I want to know what the past life was like, why a love story in this life made me so bitter, and what was it for? If Buddha is a friend, please let me be enlightened.

I can see that you are also a smart person, so I will make a brief comment as an outsider.

Your childhood was really miserable. There is no need to trace back to the past life. Everyone has done something wrong in their past lives, and you survived.

You have learned a lot about miscellaneous studies and a little about Buddhism. It's a pity that you didn't learn the essence, and all the dross were absorbed and applied flexibly to yourself. What you learn is not to benefit yourself, but to persecute yourself. I advise you to abandon the idea of ghosts and gods at once, or it will get worse and worse. Ghosts are not terrible, but they will scare themselves to death.

Don't believe too much in fate, it's in your own hands.

You have experienced emotional things. Don't give up because of two failures, but don't rush for success. Talking about the process of making friends, the more you pay before getting married, the less potential and charm you have for him.

Your sleep quality is not good. I suggest you study Buddhist scriptures before going to bed. If you don't dabble, you will benefit a lot.

Remember, don't be too sensitive. Most sensitive women are unlucky.