Since the media person Xiaobai said: I have been confused for three days.

I am an idealist, and I think more than I do. Maybe that's why I'm often confused. The following is a self-analysis process from the media that I focused on in this short time.

At present, I am in a state of resignation. I want to give priority to personal media and choose to leave. I have great courage to leave my job, because there will be no income and greater economic pressure after leaving, but I still want to give it a try. Therefore, when the day passes and there is no harvest, the whole person will be very uncomfortable and even anxious. Here I want to say that if you want to be a self-media, you'd better be a slash youth first, and then leave your job to do it.

There are many difficulties, mainly technical and psychological tests. There is a strong sense of frustration in the process of implementation, and I feel that I can't do anything well, and sometimes I don't even know how to start. Kind of want to run away. In fact, I want to say sorry to myself here, because I failed myself and didn't work hard to implement it. Three days to fish and two days to dry the net. One day's time is not well planned and used.

The following is my in-depth analysis of myself, asking myself and answering.

Why not do it well? You want to give up?

No, I don't want to give up. I want to do it well, but I can't.

No. Why not study?

I thought about studying. I didn't study, but after studying, I found it very difficult. The process made me feel so difficult that I couldn't persist. I know I have to study. But when I really opened those web pages to study, I found that I didn't want to study, and I didn't want to study.

Why don't you want to learn?

Because I am too lazy to study, I feel that my body can't move; Because I can't see the effect in the short term, I want to see the effect quickly, but I can only see the effect in the long term. If this time is too long, I don't want to learn. Third, I can't calm down. I always think, can I not study? Fourth, I always want to make me pay too much. To put it bluntly, I want to get something for nothing. Fifth, I don't want to take the initiative to learn, I want someone to teach me.

To sum up, one of the core reasons is: I don't want to pay, I just want to gain.

Without this self-analysis, I really don't know what my heart is like. I think it is too difficult to learn. In fact, the most important thing is to gain without giving. Because I said no to myself before I started studying. I only see the glamorous appearance of others, but I don't see the efforts behind others. I think all excellent people have very difficult times, but we just can't see them. We only see his shiny appearance.

There has never been anything in the world that can be harvested without giving. Who doesn't decide your life path through hard work? I don't even want to work hard, but I really want to be an excellent girl and live a life I like. Wishful thinking.

After writing this self-analysis, in fact, this is also a dialogue with myself, with a clearer direction. Take a notebook and start planning. You will always get something from your efforts. Hang in there!

Finally, I want to say, since you have chosen, do it well. If you choose to give up, stop complaining. The world is fair, and everyone decides his own life through his own efforts. Don't hesitate all the time, because life is too short to stand hesitation, and you can only accomplish nothing in the end.