He walked through his heart (chapters 1 ~ 5)

When she got divorced, An Qin got drunk and said to her friend, "I never want to see Song Yi again.

It's a pity that she met her ex-husband at a friend's private party in less than ten days.

I can't help it. The circle is that big. She wasn't drunk at that time, so they nodded with a decent smile-it's a decent look. Anyone who sees it should praise it. The two divorced very gracefully. They divorced peacefully. How peaceful is it? Ten minutes before Song Yi started to divorce, An Qin was still talking to him about the Mid-Autumn Festival. She prepared moon cakes and gifts, divided the tastes according to different people's preferences, and told Song Yi about her own arrangements: "Your mother called yesterday to say that there was a small family gathering on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, and there were many rules, so it was hard for you to get away. We went to my mother's in the morning, left for home after lunch, and stayed at our ancestral home at night. "An Qin does everything. After marriage, she quickly found her place in the huge family interpersonal relationship of the Song family. Everyone praised her for her exquisiteness, and even his picky mother was satisfied with this daughter-in-law with a thousand choices-this is the advantage of the right match, and each other is a child who grew up in a big family, and has his own means of personnel relations, which saves trouble and effort. But he was absent-minded. An Qin soon found that he was absent-minded, so he stopped in time, took a sip of the cup on the coffee table, and then asked intimately, "Did you meet something? He pondered for a long time, and then negotiated with An Qin in a calm manner: "Let's get a divorce. "AnQin looked up at him, calm, such as she also appeared extremely fast eyes out of focus, is the confusion caused by the impact is too big, but the surface is not obvious, she quickly react, didn't even ask him if he was joking, eyes inching around on his face, as if to confirm that what he said at this time is thoughtful. She quickly got her own judgment, so she was silent for a moment and asked him, "Why? Song Yi felt that the following words were a bit difficult. He rarely felt guilty about a person like this, but he had to say, "I'm sorry, I had a ... a person I liked very much before, but my family didn't agree ... I met her a few days ago ..." After a few words, An Qin understood the cause and effect of the incident. She held the finger bone of the cup slightly pale and looked at him and asked very quickly: "Song Yi paused, and then said," No ... No, I just met her two days ago. "His words are very difficult, AnQin tight shoulders slightly relax, listen to Song Yi continue to explain," but AnQin, I don't know, six years ago ... when she left me six years ago, she was pregnant. The cup in his hand fell to the ground by mistake, and there was a thick blanket at home. It was picked by An Qin himself after marriage. When the cup fell, there was no sound, and the water was immersed in the carpet, but the color was darker. Only in a trance did she hear Song Yi say, "That child ... that child is five years old this year. An Qin took a long time to find her voice. She was probably thirsty, so her voice was hoarse. She began to arrange the divorce: "This thing started because of you, mom-"She paused and adjusted her wording. "You explain it to your mom, and my parents may have to embarrass you, but I can't stop it. You should be prepared in advance. ""We don't have much property with * * *, and there are two sets of property with * * * under our name. This set belongs to me, and that set in City A is closer to your company and belongs to you. "I will pack your luggage in this house and give it to your assistant before tonight. "Song Yi has been listening silently, and then she interrupted:" I am sorry for you, and the house in A city is yours. In addition, some debt funds we have are for you. An Qin silently nodded. They don't have much property, but they are not people who care about these things. Song Yi only lightened his guilt in this way. An Qin didn't speak. After a long time, he said, "You can handle the divorce yourself, and you can explain it to your elders. "She rubbed her temples wearily, and then said," My elders are convinced. You sign the divorce agreement and send it to me. I'll send it to you after I sign it. After you get the divorce certificate, just let your assistant put it in the living room of that house in A city. I'll get it when I have time. "Things so coherent, than Song Yi ever in my mind is simple, he even thought about how he should persuade AnQin, but she didn't give him a chance. The above thoughts seem to have exhausted her energy, so she smiled slightly, alienated and strange: "Mr. Song, it's getting late, so go to work first if you have something to do. By the way, don't forget to leave the key at home." "Song Yi stood up. Just two steps after turning around, I heard An Qin behind me calling him, "Mr. Song, don't forget to take the moon cakes and gifts from the living room. "She smiled," I won't go to the Mid-Autumn Festival. "When you go out, Song Yi looks back at the living room. Anqin leans back on the sofa, covers her face with her hands, and looks very thin. When Song Yi walks out of the door, she even wonders if Anqin is crying because her body is trembling slightly.

but his steps stagnated for a while, but he still didn't look back.

