The prose of my brother who will live in my heart forever.

The girl has a "brother", a "brother" without any blood relationship, who has always lived in her heart.

The girl has two older brothers. My older brother is a farmer at home, and my older brother Gage is a senior high school student in County No.1 Middle School. Every winter and summer vacation comes, girls have time to talk to him. Girls like knowledgeable people, so they like to ask Gage such questions about Gage class: who is the best in the class? Who is the cleverest? Who is the hardest worker? Whose learning method is the most efficient? Girls will be happy to hear their names, even if they never know their names. Gege will tell all the names of the top five in the class, and the girls will keep their names in mind. Among these names, a boy named Wei is often praised by Gage. On the one hand, he has good academic performance, on the other hand, he is gage's good friend. Oh, Wei, this girl remembered this name. Yes, Wei, Wei, Wei ... She wrote countless homonyms in her mind, and she didn't go to Little Brother for verification because of this. In her opinion, there is no need to verify it, because even if there are thousands of Wei in the world, this Wei is unique, unique! The girl began to yearn to see this talented "elder brother". She thought, since the Xiao Bing brothers are Gage's classmates and his good friends, it is always common for good friends to visit their classmates. She hoped that Brother Xiao Bing would come home to see him. But the girl's heart, how embarrassed to say it, how to explain it to gage, she was embarrassed to say it, so she could only keep it in her heart. She let Friar Xiao Bing meet him at Paradise House.

As the days passed, Gage was about to graduate from senior three, but she didn't see her brother Wei. The girl is somewhat lost in her heart. In her heart, it's good to meet such an excellent person, even if it's for her to have a look. However, all the peerless treasures in the world always seem hard to see, just like three years of high school life! However, Wei's brother has never been a guest at home.

The days are getting longer and longer, and seeing Wei's brother seems to be an unreachable dream. Her heart gradually calmed down, she got used to it, and began to accept the fact that she couldn't see Xiao Bing's brother.

Of course, the girl knows that Xiao Bing's brother is a wizard, and he is sure to make a fortune. Sure enough, he was admitted to Lanzhou University with excellent results, which she learned from her little brother. If you can't see it, you can't see it. Girls comfort themselves like this.

……

Eight years have passed, from fourteen to twenty-two. At this time, the girl was barely admitted to the Chinese Department of Lanzhou Normal University with very poor grades. Eight years of waiting, eight years! Maybe she waited too long, so long that she accidentally remembered Batman's brother, and she silently said to herself: If you can't see him, you can't see him! The loss in the meantime is only known to her. Just as the girl's desire to see Xiao Bing's brother was about to disappear, one day, the girl just stepped into the house and found several guests at home. While wondering, her father, who has always been thirsty for knowledge, has introduced them one by one: "Ya Ya, this is your brother's classmate Wei …" In an instant, the girl's whole heart is surrounded by happiness, which is a language that even the world can't use. But she restrained this sudden inner ecstasy in a very short time, because she couldn't let her father and Gage know how much she liked Xiao Bing's brother, let alone Xiao Bing's brother that she had been waiting for him to come home for many years! Ah, brother Xiao Bing, how handsome! Tall and burly, tall and heroic, you can vaguely see that they are a pair of beautiful big eyes, a high nose, moderately thick lips, a gentleman's face and broad shoulders that can bear everything! There is no doubt that a noble temperament is displayed on the Xiao Bing brothers! More handsome than her imaginary soldier brother!

My father has always advocated knowledge, and naturally he talks about the past and the present. Soon, he talked about Confucius. Father began to criticize the girl who had always hated Confucius: "Hum, she actually looked down on Confucius. Who is Confucius? He is a saint of Confucius, how dare you look down on him … "In the eyes of my father, this is simply a big contradiction, but the girl who has been pursuing individual freedom retorted," I hate Confucius the most.

"Is Confucius talking about the three cardinal guides and the five permanent members?" Brother Xiao Bing interrupted the girl, with an imperceptible gentle smile on his lips, and looked at her tenderly with his big tender eyes.

