On the Cause and Effect of Breaking with family of origin

Probably from the time I wanted to buy a house, my mother never supported me and always wondered if I had money to buy something for her after I bought a house. It's chilling. I didn't ask my family for money, but I still think I should give her the money I earned. I tried to get a salary from me before, but I refused, because I had a similar behavior before, saying to keep it for me, but I didn't return it. I'm not very angry about it, but there are too many such things. I spent money on moral criticism because I was sick since I was a child, so I put up with it. However, I suffered. Until the age of 26, it's time to say goodbye to these people who only take and don't pay. I can only express my regret for their loss of their daughter.

My plan is to go back when my grandmother dies and go back when my parents die. Don't go back at other times, and don't answer video calls. Wechat can also go back I will never call them again, and I will never give them any red envelopes. Their business has nothing to do with me, and my business has nothing to do with them. I started working for myself when I was 16 years old, and I have earned it every year since then. It's been eight years, and I've paid hundreds of thousands. If I buy things, including my brother's marriage, my sister's marriage, my dowry, my brother's tuition and other expenses, it should be 200 thousand. In recent years, I have been drained of my income like a vampire, never caring about me or understanding me. Dropping out of school is also an indirect hope that I will not go to school and go out to work. I put up with all this only because I was sick when I was a child. Has been kidnapping me with this morality. Growing up, I have no new clothes. My brother and sister wear patches and holes. I remember that there was no cotton-padded clothes in the second day of junior high school, and a girl gave me the rest, but she also wore patches for many years. I can't wear it anymore. I only have two pairs of trousers and two pairs of shoes, and the soles are leaking. My feet are wet in class on rainy days, so I will hang them at the door when I get home and wear them tomorrow. I thought my family was poor, didn't I? But it's not particularly bad. My sister wears clothes for two or three days, and my brother has many shoes all year round, and there are more than 400 enviable down jackets. Every year, parents take their younger brothers and sisters shopping to buy clothes. I was the only one at home, admiring the new clothes they bought. Back in the second day of junior high school, I was absent from class because I couldn't go to class without clothes. This is the first time in my life. Besides, my mother didn't buy me anything because I was absent from school last time because I didn't have clothes to wear. My grandmother always advised me to drag me to the stall at night to buy a 50-yuan cotton-padded coat, which is a rare new dress for me. Why should I be treated so unfairly? And under such treatment, I also help my family do housework and farm work. My brother and sister have never touched the spring. At that time, I was unloved. And I was overwhelmed by the moral criticism of 40 thousand yuan. Why should I break up? Because such things will exist not only when I was a child, but also when I am an adult. My brothers and sisters' money belongs to them, and the money I earn belongs to my parents. This illusion made me born to pay my debts. At first, I tried to pay off my debts and give them the money I earned. But when I had my own ideas and thought about my life, I found that what I got was opposition and abuse, which made me think a lot and calculated my own expenses. I spent 40 thousand when I was born. Because of congenital heart disease, my parents didn't go for prenatal examination, and my mother learned to smoke and drink when she was pregnant. I don't know if this is the cause, but in the end, all the mistakes in this disease are blamed on me. My parents didn't give up my treatment. I owe them my life, and I will pay it back with my whole life. This is an idea passed on to me by my parents since childhood, which made my childhood, adolescence and youth very painful and kept me alive. Compromise, devotion and self-mockery become serious suicidal tendencies. Since I was a child, I only fantasized about having a parent who loved me to ease my pain. Later it became a bad habit. When I meet something that makes me sad, I daydream to relieve my pain. Secondly, the tuition fee from primary school to junior high school is 9 years compulsory, and the book fee is 20 yuan every year. After arriving in the county seat, it costs about 600 yuan per semester for three years, with no pocket money and no clothes. There are no toys, only snacks rubbing against my brothers and sisters. By the time I was sixteen, my family spent less than 654.38 million yuan, and the expenses of my brothers and sisters would never be lower than mine.

