How does it feel to be humble to the bone?

I am so humble that I become alienated and lonely, try not to be close to others, dare not say anything to others, and feel inferior to being alone. The sense of existence is zero. When you finally overcome your heart and say a word, you will wonder if they are thinking about who you are, laughing at you and ignoring you. When you walk into the street and hear someone laughing, you may subconsciously check whether you are laughing at yourself. When you meet someone you like, you are afraid of getting too close and eager to be noticed; I always feel that I am too ugly, have a bad figure, and have all kinds of dissatisfaction; I dare not express my opinions at work for fear of being denied. ............................................................................................................................................................