Thank you for coming, which brightens my heart.

If God gives me another chance, I will still choose to meet you in that summer.

? The first time I met you, in that small electronics factory, it was not a beautiful environment. I looked at the indifference of the staff in the computer room through thick glasses, and let the personnel arrange me to work in which position. Your fat body came dangling, standing in front of the supervisor with your head down, seemingly respectful, but the look on your face was unknown. The supervisor asked you to put us in place, and I stood in the middle of the line, but I was the last one to be arranged. You looked at me for a few seconds, and it seemed strange that a gentle girl like me would appear in such a place. The first time I saw your face, my first reaction was: ugly.

? In fact, it really doesn't blame my unreasonable inner activities. I'm used to seeing handsome guys and beautiful women at school. At first glance, you really don't look good. What's more, you almost meet all my definitions of diaosi: fat, small eyes and acne all over your face.

? Working in an electronics factory is dark and hard. Working for more than ten hours every day, my picky stomach doesn't allow me to eat those working meals cooked like pig food. I can't take time off because of the great work pressure. It's good to have you in that boring life, otherwise I don't think I can really go on.

? Actually, I know you sympathize with me. An inexperienced little girl works hard. From time to time, you will come to my side to help me do some work and tell a few jokes to distract me. These little things about your voice really lifted my tired spirit many times. Besides, what I didn't tell you is that you have a good voice.

? Your forced intervention in my life is like a touch of different colors, which makes my heart barren for more than ten years have different scenery.

? You are really different. No one has ever told me such a vulgar joke, and no one has ever told me the truth of the real society almost arrogantly.

? But at that time, you, I know, we were not very interested in either side. Compared with my calmness like water, the enthusiasm of my best friend Hui Hui seems to be more to your taste. You talked and laughed together, and you joked that you were her Baba king. Although I keep a straight face, I actually envy Hui Hui in my heart.

? It's really nice to have someone willing to play with you, laugh with you and make you happy.

? You take us to dinner and tell us about human feelings. Because of me, you were punished for working overtime until the early hours of the morning. The first time I felt sorry for others, I burst into tears. I was bullied outside, and you are more angry than me. Take it out for me and try to comfort me.

January is coming in the torment of pressure, and I seem eager to leave.

? I went back to my ivory tower to study, and you continued to live in this dark little room. The two of us are like intersecting lines. Whether we want to admit it or not, after a short meeting, we really drifted away.

? The day I left, the weather was fine. I wear my favorite white skirt to say goodbye to you. You walked past me and looked at me for a few seconds without saying anything, just like we met for the first time.

? Later, I asked you: Why did everyone else give parting words or at least a hug? Why didn't you leave anything?

? You said slowly: because I don't want you to remember this place, go to school when you leave, go back to school, forget this place, don't miss the noise here, and study quietly.

? However, the homesickness rooted in my bones did not make me forget you soon, and we still kept in frequent contact.

? I like snacks. You sent me a photo saying that you and Hui Hui had eaten all over the food court. You said you were still outside and couldn't get a taxi back. I called you and said you should be careful on the road. You smiled as if to satirize my self-love. You told me that Hui Hui was by my side, and then I heard your cheerful laughter. My face turned white with joy, and I felt ashamed to be regarded as a clown by others.

? I actually blamed you at that time. If you can't concentrate on being nice to one person, you'd better not give others warmth easily. You know, warming this thing will be addictive!

? Of course, later we came together inexplicably, and the two intersecting lines that went farther and farther were forcibly twisted into curves with the second intersection point by me.

? Forgive my selfishness. I can't stand your kindness, your warmth, and I can't stand you forcibly knocking down my heart wall. Although I know that you are like this to most people, I have been lonely for nearly 20 years and still want to greedily seize this warmth. I want to keep this beauty for myself like a glutton, and I don't want to let it go.

? You said you didn't want to fall in love. I said, it doesn't matter. When you want to talk, consider me.

? So we were together. It was September 9th. I am very happy. I tell you, look, how wonderful fate is. Does September 9 indicate that we can last forever? You smiled and said, right? So I smiled more happily. This is your first promise. You see, in fact, I am easily satisfied.

? Being together for 100 days is my most princess-like time in 20 years.

