What is the pain of marrying far away?

I am not used to it in life, and my family cannot rush back in time when something happens to me.

I have been married to the north for nearly three years. My husband and I are college alumni. I didn’t expect that I would get pregnant when I was about to graduate. After being extremely entangled in my heart, I decided to take a gamble and give birth to the child and have sex with him. The door to marriage.

From the beginning, I was not able to adapt. I am from the south. Needless to say, there is no need to say much about the differences between the north and the south. Sometimes I even made a lot of jokes because of poor language communication, whether it was eating, There are still huge differences in ideological concepts and that of my husband’s relatives and families.

It is no exaggeration to say that the first year of my marriage was the most depressing year I have ever lived. Because there was no one to take care of her during the pregnancy, and her husband was homeless, he basically never enjoyed the life of a pregnant woman.

I have always done housework such as eating and mopping the floor by myself. I have also always gone to prenatal check-ups by myself. I have always wondered if I had lost my mind and found something all this way. The one who came here was to suffer this crime.

And several things I experienced afterwards also made me feel very uncomfortable. Because we were married far away, my mother was undergoing surgery, so she didn’t say a word because she was afraid that I would be worried. I remember that I was so flustered and uncomfortable that I called my mother.

Actually, she was about to enter the operating room. When she saw my phone call, she asked everyone around her to be quiet. She pretended that nothing was wrong and chatted with me for a while. She also teased me and kept it secret from me. She waited until she hung up the phone. After entering the operating room, I didn’t find out until half a year later.

I once called my grandma and she told me that every time my father went back to his hometown to chat and mentioned me, he couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable. She can no longer fly when she is so old. I must go back often to see him, otherwise he will not think what I think.

I promised my grandma that I would go home to see my father often in the future, and she said, "Just promise me. I'm afraid I forgot to tell you. Maybe one day I will leave and it will be too late." I told you. "At that time, I was really sad and uncomfortable.

Due to pregnancy and childbirth, I haven’t been home for almost three years. I have booked a flight home. My parents are afraid that the child will not be used to it, so they bought the same bowl at home for the baby. I sewed a small quilt exactly like the one here.

Suddenly the work unit is very busy and I have to work overtime. I may not be able to go back. I have to refund my air ticket, but I haven’t refunded it. I have cried several times and I can’t bear to tell my parents that I have been working overtime recently. I just hope that I can get it back. The work is done, but there is little hope.

Looking back, I do regret marrying far away, but not because I married the wrong person, but because I feel like I gave up my original family by marrying far away. This makes me Very painful.