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Not long ago, we sent a collection to see what young people have in their refrigerators. As a result, I received an unexpected answer-a young boy left a quilt in his refrigerator for a long time. Two years ago, he was diagnosed with acute leukemia and survived, but he still needs to be careful because of sequelae such as allergies.

Twenty or thirty years old is the brightest time in my life, the day when the future and hope come, but some people have met greatness. Where will you go? How do they face these losses and uncertainties? So there is a new collection: what kind of experiences do young people who have experienced life and death in their twenties have? We want to know what they went through and how this experience shaped them.

We received nearly 400 replies, some of them wrote thousands of words, some told these secrets for the first time, some asked for anonymity, and some said they took this opportunity to review their lives for the first time.

In these letters, some people suffered accidents, such as car accidents, drowning, earthquakes and kidnapping, some people suffered from serious diseases, some people bid farewell to their relatives and relatives, some people once thought of bidding farewell to this world, and some medical students told everything they saw in the emergency room.

There are some things in common in these hundreds of life slices-people usually don't spend too much pen and ink to describe the physical pain at the moment of life and death, and the first thing that comes to mind is the people they care about, relatives or lovers. These people are the support, sugar and comfort of their lives, which makes people feel that the world is not so desolate.

You will also find that few people can escape the moment of life and death unscathed. People always lose something: or close relationship, or normal life, great future, or lose some opportunities and choices; Or something small but equally important, such as playing a piano piece, reading with your eyes, and the possibility of sitting in the classroom like a classmate and having a normal class.

The first thing people strive for is survival, and as important as survival is love and being loved.

Wen Lin pinecone

Editor huaiyang

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Some moments of life and death come from accidents.

"My first reaction was to push the dog out of the car, and my partner's first reaction was to unfasten my seat belt. 」

"I firmly mastered the knowledge of the reaction between sodium and copper sulfate solution and became a beautiful girl who has experienced life and death. 」

@ jiaozi sauce hxx3 104

The year before last, I climbed Mount Fuji, just at the final stage of the summit, and all the remaining rocks were undeveloped and needed to be climbed by hand. The weather changed suddenly and we were hit by a typhoon. Like a super hair dryer with full power, it blew wildly at my chest, and my feet were blown off the ground several times, leaving only my hands holding on to the stone. Everything in front of us, including the sky, turned milky white and the visibility was less than 3 meters. If you are not careful, you will slip and fall into a cliff, and you will be in a dilemma.

After about 10 minutes, I climbed to the top at a very slow speed and quickly descended from another dirt road with a lower wind speed, and the whole person was blown/soaked. When I came back, I learned from the staff in the store that the emergency mountain closure had been announced before I reached the top of the mountain, and I was the last one to go down.

@ Shuang Mu

Last June, 5438+065438+ 10, go on road trip deviated from the route, broke eight road poles, rolled over into a ditch, and the front car was deformed. When the car stopped, people hung upside down in their seats and the car was smoking. At that time, my first reaction was to push the dog out of the car, and my partner's first reaction was to unfasten my seat belt and push me out of the car. I thought at that time: I will never get tired of driving, love my partner more, and decided to spend the rest of my life with him.

@ Tan Guofeng

A few days before the wedding, on the way to my daughter-in-law's engagement, when the car was only ten minutes away from her home, it skidded and overturned on the snowy road. At that time, my parents, uncle, wife and I were all sitting in the car. From the blank of the brain to the shock in the back, and then to the coldness in the back, this accident affected my whole mentality. Fortunately, only my parents and I were injured in the head at that time, which was not serious.

Later, after hard work, I put on a wig and held a wedding.

@ Anonymous

20 15 national day, I just graduated from college. I work in my hometown. He rented a house outside the school to prepare for World War II. I went to see him. On the last day of the holiday, he took me to the railway station. It was raining that day and a car was driving very fast. I was hit by a fly when I was crossing the street. He said he turned his head and saw me lying on the ground. In an instant, his heart stopped. At the end of February 2020, we broke up. Therefore, having experienced life and death is not necessarily a love that never dies.

