Shu Zhen's life

Shu Zhen vaguely heard the voices of her children and grandchildren, and her granddaughter felt "stomach pain" from her leg. I heard that, Shu Zhen also had a bottom in her heart, and she counted her remaining days.

Great-granddaughter called her in Shu Zhen's ear, "Great grandma! Great grandma! " She watched the children grow up, and most of the time it was the dolls that brought her hut to life. Now she is a senior three, slim and graceful, and she is no longer that chubby doll.

In the evening, the eldest son tried to feed Shu Zhen some rice porridge, but in the afternoon, her great-granddaughter didn't digest it. She tried not to do it, which made her son a little sad. She doesn't know what her life is like in her son's eyes.

At ten o'clock in the evening, the eldest son and the second son stayed next door, and they chatted in front of the fire. Shu Zhen remembers that they had a good relationship when they were children, but now they are far apart. It's not their fault. Shu Zhen knew that if she hadn't been too partial to her lovely little son since she was a child, if she hadn't decided to let her little son inherit his father's public office without saying a word when her husband died young. ...

Shu Zhen has some unspeakable sadness in his heart. She thinks that's what parents with more than two children should do in this world. Parents always say that the palms of their hands and the backs of their hands are all meat, but they will prefer the one who is the most like their own children, the most lovable child and the youngest child. ...

Shu Zhen has three children in this life. The eldest son is a typical person, but he is diligent but not good at words. The second son and the young girl are very similar in character. Both of them knew how to be clever when they were children, but Shu Zhen knew that it was eccentric for her to give her love to the two children behind her. She privately convinced herself, "Children can live well without these." So she thinks her decision is right.

10: 30, my daughter came to see Shu Zhen once. She still had the seed shell in her mouth, and she didn't have time to spit it out. "mom! ~ Niang ~! " She shouted to Shu Zhen lying in bed. Shu Zhen heard her words, but she could only look at her daughter with her eyes. It took her too much effort to open her eyes. The woman with dark complexion, wrinkled face and tacky gold ornaments has made her unable to connect with the little girl in her memory.

With her daughter came her fourth husband, a short and thin man. My daughter has a bad opinion in the public. More than ten years ago, she divorced because of a wild man. Divorce and infidelity were extremely shameful in the 1990s, especially in rural areas. But what can Shu Zhen do? The shameless little daughter she loves has grown up and never listens to her old mother again.

The second daughter-in-law died young, leaving two children. Not long after, the second daughter-in-law came back from the city with a beautiful divorced woman. Gentleness and propriety are the words that Shu Zhen can think of to describe the second second second grandma, but the second grandma doesn't cherish it. In the tenth year of their marriage, the second child filed for divorce, and then it was time for a woman to change, still the same.

Shu Zhen knows that her second son and young girl are selfish and romantic people, but they live a comfortable life. Sometimes it looks like a joke. Selfish people always live more comfortably than honest people.

The daughter went to the next room, and the two brothers said that she was not feeling well, so she went down to rest first. Shu Zhen felt sad. There is a custom in the countryside. If her parents are dying, her children always take turns to sleep with her, but her two sons keep it every day, while her daughter doesn't. There are several relatives in the next room. They laughed at her. "You don't sleep with your mother once. It's time to touch your feet at night." The daughter sternly warned them not to joke and turned to ask her great-granddaughter to sleep with her at night.

The eldest daughter-in-law came, opened the door, came in, stood for a while and went to the next door. She comes from bad karma. The eldest daughter-in-law was married by a matchmaker in a village more than ten kilometers away. There are two brothers at home. In that patriarchal era, boys all went to the city to study, work and get married. As a girl, working and supporting the family are the most important.

Shu Zhen became a mother-in-law before she was 45, but Shu Zhen was not a good mother-in-law. She is a woman herself and came as a daughter-in-law, but she was embarrassed by her daughter-in-law. The youngest son took her husband's place and went to the city. When her daughter was young, she became an idle person. She gave all the work of a large family to her eldest daughter-in-law, but she led her eldest son's meager salary for one month and only allocated a living allowance to her son and daughter-in-law. When the eldest grandson girl comes down, the daughter-in-law has to take her sister-in-law with her children. Even in the second month, she still cooks for pigs ... Shu Zhen understands that this woman works hard at home, but she will always be a "bad mother-in-law".

She is old, deaf and hunched. She lives alone in the old house. Her eldest son and her family built a big house below. Her two granddaughters got married, and her grandson got married and had children. Her eldest daughter-in-law never lets Shu Zhen move in, and no matter how her children persuade her, she never gives in. Shu Zhen knows that she hates herself, hates her injustice to her eldest son, hates her mother-in-law's responsibility in confinement, hates that she takes out a dress every other day when her grandson is ill, but goes to the industrial and commercial society to make new clothes ... She hates herself, but she has three meals a day and no shortage of clothes and bedding. The daughter-in-law is a good person.

Shu Zhen suddenly felt someone at the head of the bed. When she was young, she had heard the old man say that people would see their dead relatives when they left. Shu Zhen seemed to hear her mother calling her voice, calling her name. She saw her mother wrapped in little feet, wearing cloth and holding a bun. It seems that God asked her to pick herself up.

The next day was a sunny day in winter. Shu Zhen felt very busy outside her hut, like many people. Her son told her, "the Zhang family is coming, mom, the Zhang family is coming!" " Zhang Jia is her maiden name. Since her parents left and her brother left, leaving her alone in this world, she never went back. One is that she is old, and the other is that the people she cares about are long gone. But on her deathbed, seeing her family excited Shu Zhen for a while. She blushed, her spirit was much better and she was awake. She met her son and nephew and had something to eat.

When she lay down, she heard the little players chatting in the yard. "Is the old lady better?" Nice guy. ","even ... "

Shuzhen understands that it was like this before going to a big place.

That night, Shu Zhen's old cat, which had been kept for several years, came in and walked around her bed, wiping Shu Zhen's shoes. Cats have been outside all this time, and they can always hear cats barking at night.

Shu Zhen left, she didn't know. The next day, the camellia in her yard was completely open overnight, very gorgeous.

Shu Zhen was born in the Republic of China, and she forgot for two years. In short, she has lived long enough. She did not go to school. She only attended her husband's lecture for a few days, and she was illiterate. She has experienced warlord melee, Japanese invasion, civil war and the construction of new China ... but history, for an ordinary old woman, is just a passing sight.

Shu Zhen left nothing behind. The blue and white porcelain and bronze locks left before were emptied by the younger son's house early. The remaining money in tooling was distributed according to the order of young and old, and her eldest son finally got his share under the auspices of everyone. When the youngest son and daughter left, they packed the bacon and hens she hung on the beams and left, leaving the house empty.

The second son who cried the loudest at the funeral was relieved and returned to the city. The eldest son has been silent since the funeral and hasn't had water for several days. When it was all over and the guests dispersed, he shed tears at the black and white photo stream in Shu Zhen. "I don't have a mother." .

My life is really foggy.