? I have an old stomach trouble, and I can't speak because of the pain. When you called me, you choked, and you couldn't wait to bear it for me. My eyes are moist. Finally, I comfort you: nothing, just for a while; I can't sleep well. You don't sleep at midnight. Choose the milk for me. I love snacks, so you buy a lot of snacks every month, and I love them. You secretly bribed my roommate to take good care of me for you; You spent your own small vault, scrimped and saved for a month, and changed my broken mobile phone for me. ...

? Many, many, I thought I forgot, in fact, I remember more clearly than anyone.

? You said you would decorate our little house with me, and you asked me every detail. I said, why are you telling me this? I don't understand! You said with a smile, if you don't ask me, you will give us a backhand punch and tell us why the decoration is so ugly in the future. At that time, I laughed so hard that my tears almost came out and my heart softened.

? Happiness is the taste. It's good.

? You said to buy a big sofa, the kind that you can lie down on. When I am tired, I will lie on my head and you will give me a massage.

? You said that in our family, we would take turns cooking. I cheated: no, I have my period every day! You smiled helplessly and said, well, I'll wait on Lafayette from now on;

? You said, I never thought that one day I would fall in love with such a person. I have only known her for a few months, but I want to spend my life with her.

…………

During that time, roommates always told me that they envied me for finding a lover. But no one thought of it, and then we parted.

? On the day we broke up, you cried and asked me if I ever loved you.

? I was speechless for a moment. I have been walking alone for the past twenty years. Love? This is a strange word to me.

? Seeing my silence, you said with a wry smile: Let's break up, I'm tired, and together I find that I can't do anything for you.

? I quickly explained: you don't have to do anything, I can handle the little things around you. ...

"You always do," you interrupted me angrily. "You are a girl and need to rely on, but I can't do anything for you."

? I'm at a loss. This feeling is very bad. I don't like it at all.

? But that time you didn't pay attention to my feelings as usual, and you were still talking. You said you felt very tired, and you always loved someone who didn't love you.

? I can't make a sound with my mouth open.

? We broke up after all, on a warm Christmas Eve.

? On the second day of breaking up, it was very lively outside, and couples held hands and looked at each other sweetly.

? "It's really cold." I frowned and whispered, covering my heart, but I couldn't tell where it was cold.

? On the third day of breaking up, you let me get back together. You said you couldn't let go. You apologized to me and said you were confused and didn't want to leave me.

? I was very happy to hear that and agreed at once. Actually, I don't want to break up either! I can't stand it!

? However, less than a day after we got back together, you went back on your word. You said, you think it's better that we break up. Your role is more like my brother.

? I was angry, and the shame of being treated as a clown came back.

? I frown and interrupt you: don't say anything, it's my turn to say it this time, and we break up!

? This time, you calmly agreed. It's so quiet, I feel like you're waiting for this sentence.

? Throw away your cell phone and cover your face. I know, this time, it's true.

? You said I should take good care of myself and don't throw away the Christmas present you gave me. This is the last gift. I answered lightly. The inner shell is wrapping the heart again.

? It's ridiculous, I thought, because you love me, you broke up with me.

? If you love me, how can you hurt me?

? ………

? In fact, think about it carefully, why did we come to this step?

? Is it because my heart has been cold for too long and I need more love to thaw it? Or you have been in fear, angry or even hating the opposite sex who appears beside me. No matter what I do, I can't reassure you. Or the isolation of time and space, so that feelings waste into fresh water; Or a tough attitude of not bowing every time there is a conflict? ...

? That's all. There's no point in talking about it now. Like a slight wind, it is comfortable to blow, but once it blows, it passes and cannot be returned.

? But thank you all the same. After all, your arrival has brought sunshine to my desolate heart that I haven't seen for more than ten years, which has brightened my heart and made me feel what it means to hold it in my hand.

postscript

Later, later, I was left alone. Life is still the same, just like me for more than ten years, but occasionally I think of someone who once made me feel the urge not to get married.

? Then one day, I went to chat with Hui Hui and talked about you.

Hui Hui rolled his eyes: How loveless are you to have a crush on him? Hui Hui said that you once told her that if you wanted to buy her a mobile phone. Say that you have never revealed our relationship to her, and you will tease her from time to time as before, just like when we are not together. ...

? I smiled pale and felt weak inside. It turns out that this is really a dream. ...