@ Beautiful girl who almost lost the window of her heart

In the chemistry experiment class of senior one, because I was impatient and didn't have a good knowledge of chemistry, I threw the sodium block directly into the copper sulfate solution, without leaving my head directly above the beaker. The sodium that reacted strongly splashed directly on my eyes. Before doing the experiment that day, I was still wondering whether I wanted the first pair of glasses in Dai Gang's life. Finally, I wore ... the spilled sodium hit the lens and forehead, my forehead was burned, and my eyes were still alive.

Listen carefully in chemistry class and don't get sleepy. It's really a loss of knowledge. I firmly mastered the knowledge of the reaction between sodium and copper sulfate solution and became a beautiful girl who experienced life and death.

Niu Yan

That was when I was in junior high school, I went to live at my classmates' grandmother's house. On Sunday morning, she asked me to take a bath. As a result, there were too many people in the bathhouse and the steam was full. I was dizzy when I first went in, and I couldn't get up on the bench. I heard someone calling me, my voice became more and more blurred, and then I lay naked on the ground. Just when I was about to lose consciousness, I heard many people trying to lift me to the chair next to me naked. They were busy for a long time and didn't lift me up. I was about 160 kg at that time. Later, I recovered, climbed into the chair and lay down for a while. My classmate bought an ice cream, and I'll be fine after eating it.

Still have to lose weight, otherwise others can't lift it.

I'm May.

I think it was an accident. Kidnapped by thieves 16 hours for ransom. They got it, took the money and let me go. I am fortunate in my misfortune. The previous victim was killed.

Now I can't recall everything that happened in 16 hours. In the ten years after this incident, my relatives left me one by one and fell in front of me. Sometimes I am numb and indifferent to aging, disease, dying and death, and sometimes I am manic. I changed from a cheerful and lively young man to a middle-aged man with a split personality.

grazing land

On September 27th, I found myself cheated by telecom for 220,000 yuan. The night before, I went to the cinema to watch Jijiro's Summer. I am the only one in the cinema, and I feel very peaceful, because I feel comfortable after taking a shower. The next day, I was told by a group of friends that I had been cheated. Of the money cheated, 6.5438+0.7 million was borrowed.

I want to change the status quo so much that I can't see the trap under my feet and get into a quagmire. As for why you are in such a hurry, it is a story of100000 life segments. I admit I'm a gambler, and I won't look back when I fall to my death. When I wake up, the world has changed. When I went to the police, the police comrade told me: You have been cheated, which is not in line with your education. This sentence has been echoing in my mind.

Among the victims, I watched them talk separately, as if standing in a crowd that shuttled back and forth. Two years' work was done for nothing. Can't sleep, mental stress. This state has been light and heavy until now.

@ Takeaway Rider

As a takeaway rider, the closest moment to death is when you are speeding on the road. No one knows which comes first, the destination or the accident. At noon on a rainy day, the system load reached the limit, and each rider was arranged with many lists. My lunch box is full. At an intersection without traffic lights, I turned on the turn signal and prepared to turn left. Suddenly a truck came from the right, and the car in front was turning left. I didn't dare to brake, so I subconsciously stepped on the accelerator. In an instant, I fell out and the car collided with the truck. I'm glad I didn't brake, otherwise I would be squeezed in the middle.

I didn't look at the wound, so I quickly drove the car to look at the takeaway in the lunch box. I sold it to the customer without spilling it, and compensated the customer if it spilled it. By the time everything was finished, my trouser legs were soaked with blood, and there was a long wound, which was crushed by my pedal and could not walk stably. But life goes on. Now I'm still working as a takeaway rider, but the road is much slower, and I'm really scared.

@ shimiaoxi

5 12 earthquake. At the moment of the earthquake, I wanted to live, and there were many meaningful things to do. But later, this incident completely changed the course of my life. Although my family is happy and calm in all aspects, I still see through the nothingness of the world, and now I am a monk. He is 30 years old and has been a monk for five years.

@ Svita

When I was 9 years old, I went to the park with my parents and sisters. I stepped empty when I crossed a narrow bridge and sank into the water. When sinking slowly, a man jumped in. In my panic, I thought my sister had fallen off the narrow bridge, so I gave her a hard squeeze and let her go up. I don't know how many times I pinched her. After a while, I thought it was my father. He lifted me up. When I woke up on shore, I felt a little touched. Facing life and death, my father and I thought of my family-I ignored myself to help my sister who thought I had fallen. When I saw me fall, I jumped up to save my father without saying anything.

