Love letter, unspeakable love

Before I met him, Prince Charming in my heart was a man who must be as handsome, affectionate and a little clever as Rhett in Gone with the Wind, but this insistence gradually turned into doubt after seeing him until he was completely rejected.

After graduating from college, I returned to an import and export branch in a township. On the first day of registration, the general manager told me, "The head office has equipped us with computers, and we need to train separately for one month. You are still young, go. " In this way, I went to the head office in Wuhan trembling.

I know that leadership is to test my working ability, and this training is directly related to whether I can be valued in my future work. Representatives of all branches are sitting in the conference hall of the headquarters. Only I am here for the first time. Everyone saw that I was embarrassed, so they introduced me to today's lecturer. The purpose of our training is to sell the company's products online. The lecturer is the head of the company's sales department. His name is Qi Ze.

From these odds and ends, I have some general impressions of Qi Ze: he is nearly 30 years old and still single. Enthusiasts introduced him to countless girlfriends, but he always died in the end. He doesn't have any personal hobbies except work. A young man in his twenties gave him a summary, which caused everyone to burst into laughter: "He has been in love for a year and has never even pulled his hand. Which girl can stand such a person? " As the saying goes, men are not bad and women don't love them. This is the eternal truth. Liu Xiahui, who is calm and calm, can hardly win the favor of modern women. A person who can't find a girlfriend at the age of 30, I think it is more or less flawed, either ugly or poor, but he has nothing to do with poverty. I secretly equate his appearance with Wu Dalang.

I was not surprised until he walked steadily into the conference hall. Although he is not handsome, he is not ugly at all, and even a little handsome. He has a baby face, which makes him look younger than his actual age. His clothes are absolutely exquisite. Will such a person not have a girlfriend? I am full of curiosity about him. Although he is a computer expert himself, he is not very good at giving lectures. After talking for a long time, we computer illiterate still don't understand. He had to walk down from the podium and give demonstrations one by one, watching him sweat without complaining. I hate myself for being so stupid. As soon as he rested, he became the object of jokes: "When can I drink your wedding banquet?" "Why do you blush when you meet girls?" Such questions often make him blush. Over time, I will also join in the input. Someone will say to me, "Xiao Xi, do you have any suitable classmates and friends to introduce to Qi Ze?" I smiled and made a promise. Qize just shook his head helplessly. I think everyone who is enthusiastic about introducing his girlfriend will see such a helpless expression!

A month passed quickly. In order to encourage us, the head office asked Qi Ze to take us to the East Lake for a day. Approaching the lakes and mountains, our mood is also cheerful. I dare not play many exciting games, so Qi Ze offered to go boating with me. What I want is the most primitive small wooden boat with two oars. I imagined Sanjie Liu standing at the bow, gently shaking her oars and singing folk songs. She stubbornly believes that only small wooden boats with paddles deserve such green mountains and green waters.

Kai Ze didn't ask me if I could row a boat. We secretly complained when we boarded the small wooden boat. At this time, the paddle is not as relaxed and comfortable as Liu Sanjie's. The small wooden boat began to circle in the middle of the lake, and Qi Ze tried to keep the boat balanced with paddles. He asked me if I could swim. I was so scared that I stammered:

"No ... no ..." He gave me a look and asked me to give him the camera hanging on my chest. I glared at him and cursed him in cold blood: "Are you afraid that my death will hurt your camera?" But he said, "When I enter the water, any weight will sink with me. I am afraid it is too late to save you. " I was moved and blamed myself, and began to re-examine Qi Ze. It turns out that he has such a careful side. I made up my mind that such a good person must find a perfect bride. When our wooden boat was brought ashore by the administrator's motorboat, we became the object of ridicule again, and Qi Ze still just smiled, regardless of misunderstanding or ridicule, he smiled.

After the training, I returned to the town. The manager praised my performance. I know this is inseparable from Qi Ze's patience. I miss studying with Qi Ze for 30 days and nights. I remember Qi Ze once used the name ABC to chat in a chat room. I wonder if he has changed his name now. I came to the same chat room with an accidental mentality, and he was there.

At that time, he was asking everyone a question: "What is the antonym of forgetting?" I smiled. It was really like a teacher asking questions. Some people answered "yes", some said "yes" and some said "yes".

