A final farewell, a late confession

Before 1000 days, I didn't think it would end, and I didn't dare to think about it. On that day, I made a very impulsive decision. His reaction was unexpected, but it also caught me off guard.

He always calls me a snack, and I always call him a big winter melon. Snacks and big white gourd belong to the same dimension, but they are different.

The name snack is because when we first met, we were catching a snack, a sweet and greasy snack. He joked that I was greasy and short, so he called me a snack. I thought he hated this name so much because this snack didn't rob me, so he took revenge.

And the big winter melon is because his winter melon is first-class, delicious and beautiful, and I like his cooking from that moment on. However, I still didn't tell him. In fact, the biggest reason why I call him big wax gourd is that I like to eat wax gourd best.

He has always said that bullying is what I am good at, and he also listed a series of reasons, such as why I am stupid and can't learn anything, why I bully him at least five times a day, why I never ask others out but ask them out, and why I laugh the most when I bully others.

I heard a face of disdain. I didn't tell him that I wasn't stupid but didn't study hard, because he wouldn't help me after I studied. I bullied him at least five times, but when I saw him, he made me short and tired. I didn't ask other people out because I didn't know them very well. I only know him well, and I only laugh when I bully him.

We are best friends, he always says so. I always hear that we are having an affair. Every time I hesitate to tell him, I always persuade myself not to snitch. I thought it was because I didn't want to mind my own business, but it finally occurred to me that I just knew his reaction. He will ask me how I am, and then settle accounts with them with a livid face. I know he doesn't want me to be misunderstood. I know big winter melon doesn't like snacks.

Every time we meet, we always think of the bits and pieces we are together, not together, just together.

We don't talk much. I like listening to others, and he only likes talking to others, so what we enjoy most is sitting together watching the scenery and thinking about things.

We had many quarrels. I can count by hand seven or eight times, two or three times because I stood him up to wait, two or three times because we argued about a movie, and the remaining two or three times because of my physiological period.

Speaking of movies, what impressed me the most was a Thai movie. I can't remember the name, but the story was still impressive. It's about a woman whose husband cheated, and finally the woman divorced and committed suicide by throwing herself into the river. The husband was cheated by Xiao San, who married a poor first love. Forgive me for choosing a boring drama, because I was on the phone when I bought the ticket, so I just pointed to a drama. You know, I watched the movie seriously, commented seriously, and finally quarreled with him seriously.

I remember his righteous words at that time. I still remember a sentence clearly. The deepest reason for the tragic ending is that they didn't love enough, or that they didn't really love each other. I don't think he knows that girls hate rational thinking, because it will break all their emotional fantasies.

I remember saying something like this. The most essential thing is not love. They become husband and wife, but with more responsibilities. There will be cracks because the husband shirks his responsibilities. In fact, husbands love their wives more. He kept saying that woman's name after he lost his mind. He loved her enough, but he failed to take good responsibility. Without the participation of mistress, there would be no tragedy.

He has been contradicting me. His view is that men don't love her. My opinion is that men love her very much. I didn't think we'd be okay. These are two great gaps in love ―― unloving and inappropriateness. Often men always feel that it is not inappropriate, just because it is too suitable and lacks a feeling of love; Women usually think that I really love him, but if I love him, I just want to be with him, but being together is inappropriate and there is no reason to be together.

This is the gap between us, the gap in thought and the gap in space, which I can't cross.

There are also very touching moments between us. He will send messages to greet me from time to time, call me every night to say good night, remind me to drink hot water during my physiological period, call me to ask if I have an umbrella when it rains, come to my house when the phone is disconnected, buy medicine to cook for me when I am sick with a cold, stand up for me when I am bullied, give me a strong arm when I am tired, comfort me when I am wronged, and take the initiative to coax me when I am misunderstood.

Now that I think about it, he has done everything a boyfriend should and shouldn't do. He cares about me more than anyone, but he doesn't like me. I know why you are so kind to me, because I saved his life.

Soon after we met once, we met again, and the second time was at the water's edge. He can't swim, but he lost a very important piece of paper, his mother's suicide note. He fished with branches and accidentally fell in. I happened to pass by and heard the cry for help, so I went into the water to save people and picked up the paper.

Since then, he has been very kind to me in every way. Every quarrel is my fault, but he admits his mistake. I know all this, and I am not grateful. I'm actually very unhappy, because he never really understood me and always pretended to understand. He doesn't know what I'm thinking, so he doesn't like me, just thanks, so I'm not grateful for all this.

I like him because he is him.

