Xiao Jun, who has been promiscuous for five times in her life: Every woman is not what I need, and she is an idiot.

In "Heavy Rain", He Shuhuan once said: "I am not the only man in the world who is attracted by two women!"

The famous writer Xiao Jun also has a corresponding sentence: "I just met some people, and in some special time, I can have special feelings."

Therefore, He Shuhuan can vacillate between Yiping and Ru Ping, and Xiao Jun is even worse. He jumped between five women.

In contrast, Jun Xiao is more "decisive".

When he ran to another woman's arms, he not only left the woman in front of him behind, but even stepped on it again.

Jun Xiao

When I was young.

Xiao Jun's "distrust" and sense of superiority towards women have been formed since childhood.

My father has a bad temper and a violent tendency, and often beats Xiaojun's mother. Weak women will only endure everything silently and often get beaten black and blue.

Later, the woman who had no hope for the future was poisoned and abandoned Xiaojun, who was only six months old.

And the man who forced his wife to death suddenly married a girl who was only 15 years old.

The stepmother is weak, gentle and sensible, silently enduring the fist given to her by her husband, and naturally has no good face for the children left by her former wife.

Therefore, Xiaojun grew up in an environment where his father was unkind and his mother was absent. All he saw all day was his father's roar and violence, and his stepmother curled up and cried.

Jun Xiao

Maybe that's why he doesn't trust love and despise marriage. He is tired of those simple and weak women and thinks that there is no happiness in living with such fragile people.

He unconsciously followed the beautiful images of those women, thinking that he should be their windshield, fascinated and crazy about them, and took out marriage as a bargaining chip.

The first wife

1922, 15-year-old Xiao Jun, at the request of "parents' orders, matchmakers' words", married Xu's daughter, who was only eight miles away from home.

Xu's family is rich and deeply loved by his father. She is only 16 years old. She has a Zhang Mingliang face, a high nose and warm eyes, as if she could speak. She is virtuous and upright.

At first, the young couple loved each other for a while, but as the holiday passed, Jun Xiao bid farewell to his parents and wife and went to study in Changchun.

Within two years, he went to Jilin military camp and became a cavalry.

Xu stayed in his hometown, accompanied Xiaojun's aunt and nanny, and took care of the housework and the elderly.

On holidays, Jun Xiao came back from the military camp to reunite with his wife. He taught Xu to read and write, and Xu in turn took care of her husband's daily life.

They have a feeling of husband and wife playing the piano and singing, citing the example of Qi Mei.

1930 in the second half of the year, Jun Xiao's position in the military camp rose, becoming an assistant to the second lieutenant of the Coach Department of the Northeast Military Police.

As life became more and more stable, he took back his wife who had stayed in his hometown and sent her to school.

Jun Xiao

After eight years together, the man worked hard outside and the woman stood behind her husband to support him. Although she has regrets about her children (one died at the age of three and one miscarried), the relationship between them is still good.

It was at this time that the appearance of peace between husband and wife was cut by the war.

193 1 The September 18th Incident broke out in, the Japanese army attacked the northeast, and Xiao Jun was in Shenyang.

After failing to apply to the chief executive for anti-Japanese, Jun Xiao and two friends who worked as underground party member in China ran around and organized all forces that could be United to fight against Japan, all of which ended in failure.

Xiao Jun still didn't give up. He went to Lan Shu, where troops were stationed in the northeast, but was denounced by traitors here, and almost fell for it.

In desperation, he can only withdraw from Lan Shu and move to the next area.

During this period, Xu, as a helpless woman who had never seen danger, always followed Xiao Jun back and forth.

Jun Xiao

After coming to Harbin, this woman who is always in fear can't stand it. She was stuck at the gate and begged Xiaojun not to go out again, which was not good for the husband and wife to live in peace.

After many times of unsuccessful persuasion, Xu, who was in a hurry, even said, "If you go out again, I will report that you have a gun."

It is this sentence that has become a rift between husband and wife that is difficult to sew.

Whether intentionally or unintentionally, Xu Shufan's words still alerted Xiao Jun.

This time, Xu can threaten him in a short time, and it is difficult to guarantee that she will not have any moths in the future. And Xiao Jun's ongoing secret anti-Japanese activities can't get a little wind.

