"I'm not an umbrella, why hold on?"

when people are depressed and miserable, which way will they choose as an outlet?

listening to music? Eat? Silent? This seems to be more in line with my style, but there is another kind of people who always like to vent everything with tears. I always think this is too low-level. There is a saying in Haruki Murakami's Dance Dance: You have to be a quiet adult. Therefore, I deeply believe that in the adult world, tears can't solve the problem. But all the truth is hearsay in front of the big dog. She retorted to me: Fuck your grandmother's silence and cry if you want, I'm happy! Even if you are sad, you have to hold on. You are really my umbrella!

So, just last night, the big dog cried again. In the bathroom, the sound of water was loud, but I could still hear it clearly while I was washing dishes in the kitchen.

Before that, I have witnessed her crying twice without any image.

In the past, I would have broken into houses, asked the reasons, studied my thoughts, and then comforted me, or tried my best to find a solution.

But I didn't do it this time. At one time, I felt that the elderly big dog was being melodramatic again.

I was still angry in the morning, and others were speechless, but I began to cry at night, which made others feel sorry! The extremes meet, and the soft heart will become hard after repeated ravages, I thought to myself.

But after thinking about it, I decided to find a topic to break the awkward and dignified atmosphere when the big dog's mood stabilized a little.

Second

Actually, in the words of the martial arts drama, the big dog is a man of temperament, with a strong view of good and bad, good and evil. Except for the poisonous mouth, underwear and socks like to be washed together, and almost no shortcomings can be found.

We are deskmates in high school. After graduation, we met and worked hard together. We had quarrels and didn't talk for more than a month, but eventually we all let bygones be bygones (yes, I took the initiative every time, and she was Capricorn). We knew each other's advantages and disadvantages by heart, and gradually narrowed our bottom line circle. The so-called minefield has already become cheap and vulnerable in each other's play-by-play.

Big dogs are slow-heating, have idol burdens, and are forgetful ... I always tease her that she has Az Harmo's disease, which is as small as turning around and throwing things away, and all the good and bad things that happened in the past are forgotten, so big that ... She often asks me, did we know each other well in high school?

I really want to punch her every time I hear such a question.

Three

The first time I witnessed a big dog crying was on the tail of my senior year. We were internship in Hefei and shared a room together.

When I came home for the Spring Festival, my family saw that the big dog was old, so it was time to find someone. So I asked my relatives to introduce a boy who works in Shanghai. The boy was really diligent. Soon after he met him (the second time), he volunteered to send the big dog back to Hefei, and then he went back to Shanghai himself. Such a tortuous route made his admiration very clear.

After that, they exchanged words on the social platform, being kind and sweet and admiring others. Within a month, the boy made a special trip from Shanghai to Hefei to ask the big dog to climb the mountain. Under the considerate care of the boy, the big dog was tempted. However, it should come to an abrupt end here.

yes, the big dog was dumped.

Soon after they climbed the mountain, their love relationship was basically established. However, when talking about the long-term development in the future, it broke up because of the irreconcilable contradiction. The big dog said that he didn't want to return to the countryside and wanted to develop in the city. The two of them could work hard together. The boy disagreed, saying that he wanted to raise a family, and he had no money or energy to survive in the city. He left a sentence "inappropriate", so WeChat didn't return, and the phone refused to answer.

On the same day, I tried to comfort the big dog. Boys are in sales, and they have a lot of entertainment, so they may not have time to reply to messages when they are with customers. After waiting for a few hours, the big dog said, even if you are busy, don't you have time to look at your mobile phone? So I tried to call the boy. My mobile phone number is Kunming, and the boy didn't answer. I was just about to explain to the big dog that the boy might be really busy, but a short message was sent, which showed: I will be with the customer, and I am busy. Who are you?

Some people want to cry. They have time to reply to strangers' text messages, but they don't have time to reply to their girlfriends. This really confirms what Wang Xing, CEO of Meituan, said: Most people are willing to do anything to avoid real thinking.

The big dog is not content. He keeps calling and texting boys, but there is still no reply. Near eleven o'clock at night, the crying that was caught off guard broke the silence of one room, and the big dog wailed, feeling wronged and sad. All the disguises were in flight at that moment. I was a little desperate, distressed and angry, yelling at the big dog for nothing, and where was my usual arrogance? I was crying for a boy who had known him for less than two months, and I was preparing to call the boy until the explosion. Unexpectedly, at this time, the boy suddenly called the big dog back, but despite this, he still failed to save this unhappy love.

