Leslie Cheung, what did he do last January and the day before his suicide?

I don't think people should commit suicide easily unless they have to, not because they are cold and desperate.

Especially an excellent person like Leslie Cheung.

Before he committed suicide, Leslie Cheung had gained more and more fame. He could "call the wind and call the rain" and his influence spread all over the world. Is to be famous, to have money, to love, to have love. It can be said that you can basically have whatever you want.

Why, but in the best and proudest time of my life-

Or resolutely decided to commit suicide?

Leslie Cheung, what did he do last January and the day before his suicide? What happened?

Or, what became the last straw to crush his spirit?

In 2002, Leslie Cheung was 46 years old.

This year is the last year of Leslie Cheung's life. The next year, he left us forever.

In February, Leslie Cheung participated in two activities. One gave a speech at the Chinese University of Hong Kong, and the other was interviewed by Asian pop music magazines.

On February 22nd, Leslie Cheung gave a speech at the New Asia Humanities Museum of the Chinese University of Hong Kong, which was jointly organized by the China Department of Language and Literature and the Hong Kong Literature Research Center.

The topic is "How to Deduct the Characters in Novels —— Taking Li Bihua's Works as an Example".

He said, "Li Bihua and I are good friends. We have starred in several works by Bi Hua, all of which are good plays! "

Facing HKU students, Leslie Cheung proudly described how he played "Twenty Little" in Cinnamon Buckle adapted from Li Bihua's novel.

"Moved by my charm, I wrote more plays, and Director Guan extended my shooting period to more than 20 days."

Leslie Cheung and Kan Kan, full of pride.

"I am an attractive actor. For an author, or from a business point of view, I have a certain attraction to the audience. "

Therefore, Leslie Cheung said that this is the basic demand of the market.

Leslie Cheung finished "Rouge Kou" and then talked about "Farewell My Concubine". Like the movie, it is also adapted from Li Bihua's novel.

Speaking of his butterfly suit in the play, he fell in love with ZhangFeng yi's martial brother (overlord) and faced with "homosexuality", Leslie Cheung began to "joke" ZhangFeng yi, saying that he couldn't let go.

"ZhangFeng yi in the expression of gay deduction, he is also very taboo. For example, there is a waist-hugging scene in the movie. When ZhangFeng yi held my waist, he trembled with nervousness! "

On the other hand, Leslie Cheung has done psychological construction. So, I completely let myself go.

"I think an actor should have no hesitation, create a life for the role he plays, let the actors shuttle through different lives, and make the role live truly and vividly."

When Leslie Cheung talked about Cheng Dieyi's suicide on the stage, one of the reasons was that he didn't want to be himself-"It is unacceptable to turn the idols of all beings into old age."

Therefore, I would rather leave this world at the most beautiful time. In this way, people will always remember her beauty.

Upon hearing this, the audience Li Bihua was surprised.

A year later, I heard that Leslie Cheung jumped to his death. Li Bihua, 44, suddenly remembered this sentence. It was the most brilliant and charming day in Leslie Cheung three months ago, before the onset of the disease.

Grieving, Li Bihua couldn't restrain himself, raised his brush and wrote a eulogy-

"After more than 40 years of hard work, there is still a long way to go. It only took a week, or even a second, and everything became the past.

Life is full of wind, frost, rain and snow, young children are old in rivers and lakes, and pink ladies are white-

You are determined not to meet each other, then everyone will be old and ugly in the future, and you will always be a heartthrob. Legend has it that there are only piercing, charming and affectionate feelings, and there is no trace of time. "

On February 28th, Asia's POP ASIA magazine made an exclusive interview with Leslie Cheung, entitled "Leslie Cheung-the Pride of Asia".

In March 2002, there was only one year left before Leslie Cheung committed suicide.

On March 2nd, Ming Pao published an interview with Leslie Cheung in issue 1738.

Chiu-Wing Lam, who interviewed Leslie Cheung, is called "Superman" in the circle. He is a host and a film producer. At that time, he was a columnist for Ming Pao Weekly.

Leslie Cheung said-

"This time we don't talk about singing, I'm going to be the director's film. I have made more than 70 films, how can I not know how to be a director? "

It's just that the film is about to start shooting, and there is something wrong with the investors. The film ran aground, and it made him feel very tired to find an investor again.

Chiu-Wing Lam asked him, "Why don't you invest yourself?"

Leslie Cheung said, "It can't be like this. It has different meanings. I want investors who really appreciate my talent as a director. "

But this movie, in fact, has no name. However, there are 65,438+0 actors, namely Shen Dianxia. Leslie Cheung said happily-

"Feifei is no longer a pistachio. I want to change her face and not play a comedy role. She is a tragic figure in this play, and I believe she can act it well. Who is not sad? "

But there is one thing that bothers Leslie Cheung, that is, in the process of looking for investors, when a Hong Kong investor sat down with him, he felt-

"This is just a business."

