A secret love, across mountains and seas

When did we start to meet? It was probably in the autumn of my sophomore year in high school. I received a message on QQ from Ye Jiashu. He said, Zhang, can you lend me three hundred yuan? I need it urgently. You can lend it to me first and I will pay it back to you this week.

I was stunned for three seconds, and then quickly replied with one word: Yes. Three minutes later, I followed the steps he told me and transferred three hundred yuan to an account.

Ye Jiashu is the monitor of our class. He is dazzling, fashionable and fun-loving. Although his grades are not very top-notch, he is still excellent. I knew him when I was in high school but never expected to meet him. It wasn't until our sophomore year in high school that he and I took a photo of our passionate love in the same class and became our monitor. In order to facilitate communication, he added the QQ account of every student in the class.

Originally I only had 600 yuan a month for living expenses, but after lending Ye Jiashu 300 yuan, my life became tighter.

During physical education class on Monday, Ye Jiashu and I were assigned to a group to practice volleyball. During the break, he asked me: "You lent me three hundred yuan that day on QQ, right?"

I nodded dully, then waved my hand: "If you are in trouble now, don't be in a hurry to pay me back." Yes, I...I still have money to spend."

Ye Jiashu's hug from the man in his trouser pocket was very warm. He took out three hundred yuan and handed it to me: "Thank you, Zhang." I blushed nervously, lowered my head and ran away in a hurry.

I thought this was the end of the matter. But two weeks later, my deskmate Gu Xiaotao told me a secret. She said: "Did you receive a message from the squad leader on QQ some time ago? He said that he was in trouble and needed 300 yuan urgently. What did you say? Anyone with any intelligence would know that something like this is fake, but someone was deceived."

I was shocked.

"Let’s not mention that a family like the squad leader does not lack 300 yuan at all. Let’s just say that the bank account is not his. In fact, this is an obvious account theft. Among the 54 people in the class, I heard that only one person sent the money stupidly. I don’t know who that fool was. ”

My head seems to be about to explode.

One day after school, I stayed on duty and got a chance to be alone with him.

"Um..." I said hesitantly, "Your QQ account has been hacked, right? The one who borrowed money from me is not you at all, right?"

Ye Jiashu scratched his head: "Ah, you know everything."

"Then I'll give you the money back."

I left before the party was over. The night was extremely dark, and the north wind was cutting at me like a blade. I walked in a hurry, almost stumbling. Under the tree on the dormitory floor, there was a man standing. When he heard the footsteps, he turned around - it was indeed him. "No." Ye Jiashu waved his hand and said seriously, "Zhang, although this is a scam, the fact that you remitted the money so readily shows that you are a person who values ??the friendship between classmates, and it also shows that you regard me as a friend. I really Thank you very much.”

“I am too stupid.” I feel very guilty. He smiled and patted my shoulder. "It's okay, you don't have to blame yourself. However, you should be more cautious when encountering this kind of thing in the future. After all, there are too many liars now." I nodded, then lowered my head and pretended to clean the classroom seriously. It's just that day, I was immersed in the moment when he gently patted my shoulder.

2

When you pay attention to someone, you will be surprised to find that there are so many intersections and so many "coincidences" in your lives. For example, one day while waiting for the 902 bus at the bus station, I discovered that Ye Jiashu was in the queue behind me. I pretended to turn around casually and whispered, "Hi."

He also raised his hand to me enthusiastically.

The journey home that day seemed particularly long, probably because I cherished every minute and every second. I sat next to Ye Jiashu and chatted with him all the way. I have always been taciturn, but that day I was extra brave.

"The proficiency test is coming soon, how are you doing in your review?" Ye Jiashu asked me. As a classmate, he already knew how bad my science scores were.

"I'm not sure, even if I get 40 points in the exam, I'm not sure." I replied annoyed.

"No, it's very simple. Otherwise, I'll teach you."

"Okay. Then you have to be patient when you tutor me, because I really "It's so stupid." I replied excitedly the moment I got off the car.

When Ye Jiashuguo was a child, the woman lived in a rural area. Her family was poor and there was no air conditioning. The women's clothes were sparse, tattered and devoid of warmth. On winter nights, when the sun goes down and darkness comes, women hide in bed early and fall asleep early. It's still cold, the woman's hands and feet are cold, icy cold, the woman is shivering in bed. However, he lived up to my expectations. After the self-study class every night, he would stay in the classroom and tutor me for another hour. Those 60 minutes became the happiest time of my day.

We gradually became familiar with each other, and I also discovered that even the perfect Ye Jiashu would have some small flaws. For example, he is not very courageous. He does not dare to take the elevator alone. He will be a little panicked when going to dark places. So every time after the school lights were turned off, he would always wait for me. Then she stopped crying, raised her head, and carefully wiped away the tears that overflowed from the corners of her eyes with her fingers. She said, don't make me cry anymore, I don't have that much. I have to spend more money to buy cosmetics. This makeup will cost me dozens of dollars! The latter two left together because he didn't dare to walk up those dark stairs alone.

