Maybe I really can’t stand jokes

Actually, to be honest, my personality is actually more sensitive than anyone else’s. Sometimes I just don’t want to accept or admit it. We are not saints, we can be so magnanimous and not care about anything. We are all just the most ordinary people, and we also care and are afraid.

Maybe it’s what I’ve been through and the negative impact of the environment I live in. Even though I try so hard to adjust my mentality and continue to guide myself. Although I don't have low self-esteem, I still can't adapt to crowds and bustling and complicated situations.

I usually don't participate in these occasions, although sometimes I squeeze in. But I rarely speak, or there are few topics, and my participation is not high. Sometimes, we say things that others say intentionally or unintentionally, or make jokes. Although sometimes it is out of occasion, or to take care of other people's mood, so as not to be embarrassing.

Although there was no immediate attack at the time, it was inevitable that there would be thoughts in my mind. Sometimes, I really want to lose my temper, but I suppress it in the end. But because of this, I rarely participate in such occasions.

Sometimes I would rather stay at home than talk to others. I always have a detached attitude towards people, because after all, in this society, it is easy to lack a sufficient sense of security. Normally, I get to know people very slowly. Even if I know some people, I don't want to deal with them.

It is said that a person should be himself, but he is still very concerned about the external situation. As long as it is something related to yourself, no matter good or bad, you will always become very concerned and cautious. Sometimes I don't agree with what others say, but it's not easy to object.

Living in my own circle is really narrow. I don’t want to interact with too many people. I always feel that everyone is hypocritical. In fact, it should be understandable. After all, everyone lives in society and when the external situation is uncertain, no one dares to show his trump card easily.

As for what others say, since it is a joke, it is not easy for us to say anything. Maybe I really don’t like to joke, or maybe it’s because other people’s jokes go too far and go beyond a certain range. Sometimes I really can't stand jokes. I often take other people's jokes seriously, and sometimes they are quite serious.

Maybe it’s because I’m insecure, and what others say are just flashy words without any practical use. Some people have also said that I often take jokes seriously, which makes many people afraid to joke with me.

I also want to try to control this, but since everyone’s personality is different, I won’t force it. In the circle of life, I am afraid that others will make some comments about my words and deeds.

Especially with the development of the Internet now, unlike before, no matter how much discussion is made, it can only be done in the village. But things are different now, especially for those of us who are better at writing. Sometimes, we are really afraid that what we say or do will be published on the Internet.

So now people don’t dare to communicate, and there is even very little communication between people. In fact, apart from everyone being very busy, the deepest reason is probably this kind of thing. There is no airtight wall under the sky, let alone this modern Internet era.