The Jade Girl Doll I Can’t Keep

Article | Ding Yi

Have you seen the Jade Girl doll in the New Year pictures? Well, Xuewei is like that.

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Xuewei, as the name suggests, is like a white rose, white, beautiful and yet delicate. When I first saw her, I was stunned, even though I was just a kid in first grade at that time. This chubby snow-white doll is really beautiful, with snow-white and translucent skin, big almond-shaped eyes with dark eyes, long eyelashes that flicker, the curved willow-leaf eyebrows are just right, and there is a little red mole on her forehead, a small cherry There was a slight smile on her mouth, and her cheeks were blushing, like a ripe apple that had just been picked. No matter how you look at it, you think you have seen this girl somewhere? By the way, there was such a female doll on the New Year pictures posted at home during the Chinese New Year, I couldn’t help but think of it.

Xuewei is actually from the same village as me, but our families are far apart and we are one year apart in age, so we have never met her before. Her parents and grandfather are both teachers. Because of this, she and I entered school in the same year and were in the same class.

"Xuewei, just sit at the same table as Zhiyong." The teacher took Xuewei into the classroom and looked around. "Huh..." This sentence brought me back to my thoughts. Looking at my confused look, the teacher emphasized again: "Zhiyong, this is Xuewei, your deskmate." This time I was busy He said "Okay", then neatly tidied the table, scratching his head in embarrassment. She burst into laughter, and two shallow dimples appeared on her face.

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In the village’s primary school, there was only one class for each grade, so Xuewei and I were seated at the same table until the fourth grade. In the past few years, we have read, read, and played together, and have established a profound revolutionary friendship. Of course, we have also had quarrels and drawn the 38th Parallel. For this reason, I did not miss the table.

What I envy Xuewei the most is that she is called away by her teacher on the 8th of every month. That is the day when school teachers pay their salaries. Her grandfather is a retired teacher and comes to collect his salary at this time of every month. The pensioners would call Xuewei over and give her a lot of pocket money. This is something that a poor boy like me cannot envy. Fortunately, Xuewei is not a stinky girl who eats alone. The advantage of being her tablemate is that she can get a lot of delicious food.

"Hi! Zhiyong, who is both wise and brave, what are you doing?" Xuewei patted me and said.

"What are you doing! You want to scare me to death!" I patted my chest in shock.

She giggled and showed her beautiful pear dimples again, "Why are you so dazed?"

"I was wondering how much pocket money you, a little rich woman, got, can you buy some What's delicious~" I rubbed my hands and said with a bad smile.

"What about this? I want to see how you perform!" She stuck out her tongue playfully. I quickly gave up my seat, and even wiped her in a rude way, saying, "Princess Snow, your orders!" She smiled so wildly that she didn't look like a New Year painting doll at all.

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The winter vacation for the fourth grade was over, and the students returned to school one after another, but Xuewei did not come, and the desk on my left was always empty. The teacher said that she was sick and had to recuperate at home and would not come to class for the time being. I thought to myself: This girl is really squeamish. When I got home from school, my mother suddenly told me the news about Xuewei during the meal: I heard that Xuewei’s child was seriously ill. It seemed that there was a tumor in his head. It's open. At that time, I didn't have much feeling about life, old age, illness and death. I even thought it was cool and bold for Xuewei to have her head opened. I imagined that the girl would have super powers after experiencing this.

Xuewei didn’t come to school for a long time. There was no pain or doubt in the child’s heart that time could not heal. Just when I had almost forgotten that Xuewei was sick, my mother told me that she I went home, but I didn’t go to see her, so I didn’t dare to go.

"Hey, have you heard that that girl Xuewei is back? She has lost all her appearance, her head has been shaved off, and there is a long scar.

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"Well, no, I heard that the child has amnesia. You think so too. His head is all blown apart. What can he remember? Aren't he stupid? "

"I dare not say whether she is stupid or not. I heard that the kitten in her house was strangled to death when she saw it and snatched it away. ”

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There are too many scary rumors about Xuewei, and I really don’t dare to see her.

Two months later, One day after school was over, I saw Xuewei at the entrance of the village. Her parents were standing at the end of the bridge with the petite child, looking at the children running wildly. I looked over from a distance and saw Xuewei standing tall. She looked like a silly boy, thin, as if a gust of wind could blow her away. Her eyes were dull, and her face was still white, but without luster. I walked into her slowly and waited until she saw her. When I was walking, I seemed to see a light flashing in her eyes. She looked at me and said slowly: "Zhiyong is both wise and brave. ", and then smiled slightly, with a slight pear dimple, I looked at her with the same smile and shouted: "Princess Snow! ", her parents actually cried.

In order to recover better, Xuewei went to school, and the little white girl sat on the desk on the left again. I felt a little happy in my heart.

"Zhiyong, you are not allowed to call me Xuewei from now on. I have changed my name. My name is Xueqiang. "She frowned and said reluctantly.

"Huh? Why did you change a boy's name? It's so ugly! "I laughed carelessly.

She lowered her head, with tears in her eyes. I was a little panicked and thought: Why are girls like this? They cry all the time. I don't know how to comfort her!

But I still had to bite the bullet and said: "Hey! Don't cry. Why don't you laugh at me? The name Xue Qiang is, well, pretty good. ".

"Really? Dad said that if the word "strong" is in the name, I will get better quickly. It was the name that was too delicate that made me sick. "She suddenly raised her head and her eyes lit up, and then said firmly: "Just call me Xue Qiang! "

"Okay, Xue Qiang! "I answered loudly.

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In less than three months, Xuewei left again, and the name "Xueqiang" did not retain her. Once she left, she would be gone again. She didn't come back, and I didn't see her again.

I heard that she became ill in the middle of the night and frightened her parents. Her whole body was hot and covered in pimples, and she kept crying out in pain. When she was taken to the hospital, she was so sick. It was no longer possible. The doctor said that the cancer cells had spread suddenly and had spread to all the internal organs. When she took her last breath, she was completely gone.

Her body was only ten years old. After being brought back from the hospital, they were wrapped in a mat and buried in the orphan grave in the north of the village. My father told me that in the early years, children who died young were buried there, but now there are very few of them. There are no funerals or farewells. , the snow-white female doll ended her life like this.

Later, the old man in the village said: "That child must not be kept. Think about it, it is not a child in the world." , Ba Cheng is the beautiful girl next to the gods, just like the one in the New Year pictures. I am afraid that she did something wrong and was demoted to the mortal world. Now she has been recalled. Otherwise, cancer will develop again just after the brain tumor is cured, and the treatment will be in vain and it will not be retained. "After hearing this, the doll in the New Year pictures appeared in my mind. She was wearing a bright red Tang suit, holding "All the best" in her hand, with a smile on her apple-like face, and the red star on her forehead. The mole seems to glow with gold.