Visit master on the fifteenth day of the first month.

I escaped from the first grade, but I couldn't escape from the fifteenth. On the Lantern Festival, I had to summon up courage to visit Master in the temple.

As soon as I entered the door, Master happened to be alone. Many years ago, she was hospitalized for a few days with a bad cold. I've never met her. Alas, I am a disappointing disciple.

I asked the master carefully, "Are you feeling better?" Master smiled faintly and said, "All right." Master is always so kind in my eyes, but I seldom go to the temple to see her in recent years. I am so close to her, but I can only look at her from a distance.

In recent years, I have been running around outside, and Master has sent me messages many times: "What have you been doing?" Shy, I still don't change my original intention and stubbornly look for it.

Master sent me different lecture links again and again, urging me to listen. But I often perfunctory, rarely to listen carefully. I'm not rude enough to be ashamed to face Master.

This time, the master finally couldn't help it.

"Master," I shouted in surprise and fear.

Master motioned me to sit down with his finger.

After making tea, Master severely reprimanded me: "Today's 15th, I'll tell you right away, don't make any more trouble!"

"Teacher, I ..."

"Tell me about how much you have changed? Do this today and do that tomorrow. I haven't seen you famous yet! I think you are interested in Shinto and Taoism. Don't be possessed! "

"Master, because I have never found what I want, I have been looking for it for many years."

"This is your karma! Tell me, have you found it after all these years? ! "

"I found a good teacher."

"You don't say! You found it. Why are you still doing this? It doesn't matter if you don't admit that I am a master, but since you are here, I will tell you to take the right path. I won't tell you until you come. "

"Yes, I also know that Master is good to me."

"You learn to learn to learn more and more upside down, today this tomorrow that, you will waste in my life? ! I tell you, there must be a positive view! It's good for you to recite Buddha. Only the pure land Sect is the most reliable and reliable! "

"Teacher, Wuzu said, if you don't know your true intentions, it's no use practicing dharma. If you don't understand what the heart is, then practice is futile. "

"You don't know anything about pure land sect, you have no confidence, and you say this. You should listen to more classics and smell more. I'm telling you, listen to this mage's plate a few times before you talk to me. Be sure to listen, you can't go on like this! "

The tone of the host can't refuse.

I feel that Master really broke my heart for me. And my stubbornness makes me helpless.

"Good good." I promised, picked up the plate and prepared to leave.

Master once again advised me, "Go back and listen to the Dharma with peace of mind, and don't be like before!"

I thanked master and walked out of the door. I seem to feel that Master is staring at me with complicated eyes. This look is full of expectation and worry about my disappointment.

I can't help asking myself: "if I listen to master, I will lose my heart;" If I listen to my heart, I will lose Master's expectation and trust. "

Who should I listen to?