Which celebrities in China have had difficult experiences?

Zhang Haidi was born in Jinan in the autumn of 1955. He suffered from myelopathy at the age of 5 and was paralyzed from the chest down. From then on, Zhang Haidi began her unique life. Unable to attend school, she completed her high school education at home. At the age of 15, Heidi followed her parents and was sent to the countryside of Liaocheng (Shandong) to teach their children. She also taught herself acupuncture and treated villagers free of charge. Later, Zhang Haidi taught himself many foreign languages ??and worked as a radio repairman.

In the face of the cruel challenge of fate, Zhang Haidi did not feel depressed or sinking. She fought against the disease with tenacious perseverance and perseverance, withstood severe tests and was full of confidence in life. Although she did not have the opportunity to enter school, she studied hard and completed all elementary and middle school courses. She taught herself college English, Japanese, German and Esperanto, and studied university and master's courses. Zhang Haidi began to engage in literary creation in 1983. He has translated hundreds of thousands of English novels such as "Seaside Clinic" and compiled books such as "Window Open to the Sky", "Questioning of Life", "Dreams in Wheelchairs" and other books. Among them, "Dreams in a Wheelchair" was published in Japan and South Korea, while "Questioning Life" was published less than half a year ago and has been reprinted three times and won the national "Five One Project" book award. Before "Questioning Life", this award had never been awarded to prose works. Recently, a 300,000-word novel "Jue Ding" is about to be published. Since 1983, Zhang Haidi has created and translated more than 1 million words of works.

In order to make greater contributions to society, she has self-study more than a dozen medical monographs, and at the same time consulted experienced doctors, learned acupuncture and other medical skills, and has treated more than 10,000 people for free.

In 1983, "China Youth Daily" published "If you are a shooting star, you must leave its light to the world". Zhang Haidi became famous in China and won two reputations, one is "the new Lei Feng of the 1980s", One is "Contemporary Paul".

Zhang Haidi, with the belief of "living, one must be a person useful to society", followed Paul as an example, and had the courage to dedicate his light and heat to the people With her words and deeds, she answered the questions about outlook on life and values ??that hundreds of millions of young people are concerned about. Deng Xiaoping wrote an inscription in his own words: "Learn from Zhang Haidi and be a new communist with ideals, morality, culture, and discipline!" ”

Subsequently, Zhang Haidi became a moral force.

Zhang Haidi is now a member of the National Committee of the Chinese People’s Political Consultative Conference and works for the Shandong Writers Association, engaged in creation and translation.

[Zhang Haidi Story]

[Conversation between Phoenix TV host Lu Yu and Zhang Haidi - the real and beautiful Zhang Haidi (excerpt)]

More than 20 years have passed, and Zhang Haidi, who will be 47 years old this year, The halo in people's minds seems to be gradually disappearing. After experiencing the torture of cancer, the controversy of love and marriage, and the challenge of death,... she still faces Lu Yu calmly. What will she say...

Zhang Haidi: When everyone first knew my name, I was only 26 years old, and I will be 47 this year. More than 20 years have passed so quickly, but when I think back on those events at that time, I feel like I was dreaming, and When you think about it, it still feels like what happened to others.

Lu Yu: Do you still remember the time when you were the most mythical? What was your daily life like? < /p>

Zhang Haidi: There was no peace in my life every day. The letters I received every day were packed in sacks, and they were delivered to my work and home one by one. At that time, there was no The method, and in my family, is that there are groups of people, some as many as hundreds, as few as dozens, or just a few people, going every day. We must meet Heidi. I can take a look at her.

Lu Yu: But from the outside, for example, from my perspective, one day, Zhang Haidi seemed to disappear from my sight, and then I rarely heard from her. Slowly, you don’t know whether you are withdrawing from our sight, or whether the outside world is slowly moving away from you. Is this a two-way choice, or is it purely your own choice?

Zhang Haidi: Probably. I think it goes both ways, because first of all, I think it’s personal. I personally think I should keep a clear head, especially since I chose this profession. As a writer, I should work behind the scenes, not in the front desk. .

Because I am not an actor, I am not acting, I don’t need to be on stage, because my work should be invisible to everyone, this is my own choice. When everyone can't see me, it may be the moment when I am trudging along the long river of my career. So in this propaganda media, their promotion of a character should be relatively long-lasting to me. Until now, Heidi is often written about in one page after another or something like that. However, by 1986, the situation would be better.

