Even if you send a thousand messages,

# After reading 5 centimeters per second, I can't help writing to you again #

I haven't been in touch for days. How have you been recently? But from the circle of friends, it seems not bad. I recommended Seconds 5 to you, but I didn't reply, and I don't know if I have seen it.

I can guess the author's intention through the long comments in Zhihu. I watched Second5 twice yesterday, and then I didn't finish it until after two o'clock in the evening. At the same time, by reading this post, I also understand the ultimate meaning of this film. I'm thinking, this may be what you always want me to understand, that is, no matter what you have experienced, the relief after learning from the painful experience is the most precious.

In retrospect, I haven't written to you for a long time. I still remember the classic line in the film: "Even though I sent a thousand text messages, the distance between me and my heart never narrowed by a centimeter." Looking back on so many teenagers in the past, my feeling has always been like this, now it is like this, and I am afraid it will be like this in the future. But fortunately, I am also very lucky. Even if what you wrote was out of date and made you uncomfortable, you never complained to me in your impression, but at most you just fought with silence. In retrospect, what I did to you can undoubtedly be classified as harassment, and even now it is still harassment. However, I still want to write, purely for selfish purposes, and I felt it when I accidentally read Seconds 5, so please forgive me for interrupting again. I am no longer a child, but I always seem to grow up on this issue. I'm really ashamed.

On the other hand, I am really lucky that you have been so kind, tolerant and generous to me for many years. Therefore, I also solemnly say "thank you!" Thank you for always treating me as a friend and always opening the door for me. At this time, I remembered a sentence in the lyrics of Confessions of Tears in Seconds 5: "If I can meet you again, I just want to tell you one sentence, thank you". It really doesn't fit here.

If, you will watch it, or, you have watched it for the fifth second, how will you feel? I don't know. My situation doesn't allow you to come near me. Although the distance between us is not the farthest in the world, it has always been far away, and it must be far away. I know this very well. Or, you may not have any special feelings about this movie, which is very common. As the commentary said, some things and some feelings can only have a deep sense of identity if they have experienced them, and it may be a good thing if they have not experienced them.

My present situation is that although I have started my career and worked hard, I still often feel the deviation between reality and ideal, great work pressure and confused future, and I have no effective way to do it. This feeling is very similar to the hero in "The Fifth Second", but it is very different. Now I have a good wife and a lovely son. I love them very much, and they all love me very much. After watching Seconds 5, I think I should cherish this hard-won happiness. Although there were some regrets in my life, I was still happy when I lost Sang Yu and got the East Corner.

Looking back now, the ending of Seconds Five really made me feel a little incomplete, and the sad atmosphere was too strong. Makoto Shinkai's works have been such a keynote from the beginning. After watching Your Name yesterday, I was very surprised at the change of his style, so I found that the film had been published for more than ten years, and I felt a little cheated. At the same time, I am thinking that if it was ten years ago, I might find it difficult to understand many profound meanings. I am no longer a young man, hehe, but I still need considerable efforts to get rid of the confused state.

Let's speculate that if the film can be talked for a few more minutes, I think the relief of the actor at the end of the film should bring him some changes. He may try to accept people who really love him and create a happy life. After many years, he will contact the girl 1 again and feel that things have changed, just like I do now. Maybe your experience is the same, I didn't know about it, hehe, in retrospect, I have never even set foot in your heart.

Anyway, this movie really touched me. Besides, I have never been so shocked by a movie. In retrospect, I was touched by several places: in the first film, the man sat on the Shinkansen for six hours and braved the heavy snow to see why. I have done this kind of thing when I was young, and I can't count how many times. Every time I get up at 5 or even 4 in the morning, I just want to watch you quietly and not bother you. Although it seems that this behavior is really shameful now, hehe. We finally met, so happy, but it was too short. Although "Seconds 5" is the meeting of lovers, we just meet and chat as friends, but looking back so far, every encounter is vivid and unforgettable. In the second part, the hero is writing a short message that can't be sent anytime and anywhere on the road. In fact, what I sent you was only part of what I wrote. Fortunately, in the last ten years, I have basically never done such a boring thing. In the third part, orange field sent a short message to the male host, "I feel that there are still some meanings that must be clearly expressed to you", which is very consistent with my mood at the moment. Then there is the sentence "Even if I send a thousand messages, the distance between me and my heart has never shrunk by a centimeter", which is exactly how I feel about you in my heart. When the hero and heroine finally meet by chance at the railway crossing, they don't see each other, the passing train blocks them, or they don't know each other by accident. This makes me feel particularly sad. I can't help but think of the sad but diametrically opposite ending of Tokyo Love Story, so maybe I can fully understand why East Love is so popular. Although Seconds Five is called a masterpiece, quite a few viewers don't like it very much. But I think The Fifth Second can be classified as a masterpiece that is more real than romance. The ending is very helpless, but the reality is often the case. The relief behind the work is the positive meaning that the author wants to express.

