Don't let down those who have been sincere to you.

Xiaomei is my college girl, and this time I want to tell her story.

2、

Xiaomei ended her first love for three years in a different place when she was a sophomore.

It is said that it was also an unforgettable experience, but it is quite irresponsible to end it in a hurry. You can tell a story alone.

To put it simply, Xiaomei can't stand the frequency of meeting only twice a year, and she can only carry everything by herself when no one is around. It seems that I can't live without my boyfriend when I am far away, and I broke up in a hurry by chance.

At that time, as Xiaomei's intimate school sister, I introduced a senior to Xiaomei at the instigation of her friend.

My senior year is four years older than Xiaomei, and it is already the graduation year, but it is theoretically feasible to stay in the local area and look for a job.

My senior year is Dazhu, a computer major, with a height of 180+, clean appearance and gentle personality. His mother is a musician and his father is in business-all the conditions are not bad.

Most importantly, Dazhu has had a crush on Xiaomei for a long time.

Xiaomei is a member of the school dance team and dances folk dances. She looks petite. There are not a few people who like her, but few people really chase her.

Probably a lot of secret admirers look up on the stage and feel that they can't catch up.

3、

At that time, after we introduced Dazhu to Xiaomei, Xiaomei also felt that she had a good eye, so she slowly contacted Dazhu.

Xiaomei told me that when they first came into contact, they did the most two things:

First, self-study; Second, take a walk.

Don't talk about self-study in class, there is nothing to describe.

Walking is different.

Every night, just after dark, Dazhu comes to the north gate of the school on time to wait for Xiaomei. The two first entered the school from the north gate, walked along the playground, basketball court, teaching building and so on until they reached the south gate, and first walked around the campus. Then from the street outside the south gate, walk around the school outside the school and go straight to the north gate, which is the end of the first campus walk.

If there is still plenty of time, and the two are having a good chat, then repeat the walking route in the opposite direction.

If neither of them wants to leave, Dazhu will send Xiaomei downstairs to her dormitory, then stay in a secret place downstairs for a while, and finally watch Xiaomei go upstairs.

Of course, the boredom at that time was limited to language-there was no hand holding.

After walking for about three weeks, Xiaomei began to spit on me.

I've met such a pure person since I was so big! Xiaomei said so.

I asked her, are you talking about walking or not holding hands?

Xiaomei was filled with indignation: it is pure anyway! I'm beginning to doubt my female hormonal charm!

I was speechless and said that you can take the initiative. ...

Xiaomei smiled: Go a little longer! Just one week! I will make him confess.

After talking to Xiaomei, I decided to play a helpful role.

I found Dazhu and complained that he only knew how to make people walk, but didn't know how to walk with other people's hands. By the way, I also praised his pure and noble communication spirit of Plato, and then Dazhu refuted it.

Dazhu said, not that I don't want to take the initiative. I always feel that Xiaomei doesn't like me.

I was shocked and asked, why? !

He thought about it and said, well, every time after walking, we would stay under her dormitory for a short time, but Xiaomei always looked unhappy at that time.

I asked him why he was unhappy.

Dazhu said he just looked listless and a little tired, unlike when walking.

I asked again, what's it like to walk?

Dazhu said that we had a good time walking and chatting. Basically talk about everything, hobbies, life ideals, entertainment gossip, and many common topics. I like her simple and happy appearance.

I can't help tut tut, bah, I still have an ideal life.

Dazhu paused and said, but sometimes she doesn't say too much. I thought she was tired and would finish her walk early and send her back.

Then Dazhu said, but basically every time, when she is downstairs, we don't talk, just stand face to face. She never wanted to talk to me, which made me feel that she didn't really like me.

I realized that something was wrong, but the problem was Xiaomei, so I went back to chat with Xiaomei.

Oh, I'm too enthusiastic.

After I euphemistically conveyed Dazhu's thoughts and my questions to Xiaomei, Xiaomei was silent.

Then Xiaomei suddenly hugged me and gave me a smile. After laughing, she told me that I didn't dislike him. Don't worry.

When I wanted to ask again, Xiaomei bypassed the topic, so I stopped asking.

At that time, I thought Dazhu really liked Xiaomei.

Dazhu had done a lot of homework before we introduced her to Xiaomei.

He knows all Xiaomei's likes and dislikes. After introducing him, he says hello regularly every morning and evening.

Even the sisters in Xiaomei's dormitory take care of them and send a bunch of snacks every week.

Of course, it also includes repairing computers for six sisters in the dormitory for free.

-all these behaviors, he has always maintained.

4、

Xiaomei's first hug was very ... indescribable.

Of course, the step of holding hands is to jump over.

Here's the thing.

Another ordinary evening after a walk, downstairs in Xiaomei dormitory, the two continued to stand speechless, enjoying this rare time together.

Dazhu couldn't help it this time.

Dazhu asked, Xiaomei, what's wrong with you? You look unhappy.

Xiaomei's heart thumped and said nothing.