After that, the big dog forbade me to talk about this terrible past, and whenever people asked me, I would gnash my teeth. I want to show contempt for both the boys' deep pain and their sincere feelings.

Later, before graduation defense, Big Dog spotted her tear mole. She said that it was a "evil mole" and she was unlucky because of it.

Fourth

Last December, six months after graduation.

On Sunday, because it was cold in winter, we were lying in bed side by side playing with our mobile phones. The room was quiet, and no one spoke. Suddenly there was a faint sob from the bed, and then it turned into a wailing cry. I thought to myself, maybe it was because of our quarrel yesterday, so I didn't think about it. When the big dog's mood was a little stable, I waved it.

Big Dog's company is a cosmetics e-commerce company, which has a single holiday and endless overtime, and there is no overtime pay.

Big Dog operates in Weibo. Since he entered the company, he has worked hard to turn Weibo fans from thousands to millions. At one time, he was praised and affirmed by the department head. However, at the annual meeting of the company, the award was awarded to a new colleague who came a few months later than himself and made less contributions than himself. After so much hard work, the director pretended not to see it, and Big Dog felt that he was seriously treated unfairly ...

I have to say that this guy is really a little blx, tears are like worthless, and he just says it, and it's too unprincipled. In a few words, others begin to shake their hearts, which is why he didn't resign later and buried a cancer.

Five

No, this guy doesn't know if he has watched too many idol dramas. This time, he changed to a more non-mainstream mode and ran to the bathroom with the shower on, crying, and the whole floor felt like a river of sadness.

After taking a shower, I sobbed while washing clothes, calmed down a little, and made a video with my father, once again choking up, as if all the twists and turns before had been overwhelmed by an avalanche.

Big Dog lost his job, just two days ago in handsome naked resignation, but his resignation experience was not pleasant.

according to the big dog, the company recently conducted a questionnaire survey, the general content of which was to mention the advantages and disadvantages of the company. As a result, the big dog listed all the stripes of overtime without overtime pay and exploitation of workers.

From then on, a few days later, the leader talked to her. The implication was that the big dog had too much negative energy and didn't agree with the company's cultural values. The big dog suddenly realized that it was caused by an anonymous questionnaire.

Big Dog gnashes his teeth at the company's anonymous questionnaire survey, but in fact it is monitoring the psychological dynamics of every employee in disguise.

Efforts were not taken seriously. One person was doing the work of three people, but his salary didn't increase. All the resentment flooded in and crowded in the chest of the big dog. She couldn't bear to keep silent and work hard, so she decided to leave her job the next day.

The resignation process is also full of twists and turns. The supervisor said that Big Dog used his own personal qq number when contacting Weibo's large broker before, which was suspected of embezzling the company's property. Big Dog was so angry that he packed all the screenshots of chat records and sent them to the supervisor overnight, and deleted the company leaders and supervisors together, saying that he was out of sight, out of mind.

However, after leaving the company, Big Dog is a little confused and doesn't know what he should do and start a new field again. So what's the point of the experience he gained after staying in the company for more than half a year? However, I still have some conflicts in my heart, as if human beings are tired of everything, repeating the workload of the previous day in familiar posts every day, which is boring and boring. Sometimes I even want to drop my mouse between jobs, go to see the cod in Alaska, and go to see Shan Ying hovering in the clouds in Tibet ...

"There are always some roads that can't be walked in high heels, and the air that I can't smell with perfume will always be in the office building.

people are always contradictory, and they pay attention to one thing and lose another.

After careful consideration, Big Dog decided to continue his job, and thus began the rhythm of several interviews every day. However, after more than a week, there was no position that both parties were satisfied with. She was a little overwhelmed, and jokingly said, I think my earlobe is thick, which is a sign of doomed fate. I am in my twenties, and I have no money, no job and no boyfriend. I have to do everything myself. How can I be such a failure?

The more I think about it, the sadder I feel. The trivial dispute with me in the morning became the fuse to set off the depression in the big dog's heart. She desperately needed an exit, so she poured out all her accumulated emotions.

We didn't say a word that night. The next day, after work, I sent a message to Big Dog and asked her to go out for a haircut. I learned from her whining in the bathroom. She was a little embarrassed, chased me and called me a cheating teammate.

she said, haven't you heard the saying: cry if you want, don't hold on, you're not an umbrella. Life is so hard, I have to hold on to crying, and in the end I feel uncomfortable.

I think it's very reasonable, but I still choose to refute it: people like you who express their emotions with tears are prone to develop gum, which is why their luck is so bad, and they will definitely miss the bright future with dim eyes.