Maybe it's wrong, he thought. After all, she was so calm and calm, but it's also true that they didn't get married because they were in love. Divorce broke Song Yi's heart, and friends in the circle and An Qin gossip. Song Yi's mother flew into a rage, and Song Yi's face was covered with bright slap marks during that time. In fact, the old man called An Qin once and hated the tone of iron and steel: "If he wants to leave, won't you take some measures?" ""children? The child belongs to the Song family. Is she Jing Zhao? I think the child enters the Song family's door. Does she deserve it? "At last, she softened her voice and said," Qinqin, mom knows that you have been wronged, and mom makes decisions for you, and you-"An Qin interrupted her and said," Auntie, "which obviously choked her. An Qin continued," Auntie, I have agreed to divorce. "This aunt hurt the old man's heart. She actually likes Anqin very much, and she is also good to her. It can be said that being a daughter hurts, so she hung up the phone for a long time with a sigh. Things have gone too far to such a big, probably not a month, the Song family is softened, and Song Yi's mother is angry again, and she can't help but stand in front of her and call her grandmother timidly. The divorce agreement was sent to settle down by Song Yi himself. An Qin's parents are decent people and professors from well-known universities. They can't do abusive fighting, but they are short of breath. Song Yi knelt in front of the two old people for a day before An Qin's mother called her back.

Song Yi is a favored son of heaven. An Qin came back and saw him standing under the ginkgo tree in his yard. The twists and turns during this period probably exhausted his mind, but soon he was in faithful wife. Ginkgo garden was rustling in the branches, and golden layers spread over them. An Qin stood behind him and called him. He answered and turned back. An Qin even smiled slightly and said, "Didn't you just say send it to me? "Song Yi was silent:" After all, I want to apologize to the two old people. After that, he looked at An Qin with dark eyes and said, "I'm sorry, too. An Qin tilted his head very quickly, blinked hard, then held out his hand and said, "OK, give me the agreement. An Qin signed the letter and sent it to Song Yi's assistant. Soon after, she received a text message from Song Yi saying that the divorce certificate had been put on the porch of the house in A city, so that she could get it at any time if necessary.

She politely replied "I see, thank you".

Their communication circles overlap too much, even if they deliberately avoid it, sometimes it is inevitable. When they met at that private party, they nodded and smiled, and everyone's eyes were more or less fixed on them. Song Yi also politely asked, "How are you recently?" "

" thank you, fine, and you? "

" me too.

just like this, it seems that they have not slept together for more than three years-three years, five months and six days.

