I am very disappointed in human nature, including my parents … very helpless. Now I feel that I have no motivation to do things, and it is difficult to trust people.

every family has its own problems. First of all, when you come to Baidu, I feel disappointed and distrustful of the real human beings, and turn to the Internet for psychological comfort. (After reading your story, I believe that everyone who reads it carefully is out of the intention of helping you, and there are still people you can trust, but it's a pity that he lives in a virtual network.)

As you are in your twenties, you don't have a happy and stable life of your peers, and you got caught up in family problems early. Your starting point in life is a little sad, but I hope you will still be strong after you get through it all the way. You mentioned that your mother has mental problems, so as a normal person, you can't judge your mother's behavior with normal thinking. When you encounter such a thing, you can't hide it, just face it bravely. No one can help you, so you can decide your own life.

As for your love, frankly speaking, anyone who is a boyfriend will be concerned about your family environment. So marriage is not realistic for you for the time being. If you can, I suggest you go to a strange city and an unfamiliar environment, starting from . Even if you feel reluctant to touch your family, it is sometimes difficult to give up, but instead of two people being affected, it is better to work hard to become strong before you can change the reality. Otherwise, there will still be the possibility of tragedy in your future life. This decision may be difficult for you, but it concerns not only two people, but also two families and three generations related to you.

Your past can't be erased, so I don't want you to talk too much to your friends, even if you need a listener.