My monologue in the first half of my life

33-year-old, is a housewife who has no worries about food and clothing. The child is eight years old and has a nanny to take care of the meal. The only thing I have to fight hard is my flabby skin and the blooming girl around my husband. At that time, I thought I was the luckiest one, because Sheng Jun was an honest man with a two-point and one-line working family. He said that his wish in this life is to give me and Pinger a happy home. However, the seemingly best and most meaningful road is always full of extremely difficult places. How I wish I had been prepared.

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TanJing and I are completely different women. Convinced that love is perishable and marriage is fragile, she pursues material and spiritual independence day and night. She said I was a frog in the well, and I said she was asking for it.

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This photo has been praised by dozens of people, but several of them are sincere blessings, and most of them are waiting for jokes with malicious intentions. But at that time, I really felt that I was living a life that everyone envied.

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I didn't notice this young mature woman who was simple in dress and appearance. I thought my opponent would only be those girls who are delicate and charming, and the reason why men abandon their wives and children can only be moved by beauty.

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the second group

Since I married Chen, I have become my mother's precious daughter, which makes her proud. I naturally and condescendingly teach, but unlike those sisters who share joys and sorrows, it seems that only a married life like me is the most typical destination for women.

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If there is any creature in this world who has a sixth sense or experience in prophecy, it must be a woman! I do have a hunch that something bad will happen, but I don't know what it is. It turned out that in those few days, the fate of my family and I was completely changed by Chen. I don't know if I would have survived if I had noticed earlier.

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Episode 3

I asked myself why I was afraid of being abandoned by him, of losing this family, and of Pinger becoming a child of a single-parent family. Are there any other reasons? I don't know how to describe it. It's like throwing a fish into the desert. You said you were afraid. This home is my arena. Either the winner is king, or blood is spilled on the spot.

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I know I made a big fool of myself, and I know that their so-called elite in the workplace are laughing at me for being a stupid and reckless housewife, but I don't care. They are all people outside my world, they won't understand my situation, and I'm too lazy to understand their lives.

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The fourth episode

I thought Mrs. Chen's life was over. I cried my heart out. I cried like this when Pinger was born. I was as afraid as he was at that time, resisting going to a new world doomed to be more bitter than happy. We want to go back to the warm and peaceful place where we came from, but we can't go back anymore. We can only move forward in tears and cries.

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The sixth set

When Chen said those words, his expression was extremely cold. I can't believe it. This is the same person I once entrusted with my life with joy and confidence. TanJing said that getting married and having children is like a poisonous apple that men cheat women to eat. It took me eight years from the first taste of sweetness to the death of poison. I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm dying, but I'm a little lucky and fantasize that Chen will wake up at the last minute.

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I looked at the beautiful young girls in the sun, and I looked at the couples walking hand in hand. It seems that happiness and happiness belong to others. From this day on, my world was overcast and dark. I even thought that there would be no more clouds in my life.

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The seventh set

Much more charming than the scene in the company this morning. Between relaxation and relaxation, these people are vivid and colorful. These women, even if they are not so good-looking, are confident, cunning, plump, lively and ambitious, which are not enough words to describe. This exuberance is full of vitality.

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Episode 9

It has been more than a month since it happened. From the beginning, I tried to hold back my anger and spent most of my energy. For example, a cancer patient is dying after surgery, radiotherapy and chemotherapy, and can only live on a few tubes day by day. Who told me to be strong and positive? That's only because you haven't experienced my experience.

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The tenth episode

Waiter, shop assistant, I never thought I would be one of them. I admit that I don't even look at them when I go in and out of shopping malls and restaurants. It seems that I was born Mrs. Chen. In fact, after I was proud, I forgot the road I had traveled. I don't want to think about it. I started as a secretary of a small enterprise and only regarded it as a matter of my last life. From the day I decided to work, I witnessed how humble I can be in the dust and the plasticity of life.

