How terrible is depression?

The hardest thing about depression is that it is not understood at all. How terrible is depression? I brought it to you. I hope it helps you.

About depression. The hardest part is that an old classmate of mine can't understand it at all. He is one of those super chatterboxes. He can talk to you for a long time on any topic, from breastfeeding to Shenzhou VII to jumping egg model.

Once when we were in the dormitory, he talked about the whole process of making AV, including making some body fluids with milk and honey in a certain proportion. He spoke very high, and the happy emotional contagion attracted many people. Such a lively and cheerful person, he also suffered from depression It was completely sudden, without any warning.

He suddenly lost interest in everything. He likes playing games best, but he doesn't like playing anymore. He loves to sing k, and no one else wants to go on an appointment. His favorite sister chatted with him and said? Am I so free today? Ah, he doesn't even want to say hehe, and he doesn't want to reply at all.

This was not possible before. In the past, after listening to each other's words, he had already listed several catering and entertainment programs for her to choose from. The most terrible thing is that his memory was super good before, and he was as knowledgeable as Zheng Feng in Please Answer 1988. Let's go to the Natural History Museum. He can tell the evolutionary history of the whole earth exactly, which is more detailed than the museum's explanation. But his memory suddenly began to decline and he couldn't remember anything. What the boss told him, he clearly listened and forgot after a minute. During the meeting, he will suddenly fall asleep and then suddenly wake up.

At this time, he will be very scared. He doesn't know how long he slept or what he missed when he fell asleep. He didn't know it was moderate depression until he went to the hospital for diagnosis. The most painful thing during that time was that people around him didn't understand him and thought he was? Make a mountain out of a molehill, moaning about nothing? . Many people regard his illness as a joke. When they hear that he has depression, the other party will be very happy. Depression? Ha ha ha ha ha, don't be ridiculous, you idiot can get depression, then there will be no normal people in the world! ?

Over time, he was afraid to talk about his illness because no one would take it seriously. He struggled with depression for nearly 10 years. Several girlfriends broke up with him during this period. The last thing they can accept is, what are you depressed about when you are with me? You don't love me, do you? They can't understand his mood changes, and they can't forgive what he forgot to say.

The hardest thing about depression is that it is not understood at all.

Everyone's attitude is, either think that you are not sick, but you are doing it, and they should blame you; Or I think you're crazy and stay away from you.

Both attitudes are cruel. What is more sad is that when I am sick, I can't get the understanding of my family.

A girl I interviewed before suddenly became tired of learning in junior high school. When she opens the book, her hands will tremble and she will have a very desperate mood, especially wanting to die. She told her parents in tears that she couldn't learn and it was very painful to go to school. Can she not go to school? Her parents listened carefully to her cry, then picked up a clothes hanger and beat her, saying that she was too playful to even go to school. What do you want to do in the future?

To be a beggar? She has no choice but to pretend to go to school every day, wander the streets during the day and come home at six o'clock in the afternoon on time. It wasn't long before her parents found out and beat her up again, calling her a liar and a liar and forcing her to change.

She also wants to change, but how can she change when she is sick? When she was in high school, her parents forced her to go to a far-away school and let her live on campus and exercise more. Leaving the familiar environment, she is more stressed.

She used to be able to say and cry when she was sad, but it was even worse when she went to high school. She can't talk or cry. Everyone thinks she is a freak because she is extremely introverted and marginalized.

For a while, she didn't sleep for four days in a row. One night, she felt very painful all over. Every nerve is pulling and every nerve ending is tearing. She was shivering and cold, unable to breathe and control. She gave herself a fright when she suddenly screamed unconsciously.

This scream angered her roommates, who asked her what she was smoking and whether she slept or not. She wanted to say sorry, but she couldn't speak, and her mood became more and more broken.

She was expelled from school. It took her parents a long time to accept the fact that she was ill. When I interviewed her, she seemed to have no emotional problems, especially intellectual and elegant.

She said it was because she had been seeing a psychiatrist for many years and had been teaching herself depression, so she was much better. She also helps people who have the same experience in some related forums.

That was seven or eight years ago, she opened a small coffee shop, and her French toast was particularly delicious. She also told me the secret of making French toast. At that time, she looked really healed, and her smile was so warm.

Two years ago, I heard that her illness recurred and she cut her wrist and committed suicide. The most terrible thing about depression is that you have to fight a very powerful and mysterious force every day.

