Life was once full of noise ADHD adult Zhang Yahui: I can finally understand my colleagues’ jokes

Zhang Yahui, who serves as the cashier team leader in a junior high school, has been able to study and take exams since she was a child. She is also very competent in jobs with clear procedures. But what made her hit a wall in the workplace was not her professional ability, but her uncontrollable emotions and verbal responses. After seeking help from a professional, the truth behind it finally became clear.

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The story starts from a daily day in the office. On this day, the supervisor politely asked Zhang Yahui, who was engaged in administration, to put aside her routine work and handle urgent tasks together. She immediately responded loudly: "No, I can't do anything like this." Such a tough reply made the air in the office condense instantly, and the supervisor also He left with a livid face.

Zhang Yahui is a "SOP controller" at work. "I have my own set of steps for doing things, and I can't change them easily." Because as long as there are small changes or interruptions, her thoughts will be divided. It takes a lot of time to focus on your work again. This kind of tense situation is Zhang Yahui's daily work. Whenever her colleagues want to communicate with her about the work process, she always "chokes back" without thinking. In addition to worrying about the anxiety that the work will not be completed after the interruption, Zhang Yahui finds that she can't control her mouth: "My mind is still thinking about how to respond, but my emotions are very sensitive. I always feel that others are going to criticize me, so I blurt out the words impulsively. It's like playing table tennis, I always hit the ball back with a direct reaction, and the words I say are usually not good things."

Even when her colleagues tell jokes, she will retort impulsively and the atmosphere will go down to freezing point. She can be said to be a standard "noob". This kind of uncontrollable "quick talk" makes Zhang Yahui regretful after every conflict. Therefore, in the eyes of her colleagues, she is "stubborn and unable to communicate". When she encounters interpersonal obstacles that she doesn't know how to solve, she often throws the mess away and simply walks away. "When she was just admitted to the civil service, she frequently changed units and took every position. It won’t be long.” Zhang Yahui smiled bitterly.

At the time, she didn’t know it was related to ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder). She has been good at taking exams since she was a child, but her life has been chaotic.

She can’t sit still, is naughty, and can’t concentrate, so she is not good at paper-and-pencil exams... These typical symptoms of ADHD have not been found in Zhang Yahui since she was a child. Zhang Yahui has a unique way of reading, and is even one of the few students who likes to take exams. Zhang Yahui explained: "I am the type who is good at taking exams. I get good grades, can get praise, and have a sense of accomplishment."

But her life is a mess. There is a serious lack of storage capacity, always messy desks and rooms, and always missing art supplies. Starting from elementary school, I often cannot find the textbooks or supplies I should bring before going to school. I am so anxious that I cry, and repeat "I can't find them" every day. ” drama. As an adult, she still has no solution. She said helplessly: "If you can't find it, buy a new one. There are nearly 10 mobile phones at home at the highest record; or when you feel depressed, you will make impulse purchases and pile up endless cosmetics and skin care products."

When her mood is ups and downs, Zhang Yahui will sit under the tree in her hometown to enjoy the cool air. It can calm her emotions and nourish positive emotions. She calls it the "healing corner". Zhang Yahui provided that everything was related to ADHD

Difficulties in interpersonal relationships and frequent forgetfulness in life made Zhang Yahui troubled. A Christian friend happened to recommend her to read a comic book "My 37 Christian Friends". It described the symptoms of ADHD in a church member, and Zhang Yahui was enlightened: "The comic character is uncontrollably forgetful of things, and although he blames himself but cannot communicate with others, this is my portrayal." At this time, Zhang Yahui felt enlightened for the first time. Be exposed to the term "ADHD".

Under the advice of other church members, Zhang Yahui plucked up the courage to go to the psychiatric department for evaluation, and she was diagnosed with adult ADHD. She was dubious at first, but after repeated visits, the doctor helped her sort out the obstacles, interpersonal difficulties, and impulsive responses she had had since she was a child. These could all be the effects of ADHD traits, and she started taking medication.

Zhang Yahui carefully observed the difference before and after taking medication: "It turns out that I really have ADHD traits."