(Commentary) In 1991, Zhang Haidi was diagnosed by a doctor and learned that he had melanoma cancer in his nose. As a result, she underwent the sixth major surgery in her life. Lu Yu: Isn’t the operation painful?

Zhang Haidi: It was very painful. It should be said that it took the time from stripping to suturing, because the best doctors in Shanghai have already made their best efforts to treat me in such a small area, and in such a small area. It took more than forty stitches. It's a very small needle, and although the thread is very thin, it feels like pulling a hemp rope to me.

But as a woman, I feel that I have endured the kind of pain that men cannot bear. This pain is not just physical, but most importantly mental. After the operation, my hands were very cold and trembling a little, but I didn't scream. When I came out, my lover was waiting for me outside. When I touched his hand like this, it was colder than mine. Later, I told him that I had a feeling that if I were captured by the enemy during the White Terror, I would not say anything. I asked, would you say it? He said that I would not say anything either. I say no, you say. I couldn't smile at that time because my face was too painful to smile, but I knew that I could endure the most unbearable pain in the world.

Lu Yu: Didn’t you shed a single tear at that time?

Zhang Haidi: No, I have never shed tears because of illness since I was a child. I am a very emotional person, but I have never shed tears because of illness. It's always because of parting, leaving one's relatives, leaving friends, and then something else, tears streaming down the face, that's it. Can everyone please wait a moment? I am looking at the clock to go to the toilet.

Lu Yu: I found that there is one thing about Heidi that is beyond ordinary people, and that is his sensitivity to time. Since her body is completely unconscious from the chest down, she must strictly adhere to the time. Every two hours, she has to use the bathroom, and every time she doesn't need to be reminded by others, nor does she need to set an alarm clock. It seems that her body already has a natural biological clock that will remind her when the time is up. Heidi told me that this was a habit she had developed over the past 40 years.

(Explanation) After the operation, Zhang Haidi's physical condition was extremely poor, but she still insisted on studying at the Department of Philosophy of Jilin University for postgraduate studies. Two years later, he received his degree and became the first wheelchair-bound Master of Philosophy in China.

Lu Yu: I have been living with the disease for 42 years. I don’t know what it feels like and what state I am in?

Zhang Haidi: Sometimes I think about it by myself, and occasionally when tears fill my eyes, I feel moved by myself. Because, sometimes, when I think about it, oh, especially when I talk to my mother. Sometimes I just talk about it, mom, if I had been sick at that time, I could have persisted for ten years, twenty years, and thirty years. Really, if I can persist for forty years, I think it will be very, very difficult, because I have to overcome many things that others cannot see at all. Then you have to overcome many confusions and obstacles that others cannot even imagine.

Lu Yu: But why didn’t you give up?

Zhang Haidi: If you don’t give up, you think about giving up every day, but you pick it up again every day. I felt that I was cautiously turning the flame of life, the flame that was about to go out, just like what I told them a few days ago. I said that I wanted to give up every day, and then I picked it up like a small flame. I blew on this little fire, and I let it turn into a bonfire in my heart. I blew it bigger and bigger, and I blew it bigger and bigger, letting it continue to burn.

Lu Yu: Zhang Haidi has always been regarded as a heroic figure, but in our minds, we always feel that heroes are different from ordinary people, do not eat the fireworks of the world, and have no emotions or desires. But Zhang Haidi, like every ordinary woman, has been full of fantasy and pursuit of love since she was a child. Of course, she has tasted the happiness of love and also suffered the blow of lovelorn. But she said that even if her wings are broken, her heart will still fly.

(Explanation) In 1970, Zhang Haidi followed his parents to the countryside of Shen County, Liaocheng, Shandong. There, Zhang Haidi had her first love in her teenage years.

Zhang Haidi: One day I liked a boy, and that boy liked me very, very much, in our small county. But after so many years, I probably didn’t expect this. One day he suddenly brought a girl to my house. I still remember that girl to this day. It was winter, and she was wearing something rare at that time, because she came from out of town. She was wearing a rare fur coat with a fur collar. It looked like this, and I thought it was like the kind Tonya wore. The clothes were the same because it was very cold where we were. When he came in, he said, ah, Heidi, this is my cousin. We went to the movies together that day. They pushed me to go to the movies, and he told me that she was his cousin.

