The ending of Ye Jinghong’s novel Nowhere to Escape

Goodbye, my crystal palace, goodbye, the paradise of my love

Chapter 44

Yes, it is very beautiful, born in the north, Growing up in the north, the snow scene in front of him was not unusual to him, but Qiao Bailu was walking on the mountain, and he secretly admired the beautiful trees and jade in front of him. In this world with so many worries, the fairyland in front of him should be the closest thing to the fairyland on earth. Is it a beautiful view? The heavy snow that had been falling all day and night has stopped, and the sky is as clear as a blue sky. The blue sky is set against the crystal clear white snow, which makes the blue look so cute and heartbreakingly cute. This troublesome thing should be in the world...

Qiao Bailu turned up the collar of his coat, and the north wind blew snowdrops towards him. He turned around and walked backwards towards the mountain. As he walked, he looked at the traces around him with his eyes. He didn't know why he went up the mountain. Could it be because of the old man's hidden eyes? But although the old man had a different expression, he didn't say anything in the end; was it because when he returned home, it was just some tedious business and a lonely and boring house?

Maybe?

A strong wind blew, and the snow mixed with it made it difficult for him to open his eyes. He turned around and swerved away, not wanting the snow boots under his feet to slip, and he fell heavily on the mountain road. Even though the snow was thick, it still caused him a lot of pain. He patted the snow on his clothes and was about to get up when a very familiar laughter came from the other side of the wind and snow like a tinkling bell. , Qiao Bailu's heart jumped violently, and he looked over along with the laughter, and saw Mulan Ying, wearing a red down jacket and a white velvet hat on her head, standing on the rock above, with a pair of black and bright eyes exposed. Look at him.

She was dressed in red and had a smile as bright as a flower. In this fairyland between heaven and earth, her smile was ten thousand times more beautiful than that of a fairy. Qiao Bailu was stunned and fell down in the snow, forgetting. got up.

Behind her appeared Mumu, who was wrapped like a round rice dumpling, followed by four black dogs. He saw Mulan Ying turning sideways and saying something to Mumu. Mumu nodded repeatedly and waved the four dogs down the mountain. Went.

Qiao Bailu came to his senses and wanted to raise his hand to stop Mumu, but saw the round Mumu yelling a few times with excitement. When they reached the hillside with a meter of snow, It slid down with a swipe and disappeared in an instant.

Didn’t this child recognize me? Qiao Bailu looked at the snow path drawn by Mu Mu and thought to himself.

Mulan Oriole came over in one hop or two steps, her steps were extremely light. There was a cute little white pom-pom on her velvet hat, which swayed back and forth with her beats. When she got to him, she took it off. Gloves, stretched out his hand and said to him: "Get up."

Qiao Bailu looked at her snow-white hand, hesitated, stretched out to hold it, her skin was warm and delicate after a long absence, and his heart skipped a beat. , quickly let go, turned over and stood up.

She raised her eyebrows, her face nonchalant, and stuffed her hands back into her gloves.

The two were face to face. She put on a smile on her face and looked at him intently, as if there were flowers on his face and couldn't take her eyes away. The two were separated for a day, and Qiao Bailu saw that she was beautiful and intelligent. , speaking and smiling sweetly, her face was even more radiant than when the two of them got together. The white hat and red shirt against the background of the snowy scene and blue sky were so beautiful and full of vitality that Qiao Bailu's eyes stayed on her face for a long time. Move away.

"What are you doing up here?" she asked with a smile.

“Look at the snow scene.”

She said yes, her smiling eyes dimmed, and she pointed at the snow scene around her and said, “Does it look good?”

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"It's okay."

She listened and didn't say anything for a long time.

"I came back last night." She took the initiative to say it later.

Qiao Bailu only hummed and said nothing.

"Mumu was homesick. Their school was on New Year's holiday, so he made a fuss and refused to go to school. He didn't like school at all. During this time, he couldn't sleep. Well, I always missed home, grandpa, and his dog. No matter how I tried to scare him, it was of no use, so I had to send him back.

