My diary: the farthest distance in the world

The furthest distance in the world is not the ends of the earth, but that I am by your side and you don't know that I love you. The furthest distance in the world is not that you don't know that I love you when I am by your side, but that two people who clearly love each other can't be together. --------Inscription

1.

I'm not afraid of jokes. I've never been to the seaside since I was so big. I'm both excited and excited to buy clothes, swimsuits, swimming rings and so on, and my colleagues almost didn't turn the city over. After shopping, just cross the road and you can go home by car. While we were waiting for the bus, I saw him. Although it was far away, his figure was fixed in my memory, and it was always so clear. He didn't see me, because his eyes were on the girl beside him, and he used to look at me so much. My brain suddenly went blank.

In a trance, I returned to the summer of the college entrance examination, that is, that summer, he and I suddenly became strangers. We are still looking forward to our future, but the ruthless reality shattered our dreams. He was a good student in the eyes of teachers and a good example in the eyes of classmates, but he didn't pass the exam! When the news came, no one could believe it. He seemed to be very decadent at once, and his eyes no longer had the same look. I don't know how to comfort him either. I just want him to feel my presence and my attachment to him. However, he suddenly seemed like a different person, very indifferent to me, and dismissive of my concern for him. He turned and walked to the car, despite my heartbreaking call behind him, and he didn't look back, leaving me with a gradually blurred figure. It was a hot summer afternoon, but I was shivering with cold.

since then, he seems to have disappeared from the earth. I called him, but he was busy every time, and then he simply didn't answer. I can only get some news about him from my friends intermittently: he has gained weight, whose wedding he attended, and who he drank with ... Every time I hear his news, my heart hurts inexplicably. After graduation, I lost contact with my friend and knew nothing about him.

Unexpectedly, it was more than eight years since we left each other. I was busy working, getting married and having children. His shadow occasionally appeared in my dreams, but I woke up without a trace.

Perhaps forgetting is the best way. As long as you have loved, hurt and cried, this life is enough.

"Get in the car," my colleague pulled me into the car. I looked back and saw his vague figure again and said to myself, "Farewell, my once love, I wish you happiness forever."

Second,

Today's weather is very cool, especially suitable for shopping, so I was dragged out by my girlfriend as a van. Speaking of girlfriends, I actually met each other in my mother's nagging. In my mother's words, I'm too old to delay her having grandchildren just because I don't want to find them. Therefore, every time I go home, I have to be forced to date. I'm almost afraid of blind date. What I'm most afraid of is that two people say some polite words under the gaze of seven aunts and eight aunts on both sides, and I have to listen to them say how well we match. Every time I have an impulse to run away.

I'm 26 years old. People my age in the countryside may have very big children. That's why my mother is in such a hurry. In fact, my heart has already been filled with her, and I can't accommodate other women. Although, she is not as beautiful as the woman I am dating, and even she is the kind of woman that you won't find quickly in the crowd. However, her smile has long been integrated into my blood, and she is always with me.

I fell in love with her in the smoke-filled high school. To put it another way, it was puppy love. The word "puppy love" seemed to be a scourge when I was a student, which made teachers and parents talk about it. I also know that nervous high schools should not fall in love, but no one can predict the future. Just like us, when we were just divided into liberal arts classes, we had some minor contradictions with her. Maybe we really should have answered the sentence "No fight, no acquaintance", or maybe it was an accident, and we actually sat together in a transfer! I really don't know whether to thank the old class or to congratulate myself. Her cunning, her intelligence and her personality of not playing cards according to common sense have attracted me deeply. She is the spirit that God gave me. I have always believed that women are beautiful because they are cute, not because they are beautiful. In her body, I have verified my point of view.

I once made up my mind to make her happy. I am the hope of my family. Only when I enter the university can I get her and make her happy. However, misfortune is a blessing, and misfortune is a blessing. Just as we were waiting for the results while looking forward to our bright future, my sky collapsed-I didn't get in! For a moment, I seemed to fall into the abyss, and I could hardly believe my ears, but the cruel reality ruthlessly shattered our countless good dreams. I can't give her happiness, so I have to let go. I know that she has been following behind me, and that sad face and locked eyebrows are always hurting my heart. However, I refused her cruelly. Long pain is better than short pain, so let her give up on me. There happened to be a bus. If I didn't leave, I might give up my decision. At the moment I got on the bus, I heard her crying. How much I wanted to go back and tell her my helplessness, but I knew that all my efforts would be in vain as long as I turned around.

I work hard to forget her, but when the night comes, I miss her like thousands of ants gnawing at me. Whenever I attend a friend's wedding ceremony, I think how beautiful she will be in a wedding dress. So, I was silly to drown my sorrows by drinking, trying to anesthetize myself with alcohol ...... < P > Just now, I seemed to see her. I was dazzled. Let's go, my girlfriend has gone away, and some girlfriends who are similar to her are also very cute. I can only give her my deep blessing. I hope she will always be happy and carefree.