You go, I'll let go

In A Chinese Odyssey, the immortal Xia Zi said: My Mr Right is a hero in the world. I know that one day he will appear in a conspicuous posture, wearing a golden robe and stepping on seven-color clouds to marry me. I guessed the leader, but I couldn't guess the ending.

And you, you are not a Xia Zixian girl who firmly believes in love, nor is it the supreme treasure that makes people fascinated. Even I'm thinking, you're not the person I can love at all, because you didn't believe it from the beginning, and you can't see the future, so why should we continue to be together?

Funny, I didn't lose to you and I didn't love me. I just lost to you and can't love me to the end.

Is it really so embarrassing that you love me? What are you worried about? I didn't ask you to climb mountains, nor did I ask you to go through fire and water. I just want you to stand beside me with confidence. Even if you stand behind me, let me know where you are. Since you can't do it, let the other person go, ok? I'll let go. Really, I let you go.

You didn't go to the dinner party between friends, big and small. Whether this excuse is true or not, I believe you. You don't have to accompany me wholeheartedly, and you don't have to worry about me. I want to come to me before you, so I live alone. It's just that I don't know that meeting you will not only make me lose all my luck, but also make me lose the continuation of a relationship with you in exchange for my best efforts.

I want to take you to a family dinner. You said it was too early, but it was too early. The young child has not yet become an old man, and I still have half a lamp of youth to burn for you.

Want to work with you to paint the future, you say it's too far, and we are just the distance between a single room and a double bed, so far.

I believe you love me, and I believe you can't bear it. Just like the song says, there are too many gaps between us. You have been absent from my life for too long, and you have been hesitant to say anything. If you don't have the courage to say it, I will say it for you. You want me to find a better person, and that better person is not you.

There is a wall in your heart, you are inside and I am outside. Don't be disappointed, I'm not strong enough to stick to the end with an occasional shiny window.

Once upon a time, I always thought that the feeling that I couldn't love was the saddest. Turns out it wasn't. The most painful feeling is that I loved and owned it after I got it, but I was afraid because of a period of distrust, and I killed all the good times until I lost it.

Do you still love me ? Don't insist. I don't need to feel guilty, and neither do you need to forgive. To tell you generously, I really think about the future, our future, even if you laugh at me for being unrealistic, even if you want to stop me from talking, even if you are still silent after listening.

Our house doesn't need to be big enough to accommodate you, me, our children and our parents. There are vegetables and fruits of the four seasons in the refrigerator, pillows on the sofa and pots of green plants on the balcony. Most importantly, I wake up in the morning with you who love me deeply.

We won't start over, and I won't bring up the past again. Firmly choose to trust me once, you go, I let go.