? If only money is involved, psychological problems may not be the case. Should I use the best idea or the worst idea to understand their behavior? Some things have a profound impact on me. One is that my relatives come to visit me every year, let me stand in the middle, criticize my exam results, dig at me as a silly child, and then make my relatives laugh. But at that time, I was the only one who was poor at school, and my brother was not good at school, but I never got such treatment. Another time I fought with my brother, I never got beaten and never helped. I was dragged to the ground, dragged around. My sister told me these things and said they looked interesting. As far as I can remember, my brother and I had an argument over something, got into a fight, or were beaten. My head was knocked out of a big bag and I kept crying. My brother was scared, too. When my parents came, they told me not to cry, but to fight if there was any dispute behind, and to guide my brother to junior high school and go to school in the county. I asked why I didn't go to the county seat. As a result, I said I was afraid of my brother fighting. You can't figure it out at a young age, and you can't grow up. Later, I studied in the countryside for half a year and gave me dozens of dollars to buy some steamed bread every day. At that time, my sister and brother had poor grades and could not be admitted to the best junior high school in the county. I spend money on relationships. Later, when I was gossiped in my hometown, I was sent to the county seat and a cheap and poor school.

? There is another strange thing in our family, about my appearance, or about my appearance. My mother held my face since I was a child and told me to look at my mouth in the mirror. I really didn't know why you did this to me at that time. One second I said I was small, and the next I said I was crooked, ugly and ugly. But I have been forbidden to wear makeup since I was a child, including my wedding. I hardly ever wear makeup. Later, my mother said that I wouldn't wear makeup because I was a bad girl or a slut when I put on makeup. Maybe just for me. I always let my sister take care of her skin. I didn't recognize this thinking, or I didn't recognize what they didn't do. Slowly, I stopped listening to my parents, and I was no longer a clever daughter, that is, I entered my long-term rebellious era.

Rebellion is just that my thoughts are not consistent with them, which is also the idea that I wanted to break up with them at first. Secondly, cutting off contact with my parents and not paying attention will make my mood and life better. I'm almost 30 years old and I've been kidnapped by morality and bound by filial piety, but I feel it's all my fault. Why have I never received the care and love I deserve? This makes the two little people in my heart quarrel constantly, and the psychological problems are getting bigger and bigger. I always plan the best way to die. I don't look forward to tomorrow, but I look forward to death. Things have improved a lot in the year when I didn't contact my parents often. Anyway, I'm already a very bad person. It's not bad to be a baiwenhang again.

Probably from the time I wanted to buy a house, my mother never supported me and always wondered if I had money to buy something for her after I bought a house. It's chilling. I didn't ask my family for money, but I still think I should give her the money I earned. I tried to get a salary from me before, but I refused, because I had a similar behavior before, saying to keep it for me, but I didn't return it. I'm not very angry about it, but there are too many such things. I spent money on moral criticism because I was sick since I was a child, so I put up with it. However, I suffered. Until the age of 26, it's time to say goodbye to these people who only take and don't pay. I can only express my regret for their loss of their daughter.