"Oh, my God! The learned soldier brother questioned that it must be his own fault, and he must make the soldier brother laugh. " The girl thought in shame that she would never talk about Kan Kan again, because she was afraid that she would say something wrong and make Brother Xiao Bing laugh again. She only dares to talk about trivial things in life because she can't make mistakes. The atmosphere of the whole conversation was particularly harmonious. Finally, when we talked about the age of college entrance examination, Xiao Bing's brother looked at the girl tenderly and said, "Yaya, I graduated from college at the age of 22 ..." My brother Xiao Bing affectionately called her "Yaya". What a warm name, although there is a little criticism in this warm words, criticizing her for not working hard enough makes her even more ashamed, but more convincing! Yes, who made her so stupid and who told her not to work hard? No wonder Brother Xiao Bing criticized her. How nice it is that the Xiao Bing brothers are sitting next to him! She can smell him, a warm smell! How she wanted to be closer, closer, to smell the book fragrance from him, to listen to his wonderful voice calling the word "Yaya" over and over again, to really feel his heartbeat, and to lean on his broad shoulders affectionately and tenderly. ...

However, all the good things in the world are fleeting, so the Xiao Bing brothers quickly got up and said goodbye. Oh, dear soldier brother, do you know that Ya Ya has been waiting for you for many years? Why don't you stay a little longer? Why don't you stay a little longer? Let me see your big tender eyes, those eyes hidden under black sunglasses. Let me take off those annoying black sunglasses and let me have a closer look. ...

All the family members except my father came out to see her off. Maybe the girl's infatuation touched God and asked Brother Xiao Bing to give her an unforgettable look back. Just as he was about to get on the bus, Xiao Bing's brother turned his head, and his big eyes under black sunglasses shone faintly with gentle light. He deliberately said goodbye to Ya Ya: "Ya Ya, I'm leaving ..."

Oh, brother Xiao Bing, do you know how reluctant she is to let you go and how attached she is to you?

Brother, brother Xiao Bing, a well-read boy, must have a beautiful girl to match, and that girl is definitely not her. She has no beautiful appearance, charming figure and little ink in her stomach. How could Brother Xiao Bing like her? She thought sadly that she knew that Xiao Bing's brother would be successful in the official career, and ordinary girls like her would never catch up with him.

It was a long wait and longing, but my brother Xiao Bing never appeared in her home. She knew that maybe this time the wait was longer than the last time. She was used to life without Batman's brother and finally despaired. She knew Batman's brother wouldn't come.

Time is always passing quietly, and Brother Xiaobing is like a cloud on the horizon in her heart, which is gradually blown away by the wind.

I don't know when, she heard that Xiao Bing's brother got married. When she first heard the news, a faint sadness swept over the girl's heart, and she lost the opportunity to have him forever. The girl who can marry her must be "ashamed of flowers", right? A talented boy must have a peerless beauty to match. In short, it will never be her turn to have an ugly, shallow and uneducated ordinary girl. Sad, she accepted the fact that she lost her brother. She envied the girl who married Batman's brother more than ten million times, what a happy girl and what a lucky girl! To have such a good boy depends on life.

Brother Xiao Bing is like a breeze. After a long wait and longing, he brushed her heart gently and disappeared without a trace, so that she finally died. But this doesn't mean that the girl has completely forgotten her brother Xiao Bing, she just temporarily sealed him in her memory.

Occasionally, she and Gage will also talk about Gage's classmates, and naturally they will also talk about their brother Xiao Bing. One day, Gage seemed to show off a glorious thing he had done to his sister: "I introduced all the objects of Wei ..."

The girl didn't expect that she longed for Batman's brother for so long, but her own brother sent him to another girl's side. She can only complain about the accident, but thinking that she really doesn't deserve Batman's brother, she forgives Ga's brother more or less. She is anxious to know everything about the girl;

"What's her name? Isn't it beautiful? "

"It's called Gu Yuhong, and she looks average."

"Is that as talented as the Xiao Bing brothers?"

"No, just a secondary school education."