Dazhu continued to ask, are you tired and don't want to go again, or do you have any opinions? Can you tell me?

Xiaomei made up an earth-shattering story in her mouth with a jerk-I gave birth to a child and died.

Dazhu did the warmest thing I felt.

He held Xiaomei in his arms and held her silently for ten minutes without saying a word.

Every time Xiaomei describes the scene of this day with relish, I will satirize who made a small sacrifice in exchange for an active hug.

But this incident has undoubtedly become a turning point in their relationship.

Xiaomei felt that although she was mentally retarded, she gave such a reason to explain her inexplicable bad attitude.

But Dazhu's behavior now is very manly-of course, I don't know if normal people will be like this in this state, but I'm sure some wonderful people will open their mouths to reply: it's none of your business if people die.

At that time, I also knew Xiaomei's weird theory.

She told me that every time she shows negative emotions such as fatigue and unhappiness, she just wants to get warm comfort from the other side-whether verbally or physically, as long as it is comfort; It happened that Dazhu is a person who doesn't like to express his feelings, and only chooses silence.

Xiaomei said that every man who likes you doesn't need to ask why when he sees you unhappy, just rush up and hug you.

Xiaomei also asked me, isn't this what a good man should do?

I can't answer, I can only conclude that Xiaomei is in a state of extreme lack of love.

Or watch too many idol dramas.

At this point, I made up all kinds of romantic dramas in which the man rushed to hug the woman and shouted "Oh, you don't have to explain, I believe you in everything". )

5、

Since then, Xiaomei's attitude towards Dazhu has been somewhat different.

Xiaomei gave Dazhu a task to help her go downtown to buy a new computer.

Xiaomei described what kind of computer she wanted, then gave it to Dazhu to run alone, and handed over all her bank cards and passwords.

-Don't worry, Dazhu didn't take it.

Dazhu went around for a day and spent 7000 yuan to buy a notebook that Xiaomei was completely satisfied with (a better notebook was quite expensive at that time).

The new system was Vista. Because it doesn't work well, Xiaomei asked Dazhu to change XP for her and send it to her.

Then Dazhu fiddled with it for two days, changed the new system, installed all kinds of software that he thought Xiaomei would use, copied N movies Xiaomei wanted to see, and a lot of good e-books and so on.

Dazhu also set the computer user name as: Xiaomei Dazhu.

-these are also discovered by Xiaomei after she got the computer. She doesn't think so, although it seems warm to me.

At that time, the two of them reduced the number of walks, but postponed the time of each walk.

This makes me suddenly feel that Xiaomei is a hungry old cat in heat-

Xiaomei began to postpone her walk until after 9 o'clock, and the school closed at 1 1. Therefore, once one day they accidentally walk for too long, they will face the result of living on the streets or living in the same room.

Who will choose to sleep on the street!

This day will come soon.

It was Friday ... fast forward, fast forward, fast forward ... and then they came to the hotel room.

I forgot to mention that it was a cold winter.

It was supposed to be an opportunity for the relationship between lovers to grow sweetly. As a result, Xiaomei may have a high fever after resting in the heating room for half an hour because she spent too much time inking outside.

Dazhu came out of the shower and found Xiaomei lying in bed groggy and hot.

That night, Dazhu waited on Xiaomei in front of the bed all night. He kept giving Xiaomei a towel to ice her forehead, wiping her body, boiling hot water, and changing the towel every half hour ... Of course, the situation was not that serious, just a common fever. Xiaomei just slept all night.

But she can remember what Dazhu did for her that night.

Of course, I remember Dazhu secretly kissing her lips while changing towels.

The next morning, Xiaomei woke up a little. She went back to the dormitory to sleep, and Dazhu did as she wished.

After lying in the dormitory for a while, Xiaomei became more and more uncomfortable and stumbled to the school hospital alone.

Sure enough, the fever was 39 1, and the doctor said it would be dangerous if you didn't come again. Direct infusion.

Then Xiaomei called me.

I didn't expect this fire to burn the fate of Dazhu.

6、

I stayed with Xiaomei in the hospital for three days. I give three bottles of infusion every morning and afternoon, and Xiaomei burns badly.

Three days later, Xiaomei's fever dropped. When she is free, I take her to a big dinner to celebrate.

When Xiaomei and I ate and drank to our hearts' content, I asked her how things were with Dazhu.

Xiaomei stopped to talk to me for a long time.