I typed it out for him with a small window: "Memorial! In memory of forgetting! " He thanked others and told me that he had found this article by Lu Xun on the Internet. I didn't tell him who I was, for fear that he would close his heart that he had just opened to strangers.

I asked him why he thought of finding this article. Is there anything he can't forget? He didn't answer, but asked me what I felt most about this article. I think this is the title of the article, but he said that when the blood of martyrs was diluted by rain, it brought him the greatest shock. It's hard to imagine why he has such a heavy topic when he smiles. However, he said that many netizens said that there was a fire in his heart. In the battle of ancient and modern Qin terracotta warriors, Xiao Dong, dressed in white, jumped into the flame and looked back sadly.

Kai Ze, what kind of past does he have? What kind of mentality did he use to break up with more than 20 different girls? What is he commemorating? What does he want to forget? My hand couldn't help typing the words "burn my heart". I was surprised at his answer "I burned myself". Did he think of the same picture as me?

I asked him what his name ABC meant. He said it was just a code name, a code name without sadness or joy. He asked me why I like wind chimes. The screen name I use is Fengling. I told him, "Have you ever heard wind chimes sing? Every note is happiness. " He smiled and said that he remembered the name of a little sister. Her name is Xi Xiaoyue. She is a little happy and has the same artistic conception as Fengling singing. I hurried off the net for fear that he would see through the secret of the name.

When I saw him again, I was careful not to touch any words of my heart. We talked about some TV news, novels and magazines we read, and movie stars. He told me that he likes to listen to Danny Chan's songs, and perhaps it is this that makes his life's emotional journey as sad as his songs. I said I liked Jeff Chang Shin-Che Shinichi's songs, and he laughed at me. Why do I like butterscotch? I protested to him: "Don't you think Jeff Chang Shin-Che Shenche is actually very treacherous? If you play Yang Kang, you definitely don't need makeup. " He smiled and said, "In fact, I am good at singing Jeff Chang Shin-Che Xinche's songs." I scoffed. Everyone knows that Qi Ze has no hobbies and specialties, and he doesn't explain it. We all know whether singing is good or not, and netizens can't hear him. He never asked me where I was and what I was doing.

What's your name? We just make friends with each other online and never talk about offline topics. My best friend Hui Hui is a graduate student of Wu Da University. She studies foreign accounting. Many people have questioned our friendship, because I like quiet and active, I like calm and peaceful water, and she likes passionate fire, but this has not affected our friendship. Perhaps it is this complementary friendship that lasts longer. When Hui Hui called to invite me to Wuhan University to see cherry blossoms, I naturally thought of Qi Ze and my vow to give him a girlfriend. I introduced Jize to Hui Hui, and she promised to meet first. When I told Qi Ze the good news, even the company leaders allowed me to take time off to work as a matchmaker in Wuhan. Qi Ze and I took a taxi across the Yangtze River Bridge. Many buses come and go, with the big slogan "Please come to Wuhan University to see cherry blossoms". Before I arrived at Wuda University, my heart was filled with the warm welcome of this city and I was intoxicated with the upcoming romantic love story made by myself.

The quiet campus of Wuda University is covered with festive colorful clothes to welcome tourists from all directions. Hui Hui is also like cherry blossoms in full bloom, so welcome me and Qi Ze. This beautiful campus full of pink flowers deeply attracted us, and Qi Ze was also cheerful. Hui Hui took out his camera and rented us three sets of kimonos. Kizawa wears nothing. Ou Ou took him, put on his kimono with a smile and helped him fasten his belt. Qize is at her mercy. I looked at it with a smile on my face. My complementary theory seems to work. Hey, can't I help you unless you hold my hand? I gave Ou Hui my thumb to show my encouragement. Ou Hui asked her classmates to take a group photo for the three of us. Under the colorful cherry trees, Qi Ze held his shoulders and stared at the distance. On the right is Ou Hui leaning against him, and on the left is me laughing with an intoxicated thief. This photo was later provided by the three of us at our desks. I never thought how much I hated my narcissism when I saw this photo later. I personally buried my happiness.

