How to understand these four words left by Hony Master Li Shutong before his death?

After Master Hongyi became seriously ill, he refused to seek medical treatment and devoted himself to the Buddha. He told Master Miaolian, "When you were reading for me, you saw tears in my eyes. This is not to miss the world, nor to miss the people I love, but to recall the regrets of my life. " Obviously, "sadness" is not the same thing, and "happiness" is by no means simple.

Throughout the master's life, 19 18 is a milestone for the master. Not a turning point. 19 18, master's degree, 39 years old. During the first month, the tiger ran quietly, and on the fifteenth day of the first month, he was converted by three people, and the dharma name was played, with the name Hongyi. On the 13th day of the seventh lunar month, Tiger Running Temple officially became a monk. Where is the turning point of the master? It is difficult to define. Is this a joke about Xia Mianzun becoming a monk? Is it the atmosphere of the West Lake? Is the tiger running away from food? Is it the figure of the young monk passing by the window during fasting? Was it the political situation at that time? These are all, but the most important thing is Master Hongyi himself. The master has made great achievements in his life. Xia Mianzun, a close friend of Master Hongyi, commented on Master Hongyi and said: Be the same, be the same. Feng Zikai, a student, explained it this way: when he was a teenager, he was a son, like a handsome son; Be a celebrity in middle age and like celebrities; Do drama, like an actor; Learn oil painting, like an artist; Learn the piano like a musician; Run a newspaper, like an editor; Be a teacher and like teachers; Be a monk, like a monk. And what Feng Zikai called "three floors of life": one is material life, the other is spiritual life. The third is the soul life. Material life is food and clothing. Spiritual life is academic literature and art, and soul life is religion. Life is such a "three floors". Those who are too lazy to take the stairs live on the first floor, and their material life is very good. This accounts for the vast majority of the world. Secondly, those who are willing to (or strongly) take the stairs will climb the second floor to play, or stay here for a long time. This is the person who focuses on academic literature and art, and there is another person who has a strong desire for life and strong feet. If he is not satisfied with the second floor, he will take the stairs and climb the third floor. They refuse to be instinctive slaves, and must investigate the source of the soul, the source of the universe (although their path is wrong). This is a religious man.

Our master, Hongyi, walked up the stairs layer by layer. His life must be thorough. This is also the reason why Master Hongyi has made great achievements in legalism, being so earnest and thorough, and abiding by the precepts. Although Buddhism contains superstitious elements, it can also be trusted. Huang Fuhai once said: "In my mind, a mage is an artist. Can I say that Buddhist life is an artistic life? " The sorrows and joys of an artist's life, not the sorrows and joys of a monk. Being so big, I feel that riding a tiger is difficult, and the current knowledge can't support it. I'm really sorry. ) Where do the masters come from? First, he is a friend, protector, student and master in life (refer to another book by Chen Xing, Celebrities Around Master Hongyi). Second, he has made academic and literary achievements. Thirdly, he has fulfilled his grand dream: he is willing to lay down his life and support and carry forward it from today to the future. Maybe I feel a little guilty about my second Japanese wife and the original match. Because of my poor health, I couldn't go to Xi 'an Anxin Toutuo to preach. I think one of the great regrets of the master is that he failed to establish Nanshan Law School. Li Hong's wish was hit hard because of his disagreement with Wuli Temple on running a school. Master Hongyi described himself as saying: "I didn't sleep for a month because of such a blow, and I was greatly disturbed mentally. I can't read the scriptures and recite the Buddha. According to this situation, I am afraid I have to rest for a year or two. " Later, Master Hongyi wrote Miscellaneous Notes of Nanshan Fa Yuan and was invited to give lectures at Long Fu Temple, which made up for this shortcoming. However, in Longfu Temple, the lecture was only halfway through. The reason is that the master later found in his letter to Huan that it was completely absurd for him to think that he was Christina without big sleeves when he was giving lectures in White Lake. Thank you for your kindness. It may be one of the master's regrets to interrupt the spread of Buddhism because of improper behavior (master introspection). Another regret is that when the master died, our country was still in war and people's livelihood was still in dire straits.