Xiao Jun and Scholars

Without giving Xu a chance to defend himself, he insisted on sending her back to her hometown. At this point, Xu was pregnant with Xiao Jun's third child.

The chaotic situation, crowded and complicated refugees, weeping and numb faces are deeply reflected in the hearts of Jun Xiao and Xu.

Before she got to her hometown, Xiaojun put her at a relative's house halfway and then left in a hurry.

Not long after, Xu gave birth to their last child in someone else's house.

The child still didn't grow up. It was only a month before he died of illness.

After many years, the couple who have been together for decades meet again after a long separation. One ran in the front line of the Anti-Japanese War, and the other went home to do housework and take care of the elderly.

This naive woman, waiting at home, thought that everything would be the same as before, and Xiaojun would take time to go home and talk with her, but her feelings remained the same.

Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao.

Until she received the divorce papers.

Xu's opposition to Xiao Jun alarmed Xiao Jun and made him feel lonely.

He remembers that when he was a child, his mother would only end her life to escape violence, and her stepmother would only endure everything silently. Their negative attitude of escaping from the world and feeling sorry for themselves made him very unhappy.

After he married his wife, he looked at her virtuous and generous, and was glad that she would become the person he loved. He taught her to read and write, and told her his ambition.

Until I heard the threat.

So women only see love?

Xiao Jun heart, suddenly gives birth to a dull.

He simply wrote a letter to his wife in his hometown.

"The world is big, warlords scuffle, barbarian invasion. We should strive for self-improvement and make contributions to our country. You don't have to wait, you can arrange your future life. "

Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao.

Xu put away the writing paper, wiped her tears, pretended nothing unusual, and continued to serve her in-laws.

Unexpectedly, before long, Xu received a letter from a woman named "Xiao Hong".

Believers call her "sister", she advised xu:

"Now society advocates equality between men and women and autonomy in marriage. You don't have to wait any longer. You'd better remarry. Don't leave what you should do when you have black hair until you have white hair. That's not good. "

Xu Shufan knew that Xiao Jun had another woman outside.

Even so, she didn't listen to their encouragement in turn. In her opinion, as long as Jun Xiao didn't give a divorce certificate, she was still Jun Xiao's wife in name.

Jun Xiao

She stubbornly stayed at Xiaojun's parents' house, doing what she used to do, but Xiaojun's father had already gone bankrupt, and his family was penniless, so Xu had to ask his parents and relatives for help.

In this way, after seven years of stumbling, Xu had to remarry to a local farmer's house at the suggestion of relatives and friends because life was really unsustainable and there was no news of Jun Xiao.

At this point, Xiao Jun's first woman and he completely separated.

fulfil

Jun Xiao, who is far away from home, met another woman the year after he sent his wife away.

1932, Pei Xinyuan, editor-in-chief of Jun Xiao's Supplement to the International Association, received a distress letter signed "Shao Yin" (Xiao Hong).

Little Red

Shaoyin said that she was left in a hotel by her boyfriend and was threatened by the hotel owner to send her to a brothel because she could not afford the accommodation.

It was at the invitation of Pei Xinyuan that Xiaojun went to the hotel to help the poor woman with a big belly.

At this time, Xiao Jun was still not interested in Xiao Hong until he left. His eyes caught a glimpse of some poems that Xiao Hong left on the table.

The leaves here are green, and the Qingxi there is singing: Girl! Spring has come.

Last year in Peiping, it was the time to eat green apricots;

This year, my fate was worse than that of Qing Xing.

……

After seeing the emotion in the poem, Xiao Jun made a 180 degree turn:

"At this time, I seem to feel that the world is changing, the seasons are changing, and people are changing. At that time, I thought my thoughts and feelings were changing ... all the images and impressions she gave me at first disappeared ... only a crystal clear, beautiful, lovely and shining soul was left in front of me! "

Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao.

So, after less than 24 hours of acquaintance, this pair of men and women "fell in love" like this.

It's hard to say whether there was love in their initial marriage.

For Xiaohong, she has just been abandoned by her boyfriend and is pregnant. She has no skills, no source of income, and it coincides with troubled times. How does a weak woman survive?

