Frustration pushes me to grow.

1998 senior high school entrance examination, I failed in Sun Shan, and was ruthlessly blocked by the ideal high school. I pushed my bike out of the crowd at the school gate and walked home step by step.

There are no birds and flowers on the road, no wind and wheat waves, only a frustrated loser, a child 14 years old who is destined to go home to farm.

I fell off my bike twice along the way, my knee was skinned and my hand was broken, but it didn't hurt, it didn't hurt at all, and I was even more afraid. From then on, I couldn't study any more, just like other girls, I farmed for a few years and married a woman.

At that time, girls in our village had to burn incense if they could read for a few years. Not every girl has a chance to go to school. I am the third in my family, because my father is old. I gave birth to this third son just to be a laborer at home when I grow up, so that my brothers and sisters can go to school.

The first time I knew that I might not learn was when I was 6 years old. When you reach school age, you can't go out. I am locked in the yard every day to watch chickens peck, pigs arch, dogs take mice and ants move. Later, I couldn't hear the stones in the front yard and the iron eggs in the back yard. So they went to school. I cry every day and finally have a chance to go to school, but "as long as I don't study hard, I will go home honestly."

In the eight years from elementary school to junior high school, it was not compulsory education. I came here smoothly, but this time, I'm afraid I'll help them go home and farm.

Due to excessive sadness and fear, I went home and fell asleep on the kang. When I woke up, my mother was wiping her tears. Only then did I know that I was crying harder and harder. I didn't speak or eat. I tortured myself to vent my emotions.

Later, my parents sent me to No.7 Middle School, a county town with better conditions. In the second year, I was successfully admitted to No.1 Middle School.

I failed in the college entrance examination again, repeated reading and repeated reading, and finally got into two books in the fifth year of high school. The life of repetition is very boring, and the classroom is full of depressing atmosphere. Looking up is the slogan of struggle, and bowing down is an inspirational note. Many students can't stand this pressure and go to college. The students all say that this is not a prison but a prison, but I think it is far worse than when I failed in grade three. At least there are caring teachers and classmates who study hard together. I'm not fighting alone.

Before the arrival of Black Four, I had already experienced Black Four, and I had a layer of immunity in my heart. No matter how hard it is, can I be sad that year? Just like in the martial arts drama, what is there to be afraid of when someone dies once? Courage comes from the tempering of defeating more than n small monsters.

(2)

The first love happened in the freshman year.

The two young hearts are getting closer and closer, naturally sparking and fearless, singing all the way and swaying to the sophomore year.

I don't know how to talk about love, I don't know how to solve the problem, and more importantly, I know that betrayal can't be turned back, but I'm still stupid enough to believe it when I'm drunk.

If two people no longer love each other, breaking up must be the best choice. But if someone doesn't love, do you have to let go? Breaking up is bound to make one person full of joy and the other person heartbroken, just like when Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi divorced.

As the heartbroken one, I am extremely embarrassed, feeling abandoned by the whole world, depressed, cold and empty, like a kitten abandoned by its owner, curled up in its own nest, refusing sunshine, warm scenes and all kind greetings. It was no exaggeration to say that I was autistic at that time.

The pain of first love made me practice a hard shell. I am no longer easily taken into the whirlpool by emotional things, but devoted myself to part-time, travel, organizing activities and other chores.

Perhaps it is because I didn't expect that everything came so inadvertently, and my second relationship came quietly.

This time, I am much more rational. Feelings are feelings, life is life, and feelings are no longer the whole of life. However, knowing these truths will not bring me good luck.

He is very capable and has the opportunity to be a sales manager in a large area of South China. He is willing to spend money for me, spending a lot of money without blinking an eye. Seeing this, I seem to think he is a good boyfriend, but the secret of life is that you won't see the end at a glance. Inadvertently, I discovered his little secret with other women, disgusting emails, and unique lovers. It turns out that when he was kind to me, he was so kind to other women.

Forget it, that's it. I don't want this kind of separation of love and affection. Sorry, I really can't do it. Feelings also have a shelf life, and no one has fresh feelings for others. People who cherish them regard them as flowers, water them every day and serve them calmly. People who don't care regard it as loess and trample it at will. The sadness lasted only a week, and then it disappeared. I'm blind. No wonder it's dark at night. I should eat and drink, but I am surprised to find that my self-healing ability is so strong now.

The taste of failure made me find that the world is not so beautiful and I am not so strong. Every day the sun rises and sets as usual. I do what I can, and the rest is just waiting. Love comes and goes, and when it goes, it will be sent, without hypocrisy or bravado, so that you will not be hypocritical or regret.