He is always alone, singing one's songs, talking about one's heart and watching one's back. Yes, that song is her favorite, and that person is her. The so-called heart is to like her.

Her name is Gucci, a lucky girl.

So Qi is my only female friend, and she gives me the feeling that she is very gentle and weak. I remember she told me that she didn't like looking into other people's eyes. She was afraid. It was from that moment that I had the desire to protect her, so I was very close to her.

Big winter melon's description of her is completely different from mine. Big winter melon says Qi is a very unique girl with a cold personality. When she spoke, she was smiling and confident, giving people a very comfortable enjoyment. Her gesture is elegant and natural, which makes people like it.

I don't understand. The old yee I know is very inconspicuous in the crowd and has a gentle temper. She always talks with her head down and always hesitates, but then I understand that she has never been the way I know, and Big Winter Melon is right.

Once I asked Big Winter Melon to go to the playground, and Qi also came. I'm not unhappy, but I'm a little worried, my friend, about going on a date with someone I like. But I didn't say much. After playing for a while, I discovered Gucci's secret, and he kept pretending in front of me.

Therefore, yee finally apologized to me. I'm sorry that as a friend, I really care about you, so I won't tell you. Please forgive me. If you are still angry, just hit me a few times to vent your anger, okay?

I looked at her, and the big melon looked like you must forgive her. At this time, if I still cling to it, it is inhuman and I can only promise with a smile. Even so, the big wax gourd seems to do the same. What did I do wrong?

When I first saw Gucci in the amusement park, I knew it from the bottom of my heart. Her smile and our eyes speak for themselves. I don't hate her, but I am happy for her, so she is excellent. However, I can't stand the attitude of big melon. Obviously, it was because it deceived me, which in turn became my fault. A woman's sixth sense tells me that different treatment proves different status. Big winter melon likes it.

Big winter melon, I know that big winter melon doesn't like me, but can you like others in the future?

Soon, just two or three days later, Big Winter Melon and Gucci were together. I thought about it for a long time and finally decided to ask Gucci out to chat.

So Qi is wearing a big red dress, black high heels, long shawl and upturned corners of the mouth. It is estimated that every boy will be moved. Look at me again. I am not as good as my old woman. I look ordinary. I wear masculine clothes and have neat short hair. I never giggle when I laugh. The whole person is not as good as my old lady. However, I don't think big winter melon is so concerned about appearance. However, I overestimated my inner charm and underestimated the secularization of the wax gourd. He was so desperate that he fell in love with this man named Gucci and forgot this little snack around him.

Therefore, yee said, I know you don't want to. Yes, I was just playing with you at first, but later I found out that you like him, so I might as well check it out for you. It seems that he really doesn't like you, and don't blame me. Who made Qi Feng Xu like you? The person I like likes you, so why can't the person you like like like me?

I suddenly realized that the first person's name was Qi Feng Xu. This person whom I regard as a brother, this person who regards me as a sister.

Qi Feng Xu and I have known each other since childhood. He has always been very kind to me. We are like brothers and sisters, and we never have other ideas. But he always uses me as a shield and tells girls who admire him that I am his girlfriend. It seems that Qi is also an innocent girl who doesn't know the truth.

However, what about the big wax gourd?

I hesitated, thinking about what to say, so Keiko said, I find you have a good eye for people. This big wax gourd also suits me. Forget it, Qi Feng Xu. I'll be fine.

I smiled, laughing at the luck of big white gourd, so Yezi liked him a little.

I cleared my throat and spoke slowly, so yee, some words are just unwilling. Now that Xu is the past, you should let go of the past, big melon. He's your gift. I wish you happiness.

So yee sneer at, suddenly say a word, you don't know the relationship between xu and big wax gourd.

Big white gourd, whose real name is Qi Yunan, is related to Xu? No, I have known Qi Feng Xu since I was a child. If it matters, how could I not know? So, Qi is lying to me. She has lied to me once, and there must be a second time.

So Keiko continued, don't you believe it? I know you and Qi Feng Xu have known each other for a long time, but did he tell you about his father? His father died three years ago, but he left a will about his son Qi Yunan.

My hands are shaking, which is impossible, but why am I afraid? I really don't believe it, but I have no reason not to.

So, yee laughs and makes me tremble. She said, you are curious why I know, because I grew up with your big melon. I was there when Qi Feng Xu's mother went to see him. I saw your big melon and Xu look at each other with my own eyes. They are unbelievable. As you can imagine, I met Qi Feng Xu at that time.

I forced myself to calm down and said with a trembling voice, what do you mean? What's the use of telling me this? Their relationship has nothing to do with me.