So she needs a guardian. This guardian may be powerful and can help her solve all material problems, or powerful and can help her repel all threats.

Jun Xiao, a former soldier, gave Hong Xiao a great sense of security physically, although it later became the source of her fear.

So, when we first met and Xiaojun was leaving, she invited him to stay. "Let's talk, shall we?"

Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao.

Therefore, when Xiao Jun showed enthusiastic love for her poems and Xiao Jun looked at her with envy, she naturally accepted this man.

For such an easy-to-get woman, Xiao Jun's gentle appearance is a contempt that can no longer be concealed. He showed off:

"We only have two nights and twelve hours, and we have everything. In their view, this is indispensable in the process of love-we all have it. "

Xiao Hong didn't know at that time. She just welcomes everything with joy.

Although Jun Xiao has no money, and they live in poverty, Jun Xiao can scare off the local ruffians and hooligans with his fists. He has been praising Xiao Hong and her literary talent.

Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao.

Xiao Hong hungrily absorbed new knowledge under the guidance of Xiao Jun. Under the long-term instruction of men, not to mention that he was the "savior" who pulled himself out of the quagmire, Xiao Hong fell.

She started her own way of literary creation. To this end, she also specially gave herself a pen name "Xiao Hong". Together with the "little army", it happens to be the "little red army".

Novels such as "Abandoned Children" and "Life and Death Field" were born one after another and became famous all over the world. Xiao Hong surpassed Xiao Jun in name and became a hot female writer at that time.

On the other hand, Jun Xiao's reputation is getting worse and worse. This arrogant man can't accept Xiao Hong's coming from behind.

Not to mention that he always despises Xiaohong's initiative to send away her newborn child.

Poor Xiao Hongben, because he was afraid that the child would hurt the mutual affection of the two, the child was given to others as soon as he was born.

Unexpectedly, this became the evidence of Xiao Jun's seal.

There is a rift between Jun Xiao and Xiaohong.

When he was a child, his mother left him because of disagreement with his father. I didn't expect Xiaohong to "throw away" the baby who needed maternal love because of her bad relationship with the man in front.

They are handsome, but they pity the lonely child. They have lived in a cold environment since childhood and struggled to grow up.

Xiaojun thought so too, but forgot to do so, or because the two of them were so embarrassed that two empty people in their hands couldn't hold the baby at all.

However, things in this world can have a cause and effect. Sadly, some people are so stubborn that they are blindfolded.

Under the entanglement of various factors, Jun Xiao began to get tired of Xiao Hong. It was just bad for her at first. Soon, she was always picking on her.

Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao.

Once they were a little unhappy, and he even did it directly. The boy who once hated his father's domestic violence when he was a child always followed his father's old path when he grew up.

Xiao Jun is "shine on you is better than blue", and hitting women has even become his ostentatious achievement.

When they went out to eat, Xiaohong's bruises were found and questioned. Xiaohong was embarrassed to explain that she accidentally fell.

Xiaojun yelled at her: "What's wrong with you? Don't be shameless! I drank wine yesterday and gave her a punch, and her eyes turned black. "

While showing off, he held his clenched fist high and waved it back and forth several times, completely ignoring the tearful woman next to him.

Domestic violence, what's more, Jun Xiao began to ignore Hong Xiao's "wife" status and openly cheated on other women.

Little Red

For the first time, he met Marile, the beautiful and elegant heroine in the literary salon, and frequently had an affair with Wang Lin, Xiao Hong's classmate.

Although several people have never had an exact relationship, Xiao Jun's performance still hurts Xiao Hong's heart.

The appearance of a woman named Chen Juan once again revealed the fact that Xiao Jun had long since fallen in love with Xiao Hong.

Embarrassed that he couldn't even eat, Jun Xiao dated the married dance floor in Chen Juan many times, and each time, it cost them at least half a month's living expenses.

When Chen Juan left Harbin, Jun Xiao even took Xiaohong to see him off. In front of his wife, he gave Chen Juan roses and kissed her deeply.

Everything, Xiao Hong vividly.

Finally, she couldn't stand her husband's playboy and chose to leave China for Japanese meditation.

However, after staying in Japan for less than two years, she had to return home early because of an accident-Xiaojun got someone pregnant.

