I finally understand why some people avoid marriage-written a week before marriage.

I'm going to get married in a week, and I suddenly have a deep fear about it. Suddenly a voice in my head said, what if I don't go? I'm shocked. I don't know why I have this idea.

I have known Xiao D for 4 years, been in love for 3 years and lived together for 2 years. All the roads went smoothly. He is an ideal gentleman, who works hard, loves life and is diligent. Most importantly, he is not a stupid person. He has his own ideas about many things and will not die. He is practical to him. When we met, it was empty for several years, as if we all adhered to the principle of quality first and quantity second. I can always laugh inadvertently in conversation. I met my parents when I was in love 1 year. Because they are relatively independent, meeting my parents is just a formality. After that, I basically got married without any accident. In fact, this is how the story develops. Speaking of the second year, the family began to urge marriage. Both of them think they are about the same age. It's time to get married, so they set the wedding date for the third year.

In the past, when watching TV, some people eloped at the moment of marriage and escaped from marriage. I think that's really incredible. If you don't love or don't want to, why don't you quit when the loss is minimal? Be sure to let the whole world see the joke and let your parents pay for your willfulness?

I am a contradictory person, a rational but free and easy person. Our initial attraction was mutual fun. It seems that all the fun is used up when you are in love. Speaking of marriage, I feel that life has begun to look like boiled water. After getting along, we have no more novel topics to talk about, and we don't talk much every day, but our feelings are really good and we can fart in front of each other. God knows I made up my mind before I fell in love and wanted to be shy forever in love or marriage, but who knows that life is so bloody that I don't even bother to pretend now. That's what I am, and I have a bad taste for each other. God, all I remember now is farting ....

I wonder if it's strange for a man not to cheat in such a life. When you can have an endless conversation with another person, the balance in your heart will naturally tilt. In fact, whether it is a man or a woman, when another person feeds you spiritual food, it is inevitable that your heart will not itch. In the early days of love, I was more confident. In the later period of love, I pretended to be more confident and pretended to be a couple. What about cheating? How dare you do it on the first day?

I am in YY again. I have asked Mr. D many times. Are you bored? I'm so bored. Why do you like me? Mr. d said, maybe I owed you too much in my last life. I'm here to pay my debts for life. I ask too many questions, and I will say to myself, why should I ask him? This gave him confidence and made him think I was poor, so I just held back and couldn't help asking.

I have a lot of fears, the fear of losing my freedom, the fear of becoming a yellow-faced woman, the fear of not being able to leave, the fear that someone can legally control you, the fear that life is impossible, and all kinds of messy fears are mixed together. This feeling is like a domino. When you accidentally pop up one, the rest will arrive.

I wonder if there are many people like me. Everyone keeps a perfect smile in life. Even if they complain, they are happy to complain. No one can really say what's in their innermost thoughts. And people like me feel very insecure. Pretend not to be afraid of being hurt because you are afraid of being hurt. It doesn't matter. Few people can walk into their hearts, but once they walk in, the key becomes a machine gun. As long as he shoots, it will become a piece, so while enjoying the warmth, they are afraid of being hurt, and there is always a hurdle in their hearts, so they feel that no one can get in, so there is only themselves in this world.

Now, after marriage, the world is two people. Whether you like it or not, you should try your best to care and love each other and let him in, because otherwise, it will be unfair to him and the marriage will be difficult to continue. However, you let him in, worried that he would get hurt one day, and when all this is unclear, escaping becomes a choice.

So I understand why some people avoid marriage, no matter what the reason. That moment, it was a choice. It is a choice that does not need to change and maintain the status quo. It is not surprising that impulsive and fearful people choose to escape.