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Episode eleven

On a long and eventful day, I thought I would have many thoughts and feelings. I thought I would have a headache and insomnia. But I didn't expect this to be the fastest and heaviest sleep I can remember. People said I would fall asleep after work, and I finally realized it.

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Episode XII

I used to think that the feelings and dependence on a person, from scratch, would be a process of gradual reduction. But the fact is that it will suddenly drop to zero at some point, even at some point. It's like when you hear a long echo, it is suddenly cut off, leaving a huge hole. This change of mine happened on this day. I didn't see Chen for several days after this meeting, and almost at the moment when my eyes met him, I ended my friendship. From a sad lover to an indifferent passerby, I can really feel the break, which happened in my heart.

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Episode thirteen

The lawsuit was won in this way. Was that me just now? I can't remember how all this happened, except what He Hanlin said to me before he left: "No matter what other people's situation is, the key is your performance! Stick to it and you will win. " Besides, his hands seem to give me some strength. TanJing and He Han's engagement party is in three hours. I wish them, golden couple, a long life together.

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Episode XIV

I don't know why I suddenly relented. Looking at such a man who used to rely on me and made me envy, he suddenly became as timid and helpless as a child. I do remember the old love he said, but in this old love, there is no attachment anymore, but more pity.

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Ya Qin is leaving, and Lingling wants to talk to me. I have the cheek to ask Chen for more money, 2000 yuan a month. For Luo Zijun in the past, buying a pair of shoes was not enough. I can't sleep, but I must, or I can't stand going to work tomorrow. I want to cry, but I can't cry, otherwise my eyes will be swollen tomorrow and I will be scolded by the manager. I want to curse the bitterness of life loudly, but I must refrain from laughing. In front of the children, I want to say over and over again that everything is fine. Who says life is short? I feel that I have lived enough in just a few days.

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Episode fifteen

I don't know if I should say yes. I wish he Han's mobile phone was on the other end to teach me how to do it at this time. I close my eyes. I wonder what He Han would do. He will scold me for being compassionate and easy to compromise, and he will make me insist on protecting myself.

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Episode 17

He Han left, leaving a room full of peace. In fact, this is my first quiet night with Pinger these days. I'm actually sleepy, but I can't bear to sleep. I hope to stay in this gentle village as long as possible. Although I know it will be lost soon, even now, I still remember everything about that night, even the smell of the lights outside the window and the wind. Now I finally dare to admit that it was not that night that moved me, but He Han.

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It is a pleasure to be able to do one thing and prove that you are still valuable. It seems that I am ten years younger, refreshed and want to accept more challenges, all thanks to He Han. If I can really be ten years younger, if I am unmarried and have no children, if I am not a friend of Tang Jing, I will definitely fall in love with He Han.

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The eighteenth episode

Pinger is seldom at home at night, but she is restless. It turns out that being busy is a good thing, and there is no time to miss the past or worry about the future. On the contrary, once I stop, I have no time to digest my emotions for a while.

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I don't know what I can do, but I am lucky to have such a good friend to share my happiness and sadness with me. If there are several people in the world that I can't live up to, then Tang Jing must be the most important one, but God's favorite game is to test people's strongest beliefs.

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The twentieth episode

He Han and I are the distance and difference between birds and fish. I look forward to his criticism, guidance and encouragement, even if it is only an occasional visit and a few words. Besides, I don't have any more ideas. I know what kind of world I belong to, where I should go and who I will spend the rest of my life with.

Episode 22

I was really going to accept laojin. There is a good man who is willing to take care of me and my son. What else can I ask for? This should be a little gift from God for the rest of my life. I am afraid that if I ask for more, I will lose everything I have because of greed, just like the old woman in the story of fisherman and goldfish.

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Episode 24

I used to think my mom was fooling around. Now it seems that she has her reasons and is willing to donate blood. In the end, it is a good result. As for what happened in Laojin today, it woke me up like a pot of cold water. Laojin and I actually fell into a relationship of restraint and compromise, safe and friendly, but not happy.