So yee took a sip of black tea on the table and said, don't worry, of course it matters. If you know that Qi Feng Xu went to America because of your big winter melon, I don't think you would be so careless and say it doesn't matter.

Qi Feng Xu, who went to the United States three years ago, cut off all contact with me from now on, but the news came that he died in a car accident a year ago. And I have known Qi for three years, which happened to be three years when Xu was not with me. Qi was not around when the news of Xu's death came. This is no coincidence. I didn't think so then, but now, I've made up my mind.

I begged Gucci to tell me everything, but she didn't say anything, so she turned and left. I remember a time when Qi Feng Xu and I had a good time. I really care about Qi Feng Xu. Although Qi Feng Xu didn't say it clearly, I knew he cared about me, especially after his death. When I saw his prose, I was more convinced.

I, a boy who once regarded me as family, went to America because of his brother, the boy I like now, and then left the world in a hurry. What do you want me to think, do I still like this boy as always? I'm not a saint, and I can't do rational analysis. I believe in my heart that his brother killed him, and it was his brother's fault. There is no doubt about it. But, therefore, what is Kirara's idea?

So, Keiko, since she likes Xu, why should she stay with Qi? Why did you tell me that I hate Qi You Na? Why do you want me to know all this? If she succeeds, then the most sad and tangled person is me! So, in the beginning, yee Li's purpose was not Qi and Xu, but me!

I called Ji You Na with trepidation, and he arrived soon. I have an illusion that he has been waiting outside the door!

I dare not look him in the eye, his voice is so weak. What are you hiding from me, Qi You Na? What the hell do I not know? So what does Ellie want?

Qi You Na bowed his head and said nothing.

At this moment, I know a lot. I know what Ji Yuna said is right, I know what Ji Yuna is hiding from me, I know what Ji Yuna means, I know what Ji Yuna acquiesced, and I know my stupidity.

My voice is different from the usual dull, cold and firm, Qi Yunan, answer me, why did Qi Feng go to the United States? Answer me! He still didn't speak, and I smiled. Different from the past, this is the most helpless smile. I said goodbye to him. If you don't talk, we won't have to meet again.

After that, I never looked for him again, and he never contacted me again.

I also thought about it, is it because I think too much, so Yeer deliberately lied to me, and Big Winter Melon is just not used to explaining, so there will be misunderstandings, and am I too irrational? However, my words have been lingering in my ears. The person I like likes you. Why can't the person you like like like me? Yes, big winter melon likes the past. It is impossible for him not to understand my feelings for him. This should be the best result.

So Yi, you are a big liar. I came to this conclusion a month later.

That day, I had a stomachache, went to the hospital to get medicine, and met Gucci. She is a little fat, ruddy and swollen, as if she were pregnant. I took it for granted that she was Qi's child, but the next second, I was slapped in the face. A man in his early forties put his arm around her shoulder. I don't know this man, but I know him well.

Therefore, yee is not surprised to see me. Very boring. It's like seeing a nodding acquaintance that I haven't seen for days. I walked straight to her. The man is behind her, afraid that I will be bad to her. I smiled slightly. Therefore, Yi, I haven't seen you for several days. You didn't tell me when you had a boyfriend.

So Qi smiled and said to the man around her, Ah Hai, this is my friend. You drive first, and I'll follow, okay? The man nodded and turned to leave.

So Keiko said: I haven't seen you for a few days, and you seem to be haggard a lot. When I heard this, I couldn't help laughing and asked with some ridicule. Yes, you are getting more and more beautiful.

So yee smiled, her tone still arrogant. I think you regret it now.

Yes, I regret it. Maybe she didn't expect me to be so calm and slightly surprised. I will go on, at least get to know each other and tell me your stories as a farewell.

Tears welled up in her eyes and she hesitated to explain everything. She said, I grew up with Qi. He took care of me like a brother, but everything changed from the moment Qi Feng Xu appeared. Because Xu Heqi became silent and alienated from me, I was unwilling and went to settle accounts. Ironically, Qi Feng Xu didn't remember me at all, but he answered my question politely for Qi You Na's sake. I asked him, why did you steal You Na's father and why did you appear in front of him? He was a little surprised and only said seven words in response to me. I'm sorry, is that right? That day, Ji Yunan came to me and scolded me. I was wronged, and then I left home and went to other places, and then I met you.

Then I can't wait to know what happened next.

