I betrayed my feelings for five years, only to be abandoned.

Talk Time: June 12 Interviewer: Xiao Juan (pseudonym) Talk Mode: Talk Hotline.

"How to choose an unselfish relationship? In order to love him, I abandoned my feelings for five years and left my boyfriend at the most painful time, but in the end, he was engaged to my colleague. " A sudden confession, he changed from a "buddy" to my boyfriend.

"Five years, five years, you will regret it!" My boyfriend stared at me with tears in his eyes and said this bitterly. My heart tensed for a moment, but the joy of running to my lover covered everything up, so I turned my head decisively. Now, that sentence seems to have really come true. My boyfriend Sen (a pseudonym) and I were childhood friends. We have known each other since childhood, but we really started dating after college. At that time, he was the man of the hour in the whole school. Because he is handsome, he has become the object of pursuit of almost all girls. However, the girl who appeared beside him has always been me. We have known each other for a long time, and we are familiar enough to call each other brothers. Therefore, I have never complained too much about his behavior of using me as a shield. Perhaps to some extent, this also satisfied my vanity. I'm so used to it that when I received his confession letter, I foolishly thought it was a prank, but I never had the courage to ask him face to face, whether it was true or not, and I couldn't bear to part with it. I hid in the dormitory for three days, afraid of bumping into him as soon as I went out.

Later, he called my name downstairs, and later, he promised to love me only for life. After that, we spent four years of college life together. Our relationship has also withstood the test of finding a job after graduation. Fortunately, in my work unit, we also met my high school classmate Lin (a pseudonym). The three of us became good friends. As long as we have time, we will get together to play. Even when I was dating Sam alone, Lin was there. We all think there is nothing to hide, and we don't think he is interfering with our date. He is a third wheel. The three of us have been getting along well. Without a boyfriend on a business trip, will the three of us really be so peaceful and happy forever? I don't know, either.

An unexpected kiss ended my relationship with my boyfriend.

A year later, my boyfriend was sent out for half a year because of his excellent work performance, but the six months have changed too much. I miss Sam. I've never missed him so much. Without him, life is boring and long, and I'm going crazy. After learning about my situation, Lin began to spend time with me every day. With him by my side, time began to become less difficult. I gradually got used to Lin's company and became more and more dependent on him unconsciously. Once, my colleagues went out to play together, and Lin Ziran and I were in the same unit. We used to have dinner together, but in the end it was just the two of us. I'm starting to feel awkward. Although I have been alone before, I always feel that this time is a bit unusual. Not only do I feel unnatural, but I also perceive Lin's reserve. Something seems to be changing. I drank the wine sullenly and tried to think about what was fermenting in my heart. We were all silent until we finally got home, and we didn't say anything, but silence didn't seem to solve anything at all, and the ambiguous atmosphere became stronger and stronger.

At the door, when I turned to go upstairs, he grabbed me and covered my lips without hesitation. I can't believe we kissed in despair. I didn't take him home. That night, we all lost sleep. In the early morning, he texted me and said "I'm sorry". I'm sorry it's easy to say, but some things are doomed. The relationship between the three of us is getting more and more awkward. When I meet my boyfriend online, I will tell him desperately that I miss him. Whenever my boyfriend asks me something about Lin, I will change the subject and try to avoid things related to him. We all hope that an apology can completely end the sudden kiss. Finally, my boyfriend came back. I desperately rely on him, trying to get back the original feeling from him, but sadly I find that everything can't go back. Lin and I must face the reality. We will betray our best friend. I finally confessed everything to my boyfriend. Unexpectedly, after listening to all the narratives, his first sentence was "I knew it was him!"

Abandoning five years of feelings is just a year of communication.