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It's none of your business Have you tried the effect of these four words? After that day, I often take it out and meditate in my heart. When I bought a new dress, some people said it was vulgar; When I took my children to work and didn't earn much money, someone asked me why I didn't hurry to find someone to take over; When I have a lot. .

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Episode 26

The other three people all asked for help halfway, or simply found a place to live nearby. I promised Pinger to pick him up at night. Also, I think He Hang may come here, although it is raining so hard, although it is still one or two hundred kilometers away from Shanghai. My mobile phone is dead. I'm afraid he won't find me when I leave, and of course he may not come at all.

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Duan actually helped me before. I didn't expect me to be so mean and direct. If I had put it in the past, I would have played dumb. But it's different now. I have many things to do. When an accident happens, I will hit the nail on the head the first time, no matter what others think.

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No matter how hard you try, if you don't give up, just like my mother, you can't compete with the years. For the rest of my life, I don't have a perfect role model around me, so I can only grope my way forward uneasily.

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So far, apart from her, I haven't seen an interviewer in any field be promoted to a position in a consulting company. There are too many things to learn and practice.

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I didn't expect that I could learn to annotate Ling calmly, admit her advantages objectively and learn from her.

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Episode 29

During this time, the help He Han gave me may be just a convenient favor for him, as simple as having afternoon tea. But for me, what has changed is my life and my future life. Now, I work hard, on the one hand, for my own safety, on the other hand, only I know, I want him to see that I have not let him waste his effort.

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The thirtieth episode

Since I divorced Chen, I thought I would suffer more and enjoy less in the future. I am ready to meet the gloomy life, and I am also ready to wait for Pinger to grow up and die irretrievably sooner or later. I'm ready for everything, but I'm not ready to love another person.

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3 1 set

It should be like this. Everyone, including myself, expected the result of the story of the prince and princess. My best friend's wedding, I should send them the most sincere wishes from the heart; I should be happy for Tang Jing, and I should be concerned about the preparation and progress of their wedding; It should be hoped that their relationship will stabilize from now on and will not experience any changes.

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Episode 33

I made a big mistake. I see two things about this problem. One is that I try my best to save, stop and stay away. The other was deeply moved by the congratulatory letters again and again, and he wanted to close his eyes and jump out of this abyss and die with him.

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Episode 36

The sky is falling, which is not enough to describe how I felt at that time. My heart was divided into two Luo Zijun, one was so excited that tears filled his eyes, because his congratulatory letter said that he loved me. Another bigger Luo Zijun grabbed my throat and warned me that I had made a huge mistake that violated my conscience and morality, and I would make every effort to make up for it.

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Episode 39

Before that, I never wanted to leave the city. For more than 30 years, all the joys and sorrows have been engraved in one side of the city. I once envied those free people who were comfortable in TV magazines and dreamed that one day I could just leave, but what was holding us back? Is it the bustling day and night or the street I know like the back of my hand, or is it just a few people, their looks, their smiles and the pure atmosphere when they get along?

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On this day, at that moment, I drew a dividing line for my life. I should say goodbye first. Life never gives us time to prepare calmly. I don't know what will be waiting for me at the next intersection, but I have to go there. I can't stay, I can't think, I can't miss it, and I'm afraid I'll make a mistake.

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The 40th episode

At that time, I thought it was the end of my first half of my life, and it was a good ending. At least I let go of my inferiority, remorse, guilt and fear and told He Han the truth. But knowing that the person you love loves you is enough for a relationship.

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For children, life is addition, the more the better; What adults should do is to subtract, thinking that they are reluctant to go back and walk away. It is likely that they will find it unnecessary later.

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Episode 42

I still remember that more than a year ago, TanJing took me to Morningstar, and I saw another Chen and his colleagues I was not familiar with, and it was TanJing who negotiated with Lingling for me. Now that I have changed my role, I take the initiative to defend and protect my friends and relatives. In any case, there is an inspiring relief.

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