"I didn't tell him about the three-day fever infusion, and he didn't contact me, except to send me greetings in the morning and evening. Suddenly it seems that this person never existed. I don't know if he has amnesia, or suddenly doesn't like it, or doesn't like it at all. I always feel that, in fact, I really look forward to having such a person in my heart, staying by my side quietly and warmly, asking for nothing in return, but I think this feeling is too unreal. My days with him are completely different from my own life. I am alive and kicking every day, and I like to be crazy with my friends. Although I am inexplicably quiet as long as I am with him, and I enjoy this quiet, I always feel unreal and should not belong to me. "

"Moreover, during the three days when I had a fever, he didn't call a concerned message. I thought I'd be sad, but it's actually quite calm. When you have a fever, you can only feel the physical feelings, but you can't care about the inner feelings. "

"Elder sister, before you invite me to dinner, Dazhu sent me a message. He asked me, what's the matter, suddenly no news? I didn't reply to him. I just found out that I used to leave him a message online. I texted him and called him to tell him what we were going to do, and he hardly took the initiative. He never asks me for anything except to say hello to me regularly like the weather forecast. Doesn't he have any needs? Maybe such a person is not suitable for me, just let it be. "

"I burned it once and felt that I had changed again. It's fine now, and I'm happy to continue! "

Xiaomei's words deeply touched me. Although I didn't fully understand them at that time, I even thought that she only chose not to continue to get along because Dazhu was not with her when she was sick, but later I learned that some people have always looked heartless, but in fact they just don't want to admit their vulnerability.

But afterwards, I learned that Dazhu thought Xiaomei's fever had gone down that day and didn't know she was in the hospital, so as usual, she didn't ask.

7、

From then on, Xiaomei and Dazhu naturally lost contact. Dazhu also thought that Xiaomei might really dislike him, so she automatically chose to quit. Xiaomei, on the other hand, continues to live a heartless life. One person is happy and the whole family has no worries.

Their story ended inexplicably. The reason why they wrote it today is because Xiaomei suddenly told me something.

The computer bought by Xiaomei University is going on strike. When she was sorting out computer files, she suddenly found a file left by Dazhu.

With her permission, I copied the content directly.

My little beauty,

I bought you the computer you wanted today, and your bank card was swiped. Haha, you trust me so much, aren't you afraid that I will run away with the money?

Ok, let's get down to business.

I can't remember the day I fell in love with you, but from the day I fell in love with you, I have been silently paying attention to you.

You like to sit by the window in Area A of the canteen, and often order a rice covered with shredded pork with green pepper to rob your roommate of his food.

You will return the books to the library every Thursday afternoon, and then sit in the psychological school district on the second floor and read the books for an hour before borrowing them.

You like to wear a yellow hoodie. Every time I wear this dress, I will carry a black small backpack, which looks very energetic.

You have to practice dancing every Tuesday night. You are serious when you dance, and you often scold other friends. ...

I don't know why, the more I pay attention to you, the more I like you.

You always look happy and fighting with your friends every day. Sometimes I think, will anyone really be carefree all the time?

Well, definitely not. You must not want to show your unhappiness, are you afraid of affecting others, or are you just so strong?

But it doesn't matter, whatever you are, you have me now.

You see, I'm about to graduate. I will find a job here and slowly save money. You said you were going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so you don't have to rush to find a job when you graduate. I can definitely support you. Although I may not earn much, I can support you more than enough. You are responsible for studying and preparing for the exam. If you don't pass the exam, find something you like to do, regardless of income. I am here.

In a word, I am not good at talking, but I will work hard for our future. Trust me.

Not much to say, I hope to stay with you all the time, even if the days are dull, but I also want to protect your smiling face.

Because I love you.

(viii) Xiao Mei Da Zhu

8、

Today, Xiaomei has worked, met different men, talked about unreliable love several times, and is still single.

When Xiaomei saw this document, her emotions were too complicated to speak. In these years of no contact, she certainly misses this different company, but it has never been so powerful.

She recalled all kinds of situations in which Dazhu was with her. For example, every time we study together, Dazhu will prepare honey water for her. Every time she takes a walk together, Dazhu will help her solve her little puzzles and problems. Every time she shows an unhappy expression, Dazhu's subtle expression changes-she tries to resist but still shows a worried look, including Dazhu's regular greetings every morning and evening. ...

Although Dazhu never said I love you, Xiaomei knows it.

In all these years, there has never been anyone like him.

Then, Xiaomei played the spirit of Sherlock Holmes. Of course, she is a Scorpio-she started the search mode and frantically searched for the contact information of Dazhu from various platforms of classmates and friends. However, Dazhu seems to have little contact with her classmates after graduation. Everyone said that she didn't have his contact information and didn't stay with him again.

Finally, under Scorpio's professionalism, Xiaomei finally found Dazhu's QQ through various website platform search functions.

(Dazhu is a cancer. )

Surprisingly, Dazhu's QQ space is open. Xiaomei went in and saw a huge background picture-

It's a photo of the Dazhu family of three.

Dazhu's wife is very handsome, her eyes are as big as her sister's, and her son is lovely and looks like her mother.

Seeing the name of the space, Xiaomei was shocked-

"Great bamboo beauty".

Xiaomei didn't add bamboo QQ in the end.

But she asked me to write her story.

There are many emotions in this world that cannot be accurately described, such as loss, frustration, failure, depression, sadness, sadness, emotion ... none.

Many things, there is no reason to speak of.

We always try to find out everything, but the fact seems to be that it cannot be a coherent and logical existence;

It's like, in those best years,

After all, I don't know who failed whom.