Looking for the feeling after reading: Yu Hua's "Living"

"To live" is to endure, endure the responsibilities entrusted to us by life, endure the happiness and pain, boredom and mediocrity entrusted to us by reality.

Fu Gui, a once prosperous rich young master, ruined the happiness of himself and his family all his life because of his reckless nonsense and arbitrariness when he was young. He finally woke up in poverty, maybe it was not too late. But the shadow of bad luck has been following in his footsteps, cruelly taking the lives of everyone who is predestined friends with him without any sympathy. His parents died after the decline of his family. The loss of this article comes from the secretary writing network. The girl's pain has not been calmed down, and her wife, who shared weal and woe with her, left him. Finally, even his only grandson, who wrote this article from the secretary's writing network, did not escape the clutches of death and let him live alone.

Fu Gui personally buried six close relatives who wrote this article from the secretary's writing network. I don't know if this is a special favor of fate or another punishment, but he survived. After so many unimaginable hardships, he learned to endure and endure the weight of life. He lives just to live.

I remember a sentence:

Life is a field of life, and every suffering sown will grow into a hope. They are our hands. No matter what you bear, no matter where this article comes from, no matter what is carried on your shoulders.

I still remember the feeling of watching "Living" two years ago-heartache.

"Love will not run on this road."

I looked at the winding path leading to the city, but I couldn't hear my son's article coming from the barefoot running of the secretary writing network. The moonlight sprinkled on the road, like a layer of salt.

In order to save the woman of the county magistrate, Youqing was killed. Seeing this, I shed tears. Although I doubt the truth of the story, I always feel heavy. Because of the complicated interpersonal relationship in the society at that time, Youqing lost his young life. I can't get over it. I always see a thin boy running towards me in his shoes. He was obviously smiling, but I saw the sadness in his eyes.

Second, simple happiness.

"I don't want any blessings, but I want to make you a new pair of shoes every year."

As long as the family is together every day, maybe this is what Jia Zhen thinks of happiness. I watched Alive two years ago, and many details have been blurred, but this sentence of Jia Zhen is deeply engraved in my memory, and it is still so clear until now. Only those who have experienced the pain of separation know the true value of family reunion.

I always complain about the injustice of fate, because I can't get special care from God. I have been playing the role of inferiority since I was a child and now I envy my girlfriend's beauty. Mom said that I always look at the unknown distance and ignore the little happiness at my fingertips. I don't believe it. Isn't it because you can't find the so-called happiness that you pursue it so hard?

Until I saw Jia Zhen's words, I was suddenly at a loss, and my persistent dream began to blur. Am I really wrong? I began to recall the past: every morning, my mother called on time than the alarm clock, ate snacks with my deskmate in self-study class, and the family sat around the table for dinner at night. The hot air covered my father's glasses with a layer of white fog ... I found that I had too much, and it was because I had it that I felt that they seemed dispensable.

A good friend called the other day and said that her father had been sent to the hospital in a car accident. Fortunately, it's not serious, just stay in the hospital for a few days for observation. While comforting her, I thought that my father might be driving through a corner of this crowded city at the moment, and I couldn't help worrying. It occurred to me that I didn't want anything. I just want my family to be safe, eat my father's special dishes in the evening and listen to my mother's more and more kind nagging. ...

A few days later, my friend told me with a happy face that her father was discharged from the hospital. Looking at the smile on her face, I am more determined:

So this is the happiness I pursue.

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