After knowing these shortcomings of his, I finally became a Hindu and walked to the holy temple in the Himalayas for pilgrimage. The journey was very long, the mountain road was very difficult, and the air was very thin. Although he carried very little luggage, he still struggled to walk along the way and was out of breath. He kept walking and looking forward, hoping that his destination would appear in front of him soon. Don't feel so inferior. In order to live up to his efforts, every night when I get home, I will remember that I am a young girl with long hair that is like satin draped over my shoulders. She sat quietly

Still looking straight at the screen

But it was empty inside. Review your homework for another hour under the desk lamp. When I was tired, I kept writing in my notebook the sentence "The Queen is growing taller than the trees, and the oranges are blooming." His name, to me, is a spell that attacks my heart.

3

Because of Ye Jiashu’s help, I passed the high school entrance exam very smoothly, “I’m not afraid of your jokes. I tried to read and even write stories. I was imagining those plots while doing the laundry. I replied, yes, he has no love, thinking about his explanation - when I finally got the courage to tell him that I also wanted to write a novel, he didn't laugh at me. On the contrary. With gentleness in his eyes, he patiently explained the elements of the novel to me and achieved pretty good results. Then, the chaotic senior year of high school came as scheduled.

Ye Jiashu and I were not divided. We went to the same class, and we both chose accommodation for the college entrance examination. Even in the senior year of high school, when I cherished time like gold, as long as I went to him with a problem, he would definitely put down what he was doing, patiently explain to me, and do it every day. During morning exercises, I would wave to him from a distance and say "Come on"

When I get the grade list after each exam, I will first look for Ye Jiashu's name and secretly write it down. His scores in each subject: Chinese 102, Mathematics 137, English 111... posted it on the wall, read it every day, and then worked hard and vowed to catch up with him every time she finished the mutton hot pot. I would write to a very old e-mail address. It was his first e-mail address. With the desire for the future, I could only remain silent with Ye Jiashu, because I knew in my heart that although this place gave me happiness. and sweet love, but after all, this is just a temporary stop in my life, and I will choose to leave soon. But how can I let go of this relationship with Die? She has given me endless care and attention in this foreign land. She gave me encouragement and confidence when I was frustrated in life.

Seeing Die's peaceful appearance, a feeling of pity welled up in my heart. But I dare not give her any promises. After all, we are too young and the road ahead is too unpredictable. Our childish shoulders cannot bear the heavy promise of love. With the courage to fight, I kept moving forward on the road to college entrance examination.

After the college entrance examination, the school held a final party for us. But that day, I didn't see Ye Jiashu. His classmates told me that Ye Jiashu failed the exam. I tried to call him, but he had turned off his phone. That summer, I was extremely miserable and unhappy.

Regarding his failure in the college entrance examination, I only found out the whole story later. It turned out that after school, Mo Xiaohan went to take the bus as usual. She looked into the carriage, hoping to see Chen Fan. She wanted to talk to him about Li Xiang, although she didn't know what she wanted to say specifically. What. On the morning of the Chinese language test, he left home early and wanted to meet me at my house to ride to the examination room with me. Because we were assigned to the same examination room. But this confused Ye Jiashu left his admission ticket on the bus. By the time he tried hard to retrieve his admission ticket, he had already missed the Chinese exam.

Everyone said it was such a pity that students with such excellent grades had to study hard for another year. I asked him why he didn't tell me the truth. He smiled on the phone and said, "It's not a big deal. Just think of it as another year of training. Anyway, I'm young and I won't be old if I study for another year." Come on, be more and more cheerful, so that more people will like you."

My next sentence will come out immediately: "What about you? Have you ever liked me?"

But before I could say anything, he had already hung up the phone.

Then, I started my college life. Ye Jiashu started his rereading. When we heard this, he became anxious and said to Shen Aojun nervously: "You can't let others do this for you under any circumstances. No matter how busy I am at work, I will definitely be there in person on the wedding day. Please don't worry!" After saying this, he was full of guilt. Said: "Yanzi, every woman who longs for love wants to show off her wedding photos and show her happiness and sweetness to her relatives and friends. However, due to the nature of my work, I cannot make it public. Xiao Xuenan pretended to be calm, and then there were Prize Q&A, hello, looking at your outfit, you must be a new junior, right? What is your dream? Your identity must continue to be "lurking" in your life, and you can't even make it public at your wedding. I really wronged you by showing up." The contact gradually faded away, and he didn't even have time to open my email after I sent it.

Later, I heard that he went to Hong Kong to study at university. When I went home during the summer vacation of my junior year, I saw him walking down a long street holding a girl's hand. He was still tall, thin, and dazzling, but I could tell that he was more composed. I wanted to go up and say hello, but in the end I held back. I'm afraid that if I'm not careful, my love that was finally broken will quietly grow again.

I think of my senior year in high school again. I once wrote such a love letter to Ye Jiashu under the orange desk lamp:

I long for one day to cook a pot of lotus seed and lily soup in the evening dusk, facing you, and being with you. ***old.

A secret love, across mountains and seas. And I can only hold the key and continue to knock on the thick wall of your heart.

Secret Love