"……"

Oh, brother Xiao Bing, in my opinion, the girl who wants to be your wife must be rich. There is no need to introduce her. You can choose a beautiful woman as your wife, or you can choose a talented woman as good as you to match you. Unexpectedly, your way of choosing a spouse is the oldest way in China, and the standard of choosing a spouse is as low-key as ordinary people.

At that moment, the girl was so upset with herself. Why didn't she be brave? Even if she was ruthlessly rejected by her brother, at least she worked hard for her happiness. How much she blamed her brother: Gage, Gage, why are you so poor? A treasure is in front of you, but you gave it to other girls and forgot your own sister. That girl named Gu, you are so lucky! Have a treasure as easy as blowing off dust ...

Brother Bing, brother Bing, you may never know how precious you are. In her heart, you are a shining baby. However, due to my shyness, inferiority and cowardice, I completely lost the opportunity to own this treasure. God, didn't you see the girl's sincere heart? Why don't you give me a chance? Aren't you always the kindest and most caring? Why didn't I get a chance to see the Xiao Bing brothers again? Why are you so cruel to me?

The girl's heart is so sad that there is no need to cry.

Time passed by bit by bit, and I didn't know how far I had gone. ...

Maybe God wants to test whether this girl really loves the Xiao Bing brothers. One day, another classmate of Gage, a female classmate, had several contacts with that girl. Oh, Gege's classmate, Wei jumped out again. The girl couldn't help talking about Xiao Bing's brother, his talent and his love. She said enviously to Gege's lesbian theory: "That Gu Yuhong is really lucky to have married such an excellent boy as Wei." Although she called Xiao Bing's brother thousands of times in her mind, she still kept that reserve and called him by his first name in front of others.

"Wei also has shortcomings and is not perfect ..." The female classmate said disapprovingly.

"What defect?" The girl's heart suddenly became tense. She doesn't know what happened to her dear perfect soldier brother. Is he sick? Or ... she was too scared to think about it.

"He has a black birthmark on his eye." The female classmate said quietly.

"Is it big?" The girl asked with concern.

"It's obvious anyway, it's not good-looking."

"But he went to my house as a guest and didn't find this!"

"Is he wearing a pair of black sunglasses?"

"Yes, I wore black sunglasses, but I didn't notice. I just think it's hard for me to see his eyes clearly. "

"Now you see, he wears glasses to cover up his imperfections." Female students are as calm as telling stories.

"Oh, I see." The girl said calmly that although the result was really a little regrettable, she was a little disappointed.

"What does this have to do? His talent, his know-how, his scholarly style, and his radiance are enough to cover up his little imperfection, just like when the sun comes out, the rays of the sun will cover up the rays of thousands of stars. This is probably the envy of talents ... "The girl thought lovingly, but these words can only be kept in her heart and can't be said.

Brother Xiao Bing really has a black birthmark, and this girl was confirmed by brother Ga.

In the following days, the girl tried her best to think about the birthmark that Xiao Bing's brother covered with black sunglasses, and those big eyes full of kindness, wisdom and gentleness reappeared in front of her eyes: Brother Xiao Bing, it's nothing, you don't need sunglasses, you are still so beautiful, handsome and radiant. She often says this to a distant soldier brother who doesn't know where he is.

Brother Xiao Bing, you may not know how many times she felt sorry for you when she learned that you had a birthmark and tried to hide it with black sunglasses. She thought, dear brother Xiao Bing must have been so traumatized by that ugly birthmark that he had to cover it with glasses, and he was embarrassed for you more than once. ...

Time flies. I don't know when or why, but this girl got to know Xiao Bing's brother's sister Xiao Na. This girl really likes Xiao Bing's brother. Her topic is only Xiao Bing's brother's knowledge, intelligence, wisdom, diligence and love ... Facing Xiao Bing's relatives, how much she wants to say to Xiao Na: "I deeply like your brother and love your brother." But shyness once again swallowed her courage, not to mention that Xiao Bing's brother was already a husband, and it was too late.