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Some people's moments of life and death come from sudden illness.

"The last meal my mother cooked in my life was a bowl of tomato noodles in 20 16 years. 」

"The strongest feeling is that I am willing to trade everything for health. 」

Miss Jing

At the beginning of September this year, I had a physical examination, and I had an intestinal ultrasound. After the examination, I was kept by the doctor. Then I had six colonoscopy, various CT and MR examinations in one month, and I was diagnosed with rectal cancer. /kloc-I was admitted to the hospital in October. My father also died of rectal cancer. The day I was hospitalized was my father's first anniversary. I'm lying in the hospital with the same disease, and I want to faint with pain. I feel like I'm sharing my father's experience. I've thought a lot about how to spend my life and how to arrange it if I only have a little time to live, but I really don't know. The only thing I am sure to do is to live every day well and continue to go to radiotherapy and chemotherapy next week.

Big cats

Brain tumor. In his twenties, he underwent craniotomy for acoustic neuroma 10 hour, and the tumor body was 5.5cm 6cm 7cm. Because of the growth position and size of the tumor, there are still many sequelae after the operation. For example, complete facial paralysis on one side of the face, such as hearing loss on one side, such as irreversible damage to the corneal sensory nerve of one eye. Later, I did a lot of repair and improvement operations and took many detours. Three and a half years later, I had an operation to repair my late facial paralysis in Shanghai, and I recovered my smile. I deeply realized that the most beautiful word in life is "lost and recovered".

In the first few years after the operation, my mentality also changed bit by bit, from despair to slow acceptance, and I learned to live in harmony with these sequelae. I can't hear in my right ear or my left ear. If my eyes are not closed tightly, I will wear goggles when washing my hair to avoid inflammation caused by water. Accepting your own pain is another kind of reconciliation for yourself.

@ Xiao Chen

/kloc-when I got leukemia at the age of 0/7, I wanted to finish chemotherapy and transplant bone marrow quickly, and I could go back to school when I recovered almost. But then I couldn't go back to high school because the school said I would drop out of school automatically after two years. I can only find a vocational school to study, and then I went to a junior college. I originally wanted to be admitted to a key university, but all this was impossible. Seeing that all my high school classmates have a bright future, when I look back, many of my patients lost to the disease, but I survived, and I can't help crying. I didn't know that this bright future was my life.

Mumu

In the third year of high school, there were twenty days before the second modeling. I watched my mother go through do or die. A brain tumor that has been quietly growing for several years suddenly bleeds one night, compressing the nerves, causing half of the mother's body to keep twitching. The doctor said the operation was risky and he was not sure whether it would succeed. The next morning, I sent a WeChat to the class teacher, saying that I would not take the exam this year. No matter what happens to my mother, I will stay with her. At that time, I felt that I had lost the whole world. The line between life and death has survived, and there are still sequelae.

What saddens me most is that I can now say that the last meal my mother cooked in my life was a bowl of tomato noodles in 20 16 years.

@ le

Father has liver cancer. It was a winter, and the Spring Festival was coming soon. The hospital is in the center of the busy street, and people are coming and going, which is very lively. It is normal to hold his hand and talk with him warmly in the hospital. Except that I can't eat much, I always say that lying down is uncomfortable. I never believed it. I feel very far away.

The ambulance took him home, but he kept saying that it was cold and it was useless to cover the quilt and heater. Later, when I got up to go to the toilet, I suddenly had blood in my stool, so I couldn't stand. At 6: 00 a.m. 15, I asked him to answer me. His mother said that his mouth moved and he finally shed tears. Later, I put it on the ice bed for several days, and I saw his face in the distance, black with cold. Later, I put his bones in a box. ......................................................................................................................................................................

What do I think? I am afraid of his pain. My uncle died of liver cancer and was lying in bed in pain. I'm afraid so is he. Later, he didn't feel so painful, but he felt uncomfortable. He lay down at night and felt uncomfortable. After he left, there was a huge gap that could not be filled. You can't share the happiness of children's growth with others. That's our bones. My heart was hooked by a big tiemenguan. My name is engraved on his tombstone. I am a man with a tombstone.