From left: Huang Yuan, Jun Xiao and Hong Xiao.

The object of his cheating this time is Xu Yuehua, the wife of his good friend.

The two kept Xu Yuehua's husband Huang Yuan a secret for a long time until Xu Yuehua got pregnant unexpectedly.

At this time, Xiao Jun became impatient. These women are too superficial and easy to get, but they are unfaithful and not tough. He really doesn't know what they are good for.

What is rare is that he began to think of his wife Xiao Hong, who was angry with himself, so he called her back in a hurry.

Xiao Hong obediently came back, but this time she didn't roll with the punches.

After silently helping Xiao Jun deal with a mess, she left him with another man.

In the face of his wife's departure, Jun Xiao looked indifferent. In his heart, he never admitted that Xiao Hong was his wife.

"Xiao Hong is simple, honest, stubborn and talented. I love her, but she is not a wife, especially not mine. "

Little Red

When he separated from Xiao Hong and received the news that she died of illness, the man still had the mood to record in his diary:

"Just feel bored. I cried twice. For her, I'm not mourning her past love, I'm just mourning her fate. I don't kill Boren, Boren died of me', and I don't want to bear this sin and condemnation. "

resist

In the same year of separation from Xiao Hong, on April 28th, Xiao Jun was invited to Lanzhou to do literary propaganda work, and was invited to stay at home by Wang Pengqiu, the county magistrate of Lanzhou.

Xiao Jun therefore had the opportunity to meet Wang Defen, the youngest daughter of the Wangs. Her profound facial features, big eyes, high nose and full lips make her look particularly energetic.

Wang Defen

On the first night of living in the Wang family, Xiaojun was blushed and heartbroken by this girl of 18 years old.

The next morning, he specially found a vase imitating Longquan kiln and gave it to Wang Defen.

On May 1 day, he asked Wang Defen to go out for a walk and chat.

At this time, Wang Defen didn't know that she had been targeted, and she didn't have a clear concept of Xiao Jun's literati identity.

In her later memoirs, she repeatedly explained: "The Country in August is a progressive novel with great influence-however, I am not a reader of it."

So she was met by Xiaojun, just as a companion of a brother, and she specially took her sister out for a walk with Xiaojun.

Wang Defen and his brothers and sisters.

In this walk, Jun Xiao secretly inquired about Wang Defen's feelings. After learning that the girl had never loved anyone and was still innocent, he narrowed his eyes with joy.

On May 2, Wang Defen came back late to teach singing. Xiaojun deliberately found her room and pretended to complain:

"Why don't you go home? I ran to the gate three times, but I didn't come left or right. I am worried to death! "

This made Wang Defen blush and feel very guilty. Seeing the girl's reaction, Xiaojun pushed his luck and said, "You can teach singing later. I'll pick you up at the door and come out early!" "

Wang Defen nature nodding, but forget, Xiao Jun is in what capacity to meet her? Why are you picking up people?

Declare sovereignty?

Jun Xiao and his wife and daughter.

Perhaps all literati have a sentimental and delicate mind. In a word, under the pressure of Xiao Jun, Wang Defen fell step by step.

Before she could react, she was asked to get married by Xiaojun. At this time, they have known each other for less than a week.

Girls can't believe that men who are regarded as their elders actually like themselves, and she can't believe that one of the "two Xiao's" that are spread by the outside world is about to betray her feelings?

Xiao Jun just indifferently explained that she and Xiao Hong had already divorced. The reason for the divorce is naturally Xiao Hong's fault: "In April, in Xi 'an, she found someone else. "

Wang Defen recorded everything in her diary with a grain of salt, but before she came up with an ugly story, the diary was read by her mother.

Xiao Jun and Wang Defen.

Angry parents locked Wang Defen up and drove Jun Xiao out of the house.

However, the man argued with Wang Defen's father and brother. Between words, it is difficult to judge whether he really loves Wang Defen or just regards her as a tool and doesn't respect her.

On the one hand, he is very strict with Wang Defen's family. On the other hand, Xiaojun found Wang Defen's sister and asked her to help him deliver the letter.

During the one-month detention, Wang Defen and Jun Xiao exchanged 70 letters, Jun Xiao wrote 37 letters for her, and she answered 33 letters.