I have nothing to say, it turns out that he has noticed all this. During that time, it should be his most difficult and helpless time. Not only I broke up with him, but also his parents are divorcing. I didn't want to say this at this time, but everything happened so coincidentally that God seemed determined to make me an ungrateful person. My boyfriend cried and begged me not to leave him at this time. His parents' troubles have tired him enough. If I leave him again, he really has nothing. I

I've never seen him so depressed, but I didn't agree to his request in the end. I can't choose to stay because of sympathy or morality. In that case, it is not good for anyone. Maybe in a short time, he will survive because of my support, but what about longer? What about the future? A lifetime? I can't take care of him all my life, especially now I don't want to.

This kind of injury is always inevitable. Maybe the long pain is better than the short pain. He will grow up after great suffering. So I broke free from his grip cruelly, and I insisted on breaking up. During that time, Sam was drunk every day and ran to my house crying as soon as he woke up. I hide in the house every day and secretly scold myself for being heartless. At that time, I needed Lin's phone every day to get through again and again. The suffering will pass, and Lin and Sen and I can finally live in peace again. It's still embarrassing, but we can laugh it off already. I thought I finally waited for happiness. I finally achieved friendship and love, only to find that I lost everything. Because Lin fell in love with my colleague, he had the cheek to say no no no matter how I cried. However, within half a month after I broke up with him in anger, he was engaged to that man like lightning. I worked so hard and was accused by sen. What did I get? Less than a year of love? This is really a big joke. At the thought of breaking up with Sam, he said bitterly, "You will regret it", and my spine went cold involuntarily. The three of us got together again at Sam's wedding. At that time, Lin took his fiancee, Sam took his bride, and I was alone.

Lin and I didn't talk from beginning to end, and Sen sent me a short message the day before we got married, "If there is an afterlife, I hope you are the most beautiful bride on my red carpet." My lover is married, and the bride is not me. This is entirely my own fault. Do I regret it? Will I feel envious and sorry to see that two people I once loved are now in pairs? I don't know, maybe some things have to be experienced before I know if they are worth it, but it doesn't matter whether they are worth it or not, because you have no choice but to move on, there is no retreat, and I can only continue to grope for it and find my love. Maybe I have lost the best, but since I can no longer have it, why should I always mention it? If you lose it, you lose it. Just catch it next time. At least, I'm still on my way.

Ayang's notes.

If you choose, you must be brave enough to bear it.

It is commendable that Xiao Juan did not complain about her two relationships, but calmly summarized Ayang. It seems that this tangled threesome has really come to an end in her mind at present.

He is not very clear about Lin's personality, so he can't judge the relationship. Just less than a year, it seems that there are still bad feelings about Lin's betrayal. He doesn't regret his original choice, but it is inevitable that he feels a little rough about the ending. He accepted this reality and accepted the price of this choice, but he was still reluctant.

These emotions are understandable. After all, we have to admire Xiao Juan's courage to bear the consequences, but we also have to feel helpless about another person's escape. Perhaps, in the face of love, it is always girls who are brave and unyielding.

I hope Xiao Juan can find his other half as soon as possible, and I also hope Xiao Juan can learn to protect himself.

The World Cup is coming, and this summer has become warm, noisy, passionate and happy.

Although Ayang is not a fan, he will watch several games, pay attention to sports news, and read the sports special issue of our morning paper happily every morning.

It is reported that many couples or lovers will have problems during the World Cup, because the World Cup left out women. I don't know how this conclusion was reached. Although there are many men who like football and many women who don't, Ayang feels that there are fewer phone calls recently, and there are not so many people who cry and say that they are injured.

I don't know if Ayang can associate it like this: It was the World Cup that diverted the attention of "problem couples" and made them pay attention to one game after another. The time they used to quarrel and bicker is now spent discussing the game and arguing about which team is better. There is no time for awkwardness.

I watched the news yesterday, and the cinema lost a lot of money during the World Cup. On TV, the broadcast of many popular TV series was postponed due to the World Cup, so it may be normal for Ayang readers to be a little frustrated.

Anyway, the World Cup only comes once every four years, so let it be the protagonist of this June! Although Ayang's recent "business" is a bit dull, every reader is happy, which is Ayang's greatest hope!