E. Joe

Life and death are uncertain, and this disease has been tormenting myself.

In 20 13, I was diagnosed with psoriasis, which started from my back and spread to my whole body, head and arms. I broke up with my boyfriend, saying that this disease affects the next generation. Then my favorite grandmother left. My mood is getting worse and worse. I look at the red spots on my body and the white skin on my bed every night when I sleep. I dare not wear short sleeves in summer, so I can only wear trousers. Dare not go to the seaside. In these seven years, I cried countless times, boiled traditional Chinese medicine, folk remedies, western medicine, applied ointment and went to the hospital seriously. What is the strongest feeling? It is to adjust your state, be in a good mood, and be in good health to earn money and be independent.

@ Little Hiragi

One night I stayed up late to go to the toilet, thinking I had diarrhea. Looking back, the toilet was full of blood. Ran to mom and dad's room and fainted, and was rushed to the hospital by 120. At that time, the results of the postgraduate entrance examination had not yet come down, but for a moment, I felt that it didn't matter if I didn't pass the exam. Then I want to break up with my boyfriend. I can't delay him. I'm still wondering whether commercial insurance can raise funds and reduce the pressure on parents. The strongest feeling is that I am willing to trade everything for health.

After examination, it was found to be internal hemorrhoids, which was a false alarm.

Ling Yan

Engaged in architectural design industry, in the second year after graduation, the unit arranged a project, a scheme design of nearly 500 thousand square meters, only me and another colleague did it. For more than two months, I went to work at 9 o'clock every morning and got off work at 3 o'clock in the evening. Finally, on the morning of the last day before bidding, I felt my heart beat surprisingly fast. I told the leader that my heart was uncomfortable and I needed to go home and rest. Lying in the rental house, my heart is still pounding. That night, I didn't dare to sleep for fear that no one would know that something had happened to me.

After resting at home for two days, I came back to work and was criticized by the leader, saying that I was still young and afraid of hardship and fatigue. I'm not defending anything. After that, I will have chest pain at night 1 1 or 12. I'm afraid of working all night, and I don't believe in any chicken soup for the soul anymore.

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Others, because of depression, keep thinking about life and death.

"I'm not afraid of death, but I have no feeling for this world. 」

"Some people come to the conclusion that those who commit suicide because they can't graduate are psychologically too fragile. People who have not experienced it can't understand it. 」

@ Mi Xiaoxi

Before the National Day, I woke up in the middle of the night, had an acute panic attack, had difficulty breathing, and entered a state of near death. Lying on 120, listening to the monitoring while inhaling oxygen, my father took my hand and imitated my mother to massage my acupoints. In fact, I think his strength and status are wrong. I am very sad, how can I let my elderly father accompany me 120. He doesn't wear reading glasses and can't even use a self-service payment machine.

Yang zehong

I can't bear the pain after mental illness and living conditions are out of balance. After swallowing the medicine, I feel very relaxed and completely relaxed. What are you thinking about? Don't bother the landlord uncle.

When I woke up, I was lying in the emergency room of the hospital. After leaving the hospital, I continued to work as usual. I lived in a mental hospital for a short time and had a second self-mutilation. Then I quit my job as a listed company and became a flexible employee. I took out my tea shop products and shouted at people I knew: Buy from buy buy. When my body recovered to the point where I thought I could go out, I worked as a waiter in a restaurant for five minutes, working three days a week, and my face and heart were swept away. Two months later, I transferred to a Hong Kong-owned bakery as a clerk, working 20 hours a week. My colleagues are simple and harmonious, and I feel very safe.

This collection may be the only time to really stop and look at the past experience. I feel sorry for my former self and hurt my partner's heart. Now, while working, I explore what I am suitable for, but it is not too unnatural, valuable and profitable. What I am afraid of is not death, but that I have no feelings for the world.