However, Leslie Cheung felt that he was not talking about business, but wanted to make a good film.

"I, Leslie Cheung, have contributed so much to Hong Kong's music and film industry, won so many honors and won glory for Hong Kong. Why don't they support me? "

Leslie Cheung and Chiu-Wing Lam expressed their little regrets in succession.

Lin is curious about it. Why did Leslie Cheung suddenly want to be a director and make movies?

Leslie Cheung spoke his mind publicly-

"The reason why I am so obsessed with being a director is because the actor only plays a pawn, but the director can control everything."

After a while, he looked at Chiu-Wing Lam, didn't answer him, and then went on to say-

"I am ambitious. My biggest wish is not to win the best director award, but to win the best film award, because that means I make teamwork perfect, not just one person. "

Leslie Cheung once told a friend that as an actor, the artistic life in front of the curtain is limited by age, and there is no behind-the-scenes life.

"When people are old and no longer look good on the screen, why live?"

Next to the photographer suddenly inserted a sentence and asked Leslie Cheung-

"Brother, you are so rich now, you should have no requirements."

Leslie Cheung stared at him for a moment, and then said simply, "No, people don't want anything. People have to talk about whether they have ambition or personality. It is not money that can add points, which is more tragic than personality bankruptcy. "

It's a pity that the film didn't show in the end.

I don't know if Leslie Cheung's movie ideal is too lofty, or if he can't wait, gets discouraged and walks too fast.

Unfortunately, we didn't see a film really directed by Leslie Cheung. Just like Jiang Wen, whom he admires very much, he directs, he acts and he is in charge of the world.

On March 28th, 2002, the film "Deep Inside" starring Leslie Cheung was released.

This is Leslie Cheung's last film. Some people once thought that it was this film that made Leslie Cheung suffer from depression and was strongly stimulated, which led him to commit suicide the next year.

In fact, depression has existed in Leslie Cheung for a long time, and it can't be blamed on this movie.

In this film, Leslie Cheung plays a psychologist, who is just a "lucky star" to treat patients with depression.

However, Leslie Cheung is crazy, and his performance makes people tremble. His eyes were fixed on one thing from beginning to end, from the bright at the beginning to the dim at the end of the film.

It's chilling.

"People are sometimes very fragile and will encounter many unpleasant things. Over time, they will form a knot. But I can't tell people, it's even harder to find someone to tell. "

In the play, Leslie Cheung's psychiatrist cured the female patient (played by Lin Jiaxin) who suffered from depression, but she also suffered from depression.

As the saying goes, I don't believe in ghosts, but I met a ghost.

I don't know whether the girl's illness infected him or whether he was infected by the girl's illness and was swallowed up. In a word, she is fine, but he is ill.

On the other hand, Leslie Cheung was nominated for best actor in the 22nd Academy Awards for this film.

After that, people who knew Leslie Cheung said that Leslie Cheung had changed, and they were very depressed. Later, due to physical reasons, Leslie Cheung resigned from the film "Shanghai Story" and even almost disappeared in public.

In fact, this film profoundly reveals the mental illness that is inevitable and more or less inevitable for everyone in real life.

The so-called "heart disease".

The film combines "heart disease" with the emotional dilemma and personality split in the real society, decoding people's psychological diseases and repressed potential desires under the great pressure of survival.

The film focuses on two kinds of psychological problems-the childhood shadow that lasts into adulthood and the emotional trauma that is difficult to heal.

This is the "dilemma" that Leslie Cheung faced before his death.

On the other hand, it can be said that "I didn't kill Boren, Boren died because of me". Leslie Cheung vividly vented his childhood shadow and emotional trauma in the movie, but unexpectedly-

These pains have not been resolved, but have been swallowed up alive by them.

Similarly, on March 28th, 39-year-old Anita Mui held a "Dream Concert" in Hung Hom to commemorate his 20th anniversary.

On the evening of April 6th, Leslie Cheung, as a special guest, sang Youth with Anita Mui.

"Reverse sentient beings, but it's just a little effort ..."

The two superstars danced freely on the stage. Leslie Cheung turned and knelt in front of Anita Mui, dragging her hand, and then touched her hips. Anita Mui also stretched out his hand and touched Leslie Cheung's thigh.

Leslie Cheung turned his back on Anita Mui, held her lower chest in his hand, and the audience burst into laughter.

Anita Mui introduced Leslie Cheung as "the only good friend".

Leslie Cheung laughed at her: "You have many good friends."

Anita Mui immediately corrected: "My brother is a friend of mine and seems to be a family."