Wang Defen, Jun Xiao.

The contents of the two people's letters are extremely close, and Xiaojun has exhausted the comparison inside. He compares himself to a lamb, a loach and even a horse:

"As soon as I get close to you, I feel an invisible tenderness around me, and I will really become a child. I will lie in your arms like a lamb and let you touch it. I will sleep soundly and beautifully in this touch! Love! "

"I want to live in your love like a happy prince in the future. No, it should be said that it is loach fish! "

"I am a tame and willing to run, as long as the rider is a person who understands the nature of horses."

Obviously, a girl as young as 18 can't "tame" this "horse" who regards love as a game.

Under the strong opposition of Wang Defen, her parents had to agree that she should marry Xiaojun.

Family photos of Jun Xiao and Wang Defen.

The girl naively thought that she fell in love with happiness from now on, but she didn't know that this was just the beginning of all the pain.

Married only 10 days, Xiao Jun got tired of the woman who had already got it, and Xiao Hong restarted the previous scene-the cold war, not going home.

I was so anxious that Wang Defen didn't know what to do. She wrote to Xiao Jun:

"Love, don't be so strange and indifferent to me ... I hope you don't take me seriously! That will kill you! Home is not cute, come back later, I just hope you can be happy outside! "

In the face of Wang Defen's concession, Xiao Jun simply said, "Every woman is not what I need. They are all stupid, all sick, and all people who don't understand my heart! "

1942, the news of Xiao Hong's death reached Xiao Jun. In his diary, there was such a description: "I heard the news of Xiao Hong's death in the afternoon. Finn cried.

Xiaohong is dead. Will she die too? At least my heart is dead.

Xiaohong tomb

Re-appear

195 1 After being married to Wang Defen for more than ten years, Jun Xiao and his family came to Beijing one after another.

Here, Xiaojun took a fancy to Zhang Daxue, who was only 25 years old.

In Zhang Daxue's daughter's article, she once described her mother like this: "slim and elegant, simple and enthusiastic, fond of literature and art, kind and sincere, and a pair of big eyes always seem to be melancholy."

Simple, kind and melancholy?

Almost all the women who occupy an important position in Xiao Jun's emotional history contain these characteristics.

When I first met Zhang Da, her love with another gay man had just been cut off by her father, and she was full of bitterness and sadness.

Jun Xiao, 44, came to Zhang University to talk to her and comfort her.

Xiao Jun and Zhang Daxue's daughter's home.

Just as he once comforted Xiao Hong and had a heart-to-heart conversation, Zhang University was inevitably attracted by this scholar.

Without telling Xiaojun's parents, she helped him sort out manuscripts and send letters.

With this day after day, Zhang University found herself pregnant.

At this time, it was only one year since they met.

In a rage, Zhang's father broke off relations with Zhang University and drove his daughter out of the house.

Xiaojun silently comforted Zhang University. He told her that he would go home and divorce his wife, then marry her and be responsible for her.

Zhang Daxue, who was full of expectations, waited and waited, until his stomach swelled and the child was born, but he still didn't wait for Xiaojun's promised marriage.

Family photos of Xiao Jun and Wang Defen.

But she doesn't want to destroy Xiaojun's family or hurt another innocent woman.

She just sent her children to Jiang Jiahu's mother with the same surname Bao, and then went to a remote area far away from her parents and Xiaojun, where she lived a hard life.

At this time, Zhang University was still full of expectation and love for Xiaojun until he received a letter from Xiaojun.

"If anyone traces back to our relationship, it's your father's fault, saying that he used you to woo and corrupt me."

Zhang Daxue is completely dead. She stopped looking forward to it, regained her mood and found a man to marry and have children in the local area. Just think that she was young and ignorant before and made a mistake. It would be nice to change.

Bao's mother and Xiaojun and Zhang University's six-year-old illegitimate daughter.

Her daughter, who stayed in Jiang Hutong, grew up in an environment lacking fatherly love and maternal love.

How ironic!

The man who lacked the care of his mother when he was a child, who hated those irresponsible men, always stayed with one woman after another, and then stayed for a very short time, leaving one "mess" after another.

He finally became the person he once hated most.