Thinking about the future of mankind step by step from the "drug god"

In the afternoon, I watched "Surviving in the Recent Fire" and cried until my eyes were red and swollen in the cinema. I wanted to write a film review with a retrospective mood, but I found that my mentality was not as good as before. Now, instead of judging movies, I look at the life described in movies from the perspective of a depressed person.

Dying shows the living conditions of different people by smuggling Indian generic drugs, and closely links life, human feelings, law and morality. Yong Cheng, the hero, had to smuggle Indian medicines to raise money for his seriously ill father and his son who was about to emigrate with his ex-wife. Beneficiary Lu suffered from chronic myeloid leukemia and thought about suicide, but chose to continue living because of his newborn son. Peng Hao secretly went to a foreign land alone because he was worried that his illness would drag down his family. As a single mother, Sihui had to dance at night to raise money for her daughter's treatment. The sick priest insisted on praying with his patients in the church. He comforted the patient and his own heart. Everyone has encountered difficulties in life and even survival, and at the same time they are making unremitting efforts for life. My tears collapsed when I saw Aunt Slow Grain holding the hand of Officer Cao and crying and saying "I want to live". ...

Being alive means more possibilities. If living is meaningless, then many people don't want to live. I thought about death more than once during the period of severe depression, and I thought about death more than once. If death is a relief, are all the living people miserable? Obviously not, so this proposition itself is unreasonable. If reincarnation really exists in this world, maybe there will be different reincarnation behind different ways of death, just like some games with open endings. After different ways of death, they will return to different starting points, and sometimes they will accidentally return to the original point and start over. In a way, this means not to give up life easily. The game is like this, let alone life.

Although there are only two words in life, its tolerance can be compared with the universe. Different people have different lives and have different understandings and interpretations of life. How simple is the word life, and how many literati have devoted their lives to writing since ancient times. At present, many philosophers, writers, poets and artists describe their philosophy of life in their own style. But for our younger generation, how many people can calm down and think about life?

I, myself included, have always been addicted to the fast food lifestyle. Whether eating, studying or working, I am pursuing speed. Once I slow down and calm down, I feel empty and panic inside. I spend my rest days brushing Weibo, friends circle, soap operas and filling my leisure time, thinking that this is relaxation and this is rest. There are also many people who choose fast-food online courses, such as: teaching you how to earn100,000/million a month in one week, teaching you how to become a social expert in ten days, and learning high emotional intelligence from me in five days. .............................................................................................................

For example, social and emotional intelligence courses, I am familiar with this shortcoming of myself, and sometimes I want to learn with a try mentality. I have tried many ways to change it for more than 20 years. It looks effective on the surface, but the essence remains the same. From a psychological point of view, I am an introverted personality, which has the advantages of being an introverted personality. For me, the overall model of the course is to learn from each other's strengths and make up for each other's weaknesses. In this process, I feel anxious and even more suspicious of myself. Of course, it's not that all the content is useless. Many can be applied to life, but it seems impossible to completely change yourself in a short time.

If some of our innate advantages are mistaken for shortcomings, then when we are constantly changing, sometimes we will accidentally walk on the road of constantly denying ourselves. I have also blamed myself many times and asked myself: Why are you so introverted? Why can't you make friends as widely as XXX? While learning how to become extroverted, I feel contrary to my inner world. In this way, I became a lively and outgoing person in the eyes of others, but only in the eyes of others. So at a certain stage, it seems that I am popular, but I still can't really open my heart because I am trapped in my true self. When dealing with interpersonal relationships, I will feel the inner struggle and entanglement from time to time: "Should I take the initiative?" "Active! What are you waiting for! " "But I don't know what to say." "Talking, of course, fool!" " "

Later, when I was depressed and miserable, I kept reflecting on that time, trying to follow my heart, calm myself down and give myself more time alone instead of forcing myself to participate in social activities. I'm starting to feel comfortable. At this moment, another comfort circle theorist jumped out and shouted at me, "Do you know? You're afraid to jump out of your comfort zone! You are weak! " If it had been before, I would have replied, "Ah, ah, right, right." This time, I will not be like before: "I'm sorry, although you are another me, you are not me." In my dictionary, there is no word' comfort zone'. "

Yes, that's how I get along with myself. I feel like I have a split personality. But I can slowly calm down, concentrate on reading for five or six hours, extract my favorite beautiful sentences, and make my heart quiet in this process. Although depression will continue, it has made some small progress. Before that, I felt anxious when reading. I either quickly turned over a few pages and felt that I had finished reading, or I was afraid to pick up the book and felt that I couldn't finish reading it. Many times, I can't settle down to study. I prefer to brush Weibo and friends circle, but I feel anxious after brushing.

I also found in some painful speculations that if I learn to find myself slowly, my anxiety will gradually ease. Perhaps there are some unacceptable remarks, otherwise there will be no progress; There are also some remarks that people should know how to accept themselves so as not to resist painfully. At this time, we will be at a loss: what is this and what is that? In this world, there are different people, different people have different life experiences, so there will be different life perceptions. In this era of developed network information and freer speech, what we need to do is to keep our eyes open, keep a clear head and use the essence for ourselves. Some truth, some remarks, you need to practice yourself to know right and wrong. No, there is no absolute right or wrong, only whether it applies to your unique self.

I was a little surprised to hear four or five friends say that they haven't finished reading two books in the past six months, because they have always been synonymous with Excellence in my eyes, and I thought they would read much more than me. Here, I also want to reflect on myself. I go to work with a book in my bag. Sometimes I am too tired to turn the page for several days, and then I feel particularly at ease. I carry it in my bag every day, even when I change my backpack, I can't bear to put it down and never stop. I just carry it on my back, psychologically thinking that I have read the whole book and have the important ideas of the whole book. Just when it was raining heavily, I suddenly ran home and found my backpack wet. I suddenly remembered the book and quickly turned it out. Fortunately, only a small corner of the cover is wet. At that time, I found that I had memorized this book for several months. In fact, I read less than half of it. ...

Later, after careful consideration, it was precisely because of lack of experience that I didn't explore more in books. Facing the difficulties in life, I didn't think correctly and come up with a solution, but I was depressed for a long time. Accumulated over time, resulting in psychological burden, leading to persistent depression. During this time, whenever I feel that my inner depression can't be solved, I will turn on light music, pick up my favorite books and start reading. At this time, my heart will gradually calm down. Maybe it can't cure depression, but for me, it can really relieve my depression.

I also slowly found that life really needs quiet thinking, or deep thinking, especially at this busy and anxious moment. This doesn't mean that you have to quit your job or travel. If you don't have the habit of thinking quietly, both of them will only add more troubles. It is a concept that we should think deeply. Humans also stand at the top of the animal kingdom because they can think. If we slowly lose the habit of deep thinking, how different will it be from the artificial intelligence developed now?

Imagine that when everyone loses deep thinking and keeps running like a machine, we are probably no different from robots. In early movies, it seems not impossible to replace humans with robots.

So, starting with the comma after the word so, try to think more deeply, including you and me.