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After saying that, she looked at him, pursed her lips and smiled, shook her head and said: "My brother is getting older and more and more disobedient. I don't want to scold him all the time, for fear that my parents will blame me. ——Brother Bailu——" At this point, the eyes that had been lingering on his face showed a look of surprise, and he frowned: "Why are you so thin? ”

Qiao Bailu looked at her face and said she didn’t know.

She looked at it blankly, and for a while it seemed that she couldn’t help it, so she took her hands out of her gloves, She leaned forward and touched his cheek. Before speaking, her face turned a little red, and she asked as if she was embarrassed, "Did you think of me? ”

Qiao Bailu shook his head, avoided her stroking hand, and said no.

She was so embarrassed that her face became even redder, and it took her a long time to get over her embarrassment. The look disappeared, and he smiled happily again: "Actually, I'm not sure I can meet you when I come back this time. I only have three days off. I will stay for one day tomorrow, and I will rush back the day after tomorrow. In such a short time, you You don’t want to see me. Did I really think I couldn’t see you? ”

“——Where do you work? "Qiao Bailu finally spoke and asked her.

"P&G, introduced by a college classmate, she went to P&G after graduation. What I am best at is interviewing, so I haven't had much serious work for two years after graduation, but I went to P&G for an interview and was hired easily. I plan to work at P&G for a while and prepare to go abroad..."

"Going abroad? " He asked.

She chuckled and hummed. Just when Qiao Bailu had mixed feelings in her heart, she whispered: "I want to stay away from you. "

Qiao Bailu's expression changed when he heard this. Looking at her expression, if the person opposite was not Mulan Ying, he would probably be so frightened that he would fall down immediately.

But she just pursed her lips. Smiling slightly, looking at his gloomy face, he whispered: "I want to stay away from you because I'm afraid that I can't help but come back to you. "

"Would you ever think of coming back to me? "He asked, his voice a little hoarse.

"I always think about it, even when I'm at work, and also think about it when I stay alone in a rented house after work. I don't think I can continue like this. This kind of life It's so unfair to me. How many people do I have to live by myself? My parents who died young and my younger brother who was born mentally retarded. I should live a good life and live a happy and fulfilling life without them. I have exhausted all the happiness I have had the opportunity to enjoy, how can I be worthy of being the only living and healthy person in our Mu family? So I have to find a way not to miss you anymore. You don’t want me anymore. I can’t just die just because you don’t want me anymore, right? Since I have to live, I can live happily. "

"Live happily -" he repeated, his tone full of ridicule, not sure whether he was mocking her or himself.

"Don't lose weight anymore. , no matter how thin I am, I look like the bean sprouts before, so unsightly. "

Qiao Bailu's face was as cold as ice. He said nothing and he didn't know if he heard her words.

"You still blame me for killing your father? "She walked closer to him, and her big black eyes suddenly came to his eyes, and she met his eyes. Qiao Bailu, who was caught off guard, was so frightened that he instinctively ducked back, and then frowned at her.

"You won't believe me when I say I didn't kill him, but the reason why I didn't complain loudly and say you wronged me is because I did have the intention to kill him. That night, I joined forces with your mother, Aunt Lan I called you to call you away, and I led your father up the mountain, all in order to kill him. I never fully countered your accusations because I made up my mind to kill him until he died. , he eventually fell off the mountain on his own. If not, I would have pushed him down, so I will accept all your accusations by leaving here. I am not innocent in this matter, I tolerate your disappointment in me..."

Qiao Bailu moved his eyes away, looked at the snow-capped mountains and blue sky, and sighed secretly.

"I promised you not to kill him and spare him, but in the end I couldn't help but do it because Aunt Lan told me that he wanted your will. Brother Bailu, I don't want to say that I did it for you. I just killed your father. I don’t want you to feel guilty. You have perfectionist demands on my morality. But in fact, I really have no morals. Only when I am by your side will I try my best to be a good person inside and outside. Beautiful person..."

"You are a frankly bad person. "Qiao Bailu interrupted her and said.

Mulan Ying was stunned for a moment, her face was a little surprised, and after a while she hummed in a low voice, which was regarded as admission.

