If you don’t work hard, you will always be the background for others.

(1)

Have you ever experienced the sadness of having extremely low self-esteem?

16 years old, a freshman in high school. I was assigned to a science class, but my grades in physics were not good and I was often criticized in person by the physics teacher. He doesn't like to talk much and is introverted. His favorite thing to do is to sit quietly in a corner and read novels. At that time, there were more than 70 people in the class, a whole freshman in high school, and they didn’t recognize everyone in the class.

However, even if my grades were not good at that time, I could still live happily. Teenage girls are happy living in their own world. However, people will change, although sometimes the price of knowing some truth is cruel.

Although I have serious shortcomings in physics, I am good at writing compositions and am often used as a model essay by Chinese teachers to read in class. Therefore, among the many subject teachers at that time, only the Chinese teacher remembered my name. You see, at that time, I was like a tiny speck of dust, without any meaning of existence in the light and shadow.

At that time, the head teacher said that as long as the students were in the top 20, they could choose their own seats. It just so happened that the physics and chemistry exams were particularly difficult, and everyone's scores were generally not high. I got good grades in Chinese and English, and I broke into the top 20 for the first time. When arranging seats, when the class teacher read my name, I picked a seat in the middle that I liked. Full of joy and ready to start a new study life.

As a result, the head teacher called me to the office and asked me about my grades for the first time. Just when I was about to burst into tears, he told me that I was too tall and there was someone shorter than me. My female classmate did not do well in the exam this time, so her seat was moved to the side and she asked me to switch seats. That girl has good grades in science, so she should study science in the future. He said that you should study liberal arts in the future. It doesn’t matter if you don’t have a solid foundation in science now. What he said was so correct that I couldn't argue with it. Later, the girl and I changed seats.

At the beginning, I didn’t understand that you would only be understood and paid attention to if you ran ahead of others. At the beginning, I didn’t understand that the hierarchical system of survival of the fittest is used to its extreme in the human world.

It’s just sad that the only opportunity to choose was taken away by others. Maybe if you are not excellent, you can only be the background for others.

Suddenly I figured out, I can’t stay where I am.

At that time, I was not good at physics and felt that I was not smart enough, so I took the initiative to transfer from the science class to the liberal arts class. I was a little poor in mathematics, so I went to the bookstore and bought a lot of papers to write on. Mark every unfamiliar knowledge point and practice it repeatedly. In fact, mathematics should be regarded as the easiest subject to get full marks, because the answer is always objective, and if you get it right, you are right. In the end, practice makes perfect the more you do it. When you see a question, you can instantly find ideas for solving it. After studying liberal arts, I was able to get into the top ten in every major exam. At that time, because I was good at math, everyone thought I was smart, but they didn't see the effort behind it.

As long as you work hard once and experience all the happiness and glory that hard work brings to you, you will believe that there is nothing in this world that you cannot do.

Later, because I got used to being excellent, getting used to being noticed by people around me, getting used to being the dazzling one among the crowd. I no longer dare to act arbitrarily, and I no longer dare to relax myself. Humans are such complex animals. When no one pays attention to you, you can do whatever you want and let yourself go. But once you become the shining one among the crowd, you want to live the way others expect you to.

(2)

Some time ago, a reader left me a long message in the background.

She said that when she first entered college, her grades were excellent, and her annual grade point ranking was enough to qualify for graduate school. Destiny always seems to like to joke. In her junior year, she was diagnosed with a malignant thyroid tumor. Then, she took a break from school and went to the hospital for surgery. After a long period of treatment, his condition became stable and he could be discharged from the hospital.

After returning to school, the missed courses and exams caused her to miss the qualification for graduate school. However, she said that people always have to work hard once in their life, so she decided to take the postgraduate entrance examination.

When I was in my senior year, some of my classmates and friends were looking for graduate degrees, and some were looking for jobs. People around her advised her not to take the exam. With so many people taking the postgraduate exam, even if you prepare, you may not get results. Probably because she had heard too many cold words, she had developed antibodies to the words of people around her. I kept reading and doing questions, took several notes, and read the books several times. Every day I wake up at 6 o'clock, go to the library to read, and go back to the dormitory at 23 o'clock in the evening. After going back, sit on the bed and turn on the small light to review today's content.

She said that that period was really the darkest time in her life. The girls in the same dormitory had a cold war with her because she got up early and went to bed late which affected their rest. Because I have too high demands on myself and too much pressure, I suffer from insomnia all night long. I had no choice but to go to the school's psychological counselor, but my classmates saw me and made all sorts of sarcastic remarks behind my back.

On the day when the results of the postgraduate entrance examination were announced, she was very calm because she knew that God would not let down her efforts. Later, she went to graduate school at a well-known university as she wished. As an outstanding graduate representative, I delivered a graduation speech at the graduation ceremony and was chased by my juniors for postgraduate entrance exam secrets.

Yes, even if the future is far from known, we must run hard. Life can't be as good as you imagine, nor can it be as bad as you imagine. People are stronger and more fragile than you imagine.

Sometimes, we may be so fragile that we burst into tears with just one word; sometimes, we find that we can go a long way even if we grit our teeth.

(3)

When I was browsing Weibo that day, I saw this sentence: "Sometimes we will take many detours." It seems that when we were young, we would all encounter this and that. problems and countless lonely days. Those roads that must be taken are also full of thorns, but as long as you know where you are going, we will always have a bright future.

It turns out that I have grown up without knowing it. Occasionally I think of the grievances I suffered in the past, and I can face them calmly. People always have to force themselves to grow and become better. Even if this period is a trough, it will definitely bottom out and rebound in another period of time.

You don’t have to envy other people’s success. Those successes are just because they shed unexpected sweat when you can’t see them.

After all, there are countless possibilities in life, and I hope you can become what you like.