I just want to enjoy the material life-facing the inner desire and darkness.

I used to like to say to my friends, "I am a person with extremely low material desires." I don't have to be rich or expensive in my life, as long as I have enough to eat.

I also like to say that "real wealth is the balance between your desire and the money you have", and the subtext behind it is actually:

"I don't have so many desires, and I am a contented person. You people love to pursue wealth, so it's none of my business. "

I have always admired the way Confucius described Yan Hui.

I always follow Yan Hui's example and want to be as talented as him. But after running today, I suddenly realized that I wanted to drink the vitality forest after running. I just want to use bone conduction headphones. I want a small desk lamp for reading and writing. I want to print out an English paper. If I have money, I want to order an aromatherapy. ......

I can no longer suppress my pursuit of material life and quality of life with the creed of "being virtuous and content". I just want to pursue material enjoyment, even if it seems vulgar to me in the past.

Now that this decision has been made, it is time to bid farewell to the dream of "virtuous return". Before that, I will analyze my dream of "virtuous return" to show my respect.

First of all, there must be an idea that poverty and thrift are the virtues behind them. This traditional virtue has a long history and is even advertised as the traditional virtue of the Chinese nation. It seems that as long as a person is not poor or frugal, even if he has achievements passed down from generation to generation, his moral character is not noble. For example, Yuan Longping only touched a luxury car once before his death and was hacked by netizens for so long.

Now that I think about it, society, family, parents and teachers have all taught us to be frugal, and there is nothing we can do. After all, resources are scarce, and only by diligence and thrift can resources be sufficient. But in fact, thrift is against human nature, so we can only bind it with the "traditional virtues of the Chinese nation" in order to make people willingly restrain their desires, and at the same time, we can use the reward of "virtues" to dilute the pain caused by many people's restraint.

However, with the development of the times and the prosperity of the motherland, the once scarce resources seem to be less scarce now, and my personal income, including the expectation of future income, can fully support me to live a less "frugal" life, and I don't need a frugal label to enrich myself.

Then why should I be frugal?

In fact, the reason why I have the dream of "returning virtuous", or at least my declared dream, is not only the reason of traditional ideas, but also a consideration of self-protection.

In fact, it is very simple, that is, I am not confident, and I am not sure whether I can earn enough wealth in the future, so I declare myself "virtuous and happy" first, so that even if I can't have money in the future, I will not be laughed at.

At the same time, seeing other people's rich lives, I can quietly flaunt that I am following Yan Hui's example and pursuing the realm of "virtuous return", which is not comparable to these laymen, so as to gain a sense of moral superiority and make up for my poor self-esteem hurt by the gap between the rich and the poor.

To this end, I decided to face up to my own desires and stop pursuing this moral "spiritual victory law." I just want to create wealth and enjoy it. This is not shameful, not vulgar at all!

Finally, I need to add that thrift and luxury are not all, and there are many transitional States in the middle. Just because I choose not to be frugal doesn't mean I want luxury, I just face up to my inner needs.

Moreover, the pursuit of material and spirit is not an either-or relationship. Pursuing material things does not mean giving up the spirit. Books still need to be read, articles still need to be written, but with a freer and more real mentality.