Will my boyfriend often look through my chat records, phone records and SMS records to care about my performance?

He cares too much about your performance! However, he is too nervous, which will make people breathless and depressed. To fall in love with someone is to tolerate her past and trust her. Holding her too tightly will only backfire. I believe you are tired, too. You should find a chance to communicate with him. If he is still like that, you'll have to reconsider. Life is only once, try to make yourself happy!