Later, Qi Feng Xu felt guilty about making an alliance with You Na, so he went to the United States. You Na is also struggling. On the one hand, he felt it was cruel to form an alliance with Feng Hsu; on the other hand, he felt it was unfair to me, so he decided to find me and apologize. Later, I met you by chance because I was looking for you. I don't know what the problem is. I accidentally told You Na about your relationship with Qi Feng Xu. He didn't have any overreaction, and he was twice as good to you for quite a while. I didn't know this until later. Maybe you can guess the same story in the future.

Later, Xu died, and Qi and you were a little disappointed, so you would suddenly go home, so Qi would cut off contact with me, so you would fully understand my feelings of being in line, so then what? I asked, but I guessed the same thing myself.

Okay, I get it. Actually, I know it's nothing. It's just that Qi complained to me and even blamed everything on me. I did nothing wrong. Why do you blame me? I was unwilling at first, but later Qi Yunan became more and more kind to you, so I was not just unwilling. I hate you, envy you and hate you.

I acquiesced, knowing that all this was true, and hesitated to ask, so, who is Ahai? What happened to Qi Yunan after I left?

Ahai got drunk after I was scolded by Qi Yunan. He is very nice. Although he is older than me, he is very steady and understands me. Soon, I was pregnant, which is why Qi Yunan took good care of me on the playground. But you misunderstood. I told You Na that I couldn't afford to get pregnant before marriage. Qi Yuna therefore did not explain anything. As for your last question, I don't want to answer. You can prove it yourself. Well, Ahai has been waiting for me for a long time. I should go. Take care. Maybe I will never see you again. Take care.

Well, I wish you happiness and a happy family. I sincerely wished him well, but I heard a sigh. He has a family.

My tears can't stop, but I still can't help but flow out. I'm sorry, as your friend for three years, I didn't really care about you. Why is your life so rough? Sorry, I don't care about you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry

Before going out, she turned her head and tried to squeeze out a smile. I envy you very much. Nice to meet you.

I couldn't hold back my tears and squatted down. All kinds of past lives, all kinds of promises, all kinds of equality come to mind ... Why?

My name is Qi You Na, and the words "big wax gourd" on the screen make my eyes moist again. Hello, is that you? Yeah, it's me. Let's meet. All right.

I didn't expect the conversation between us to be as dull as before, not to mention that he was so calm. I disappeared for at least a month.

When I met him, I didn't fluctuate at all. I don't understand why I haven't seen him for a week and still don't give up. Seeing him, I was relieved unexpectedly, perhaps because he lived well and was very happy.

How have you been recently? It's been so long, and you haven't contacted me. Do you take me as a friend?

You said goodbye.

It's my fault if you say it. You always thought it was my fault, but you never thought you were wrong. I smiled and said, I just want to verify one thing. Just tell your story, Xu, so neat.

I don't want to say what to do.

Ok, Qi Yunan, if you still treat me as a friend, and if you don't want me to hate you, then stop talking and I won't look for you again. I believe we will never meet again. What's more, you think I don't know until you tell me?

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you, I had to.

He told me everything one by one. What I can't forget is that he said, I don't like the past, we have never been together, and I lied to you because I didn't want to tell you these things.

It turns out that this boy is so selfish because he doesn't want to let a girl sacrifice her reputation for him and let a girl hate another girl because of him. Selfish boy, my love for him is fading, but I hate him more and more.

I said nothing and turned to leave. However, the second I left, I seemed to hear Qi say that I did it for you. This voice is a bit dumb and angry.

I can't stand it, trying to hold back the tears in my eyes, turning around and smiling, big winter melon, I think I have to go.

Qiyuna took two steps to my side and looked at me angrily. Why? Where are you going?

I stroked his eyebrows with my hand, and said in a voice close to the wind, Big Winter Melon, I like you, I really like you, so much that I can give up myself for you, but now I don't like you, I don't like you who approach me for others, I don't like you who take care of me for the so-called responsibility, I like that pure good friend, and you have changed, which makes me forget. I think you just feel sorry for Qi Feng Xu, so I will go to America to find his past, ok?

Qiyuna shed tears.

I turned around and left this place step by step.

The moment I walked out of the gate, I heard the big wax gourd shouting, Dim Sum, I like you!

But there is nothing we can do. We can't go back. Big white gourd and snacks should be separated, so they are separated.

When I set foot on a trip to America, I looked back at this country. Goodbye, if there is no reason for my existence in this country, then it must be you. Goodbye, I really want to be with you, but our meeting is just a mistake, a beautiful mistake.

I will remember that in the final farewell, you gave me a belated confession, even if I could only face it with tears.