But what I was very sensitive about at that time was seeing this girl. She was really beautiful and healthy. From that day on, I felt that the boy I liked was really alienated from me. At this time, I felt something. I felt that the place was really too small and my disability was too severe. That means that when he is making a decision between real and imaginary love, he must be biased towards some secular aspects of society. I can understand that. I am willing to chew this pain away. I believe that by this time next year I will not be in pain anymore, and that is indeed the case.

Experienced great pain. Afterwards, everything I did was still the same as before. Sometimes my friends push me to go to the movies and go to the open-air theater to watch movies. When I was watching a movie, this friend of mine went there. I really wanted to see him and take another look at him. But it doesn’t have to be face to face, face to face is impossible. He doesn’t dare to look into my eyes, and I don’t want to see his eyes. I am willing to look at him silently from a distance. Later, my friend pushed me, and when I was walking through an alley, he happened to be at the other end of the alley. When I looked at it, he was walking with that girl, his cousin. I really felt like , you know, what is acupuncture.

Lu Yu: I understand that feeling.

Zhang Haidi: I really know the feeling of needle pricks. I think every woman should experience that kind of pain. Love is really like Shakespeare said, love is to let people taste everything in the world. The taste, if it is really sweet from the beginning, if she does not experience this kind of pain, a woman will not be complete.

Lu Yu: What happened later? Apart from the pain of feelings, have you ever tasted other feelings? You should have tasted the sweet and sour, including the sweet.

Zhang Haidi: Sweetness has indeed happened before, and there are also things I have experienced. For example, I have a male friend. When he went to see me, he left me a sentence that made me think about it. I have been thinking about it for several years. He said, Heidi, he said, wait until I come back next time. At that time, you will definitely feel that you have really achieved happiness. Just such a sentence, we were all very vague at the time. Later, a few years later, he was an educated young man far away, at the Yellow River Military Horse Farm. In that place, I rarely told others about this matter. Some years later, one day he sent me a letter. There was a photo inside the envelope. After I saw the photo, I tore it up.

Lu Yu: Why?

Zhang Haidi: Because (in the photo) he and a woman are standing on the same steps, on the steps of a building. He stands higher and the woman stands lower. What he wrote next was, Heidi, I am married, what does my lover do. He said such things very very plainly, and also sent me such photos. I think he was probably expecting my blessing. And to me, he was like a bullet. All of a sudden, not to mention a bullet, it was like a sharp sword piercing me all at once. It was that kind of pain that even made my whole body tremble. My wife twitched, which brought me back to reality from that dream, and for a moment I felt that reality was very cold, so cold. I pursued again and again, and lost again and again.

(Commentary) Zhang Haidi’s husband is Wang Zuoliang, who teaches foreign languages ??at Shandong Normal University. The union of the two took place in 1982. They didn't hold a wedding, and everything was spent peacefully, just like now.

Lu Yu: I remember that in the early 1990s, there was a debate in the newspapers about whether Zhang Haidi should get married. Zhang Haidi laughed off these arguments. She said that as early as 1982 , she was married before she became a household name and has been married for nearly 20 years. From an outsider's perspective, if it weren't for the wheelchair, this couple would not be much different from millions of ordinary couples in China.

Lu Yu: Before meeting Zhang Haidi, I had always been a little worried. I was afraid that she would not want to talk about her emotional experience and family life, but Haidi was very candid. During this interview, Heidi's husband and sister are both at home, and Heidi doesn't shy away from us at all. From time to time, she instructs her husband to help her put a mat or pour a cup of coffee. I can feel that Heidi is the center of the family, not because of the whole family. People have to circle around her because of her illness, but Heidi has such a power that brings people around her together.

(Commentary) Zhang Haidi and his wife have no children. They adopted this puppy 10 years ago and named it "Bench". The couple loves it so much that it makes people feel like it is their child.

Lu Yu: Regarding Zhang Haidi, I have heard two voices. Some people said that a smart and talented woman like her has to endure so much physical pain, God. It's so unfair. But some people say that Zhang Haidi has everything, he is famous, he has status, he has published so many books, what more could he ask for. But Heidi told me that she was willing to give up all this just to have a healthy, normal body. I think it is difficult for ordinary people to understand this.

We talked about death with Heidi, and I asked her what she would write if she were to write her own epitaph. Heidi said that she would write like this, here lies an unyielding Heidi, a beautiful Heidi.