my visit today.

"Your sister laila ..."

The girl suddenly giggled and pulled off the fisherman's hat on her head. I saw her head shining and there was no hair at all.

I flew into a rage: "So you are the puppy love girl Laila! Why did you write me a love letter? "

Laila unhurriedly put on her hat and assumed a shameless face for negotiation.

"Because I'm going to die. I am so young and have never been in love, so I really want to feel what it is like to be in love. "

"Then you can't just pull a stranger as a cushion."

"There is nothing wrong with being my boyfriend. Eat, drink and be merry. I will die in a few months. You can find a new girlfriend. "

"You are blaspheming love, and I firmly oppose it."

"hourly wage."

I righteously said, "Do you think money can buy everything? If it weren't for your pity, I wouldn't promise you. "

Leila held a small fist of "victory" and smiled and took out a contract for me to sign. I looked at the terms of the contract and raised my eyes to look at her: "Three months?"

She shrugged indifferently: "Maybe shorter, who knows. Just in the summer vacation, you can do a part-time job. "

Hmm. It suits me very well.

I especially studied the responsibilities and obligations of boyfriends-"Want a kiss!" Hehe, people who are not afraid of death are so simple and rude.

"I advise you to die. I won't kiss you. I want to give it to someone I really like. I won't sign this contract unless you delete this one ... "

When bargaining, Lila's mother brought a big plate of fruit and even ice cream! While eating ice cream, I listened to my aunt's various praises of "handsome, kind and responsible" ... I vaguely signed a contract of sale.

Sign it! Who told me to be handsome and responsible?

The chicks are shivering in the nest, expecting that spring will bring more warmth.

Actually, I really have nothing to complain about as Leila's boyfriend. ?

Although the exam results were still so tragic that I couldn't bear to look straight at them, my mother let me go easily after hearing about Leila's love letter incident, and kicked me out as a volunteer of the Red Cross every day and became a door-to-door son-in-law for Leila's family. ?

My behavior made my friend deeply educated. As Leila's boyfriend, all I have to do is eat, drink and be merry.

Laila is a very special girl. Every date, she will go out dressed up, with delicate light makeup on her face and beautiful sandals on her feet. If it weren't for the hot weather, I would occasionally take off my hat and wipe the sweat on the bald head, almost forgetting that she is a terminally ill girl with a life of no more than three months.

Besides, she looks like a terminally ill girl!

I couldn't help sobbing when we went to see a sad movie together. She is still munching on popcorn and criticizing the director for being too fake. ?

We go to have a big meal together, and she always orders a big table of dishes without saving consciousness, which is happier than anyone else. ?

When we went to the amusement park together, she stubbornly took photos with every interesting project in the spirit of manslaughter of 1000, except "Leila came here to visit" on the post. ?

It is said that people who are terminally ill lie in bed every day, and they are miserable under the stage. How can she walk across the street like a crab? ?

She even bought a drill and asked me to pierce her ears-

I flatly refused.

I can't do such a thing. What if I am infected? " ?

Laila grabbed my arm and shook it vigorously: "Please. I have only one wish in my life. Will you help me finish it? " ?

"I have heard this sentence. The last movie, the last scenic spot, the last dinner ... Lila, I don't care how you mess around, but you can't do anything to hurt yourself, let alone coerce me into becoming an accomplice. " ?

Laila giggled.

"Love me?"

"I am paid by the hour."

"Hate. You know exactly what I want to hear. "

Laila brought me a small box from the small table next to her: "I know the steps of piercing my ears very well." As long as the disinfection is done, everything will be fine. This is much lighter than those invasive tests I have received before. "

Look at me, I'm still indecisive. She made a pair of kittens with clenched hands and looked at me piteously. I don't know why, Laila's eyes are much brighter than ordinary people, just like two flames of life burning in her pupils. Maybe she's really not that bad, I told myself.

After I repeatedly confirmed that it would not be infected, I finally unscrewed the alcohol bottle. Laila gave a cheerful "meow" and immediately handed me a piece of paper. She really made a detailed strategy, and even the reaction after piercing her ears was illustrated as a lovely cat.

My eyes froze.

"Do you want to hug me?"

"I heard that the earlobe is super sensitive. If it hurts, I hope I can grab something to help me. "

"I'm meat, too. Be careful when you catch it." I said sadly.

Giggling, Lila leaned over gently, hugged my waist and rested her head on my shoulder.

I have to admit, this posture is very easy to do.

"Don't be afraid, the pain will pass." Her sensitivity brings a strange feeling. I always feel that she is not a crab walking sideways, but a chick shivering in the cold wind.

I picked up my fist, compared the position, and pressed it without saying anything. There was only a click and a nail was nailed to her earlobe.

Almost at the same time, her hands clasped my waist tightly, leaving a wet and sticky feeling on her back. Her palms are sweating with pain, I think so.