"But a frank bad guy is still a bad guy after all. Xiaoying, you can definitely discuss the handling of this matter with me, right? Didn't I say that I won't let anyone in this world Did anyone, including yourself, hurt you? Why did you take matters into your own hands? I knew he was going to be bad for me a long time ago. Do you think I didn’t know anything? ?" she asked in surprise.

“I didn’t know that he would be so bad as to kill me. He will eventually reach this point. Maybe it’s because of his mistress? After all, over there I still have two sons. He may think that it’s okay if I don’t respect him and don’t respect him.”

“Don’t he know that you are unique?” Mulan Ying’s big eyes said. She leaned in front of him again, less than a centimeter away from his eyes, and spoke sincerely while glaring at him.

Qiao Bailu stretched out her hand, pulled her face farther away, and said: "Don't get so close."

She straightened her hat that was pulled askew. , looking at him, her shining eyes reflected him and the world behind him covered in silver and with clear blue sky. Qiao Bailu stared at her blankly, dumbfounded, and finally moved away after a long time. Looking at him, he said: "I know everything. He once visited Qiao Yuan in the middle of the night, sneaking around. At that time, I knew that he wanted to do something bad to me. I think the reason why he married my mother was I will become close friends with your father. The reason why he was the most loving and respectful father to me when I was young is mainly because he has some plans for all of us. He is a man with no real abilities and is neither my uncle nor my uncle. , not Uncle Mu, just a cold and selfish careerist, but even so, he is still my father. Just when I am planning to make him give up completely and never worry about my property again, you - you You didn’t even discuss it with me, you just started like that..."

He couldn’t go on.

Mulan Ying sighed and muttered: "I told you several times that I didn't kill him."

"You can't deceive me even if you tell me a thousand times. You will never admit this. Have you forgotten that I watched you grow up? When did you lie to deceive me?" Mulan Ying glanced at him and stamped her feet. He said: "It's weird, I just don't admit it, I didn't kill him!"

Qiao Bailu ignored her stamping her feet, was silent for a while and then said: "What makes me sad the most is not that you actually killed me!" It was me who could be so cruel as to take people's lives - it was you who knew clearly that as long as you killed my father, we would never be able to be together again, but you still took action. You took our lives seriously. It's so light, it's hard for me to let go..."

These words made the expression on Mulan Ying's face completely dim. Her eyes were red, as if she was about to shed tears, and again Bian Bianzui held it back, sighed and said: "Then let's live alone. It's not like I can't live without you?"

When Qiao Bailu heard this, he suddenly He turned his head and looked at her, as if he couldn't believe what he heard.

She smiled, but the smile disappeared in an instant. Tears fell on her cheeks, forming several small ice pendants on her snow-white face. There were breaths on her black eyelashes. The frost that came out made her look like a beautiful cartoon goddess. She had already whispered: "I have never been myself. I am my parents' daughter, Mumu's sister, and I have never been just Mulan Ying." Ah? Did I say it before? I have to live the life of our whole family by myself, so I have to live happily. I will also miss you and love you for a long time. When I go to work I miss you too, even after get off work. I miss you so much that I can’t sleep without you, but I can’t die without you, right? That’s too stupid. A person with a brain like mine will never do it. Such a stupid thing."

Qiao Bailu listened with a cold expression.

"Do you like to hear that I would break my heart for you, and that life would be worse than death?" Her face was red, not sure whether it was because of the cold wind, or because of embarrassment, but her eyes had just shed tears at this time. Staring at him, full of nostalgia, he pursed his lips and said with a smile: "I only envy the days when we get together day and night, and we only envy mandarin ducks but not immortals. I want it too, but because of this, in order to take revenge and protect everyone, The one you love will not be hurt, but would rather endure the days of losing this beautiful fairy. I feel that even if this behavior is not noble and aboveboard, at least it is not selfish and despicable, right, Brother Bailu?"

He listened? While licking her tongue, her thick eyebrows furrowed deeper, she whispered: "You have the talent to make your actions correct and truthful."

The smile on her face disappeared, and she mumbled She looked at him, her face getting redder and redder as she looked at him. She was obviously really angry. In the past, Qiao Bailu would instinctively prevent her from jumping on her and act coquettishly. Now that he knew that she would not do this again, he was slightly relieved, but deep inside Then, as if he couldn't control himself, he let out a low sigh.