In the following days, the girl learned to accept the fact that her brother Xiao Bing was married. She knew that the Xiao Bing brothers could not have a place in his life record. Xiao Bing's brother is in the girl's heart, farther and farther, until the end of the day. ...

In the later years, she should have a love of her own, true love, but it seems that God is playing tricks on her and torturing her. Another boy broke into the girl's heart, and his arrival was an unbearable purgatory for girls. She shed tears for him every day, tasted the pain of love and suffered several times. She thought of death and various ways to die: hanging, jumping off a building, jumping into a river ... It was the darkest day in her life, and she wanted to end this painful life, but her elderly father and white-haired mother kept her. Because every day when I come home from school, my white-haired mother stands at the door waiting for her to come home. How can she leave all this behind and leave her sadness to her parents? She thought she was dead and all the pain was over. After her two brothers and one sister mourned for her death the most, she will soon get out of the pain of losing her sister and return to a normal life. There will be no more pain, and elderly parents will never get over the grief of losing their daughter. Parents will be sad for her death for life! If so, she will never forgive herself, so she chose life, even death, and will wait until her parents have passed away before she dies. At least in this way, no one will be too sad because of her death. The girl chose life, but life made her so miserable. Life is worse than death! I can't die but live in pain, and I have to smile in front of all my relatives and friends and bury my pain in my heart, which makes her unbearable. During the day, when no one is around, she secretly tears. When someone is around, she laughs loudly and swallows her tears. When night comes, she can't let people know that she is crying. She often wipes her tears under the covers alone. Sometimes the pain will make her unable to restrain herself, so she can only bite the corner of the quilt and cry. At that time, she wanted to find a place where no one was there and cry loudly in the wilderness. Until midnight one day, she couldn't hold it any longer. I burst into tears in the middle of the night and woke up my sleeping mother. The frightened mother didn't know what had happened to her daughter. Hugging her tightly, she told her mother the pain of her love for the first time under her mother's questioning. The mother comforted her daughter: "don't cry, all the men in the world are not dead." Without him, we can find something better ... "Mother's comfort is so weak, and the pain is not alleviated by her comfort, but continues to intensify. Sometimes she is so helpless, so helpless, how eager to have a warm embrace to hold her tightly, even if she doesn't say a word, just hold her tightly, so that her scarred heart can have a harbor to stop temporarily. Warm embrace, where can I find warm embrace? Oh, brother Batman, she thought of brother Batman again, the brother Batman with black sunglasses, gentle and beautiful eyes and broad shoulders. If Batman's brother were here, she would definitely jump into his arms, let him hug her tightly, let her cry enough, and make her feel sad, lost, frustrated and miserable all her life. The girl knew that her brother Xiao Bing would succeed in his career. He must have flown to a far, far place, a place she didn't know. ...

Time flies. In a blink of an eye, she was 26 years old. Her father is seriously ill and time is running out. Her mother began to nag, "Ya Ya, find someone. Your father is gone, so you have to be filial for three years. At that time, you were 29. You can't get married at 30. At that time, good objects were picked by others ... "

She thought of being an only child, but if a woman never gets married, in a traditional country like China, she will be regarded as an alien or even abnormal, and her love is in a mess. If she is regarded as an alien, a monster and a sick person in life, she will be spurned by the world. She doesn't want to add to her pain. Even if she doesn't love that man, she will marry him, at least in the eyes of the world. Her father is very ill, getting worse every day, and can't wait for her to be picky. In this way, she succumbed to fate and married herself in less than two months. On the fifth day of her marriage, her father died. ...

For love, the girl shed tears all her life, perhaps because she had suffered enough, and God finally began to pay attention to her. She really married a good husband. He loves her very much and dotes on her. He is like a warm little stove in winter, warming a girl's broken heart. Like a clear spring in summer, it flows slowly from her heart every day and is bathed in her husband's love. Her sad complex is less and less lingering in her heart. Her heart that once shed tears and blood began to scab slowly under her husband's care, but it still hurts when she accidentally touches it. ...

The wheel of years rolled by and ran over the roadbed of her life, but the mark left by the wheel was hard to erase for a long time. ...