My colleague Huang Xiaowei's mother suffers from depression. When her mother was ill, she couldn't sleep at all, and she couldn't sleep all night. She was very upset. She tried all kinds of methods to treat insomnia, which was completely useless. She felt that there was always a voice constantly arranging her, forcing her to do bad things, such as encouraging her to commit suicide. The voice said, you live so hard anyway, you might as well die. You can jump off a building. You can take sleeping pills. At that time, she really thought about which way to die.

But at the same time there is a sense of self-struggle. Life is so good now, the children are all grown up, they are all very filial and can't die. They struggle between life and death every day. This kind of feeling is not felt by ordinary people. My assistant Andy's mother is depressed, too? You see, depression is not far from us. Andy said that her mother often sat up and cried in the middle of the night. They live on the fourth floor, and her mother often says strange things. Jumping from here does not necessarily kill you, and jumping from the sixth floor does not necessarily kill you. Should I find a higher place? Sometimes everyone eats together, and the atmosphere is good. Her mother will suddenly cry when eating.

At first, Huang Xiaowei and Andy didn't understand depression. Later, because I took my mother to the hospital for diagnosis, I began to understand the condition slowly. I specifically asked them what they think of people with depression. Never deny their illness.

People with depression have fallen into deep remorse and feel that others can be fine. Why am I the only one with a problem? They have been denying themselves, feeling that they are not good and that they have brought trouble to others.

Please make them feel sick is not their fault, they are innocent, and we are willing to face the disease with them. Don't treat them as strange people. Think of depression as a normal disease such as cold, fever and appendicitis. Depression is called emotional cold. Of course, its symptoms are much more serious than a cold. Please don't say the following to people with depression: Your living conditions are good, but you are not satisfied. What do you want? They are depressed, not because of greed, but because of illness.

Don't be melodramatic I think you're too busy, blx? They are not personality problems, but physical problems. Who is not unhappy, you just want to drive? This kind of words is equivalent to saying to a person with a broken leg, starting from today, running 2 kilometers a day, the leg will be fine.

At first glance, your ability to resist pressure is too weak and your willpower is not strong enough? In fact, we may not understand how much stress resistance and willpower people with depression need every day to fight against death. This is a typical way of standing and talking.

Life is worse than death. You committed suicide. Are you worthy of your parents and people who love you? They are patients, they don't think so, they will? Being alive is more sorry for your family? Life is more difficult for them.

What do people with depression need most? Those self-righteous enlightenments are useless to them, but they are even more depressed. What they need is attention and company. Go for a walk with them and take them on a trip for fun. They need a sense of security very much, so we must give them the strongest sense of security and tell them: No matter what happens to you, I will be by your side?

I always find it difficult to sleep and I can't eat any more. I can only eat very light or exciting things, and I have lost weight. My heart often beats faster and I don't fit in. I feel lonely without friends. I act alone and don't like noisy places. I feel bored. Sometimes I suddenly cry when chatting, and I feel that people around me are targeting me. Every night, I can't help but want to commit suicide in various ways, and then I will feel guilty about my suicidal thoughts when I get up in the morning, and I will struggle with the thoughts of life and death every day. Really live in the subconscious every day and fight against a force, but I still can't beat it. Sometimes I really don't think about anything for a moment, just give up like this and live like a waste. No one can feel it and no one will understand you. I just think you're sick and crazy.

Everyone else can't sleep. I'm different. Occasionally insomnia, but sleepy.

It is silent, I don't know when it will start to get upset and don't want to do anything. My heart will start to fear and despair. You will feel that all my friends hide their knives in their smiles, and you will feel that all my relatives are indifferent to you. You will find that living is meaningless.

Whenever I sleep, there will be some inexplicable voices in my head, which are particularly chaotic. I'm particularly scared when I hear something occasionally. At that time, you felt that the whole world was your enemy, especially helpless, just like being accused by a thousand people and abandoned by the world.

A person curled up in the corner, pushing off all social activities, including his girlfriend's date. I won't do anything, even if I pour myself a glass of water. I feel that I am particularly useless and have no value for survival. I really wanted to die at that time, but I was afraid that my relatives and friends would be sad.

Every time I feel uncomfortable, I can only play games and listen to jokes to relieve stress. Although it can confuse people, it is an invisible pressure in my heart in the dead of night. Cut out the heart like a blade.

I can't help myself, and I can't resist it.

Finally, I hope that everyone, like me, will watch more chicken soup and go to the wine field less. It is often empty under the light. Depression is not terrible, what is terrible is others' indifference and self-degradation.

Having said that, I'm getting irritable again. What is the point of living?

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