My plan is to go back when my grandmother dies and go back when my parents die. Don't go back at other times, and don't answer video calls. Wechat can also go back I will never call them again, and I will never give them any red envelopes. Their business has nothing to do with me, and my business has nothing to do with them. I started working for myself when I was 16 years old, and I have earned it every year since then. It's been eight years, and I've paid hundreds of thousands. If I buy things, including my brother's marriage, my sister's marriage, my dowry, my brother's tuition and other expenses, it should be 200 thousand. In recent years, I have been drained of my income like a vampire, never caring about me or understanding me. Dropping out of school is also an indirect hope that I will not go to school and go out to work. I put up with all this only because I was sick when I was a child. Has been kidnapping me with this morality. Growing up, I have no new clothes. My brother and sister wear patches and holes. I remember that there was no cotton-padded clothes in the second day of junior high school, and a girl gave me the rest, but she also wore patches for many years. I can't wear it anymore. I only have two pairs of trousers and two pairs of shoes, and the soles are leaking. My feet are wet in class on rainy days, so I will hang them at the door when I get home and wear them tomorrow. I thought my family was poor, didn't I? But it's not particularly bad. My sister wears clothes for two or three days, and my brother has many shoes all year round, and there are more than 400 enviable down jackets. Every year, parents take their younger brothers and sisters shopping to buy clothes. I was the only one at home, admiring the new clothes they bought. Back in the second day of junior high school, I was absent from class because I couldn't go to class without clothes. This is the first time in my life. Besides, my mother didn't buy me anything because I was absent from school last time because I didn't have clothes to wear. My grandmother always advised me to drag me to the stall at night to buy a 50-yuan cotton-padded coat, which is a rare new dress for me. Why should I be treated so unfairly? And under such treatment, I also help my family do housework and farm work. My brother and sister have never touched the spring. At that time, I was unloved. And I was overwhelmed by the moral criticism of 40 thousand yuan. Why should I break up? Because such things will exist not only when I was a child, but also when I am an adult. My brothers and sisters' money belongs to them, and the money I earn belongs to my parents. This illusion made me born to pay my debts. At first, I tried to pay off my debts and give them the money I earned. But when I had my own ideas and thought about my life, I found that what I got was opposition and abuse, which made me think a lot and calculated my own expenses. I spent 40 thousand when I was born. Because of congenital heart disease, my parents didn't go for prenatal examination, and my mother learned to smoke and drink when she was pregnant. I don't know if this is the cause, but in the end, all the mistakes in this disease are blamed on me. My parents didn't give up my treatment. I owe them my life, and I will pay it back with my whole life. This is an idea passed on to me by my parents since childhood, which made my childhood, adolescence and youth very painful and kept me alive. Compromise, devotion and self-mockery become serious suicidal tendencies. Since I was a child, I only fantasized about having a parent who loved me to ease my pain. Later it became a bad habit. When I meet something that makes me sad, I daydream to relieve my pain. Secondly, the tuition fee from primary school to junior high school is 9 years compulsory, and the book fee is 20 yuan every year. After arriving in the county seat, it costs about 600 yuan per semester for three years, with no pocket money and no clothes. There are no toys, only snacks rubbing against my brothers and sisters. By the time I was sixteen, my family spent less than 654.38 million yuan, and the expenses of my brothers and sisters would never be lower than mine.

? If only money is involved, psychological problems may not be the case. Should I use the best idea or the worst idea to understand their behavior? Some things have a profound impact on me. One is that my relatives come to visit me every year, let me stand in the middle, criticize my exam results, dig at me as a silly child, and then make my relatives laugh. But at that time, I was the only one who was poor at school, and my brother was not good at school, but I never got such treatment. Another time I fought with my brother, I never got beaten and never helped. I was dragged to the ground, dragged around. My sister told me these things and said they looked interesting. As far as I can remember, my brother and I had an argument over something, got into a fight, or were beaten. My head was knocked out of a big bag and I kept crying. My brother was scared, too. When my parents came, they told me not to cry, but to fight if there was any dispute behind, and to guide my brother to junior high school and go to school in the county. I asked why I didn't go to the county seat. As a result, I said I was afraid of my brother fighting. You can't figure it out at a young age, and you can't grow up. Later, I studied in the countryside for half a year and gave me dozens of dollars to buy some steamed bread every day. At that time, my sister and brother had poor grades and could not be admitted to the best junior high school in the county. I spend money on relationships. Later, when I was gossiped in my hometown, I was sent to the county seat and a cheap and poor school.

? There is another strange thing in our family, about my appearance, or about my appearance. My mother held my face since I was a child and told me to look at my mouth in the mirror. I really didn't know why you did this to me at that time. One second I said I was small, and the next I said I was crooked, ugly and ugly. But I have been forbidden to wear makeup since I was a child, including my wedding. I hardly ever wear makeup. Later, my mother said that I wouldn't wear makeup because I was a bad girl or a slut when I put on makeup. Maybe just for me. I always let my sister take care of her skin. I didn't recognize this thinking, or I didn't recognize what they didn't do. Slowly, I stopped listening to my parents, and I was no longer a clever daughter, that is, I entered my long-term rebellious era.

Rebellion is just that my thoughts are not consistent with them, which is also the idea that I wanted to break up with them at first. Secondly, cutting off contact with my parents and not paying attention will make my mood and life better. I'm almost 30 years old and I've been kidnapped by morality and bound by filial piety, but I feel it's all my fault. Why have I never received the care and love I deserve? This makes the two little people in my heart quarrel constantly, and the psychological problems are getting bigger and bigger. I always plan the best way to die. I don't look forward to tomorrow, but I look forward to death. Things have improved a lot in the year when I didn't contact my parents often. Anyway, I'm already a very bad person. It's not bad to be a baiwenhang again.