Then, the two sang a song "Fate". When my brother returned backstage, he couldn't stop shouting "Ange" fans. Anita Mui said-

"No, actually, my brother is not feeling well tonight. You came to see Anita Mui's concert! "

In fact, Anita Mui has been diagnosed with cervical cancer this year, but she still insists on holding this "wonderful" concert. Finally, Anita Mui said-

"My friend asked me why there were no special guests at the concert. Of course I'll save it for the last one! My only good friend in my life is here. "

This night became Leslie Cheung's last public performance. Subsequently, Leslie Cheung also developed his own directing ability, writing and directing, and produced MTV Youth for Anita Mui.

Anita Mui was not popular at that time, but Leslie Cheung invited Anita Mui to be a guest at his concert.

"In the near future, she will also have her own concert. I think there should be an opportunity for her to see the reaction of the audience, which is a reassurance for a singer. "

In May, 2002, Leslie Cheung and Karen Mok attended the establishment ceremony of "Pioneer of Seedling Protection".

We will support the long-term development of the Foundation to Stop Child Sexual Abuse by donating 50 yuan RMB or above on a regular basis every month. In March of the following year, the "Seedling Protection Center" built by the Foundation in Shek Kip Mei was completed.

Leslie Cheung has passed away.

Leslie Cheung has always been keen on public welfare and charity.

He also told his friends not to buy him a birthday present, but to cash it all. As a result, he raised nearly HK$ 654.38 billion and donated it to the Foundation for Ending Child Sexual Abuse.

In June, the End Child Sexual Abuse Foundation held a fund-raising party for the film I Want to Fly High. Initially, only Leslie Cheung was invited to participate. So, Leslie Cheung bought a batch of tickets out of his own pocket after knowing that he was collecting money for protecting seedlings.

In July, 2002, Leslie Cheung and Huang Yaoming released his last music album "Time Crossing". His last composition, so far away and so near, belongs to this album.

This is an EP with six songs, Leslie Cheung told reporters excitedly-

"Many DJs like our chorus. So we started to cooperate. Huang Yaoming and I both make music seriously and have been doing 10 for many years.

We all have our own characteristics. Our cooperation led to the discussion. We need to do something special. I want to make my own style. "

Unfortunately, Leslie Cheung died after only one album.

On September 12, 2002, 46-year-old Leslie Cheung spent his last birthday.

Not as big as before, probably because my friends think there is still time in the future. In the past, Leslie Cheung's birthday parties were held in hotels and restaurants for the convenience of guests and playing mahjong in Taiwan Province.

This time, Leslie Cheung's birthday party will be held at home, and there will be no sparrows for entertainment. So, at the birthday party, besides "good friend" Tang Hede and assistant Kenneth, a group of friends from all walks of life were invited.

Including Shi Nansheng, Chen Jieling, Karen Mok, Anna Ueyama, Chen Ziqiang, Edison Chen and his father Chen Zemin, all came to Leslie Cheung's apartment in Kadoorie Mountain to celebrate his birthday.

However, fans from all over the world have never lost their love for Leslie Cheung.

They celebrated their idols' birthdays in various ways-Wuhan Rong Fan sent Leslie Cheung his 46th birthday wishes on the big screen of Hanjiang Road. Shanghai fans held their own 9 12 birthday party, and there was an idol imitation contest.

Japanese fans bought an advertising space in Hong Kong Ming Pao to congratulate their brother on his happy birthday.

My brother said happily, "I sincerely thank the fans and the media who have supported me for many years." Everyone is very kind to me. "

Speaking of birthday wishes, Leslie Cheung said-

"I hope everyone is healthy, Hong Kong's economy is improving, it is best to put an end to piracy, and the entertainment industry can be more vigorous. My personal wish? Good health is the most important thing. "

When everyone was concerned about the progress of Leslie Cheung acid reflux's illness, my brother said-

"It's much better than before, but it's not going well, especially because there are too many words, so I still have to rest. I have also pushed a lot of dramas recently, and there is no way. "

After his birthday, Leslie Cheung, who was already in poor health, encountered another worry.

From June 5438 to October 2002, "Pauline Chan's body was photographed" and "Carina Lau's nude photo incident (East Weekly incident)" occurred in the entertainment circle.

165438+1On the afternoon of 3 October, more than 500 people from Hong Kong film and art circles held a protest rally to protest against the publication of nude photos of actresses by Oriental Weekly in Hong Kong, and Carina Lau took the stage to speak out.

Leslie Cheung was also in the parade, holding signs to protest.

Time soon entered 2003, and no one knew that there was not much time left for Leslie Cheung.

March 2003, the last month of Leslie Cheung's life.

On March 8th, Pepsi Music Family Charity Concert was held in Hong Kong Red Pavilion. As a special guest, Leslie Cheung attended the launching ceremony before the performance, which became his last public activity.