(3)

In the next semester of my senior year, I was the first one in our dormitory to go out and look for a job. At that time, my great ambition was self-evident. When I earn money, I'll treat you to a big meal. Drop this sentence and leave smartly, waving your sleeves and not taking away a cloud.

Unexpectedly, when I first stepped into the society, I saw its cold face, which forced me to stay awake all the time. The first job I got after many twists and turns was almost ruined because there was no empty bed in the dormitory. The employees who leave the company will expire in three days, and then the beds will be available. I either give up this job or solve my own house. I won't give up this lifeline. I go to work during the day and spend the night in an internet cafe near the Sifang campus of Qingdao University of Science and Technology, where it is warm and there is hot water. Three days later, I moved into the dormitory. The logistics supervisor was not friendly at all and didn't give me the key. I have to enter the dormitory at the same time as others. The complicated interpersonal relationship in the company gives me a headache, but there is nowhere to run.

I tried my best to find a chance to leave this company outside the working hours of 14 hours, and later I joined Taikang Life Insurance to sell insurance. Because I often go out to visit customers, I broke three pairs of leather shoes in five months, made tens of thousands of phone calls, and only took out an insurance, which also shows that the effort may not really be rewarded. Although I finally left the insurance company in despair, I got an unexpected harvest. I am not afraid to sell myself to others anymore, which was repeatedly confirmed in my later interviews. Whenever I go to an interview, people always have a good first impression of me, which is the success of my failed insurance career.

After many setbacks in my career, I decided to regain my professional knowledge and start learning to do foreign trade. Three months later, there was no order, six months later, there was still no order, and seven months later, I was accidentally fired.

I see, the workplace is like this, you can't survive without creating value. I can't do my work again and again because I can't create surplus value. According to this conclusion, I decided to continue the road of foreign trade, and the products remained unchanged, but the main product was steel. If you are fired without an order, you will find a company that exports the same product to apply for it, and there will definitely be an order one day. In this way, until the third foreign trade company finally issued a bill. Some things need persistence to see beautiful fruits. Insist on the need for a strong heart, the initial heart that is not defeated by setbacks, and the momentum of the Vietnam War.

With the ability to take orders, I naturally longed for a bigger stage, and soon I arrived at a large company with factories and foreign trade department 1000 people. Orders are not a problem. One Canton Fair is busy enough for half a year. However, troubles followed, and each time it was very difficult. If it is not handled well, it will affect the reputation of the company. Fortunately, every time it was narrowly missed and solved smoothly. My coping ability is also advancing by leaps and bounds, because escaping means giving up, and giving up means starting all over again. I want to get ahead, but I don't want to start all over again. I have to bite the bullet and deal with it. After I successfully dealt with it again and again, I found that I had grown into a high-spirited female warrior, unafraid, uncompromising, and unstoppable.

It was not until one time that the customer refused to receive the goods that I realized that people's hearts were sinister and it was not enough to rely on the courage of ordinary people.

I am in charge of a big order. The goods have been delivered. I took a photo of the customer and he said, "The goods don't meet my requirements. I want a large roll, but you sent a small roll, a small roll. This kind of goods can't be processed in Sri Lanka, so I can't accept it. "

In fact, we have never reflected this problem in emails, faxes, contracts and PI, and he has never mentioned it. Besides, goods of this specification can be processed on equipment in Sri Lanka, because I have other local customers.

So, I realized that being cheated may still be a habitual deception. What should we do? Either unload the goods and return to the factory, or sell them to other buyers at a low price after landing. No matter how much we lose, it is inevitable. At this time, the liar told me that I could help me contact other buyers, but I needed a commission of 20,000 yuan, and later said that100,000 yuan would be fine. Fuck it! While pretending to flatter, I arranged to pay attention to the dynamics on the ship. At the same time, I carefully prepared the documents listed in the letter of credit and carefully checked the discrepancies with the bank. Finally, all the documents were attached, and I successfully got the payment, but the liar was still bargaining with me. Go play, sorry!

After this incident, I got an unexpected harvest and was promoted to supervisor! It is the brave who face difficulties, the wise who bypass them, the weak who pretend to be invisible, and the strong who face difficulties. There are no natural strong people, they come from your life, your experience and your attitude. Thank you for every episode in your life and take it seriously. One day, life will be sublimated because of them.

Thanks to every friend who read it carefully. Your encouragement is my greatest support.