@ Xiao

The day before graduation, the tutor refused to submit the thesis for review, and refused to graduate anyway. At that time, I had found a good job and was waiting to graduate to practice, but because my tutor postponed, my job was gone. My tutor said that my graduation thesis was not innovative, valuable and meaningless, but I finished both the topic opening and the mid-term defense, and the design of my graduation thesis was not denied, but it was completely overturned at the last minute. All efforts and forbearance turned into jokes.

I can't stand the conclusion that people who commit suicide because they can't graduate are "psychologically weak". People who have not experienced it can't understand it.

@ Anonymous

During my PhD, I jumped into the Yangtze River, but I didn't sink and climbed up again. It seems that death is not so easy. I tried to sink several times, but I couldn't sink, and then I gave up. Then there was the outbreak of the epidemic. I was isolated for more than three months, lived alone, and had a lot of time to think about life every day, and suddenly realized what kind of person I was. I gave up my doctorate and went to a new city.

The stills of the Japanese drama "My husband has depression" come from the Internet.

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These people's life and death choices are related to gender.

"It is my 2-and-a-half-year-old child who supports me and just wants to see him for one more minute. 」

"I changed from a little girl looking forward to a better life to an unmarried person. 」

Zhang ye

I gave birth to a child with massive bleeding, with a quarter of the blood flowing and almost having her uterus removed. I used to see dying people want to sleep in TV dramas, but the result is true. At that time, I really almost fell asleep. The doctor keeps calling me and talking to me. I thought the child's face was so soft. I'm going to die before I hug him. Later, I was still in poor health and always got sick. I had three operations in five years, but it's good to be alive.

@ Miss Cherry

20 19,18 On February 8th, I failed to get better because of coughing for two months, and my chest pain was unbearable, and a large tumor was seen in my chest. I was admitted to the respiratory department, and all kinds of tests and treatments didn't help at all. At this time, I found myself pregnant.

After the abortion, the child was transferred to thoracic surgery and was initially diagnosed as lung cancer. Thoracotomy removed a huge tumor and two lobes, and immunohistochemistry showed Hodgkin's lymphoma. Then I went to the cancer hospital. The doctor said that the lungs were cut in vain and the chest was opened in vain. The most effective method for Hodgkin's lymphoma is chemotherapy, followed by chemotherapy and radiotherapy. 19 12 9 radiotherapy ended and was reborn.

The strongest feeling is not pain, but the desire to live. Once moderate depression seems to get better in an instant. My two-and-a-half-year-old child supports me. He just wants to see him for one more minute.

@ Almond

165438+1sudden ectopic pregnancy on October 8. I was in class when I suddenly had a terrible stomachache. I rushed to the toilet and began to sweat. When I came out of the toilet, I collapsed to the ground in shock. My colleague took an ambulance to the hospital and went directly to the ICU. I was immediately pushed into the operating room and my husband signed a critically ill notice.

Because of the nature of work, my husband and I have been licensed for more than half a year and have no time to hold a wedding. This is my greatest regret. In the hospital, my husband cried all the way watching my B-ultrasound results. It pains me to see him cry, so comfort him. When I was awake, I told my husband that I loved him very much. I got my mobile phone when I recovered, and I saw what my husband sent me when I was rescued. I don't think I married the wrong person. As a newly married couple, this life-and-death encounter between two people also made me understand what a husband and wife is. A life-and-death friendship can witness love and the rest of your life better than a wedding. But I still want to have a wedding. I want to tell you the story of my critically ill notice.

@ Xiao Kai

I was raped by a distant relative in the first and second grades of primary school, and I was afraid to tell my parents. On the third day of my birth, my first period lasted for three months, so I had to ask my father to take me to the hospital. Some neighbors and relatives heard about it and said that I am no longer a girl. I don't think I can ever wash it off. I might as well die. I took the only two dollars in my pocket to buy rat poison, but I couldn't find it in the market for a long time.

Then suddenly one day I thought, it's not my fault. Why should I die for it? What's more, my parents are very good, and I should live a good life. Then I told my mother about being bullied, but because I was in the countryside, my consciousness was not high, and my mother was old, and I didn't say anything, so I stopped contacting those relatives.

After that, I want to study hard and be a cultured person to protect myself. Studying hard is really useful. I went out of that small village, went to high school in a big city, and went to university and studied medicine in a bigger and more developed city. Now I am a doctor, and I am doing well. The only problem is that I don't trust men and can't get out of the shadows. From a little girl looking forward to a better life, she became an unmarried person.