And with Leslie Cheung, is sincerely accompany him for many years, Tang Hede. This also became the last public appearance of the two.

2 1 years ago,1982,65438+February 9, Leslie Cheung, which was still underdeveloped at that time, was arranged by fate and met Tang Hede at the Regent Hotel.

At that time, Leslie Cheung was too poor to pay the rent, so Tang Hede lent Leslie Cheung a few months' salary without saying anything.

A few years later, Leslie Cheung said

"This happened after I became popular, and of course I won't cherish it so much."

199665438+In February, Leslie Cheung held 24 concerts beyond 1997 in the Red Pavilion, and presented a song "The Moon Represents My Heart" to Tang Hede on the stage.

"I don't care what people are criticizing and talking about. In short, I did it today just for my own interests and likes. "

Say—

That's my favorite one.

April 65, 438+0, the last day of Leslie Cheung's life.

The night before, Leslie Cheung was still playing mahjong with relatives and friends, calling the Hong Kong Government incompetent.

At 6 o'clock in the morning of, Leslie Cheung went out as usual. Before going out, I also made an appointment with Tang Hede to play badminton in the evening.

Leslie Cheung came out of his residence in Doriyama. At noon, he invited his designer friend Alfred Mok to have dinner in Causeway Bay. After meeting, the two chatted for more than three hours while eating.

Leslie Cheung looks nervous and his hands are shaking, but he has a good appetite and eats spaghetti.

At dinner, Leslie Cheung told Alfred Mok that he felt very tired that morning and just wanted to drive fast, so he had better crash.

Alfred Mok quickly comforted his brother and told him not to say these words.

Later, Leslie Cheung asked Alfred Mok for his ID number. In fact, he asked for it once six months ago and wanted to confirm it on the same day.

It is said that he left him a small gift in his will. After this incident was exposed, people had to wonder whether suicide was ready.

When SARS was raging, Leslie Cheung wore a mask and saw someone coughing nearby. He also reminded Alfred Mok to be careful.

Leslie Cheung talked a lot about how to deal with depression. Leslie Cheung hinted that he wanted to go to Sichuan to get aura, but Alfred Mok suggested going to the United States to see a doctor.

Leslie Cheung asked, "I am too ill. What should I do if I can't cure it?"

Alfred Mok replied: "Then take sleeping pills. If you overdo it, you will be saved." .

But Leslie Cheung said-

"The best way to die is to jump off a building."

Hear elder brother say so, Alfred Mok hurriedly shook his head and joked-

"You and I are so greedy and beautiful, how can this happen? It's like an egg falling on the ground. If we accidentally hit someone. ...

To Alfred Mok's surprise, he thought it was a joke. A few hours later, Leslie Cheung really chose this road.

After lunch, Leslie Cheung also specially drove Alfred Mok home. Later, Leslie Cheung went to the private fitness club on the 24th floor of Mandarin Oriental Hotel in Central.

At this point, it is around 4 pm.

According to the hotel staff, Leslie Cheung seems to be in a bad mood during his fitness. He once went to the terrace to make a phone call and looked depressed.

Then, I ordered another drink, then sat on the terrace and stared at Victoria Harbour.

At about 5 pm, Leslie Cheung got a call from his agent Chen Shufen and met at the hotel at 6 pm sharp.

Later, Leslie Cheung asked the waiter to give him a pen and paper, and then he wrote at his desk. Later, according to media reports, there were two suicide notes, one about property and the other for friends.

Chen Shufen arrived at the hotel coffee shop at 6 pm on time, but he didn't see Leslie Cheung until 6: 30. So I called him, but Leslie Cheung said on the phone-

I haven't parked the car yet, so I asked Chen Shufen to wait for him at the taxi stand outside the hotel.

At 6: 43 pm, Leslie Cheung jumped off the terrace of the suite.

If I can't live proudly, I would rather die.

Leslie Cheung wrote in his suicide note.

"Depression. Thank you, my friends. Thank you, Professor Mai Liefei. It's been a hard year, and I can't stand it any longer. Thank you, Mr. Tang, my family and my fat sister. I have never done anything bad in my life. Why? "

I have never done anything bad in my life. Why?

This sentence makes people guess and breaks the heart of those who love him. Since then, the world has lost a person who wants it to be better.

April 1 was supposed to be a happy April fool's day, but Leslie Cheung played a big joke on people.

Since then, every April 1 day, people cry and laugh, and miss Leslie Cheung and their eternal "brothers".

It is said that as long as I miss you, the dead are not dead. Only those who are forgotten are those who die forever. Therefore, Leslie Cheung never really passed away.

Because from the living, you can always see his figure in those days. And it is a beautiful and best time of youth.

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