Looking back at that high school time, my confession "I like the way you smile", remember your response? There is no reason to remember, hehe. I can't remember clearly, but you mentioned Li Xiang's smile in Love in the East, that's for sure. Therefore, when I am happy, when I am depressed, when I miss you, I have watched Ai Dong countless times. At that time, the support you gave me in my heart was irreplaceable, but now I finally learned to bear these unbearable weights. I just hope this temporary feeling won't cause you too much trouble.

My wife took my son to other places during the school holiday. I stayed with them for two weeks, and then I went back to school and started working. Today is the last day of summer vacation, and I will officially go to work tomorrow. I have three courses to attend this semester, plus several project acceptance and application tasks, plus the projects that guide most students in the whole laboratory, I have little time to write articles and do research by myself. Originally, I wanted to make up for it during the holiday, but I was probably too lazy to get any meaningful output during the whole holiday. On the contrary, I picked up many cartoons I haven't read for a long time and reviewed them, including The Fifth Second, which I have known for a long time but never set foot in. Well, there are still many things to say, so I have these long speeches. My wife and children will come back from my hometown tomorrow, and I will be back to normal by then. Maybe I don't have the time and energy to bother you with "reviewing the manuscript" again. So, today is the final draft, but whether I am hired or not will not affect my life track.

Finally, I really want to tell you that I will continue to pay attention to the update of your circle of friends and feel the same for your happiness. Looking back now, it was a wise choice to make up your mind to contact you when you went out for a meeting five years ago. It seems that I wrote you a long letter last time, and then this time. Before that meeting, we hadn't contacted each other for ten years, and we really met again, so happy, so happy ... Think about it, if I hadn't made up my mind at that time, I wouldn't even have any channels to know your living conditions now, and I can't help but think that WeChat Weibo is really a good thing. In short, in any case, please continue to be happy, perhaps, it is not bad to find a new partner. However, this is just an expression, which has been suggested once, and I don't want to be seen as excessively interfering with your choice. There is still a long time to come. I will continue to try to be your ordinary friend, although it has always been like this. What I can't do is because of my own personality. Maybe I will work hard all my life.

"Even if you send a thousand text messages, the distance between you and your heart is never closer than a centimeter." How many text messages are there? How far are we now? Or do I really want to close the distance? Actually, I'm not sure myself

I've said a lot from the bottom of my heart in the past. Thanks again. Thank you for reading my mindless madness. Your open door to talk will always be my important spiritual harbor. Although, you think I once fell in love with your shadow, not the real you. More than ten years have passed, and I believe you are right. I can't refute it, because what is really normal should be the appearance in "Seconds Change 5", where feelings gradually fade between mountains and rivers and forget each other.

I somehow remembered john nash's biographical film. He has amazing talent in mathematics, but he suffers from serious mental illness. He inexplicably imagined that an FBI agent and his niece were beside him. He was entrusted with the task of cracking the intelligence code of hostile countries, and he was diagnosed with schizophrenia. But he didn't realize the diagnosis until ten or sixteen years later, and he realized that he might really suffer from schizophrenia, because from a scientific point of view, the age of the fabricated little girl around him never seemed to change. Therefore, whenever his imaginary objects appear in front of him, he always tries to say "you don't exist" and "you are fake" to them. It was in this entanglement that he led a normal life, about 1994, and he won the Nobel Prize in Economics.

Exaggerated, get to the point. No matter what I want in my heart, I will handle things objectively like an adult. It is inevitable that I will suffer a little in this respect, but honestly speaking, in fact, please rest assured that I am relieved after watching the Fifth Second, believe it or not. ...

Finally, the theme song "One more chance" should be played here. ...

How much more must be lost to be forgiven?

How much pain will it take to meet you again?

There is still a season of time, please don't change it.

One more time, frolic years.

I always give in first when arguing.

Your willfulness makes me more obsessed.

There is another chance to be bound by memory.

One more chance and you can't choose the next destination.

I've been looking forward to seeing you somewhere.

In the opposite room, the window is deep in the alley.

Know you can't be there

If I can realize my wish, I hope to come to your side at once.

No more questions.

Hold you tight regardless.

If you just want to find someone who can drive away loneliness, you should be able to find anyone.

But I can't deceive myself on this night, even if the stars are falling.

There is still a season of time, please don't change it.

One more time, frolic years.

I've been looking for your trace

At the crossroads of dreams

Know you can't be there

If a miracle happens, I hope to see you at once.

Starting from a new morning, I will say "I like you" that I have never said before.

Memories of summer swirl in my heart.

Instantly disappearing throb.

I've been looking for your trace

On Guangming Street, Sakura Street.

Know you can't be there

If I can realize my wish, I want to fly to your side at once.

Nothing is impossible.

Hold you tight regardless.

I've been looking for your pieces everywhere.

A corner of a small shop or newspaper around you

Know you can't be there

If a miracle happens, I hope to see you at once.

On the morning of a new day, from now on, I will say "I like you" that I have never said before.

I've been looking for your smile

Look at the corner of the railway when waiting for the tram

Know you can't be there

If there is an afterlife, I will come to you anyway.

I have no other pursuit.

Because nothing is more important than you.