After a day's play at Wuhan University, Hui Hui suggested going to the karaoke room to have a rest. I know Hui Hui sings very well, and she wants to show herself in front of Zize. Naturally, I agreed. I didn't expect Qi Ze to surprise us in the end. Qi Ze reluctantly agreed to sing a song under our repeated requests. I almost ordered Danny Chan's "What Life Do You Want" for him, but when the music started, I found that he was singing "Love Like Tide" by Jeff Chang Shin-Che Shenche. I was immersed in his voice, like the voice of Jeff Chang Shin-Che Shenche. I don't even know how excited I am to praise him. I don't want to miss every word and note he sings. Why? He obviously doesn't like Jeff Chang Shin-Che Shenche. Why did he sing this song? His expression is very devoted: "My love is like the tide, and love pushes me to you like the tide ..."

I can see that he didn't sing to anyone sitting here. He is singing to a wandering soul on the Internet. "I heard it, I heard it, it was really good." There is a small voice in my heart saying softly, that is the sound of wind chimes.

When I left Wuhan, my mood was not as relaxed as when I came. I appeared in front of Qi Ze in two different identities, but I couldn't adjust my mentality. I can't hide the tacit understanding of online dating object Fengling in Xi Xiaoyue, and I can't get rid of the shadow of my sister Xiaoyue in Fengling. When I met ABC in the chat room again, he didn't mention blind date to me, but told me his unforgettable first love. I know what he told me was also for forgotten memories. He once opened a computer company in Chongqing. His first girlfriend is a beautiful and pure Chongqing girl. The girl finally died of liver cancer. He spent all his love on the girl's deathbed. After the girl died, he left the city that made him laugh and left him sad.

I was surprised at his infatuation. A man regards his career as more important than anything else, but he resolutely gives up his thriving career for a lost relationship, preferring to return to his hometown to be an ordinary office worker. He smiled bitterly. He doesn't feel great, but he can't convince himself to face Chongqing without her.

He said that no one had ever seen through his heart, heard his story and understood his pain like me, but he didn't know that I could get close to him after returning to reality, but I couldn't walk into his world. I dare not tell my true identity, and I resolutely refused his request to meet.

He lives alone in the dormitory of the head office and often hasn't eaten after 9 pm. I advised him to pay attention to his health. He smiled and said, "If only you could come and cook for me!" "I said," unfortunately, you and I are too far apart. " He immediately typed, "When I have money, I will definitely buy you a car and let you cook for me every day! "Although this is a joke on the Internet, I would like to take it as a solemn promise. Just when I hesitated to tell him the truth, Ou Ou called to tell me my worries. Qi Ze's only hobby is surfing the Internet. If Qi Ze's online love object doesn't appear, Ou Ou will have enough confidence to let Qi Ze accept her, because Qi Ze is a good man in a thousand, and she doesn't want to give up.

My mind is full of mixed feelings. I thought I was smart and free and easy, but I forced myself into a dilemma in the comedy of life directed by myself. I told Hui Hui to pay more attention to Zize's life. I hung up the phone and found tears on my cheeks unconsciously. I looked up as if I heard someone singing, "Are you listening to the sea laughing?"

Some people laugh that they can't wake up from their dreams. Some people think that tears won't fall when they look up ... "I firmly asked ABC online, does he have a girlfriend now? He paused and said hesitantly, "A little sister introduced him to one. "Sister, Xi Xiaoyue can only be located here in his heart forever!" Sheng fell in love with the matchmaker? "

When I asked him, I was asking myself, but his answer was the same as everyone else's: "Impossible!" It is destined that I can only be his wind chime on the internet in my life, but I can't be his little joy in reality. Now, the truth may hurt not only me, but also Qi Ze and Hui Hui. I'd rather let it be buried in my heart forever, turned into water and mud, sank into a deep heart lake and never surfaced!

After the chat, we will have another topic. He mentioned Hui Hui more and more frequently, and my colleagues in the company praised me for doing a great thing. It seems that Qi Ze's popularity is really good. Although Qi Ze hasn't revealed the wedding date to his colleagues, he answered the question of wind chimes online: "Soon! Soon! Soon! " I slipped out: "Why do you want to type so much?" He avoided answering: "I'm decorating the house and I'll get married when I'm finished." I don't know what I said, how to congratulate him, and how to be in a daze. However, Chan Sarah told me on the computer: "Is it right for me to love you so much?" This question makes me very tired ... "