It is said that the woman decided to find out the man who raped her after being raped.

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Because they have seen life and death, they choose to save others' lives.

"Realizing regret in heartbreak, life is long and short. 」

"I was a little happy at the moment of diagnosis, because I found it myself. This is a feeling that I can help myself with what I have learned. 」

@ Crick

When I was in the fifth grade of primary school, I always felt very tired for several months. I went to the hospital for examination, and the doctor gave me glucose to supplement my energy, and then I fell into a coma. At that time, I was rescued without knowing any cause. I had various symptoms of renal failure and brain edema. I hung glucose until the third day and was diagnosed with diabetes. I was rescued immediately by insulin and hemodialysis.

When I was lying in the hospital bed, I felt as if I was dreaming, as if everyone I knew appeared in my dream. I can't see, but I can hear. I can feel the pain when I prick the needle. In my dream, I can combine the information I heard and felt with my previous real life imagination to rationalize it. Since then, I want to know what consciousness is.

Now I am a doctoral student in neurobiology. Although I have long known that this major is not good for employment, I almost just want to study this major and know the biological basis of consciousness.

Jiang Mumu avocado

20 15 a malignant tumor made me undergo two operations and twelve courses of chemotherapy, which can be said to be suffering in hell and almost hollowed me out. Even now, the thought of chemotherapy rooms and hospitals makes me tremble with fear. It's good that it's over.

I am a medical student. Before I got sick, I was on my way to becoming a doctor. In order to change, I am now more concerned about the health of people around me. Life is too short to catch too few things. Seeing so many patients in the hospital, I deeply feel the fierceness and ruthlessness of the disease. For patients, a little warmth in the world is all the light. I want to be a doctor, even if I can only give patients a little light, it is enough.

Bisan

I'm an intern in the emergency room. I met a girl my age, 2 1 year old, who died strangely. When she arrived, her heart rate had stopped. She didn't have any basic diseases in the past. She went out to play on holiday two days ago, giving up rescue and sorting out the body. The teachers are out. I took a piece of gauze to wipe the stain on her face, and it seemed to wipe my own face. Suddenly, her eyes are sore. I want to tell her that you have worked hard.

And my grandfather, who was dying when he came. He suffered from intestinal infarction. It is obvious that there is still hope for treatment in my hometown, but my family insists on coming to Beijing 3A Hospital, which is irreparable. Grandpa always has a kind smile on his face.

And my grandmother who is dying of heart failure. I asked if I knew my illness. My grandmother said that she told her children that she was cured, but they disagreed and said that she would receive treatment anyway. I realized that grandma insisted on the painful days in the emergency room for her family, and her family had to treat her illness. This is mutual satisfaction and love.

When I came out of the emergency room, I found that people were still fighting for all kinds of unimportant things. People who have seen life and death, doctors and nurses seem to bring a kind of simplicity. There is no hypocritical simplicity and sympathy. When a grandfather left, he clamored for the tape, otherwise he would go home again. A nurse put a new roll of tape in grandpa's hand and said, Grandpa, take it home.

@ Demian

I am a medical student. 20 19, junior year, 20 years old. I was diagnosed with malignant melanoma. This is my closest moment to death.

Perhaps a little strange, I was a little happy at the moment of diagnosis, because I found it myself. Before the diagnosis, I suspected malignant melanoma. This is a feeling that I can help myself with what I have learned. I want to do a high school Chinese question and ask what slogan is most suitable for hanging in the hospital. There is an option called "life and death are determined by fate, and wealth is all in the sky." This sentence comforted me the most at that stage. "It is a long and short life to realize regret in heartbreak. "My understanding and belief in medicine supported my whole treatment process.

Now, apart from regular immunotherapy, my life has not changed, but my mentality has changed a lot. During the internship, I contacted all kinds of tumor patients and their families and felt more * * * feelings. I really realized the doubts and suspicions of patients when they didn't know their illness, and the panic and fear when they learned their illness. When they face them, they always have a kind of sympathy, sometimes healing, often helping and always comforting.

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