Batman's brother became an image that popped up in her mind by accident, the deep, gentle and affectionate brother wearing black sunglasses and full of wisdom, but it was only by accident.

She went to gage's clinic for treatment because of some gynecological diseases. Occasionally, but only occasionally, she and Gage will talk about Xiao Bing's brother. Whenever she talks about her brother, Gage always shows off his advantages: "I introduced Wei's object ..."

"How can you introduce him to Gu Yuhong, why don't you introduce him to me ..." The girl at this time is a mature woman, and there is no need to be shy in front of love. She spoke her mind boldly.

"At that time, you were still at school ... he went to Germany, and it was difficult for me to see you. Is this not good? "

After leaving Gage's clinic, the person who had contact with Gage, the most important person, the little soldier brother hidden in her heart appeared in front of her eyes. Oh, Brother Xiaobing, if I marry you, I will be very happy. ...

Brother Bing, you never know that a girl already loves you so much.

Time passed so long that she loved Brother Xiaobing so much that she couldn't help talking about his classmates and Brother Xiaobing hidden in her heart. This time, he told her the news she had been expecting since she was fourteen: Wei is now in Germany. Yes, it's not surprising that the talented soldier brother will have a successful career. It is not surprising that he has gone to any corner of the earth, because he is so excellent that he can be accepted in any corner. Dear brother Xiao Bing, are you okay in another country? She even vaguely saw the little soldier's brother wandering in a street in Germany, talking to Germans in German or English that she didn't understand. She remembered the black sunglasses worn by Batman's brother. Oh, are you still wearing them? Could it have been accidentally broken? He doesn't have to hide that birthmark anymore. He will bravely walk on the streets of Germany and enjoy the sunshine. This is indeed a beautiful picture, but her heart is still sad and sad for the loss of her baby.

Just when she thought her love for Batman's brother would be buried in the ground forever with her death, she went to gage's house again and talked about Batman's brother. Miraculously, she asked him if he had the contact information of Batman's brother, and the answer was yes.

They became WeChat friends, and it was so natural for her to call him brother affectionately, because she had called him brother thousands of times in her heart. She also firmly believes that Xiao Bing's brother at least remembers the most crucial word in her name: "Ya", only because Xiao Bing's brother looked back at him affectionately when he solemnly said goodbye to her 23 years ago and said goodbye: Ya Ya, I'm leaving ... Only because of this did she vaguely remember me. The answer is correct. Brother Xiao Bing said a key word: "Ya".

Her buried fire of love woke up like a spark of calcium carbide. Even though he is old, the white-haired soldier brother has dinner with his white-haired sister, so that she can see her soldier brother again before she dies. She has no regrets in her life. But my brother Xiao Bing always said that he was busy. He always finished talking with her in a few words, so she was very sad and wrote the last sentence to her beloved brother Xiao Bing with tears:

Brother: I'm sorry to bother you so much in your busy situation these days. I used to look up to you, worship you and feel very small; Now, times have changed More than twenty years have passed, and I find that I am still small, and you are still so noble. No matter how hard I tried, how I stood on tiptoe and looked up at your head and eyes, and you rushed forward with your head held high, I didn't have time to lower your eyes to see the people and things around me, let alone find a small me. Originally, I wanted to write an article about your "brother", but now I think that even if I did, it would only be self-defeating in front of the talented "brother", so I decided not to write, leaving a good article is more precious than anything else. Originally, I was delighted to think that I had a "brother". My "brother" can tell me many things I don't know and get a lot of knowledge from him. Finally, I found that "brother" doesn't want to have a "sister". I won't bother you anymore, brother. This is the last time I call you that. Please don't tell my brother what I said. I just want to face failure alone.

Goodbye, my love!

Meet in 23 years! Brother Xiao Bing asked strangely, "Why did you suddenly think of me?" This is your problem. Now I have answered you accurately, soldier. You may never know. In fact, you have been living in my heart, from fourteen to forty-five now, 3 1 year! It's just that I entered the recycle bin in your computer system, which is a folder that needs cleaning!

Goodbye, my love!