The painful component of losing a loved one

I used to see someone die in someone else's house, crying and shouting. At that time, I was thinking, what should I do if one day, the person I love leaves me like this? Unexpectedly, this day is not far from me. Not long ago, I really tried the pain of losing my loved ones. It was a winter last year. On a cold morning, I rode my bike to school as usual. I practiced typing at school as before. Hardly had I turned on the computer when the school phone rang. I was a little nervous, as if something had happened, and my heart jumped. At this moment, the teacher saw me and said, "Zheng Jiao, your phone!" " I walked slowly over and thought, who will call me so early? Dad's voice came over the phone, and she whispered, "Jiao Jiao, my mother-in-law passed away last night. I wanted to inform you last night, but I couldn't get in touch with you ... "Before my father could speak again, my tears had already flowed out, my hands were shaking slowly, and my head was blank. I can't believe it's true, even though I know this day will come. However, when I was completely unprepared, I just left. I was going to go back to see my mother-in-law at noon, but she left before she came back. At this moment, I thought of my mother-in-law. The last thing she said to me was when I first got to school from home a week ago. When she left, she said to me helplessly: Jiaowa, when will you come back to see your mother-in-law after this time? I joked at that time: I can't come back every day, wait until the next time I want to come back! Unexpectedly, such jokes became my last conversation with my mother-in-law. I don't know what she was thinking, maybe she was disappointed! I can feel the way my mother-in-law looks at my background. If I knew, I would look back at her and engrave her deeply in my heart. If I knew, I would spend more time with her; If I had known, I wouldn't have said that to her; If only so many people knew! I remember my mother-in-law said to me when she was alive, hey, I really don't want to die. How can I leave my lovely grandchildren when I die? I also told my mother-in-law that you can't leave us, so how can we leave you? She patted my hand, held my hand tightly and said, yes, where can I find such an obedient grandson? I really don't want to leave. I really want to enjoy the happiness of my granddaughter. I said yes, I can go out to earn money soon. You must live a few more years to enjoy my blessing. At that time, she said, I'm sure I can live a few more years. The fortune teller said I could live to be eighty or ninety years old. I'm sure I can enjoy my granddaughter's blessing. I was very sad to hear these words at that time, because everyone in my family knew that my mother-in-law would not live long, and even the doctor didn't know how to prescribe medicine. I can only say that you should take good care of yourself one day, and you can live a few more years. Maybe my mother-in-law knows she won't live for a few years at all! I just sighed.

Leng for a long time, I don't know what to do, which is really a fatal blow to me, so I said to my teacher, teacher, I have something to do at home, so I need to take a few days off and ride home by bike. The fog was really heavy that morning. I could hardly see anything 5 meters ahead, and it was blowing from time to time. To tell the truth, it's really cold, but it's still hot after riding. I'm in a hurry and want to go home soon. When I arrived at my rental house, I saw my father sitting on the bed alone. I looked at my father's haggard face and knew it must be true. I said, where is my mother-in-law now? My father looked at me and said, son, don't be too sad. People always have to live. I carried her back yesterday and died at six or seven last night. Now when I get home, my tears flow out again. Dad looked at me and said nothing. Let's go! Go home! Back in the country, I only saw a black coffin in the lobby. I didn't even get a chance to see my mother-in-law for the last time. She just left. I don't cry anymore. I just watched, my heart was blocked, my mouth was blocked, and I couldn't speak at all. The whole person is suffocating. In this way, a few days later, my mother-in-law was buried in the soil. When I watched the soil completely cover her, I knew in my heart that I would lose this closest person forever and ever. ...