The initial study of English, some recent insights

I have been exposed to English for nearly 15 years. A month ago, I thought my English was a mess, and now I feel full of confidence. From the beginning of learning English, along the way, I have learned a lot and some truths, which are also applicable to life:

1. When you are in trouble, you can't hide. When you encounter problems, you will feel uneasy. If we avoid it, the problem will not be solved and will still exist. The next time you encounter this problem, you will suffer the same physical and mental torture, and it will become more and more painful in the future. The only way out is to solve it.

English in junior high school and senior high school is particularly poor, and the number of passing exams is very small, let alone speaking and listening. At that time, I hated English very much Even though I know I should improve my English, I always avoid it. When I do my homework, English is always written at the end. Sometimes when I don't have time or don't want to write, I just scribble A, B, C and D. In this way, junior high school and high school have passed, and English for the senior high school entrance examination and college entrance examination has also dragged me down, especially for the college entrance examination. My English score is less than half of my total score.

Finally, I went to college. I have taken English classes both in my freshman year and sophomore year. The final exam always passes the passing line and almost fails. I didn't have an English class until my junior year. I thought I would finally stop learning English. At that time, Band 4 barely passed, not to mention Band 6. I failed the exam many times, and I haven't passed it now. In this way, I basically didn't learn English in the first three years of college, almost all the words were forgotten, and my grammar was a mess. Until the next semester of my junior year, I decided to take the postgraduate entrance examination. English is a compulsory course, so I have to learn English by myself. In the process of postgraduate entrance examination, learning English is simply torture for me. The students around me have a bigger vocabulary and do more problems than me. What can I compete with others? But I want to be admitted to graduate school, so I can only work hard on English. During the postgraduate entrance examination, it was the most difficult time for me to learn English from junior high school to university. I memorized the core word book for the postgraduate entrance examination for almost three times. 10 I did the real exam questions seriously. This is serious. I looked up words I didn't understand. I did the real question on 10, and began to recite the composition and template two months before the exam.

To tell the truth, even though I have gone through the postgraduate entrance examination and studied English hard, I feel that my English level has not improved. English for the postgraduate entrance examination only tests reading and writing, which is an advantage for me with good understanding ability. Even if I don't understand some sentences, I can guess them and write a composition by memorizing them. Therefore, even after the postgraduate entrance examination, my grammar is still a mess, and my listening and speaking have not improved at all. During the graduate school, because many documents were in English, I was hard to understand myself at first, and I didn't know many proper nouns. For me, the troubles brought by English are coming again. Reading literature is inefficient, and sometimes it takes a lot of time not to understand, which is very painful. Sometimes I want to work after my master's degree because of English problems, and I don't want to worry about English anymore.

Later, I studied PhD. In my second year as a doctor, I had the opportunity to exchange ideas abroad. At this time, English became my obstacle. To contact a foreign teacher, you need to send an email in English, speak English in the interview and pass the English qualification examination. The prerequisite for getting the opportunity to go abroad is to get the above English emails, english interview and English exams in English, and then look at the scientific research ability. Only when I have passed English and scientific research can I get this opportunity. During that time, I studied English crazily. Of course, my heart was tortured by Britain. It is no exaggeration to say that that time was very painful, because I couldn't pass not only the written English test but also the oral and listening tests. Even after studying crazy for a while, I still didn't get in, and I didn't dare to take IELTS. I can't bear the blow from English at this time. At that time, I thought to myself, the senior high school entrance examination went to the county town because of English, and the college entrance examination went to a university I didn't want to go to because of English. I think I took the postgraduate entrance examination because I was lucky. Now, after all, I lost an opportunity to communicate abroad because of English. At that time, I felt that English was a stumbling block to many turning points. My heart is suffering because of English. Every time English gets in the way, I say to myself, I want to learn English well, but after a long time, or someone helps me solve the problem, I have no idea of learning English well anymore. I told myself that the problem was solved (in fact, it was only the problem at that time, but the English that hindered the problem was not solved at that time, which means that I will still suffer if I link with English in the future). Later, with the help of two friends, I practiced interviewing foreign tour guides. In this way, I passed the interview of the foreign guide (because my pronunciation is accurate and I practiced many times in advance, so I passed). As a matter of fact, I know my English listening and speaking are not very good. I was just ready at that time, and I didn't understand it, but I guessed it.

In this way, I came to the American Empire. When I first came, I was full of freshness and in a good mood. For a long time, I found that I couldn't communicate with others, which meant that I was isolated and I couldn't communicate with my tutor and foreign friends around my classmates in English. For the first three months, I felt like a stone in my heart every day. I have to face the troubles brought by English every day. I am defeated by English again and again every day. Very painful, really painful. I have encountered the problems brought by English before, and they are all over, thinking that they will never intersect with English again. This idea is wrong, because I have suffered a lot from English, because English has lost many opportunities. If I don't solve the problem of English, it will have a great influence on me, and even make me regret not learning English well.

Just a month ago, I told myself in my heart that I must learn English well. I gave myself three months to do nothing but learn English well. In this way, I insist on reciting words every day, watching English videos (TED/ Friends) every day, listening to VOA, then imitating, communicating with native speakers for 3-4 hours every week, and so on. I think I should be able to communicate basically I don't think English will be a stumbling block to my future progress. Of course, I will continue to learn English every day and try my best to speak like my mother tongue.

2. Overcoming difficulties by yourself will also make you confident.

Before, I had many opportunities to communicate with foreigners. At home, foreign scholars come to our school to give lectures, and they need students to pick them up and accompany them all the way. This is actually a good opportunity. I only brought foreigners once, because everyone in the group was busy and had no time, so I dragged them. At that time, my English was not good, I was not confident, I didn't know what to say, and I was afraid I would make a mistake. In the first three months of coming to the United States, I seldom spoke, whether in group meetings or when I went out, because if I wanted to speak, I had to use English. I'm afraid I made a mistake and was laughed at by people around me. I remember a group meeting, and it was my turn to make a report. I was very embarrassed when the foreign tour guide suddenly asked me my name. I didn't understand it then. I thought it was because he didn't understand what I was saying that he was going to tell it again from the beginning. As soon as I opened my mouth, all the other partners in the group laughed, and I realized my problem. It was embarrassing at that time, but since this incident, I thought to myself, it's so wrong that everyone else laughed. I can talk to foreigners when I go to the supermarket to buy food. When I go to the English group, I don't care if what I said is wrong. I just bite the bullet and say it. I find foreigners can understand me. Later, I met an old American lady, and we met once a week and chatted. In this way, the more I speak, the more I dare to speak, and the more confident I feel. This confidence is not only the confidence to speak English, but also extends to my life and study. For example, at work, doing experiments, I think it's no big deal, I can, just like this, do experiments with a classmate, the conditions are very difficult, but we did it, yes, we did it, which made me naturally express myself in the group report; The same is true in life. I have been exercising recently. Think about it. All the problems that English has bothered me for so long can be solved. What can you not insist on exercising? It's been going on for half a month. When you come out of the gym, you are not only happy, but also in good spirits, and people will become confident. In my opinion, if you can stick to what you want to do, you will give yourself great confidence, such as fitness and learning English.