Of course, the trace of more than three years is not without trace. During the period of their divorce, An Qin felt uncomfortable. After the divorce, she experienced symptoms of insomnia, loss of appetite and vomiting for a long time. She thought it was gastrointestinal discomfort caused by fatigue and insomnia. After the symptoms lasted for more than half a month, she went to the hospital. After holding the test paper, she sat on the bench in the garden downstairs of the hospital for a whole afternoon. The sun was still hot in late summer. She was completely exposed to the sun, but she still felt cold. Her arms were tightly wrapped around herself, which was really bloody. She sneered at the bottom of her heart, but she could not help but reveal a desolate smile on her face. An Qin saw Song Yi when he took takeout. After the divorce, she lived in the apartment she bought. Song Yi came once. He probably searched all the places he knew. When An Qin went back with paella in slippers, he saw Song Yi's car downstairs. He was leaning on the door, smoking a cigarette, and three or four cigarette butts were lost at his feet. An Qin suddenly realized that the hospital she went to was invested by the Song family, the major shareholder. After she got married, she had a regular physical examination in this hospital. When she went to the hospital, she didn't think of it at all, so it was normal for Song Yi to know the news so quickly. In fact, Song Yi is the most restrained and forbearing person Anqin has ever seen, which probably has something to do with his growth. His mother, who has a strong desire for control, has suppressed his forbearing personality. He is very self-controlled and rarely smokes. Now that he has smoked so many cigarettes in such a short time, Anqin can almost feel his anxiety and fan her head-on in the form of emotional materialization. So she stopped unconsciously, Song Yi looked up and saw her one eye, then quickly put out the cigarette butts, raised her hand and waved the smoke in the air, then looked at AnQin, and the two men confronted each other in silence. After a long time, An Qin heard him ask, in a difficult tone: "What are you going to do, this child? They have been married for more than three years, and they are separated from each other. Song Yi is a very responsible person in his bones. If he hadn't filed for divorce this time, she never knew that he had someone in his heart. He has been fulfilling her husband's responsibilities, being tolerant, considerate and steady, remembering every anniversary and her birthday, and remembering her preferences and tastes. Apart from not loving her, this man is simply a model husband of twenty-four filial piety. Now he stood in front of her and asked word by word with difficulty, "You don't want to keep this child, do you?" An Qin didn't know what kind of emotion and expression she wanted to face Song Yi who asked this sentence, so she tried to calmly ask, "Are we divorced? This is my business, Mr. Song. "Song Yi hanging eyes looked at her, he is very tall, so looking at people has a kind of imposing manner, but the roadside lights are projected, broken in his eyes, and there seems to be something surging in the thick eyes, but it's a pity that he pressed it down. Later, in retrospect, the only thing that can make An Qin feel better is that he has a dumb and deep voice, as if he is sorry for his decision, or he is sad about this child who has no chance of being born. He said, "You know An Qin, this child ... if our two families knew about the existence of this child ..." He hesitated, and An Qin understood in an instant. If their two families knew about the existence of this child, she and Song, The chips at both ends of the scale are clear, and it is so easy to choose, so Song Yi doesn't need to think too much, so when he heard the news, he immediately drove over. An Qin, who didn't say a word of nonsense at the time of divorce, was able to smile at jokes from insiders. When she saw Song Yi, she was able to maintain a decent and kind-hearted An Qin, and finally raised her hand. After a few months, that heavy slap finally slapped Song Yi in the face. He suffered in silence. She went to C city alone for the operation, and both of An Sok's contacts are wide. Any hospital in A city, after such an operation, will spread to the ears of two old people, so she can only go out. When she was lying in bed under anesthesia, she saw the ginkgo tree outside the window. It was windy that day, and ginkgo garden rustled down. She remembered that day when she was holding the diagnosis, but she didn't know what to do. After thinking for a long time without thinking, she ordered the only normal meal after the divorce. At that time, she thought that it would be bad if the child was born with malnutrition. She didn't dare to tell any close relatives and friends about abortion. She came out of the hospital bed, clutching her lower abdomen, and a tall figure leaned against the wall. Song Yi knew that the time and place of her operation was normal. It was obvious that she was the one who performed the operation, but he seemed to be in great pain, with one hand pressed against his forehead and his eyes closed. An Qin just finished the operation and was shaking all over, so everything was shaking. When Song Yi came to help her with a trembling hand, she pushed her away. She didn't have any strength, and she didn't have the strength, but Song Yi stumbled, leaned against the wall to steady herself, and said sorry to her with a pale face. She was numb with pain and passed him without looking back. Song Yi finally got his wish, and it was already a year later. At that time, she was on vacation in Australia, and the people around her protected An Qin very well. She brushed the circle of friends and saw the photos shared by their friends in the circle of friends. It was an invitation, with a bouquet of flowers in the background and a white tablecloth. It was probably the wedding scene, and it was so shot that she could see two names: Song Yi and Zhao Jing, who looked up and wrote side by side. She paused, and when she refreshed, she saw a familiar friend comment below: "What are you doing in a circle of friends? "I was afraid that she would see it, and that circle of friends was quickly deleted-I don't know if she was blocked from resending it. Someone called her at night, and she was lying on the balcony, with the blue sky hanging low, and her friends were prevaricating for a long time. Finally, even An Qin couldn't listen to it anymore, so she asked bluntly, "Did Song Yi and his first love make a positive result?" "Her tone is too calm, no indignation, no sadness, so my friend breathed a sigh of relief, probably thinking that Song Yi divorced her for a grassroots first love, just hurting her face. What are the feelings of two people who got married because of their life experience? So my friend started gossiping with her with great interest when she was shocked, and her tone was disdainful: "You don't know the old lady of the Song family who can't get on the table?" Such a big family, the eldest son and grandson's daughter-in-law, even the banquet only set five tables. "When she married Song Yi, Shan Song and An's wedding banquet was held for eight days, and her friends were aggrieved by An Qin, so the tone was obviously gloating:" It is said that the old lady of the Song family is too original, and the woman who came from an unknown source did not cover the door and quietly joined the Song family. Even if she gave Song Yi face, how can she make a big splash? "This is to settle down face, AnQin silence, finally wearily hang up the phone, thinking blank, like thinking a lot of things, likeno.. Finally, she fell asleep on the couch, as if she had a dream in a daze.

In the dream, when she just married Song Yi, they went to Delphi for their honeymoon together. Delphi was her choice, which was not the best choice for honeymoon, but she liked it very much, because in Greek legend, one day, Zeus wanted to find out where the center of the world was, and he released a pigeon in opposite directions. The two pigeons finally met in Delphi and both stayed on an oval boulder, so Zeus decided that Delphi was the world's. A very romantic city. However, two people who have no emotional foundation have nothing to do with romance on their honeymoon. From the time they set out to put down their luggage at the hotel, Song Yi never stopped handling official business. She and Song Yi came into contact with marriage at first, but the elders of both sides felt it was appropriate. No one mentioned feelings. An Qin was good at hiding his feelings, but how could she?