She did not act coquettishly, she just raised her foot, kicked a pile of snow on him condescendingly, and said, "You big bastard!"

Qiao Bailu dusted it off casually He dropped the snow from his body and looked at her, hoping that the look on his face could stop her from acting nonsense.

"Dead wood and lumpy head!" She gathered a ball of snow from the ground, rushed to him, and threw it in along his neck.

Qiao Bailu suddenly stirred, and the snow water quickly soaked his shirt, making him tremble uncontrollably. He seemed to wake up suddenly, staring at Mulan Warbler, motionless. No matter how much she poured snow into her neck, she didn't even try to hide.

Mulan Ying was tired and saw that he remained motionless, letting her torture him like a wood carving and clay sculpture. She was stunned for a moment, and all the strength in her body seemed to be gone. She sat low on the ground with velvet hair on her head. The small pom-pom of the hat drooped down, exactly like the way she was sitting at the moment.

"We were here more than ten years ago, do you remember?" After a long time, she said to him without looking back.

"I don't remember." He replied.

"We went up the mountain for a run. I gave you grandpa's shoes and pants for you to change into. We went up the mountain to exercise. Do you remember?"

Qiao Bailu He remembered that she was wearing sportswear, her parents were there, she was fearless, pretty and innocent, and appeared in front of him. His mind was racing, and he looked down at her sitting on the snow, looking at the crooked head on her head. Little velvet hat, resisting the urge to reach out and straighten the hat for her.

"At that time, I said that in winter, the trees all over the mountain looked like palaces made of crystal. It was so beautiful. You laughed at me and said that I had both Long and Shu - in fact What I thought at the time was that when I grow up, I want to live with you in a crystal palace like a fairyland. I love you in this crystal fairyland. I love you every day. I can’t love you enough in a lifetime. But Then you left, and it lasted ten years. During those ten years, when the trees were hanging to form the Crystal Palace, I was the only one watching. Do you know how lonely I was? How much I missed you during these ten years." /p>

When she said this, she let out a long sigh.

Qiao Bailu also sighed secretly.

"But you were right back then. I really wanted both Long and Shu. I actually thought that after I got my revenge, I could still live happily with you. I was so greedy—— ”

She paused for a moment, staring blankly at the crystal clear scenery in front of her, looking at the pure and ruthless snow-covered ice field. After looking at it for a long time, she seemed to have made up her mind. She stood up suddenly and looked at it. He said to Qiao Bailu: "How can those dreams from childhood last for so many years? Just like when the sun comes up, all the tree hangings in the mountain are scattered, revealing the green and black bark, so the Crystal Palace is just It's just a dream I imagined——"

When she said this, she looked at Qiao Bailu, and he looked back at her. From her face, he could see that her face was pale in pain, and her hands were Her lips trembled slightly, but she smiled stubbornly and said to him: "You woke up first. Can you not let me go? It proves that you woke up earlier than me. I woke up earlier and it was already a step too late - you go home. The clothes on your body are still there." It's all wet. If you stand here any longer, you'll get sick.

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When she said this, she looked at him. Then she couldn't help it. She came closer, kissed him on the face, and whispered in his ear: "You have my marriage certificate." There, when do you plan to go through the divorce procedures, tell my grandpa and I will come back to go through it with you. "

When he heard it, it felt like someone had hit him hard on the chest, which hurt his heart. His hand suddenly stretched out and pulled her arm.

Mulan Ying Looking up at him, the two of them looked at each other. After a long time, the painful expression on her face faded away. The weak feeling after the strong love is the most open-minded. It seems that the haze in the sky has dispersed, leaving only the bright sky. She is free and easy to break away from him. Holding his hand, he walked away with a slight smile on his face, said "I love you but I have to go", turned around, took a few steps, and ran away as fast as he could.

Qiao Bailu stood there, watching her bright red back go further and further away. The wind shook the trees and snow flew all over the sky. Gradually, her figure disappeared into the confusing world of snow, leaving only a string of lonely footprints. , extending from before his eyes to the invisible distance

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