After a while, she let me go and bowed her head and said nothing.

"Does it hurt?" I asked her.

She shook her head, smiled and said, "It doesn't hurt anymore."

"But your earlobe is very red. Let me have another look. "

I tried to hold her, but she easily avoided me.

"It doesn't matter."

That day, she didn't ask me to give her another ear hole. That day, her earlobe was always red and lovely. I have been worried about whether this illegal ear hole will be inflamed, but three days later, when everyone praised her new earrings, I was relieved.

I think it's beautiful, too. There is a little white feather floating on her earlobe.

The light of fireflies can also illuminate the night sky.

Laila's relatives and friends are going to hold a dance for her.

I am very angry. I am such a handsome boy that I have never been to a dance in my life. But Lila has a ball named after her. How tolerant fate is to her! How unfair it is to me!

The directors arranged for me to pick her up at 8 o'clock. In order to express my dissatisfaction, I decided not to travel in full dress, but I still have a style that makes the earth tremble.

Only when Lila appeared on the corner stairs did I find that my body was shaking slightly and my hands were still sweating.

Today, she finally covered her trademark bald head and put on a long blond curly hair. Her skin is as delicate and tight as white porcelain under the light, and her lips are as bright and shiny as jelly. She is wearing a white gauze skirt that can only be seen on TV, and there is a feather hanging on her right ear ... Today Lila is like Cinderella in glass slippers, and I am like a silly driver waiting for a while, just waiting to send her to the pumpkin car.

I am finally ashamed of myself.

I rubbed my sweaty hands and said awkwardly, "Why don't you give me today's salary in advance and I'll buy a formal suit?"

Laila smiled, but reached out and grabbed my arm. "You look good in anything. Let's go."

We were both arranged to take the same bus to our destination. When I got on the bus, even my neighbors congratulated me. If someone throws a wedding ring at me at this time, I will put it on the other person's ring finger in panic.

"This is too exaggerated. It's just a date Don't make it as widely known as a parade. " Looking at the crowd gathered on both sides of the road outside the car, I have an ominous premonition.

Laila shrugged innocently: "I don't want to do this either, but my good sisters seem to want to make it bigger."

"How big is it?" I looked at her in horror.

"It seems that the whole block knows."

I stared, and at that time I didn't know how to express my idea that I would fan her to death. At that moment, there was a loud noise in my ear.

"Look, look, it's their car!"

At this time, an amazing scene appeared. Every second, countless bits and pieces of light brighten up, extending infinitely to both ends like a starry sky. I just found out that everyone has a lighted candle in his hand, and the candlelight illuminates a smiling face of Zhang Wei. The warm candlelight in people's hands and the bright star light in the sky are reflected on the window glass at the same time. We are like sitting in a boat, drifting slowly along the vast galaxy. ...

"Do you know all these people?" I was so shocked by the magnificent scenery outside the window that I couldn't speak fluently.

"I'm not sure." Laila also lay on the window glass, looking crazy.

"They don't know each other, but they all come here. Did they all bring candles? "

Laila dazed, then laughed, her smile as ethereal and bright as light dust.

"Yes, I am so happy that so many people remember my birthday."

In my memory, this moment is always as wonderful as a fairy tale. Whether it's a stranger's smiling face or Leila's smiling face, whether it's a candlelight in someone's hand or two stars in Leila's eyes, it's too good to be true. Maybe one day, like Kawara Tsutomu and Eva in the movie Kawara Tsutomu, we will become two beautiful shadows in weightless space. I wouldn't be surprised if there really is such a day.

Because this guy Lila is so lucky.

Candy paper can be not only candy, but also a medicine to reassure everyone.

There were as many people at the dance as there were in the street, which made me wonder if the whole block was given out with meal coupons.

Because everyone's focus is on me, I have to cheer up and make myself look less like a target.

The first dance was reserved for Lila and me. Before the formal start of the dance, Lila whispered, "Can you dance?"

I'm afraid it won't kill you!

"How about shaking it slowly?" I answered uncertainly

Laila giggled again, then pushed me out, made up the simplest waltz urgently, was called to play like a death warrant, and composed the first song with Laila.

I remember watching an old movie "Ghost Horse Elf", and there was such a dance at the end of the movie. The elf who had never seen or touched him turned into a handsome boy, and a beautiful girl in a white shirt and black pants was dancing like me.

This situation is exactly the same as today.

Even after the music ended, the invitation to kiss in public was the same.

Kiss, kiss, kiss.

Onlookers do nothing but watch the fire from the other side, adding insult to injury and harming others.

Unreal scenes, rotating overhead lights and shouts of bulging breasts all make me feel difficult to ride a tiger. This is not a movie. Why should it be as exciting as a British royal wedding? ...

I hesitated to remind Laila, only to find that she slowly closed her eyes like a drunk. ...

In my mind, Shi Huo usually flashes a contract: "Want a kiss!"

It has already been calculated, so I have no room to refuse, right? ...

I was thinking about it when my arm suddenly sank and Leila was softly in my arms.

It turned out that Leila fainted instead of asking for a kiss.

The ballroom was a mess at once. After Leila was taken away, I sat in a corner sweating profusely. I didn't know whether I was glad I had escaped a bullet or whether I washed the tableware into a tragedy in frustration.

After a long time, someone found me: "Xu Shen, Laila is awake. Do you want to meet her? "

I nodded, stood up and followed him to a small room. Although it's past midnight, Cinderella hasn't been beaten back to her original shape. Princess Leila is still sitting there, smiling.

I walked over and stared at an open candy paper on the small coffee table next to me.

"Do you pretend to faint and want to hide and steal candy yourself?"

She giggled and nodded, then climbed onto my arm and stood up. "I don't want this beautiful night to slip away so soon. Let's go sit on the roof with me, shall we? "

I helped her to the top of the building, and there was silence everywhere except the burning candles on both sides of the road extending from the ballroom.

"These people don't want to leave. They probably want to send us back, but I don't want to go back. " Laila grabbed my arm and tightened it again.

Her skin is very cold, and her fingers are colder than her skin. I lowered my head and said after a long time, "When you fainted just now, I thought you were going to kiss me."

"Forget it." Laila said briskly, "I don't want you to remember my embarrassing moment."

I feel that my mouth suddenly becomes stupid and my hands are sweating.

"Actually ... it's not impossible. I just don't want to do that in public. "

Laila looked at me in surprise. I firmly believe that there are two stars in the sky in her eyes.

"What you said is true? Will you kiss me? "

"That ... easy? There is a meteor! "

Laila unconsciously raised her head. In the direction of my finger, I pecked her lips quickly, and then stepped back quickly, pretending that it was easy to blow an incongruous whistle.

I want to tell her-I'm just helping others. I don't care about kissing. I'm blushing now just because it's too hot. ...

While Leila stupefied touching his lips, for a long time can't let go. I saw her possessed. She turned quickly and leaned back against the railing. She said proudly, "well, I know you are too grateful to say anything." I will speak for you. Thank you. I said, I don't want to be named for doing good. My name is live Lei Feng, that's all. "

Laila finally burst out laughing. She took out a small notebook from her purse and turned it over carefully. I leaned in curiously and saw many sentences written on it, some crossed out, some not crossed out yet.

"What is this?" I asked curiously.

"My wish list should be completed within three months. If you finish one thing, cross it off, so there is no regret. " Leila finally found what she was looking for and made a stroke.

"Che ... is a little girl who loves to dream ..."

I made a disdainful sound through my teeth, but I quickly grabbed her notebook.

"Let me see what you wrote."

Under Lila's protest and obstruction, I slipped a few lines.

"I feel dizzy. It is a wish to put a ballpoint pen between your nose and mouth. I'll just show you. " I threw her the notebook, grabbed her pen and put it between my nose and mouth.

Layla put the notebook on her chest, looked at me and said softly, "When I first saw you, you just looked out of the window with a pen in your arms. I was like being hit, and the whole class looked silly. "

The pen rolled down from the lips.

I choked nervously: "So you ... didn't you just find someone as a cushion ..."

"How is it possible. I only have enough time to fall in love once. " Laila giggled.

At that time, neither of us spoke again, just looking at each other. I thought something would happen, but it didn't. Laila put her notebook back in her handbag.

I turned to look at her purse.

"You wrote so many wishes, can you finish them in the end?"

Laila was dazed and smiled and replied, "Probably, it's impossible to get it all done."

Her smile is still beautiful, but somehow it left a sad impression on me. On summer nights, the humid wind blows over our heads, causing a bad feeling of sultry and poor breathing.

Wearing a mask for so long, I have blurred myself.

Leila told me that she would go to her relatives' house by the sea and spend a day alone with her grandmother, cousin and cousin. Her wish is very strange. I wait for normal people to stop at the top of the mountain. After we parted happily that night, we never met again.

So I deeply regret kissing her.

She must be proud to turn my last wish into scum, and then run happily to her next goal.

I hate not getting paid by the hour before the summer vacation is over.

My mother still kicked me out at a fixed time every day, and then strutted to my friend's house to play cards. The summer vacation without eating, drinking and having fun is particularly difficult. I came to Laila's door again, hoping to find something. I was thinking about it when I suddenly saw Laila's mother hurriedly pushed open the door and came out.

"Good aunt." I greeted him with a big smile.

She looked at me stupefied. "Are you looking for Lila?"

"Oh, no .. I know Lila went to her grandmother's house. I'm just passing by, hehe, just passing by ... "I can't say if I want to inquire, and my heart is crying in the wind.

Aunt gave me a strange look and whispered, "Leila didn't go to grandma's house." She is in hospital. " The dance that day overdrawn her last strength. "

In all the terminally ill novels I have read, boys and girls hide and lick their wounds alone.

I didn't expect Leila to be so tacky.

Because the news came in such a storm, I went to the wrong ward building three times in a row and finally found the correct room number.

She looks thin and listless, and only two stars in her eyes are still bright and moving, condensing her last vitality.

I walked over with a straight face and deliberately said, "You lied to me. You didn't go to grandma's house at all. "

Lila's sallow face squeezed out a smile, and the voice was so small that I had to bend down to hear it clearly.

"Xiaoxu, I don't want you to come, really.

"Every girl wants to leave her best side to the person she likes, and so do I."

Yes, you look so happy and beautiful, I almost forgot that you are a patient with advanced bone cancer.

I have been bending down and sticking it to her ear, and I said seriously, "Do you know? Actually, I fell in love with you at first sight. "

"Really?" She giggled twice, but she gasped faster and faster.

"Although I know it's a white smile, I'm glad you can say so."

I gave a wry smile.

Wearing a mask for so long, I have blurred myself.

"Lila, can you still raise your right hand?"

"yes. What are you doing? "

"In this way, raise your wrist, put your fingers together and swing from side to side, just like flying. Can you do it? "

"Yes, yes, but what's the point?"

Difficult as it was, she obeyed.

Before she knew how to shake her wrist, the other hand came up like a rolled leaf, intimate but not intimate, swinging but not overlapping, and occasionally touching her fingers. I pursed my lips and made a gesture to her: "Do you see two little people dancing on your left?"

She cocked her head and suddenly let out a cry.

On the opposite white wall, there is light and shadow falling through the gap between the fingertips of the sun. And this kind of light and shadow is flowing and changing. Like a bluebird chasing lingering, like butterflies dancing with butterflies, like the graceful space dance in the movie Kawara Tsutomu. Kawara Tsutomu and Eva, dancing the double helix, fly freely in the vast and bright starry sky. Just like the lantern dance that night, the Milky Way, a boat, two people slowly drifted to the unpredictable future.

Kawara Tsutomu spent 700 years waiting for his goddess, and I only spent a short summer.

The second day of my visit.

Leila is dead.

When I got to the hospital, I could only see my face covered with white sheets. At this moment, I really think Leila really has bone cancer, and she is really sick and can't live for three months.

The doctor told me that Leila's cancer cells have spread all over the body, and the pain is unbearable for ordinary people. But Leila always stood in front of me so beautifully and happily. The only time she trembled was when I pierced her ears.

Whether it's the gentle trembling or the deep red earlobe, it lives vividly in my mind, as if it will bloom at any time and light up the whole night sky.

Laila's mother came over and handed me a thick envelope with red eyes.

"Son, this period of time hard you. Leila has this disease, and she can leave with a smile. I think she probably really has no regrets. "

I stared absently at the envelope for a long time, shook my head and pushed it back.

Laila's mother looked at me in confusion. It is probably difficult for an adult like her to understand the strange and changeable ideas of children.

"Aunt, I don't want anything. If I may, I'd like to see Lila's wish list. "

Laila's mother hesitated for a long time, and finally took out a notebook from her carry-on bag, which was exactly the same as what I saw that day.

It records all Leila's wishes. Completed and unfinished.

Probably, it is impossible to do all of them.

Leila smiled gently in the wind, and even if it was well disguised, she couldn't help showing a trace of loneliness.

I didn't say anything-

I will accompany you to realize it.

I took it, starting from the first page and turning back page by page. It can be seen that the wishes in this book are the same in one go, with the same handwriting and ink. Laila is not a greedy girl. She left her last days to be satisfied.

She crossed out every wish that came true with a ballpoint pen. The fat girl who occasionally appeared at the end of the sentence, holding a small fist of victory, still smiled.

Until I turned to the last page, a wish that was not crossed out fell into my eyes-

"I hope the people I love can love me, too."

There is no symbolic fist, and there is no big exclamation point indicating the determination to win. This sentence lies gently at the end of the article, just like a gust of wind, and all the handwriting will disappear like dandelion holding an umbrella.

I took out my pen and made two strokes on this floating wish. Silently returned to Lila's mother.

A string of tears kept falling from her eyes, and she bowed her head and kept saying thank you, thank you, thank you. ...

I also bowed to her and left the ward quickly.

Leila didn't shed a tear until she died. I can't let her see my joke.

I will never forget this summer.

Spend a leisurely afternoon in the sound of cicadas.

One beautiful summer night, the starry sky was upside down.

There is a beautiful girl.

She set a fire.

Keep it in your heart.