How to jump out of the vicious circle of falling into depravity because of self-escape?

Recently, I found myself spinning in a vicious circle of depravity, but I couldn't find the exit for a long time and got deeper and deeper. Calm down and think about it. Falling into this trap was not instigated by others. On the contrary, I dominated everything and struggled blindly like a swamp, which led me deeper and deeper.

It suddenly dawned on me that I could fool the whole world, pretend to try to show others, and I wouldn't feel better in my heart, and even felt more and more empty, trying to paralyze myself by continuing to fall. In fact, everything is just an escape from the fact that he has become unbearable.

Speaking of this vicious circle, the most typical performance for me is that one day I will make a plan full of fighting spirit, but the next day and the third day I often can't finish it as planned. In the long run, I will have self-doubt and boredom with my efforts, and even want to have fun more than usual. In fact, if you don't delay playing, it's a combination of work and rest. However, in this case, playing is close to indulgence, and it is often impossible to calm down and carry out the plan afterwards. What I finally get is a series of chain reactions such as staying up late and getting up late, and my heart becomes impetuous. The original plan can only be forgotten and become a thorn in your heart.

It seems that these two days have fallen into this strange circle again. I know that I have very important things to finish, and I also know that these two years are very important periods for me, but people often seem to care more about the immediate happiness and enjoyment, just like although others have repeatedly emphasized the authenticity of the 10,000-hour law, very few people really insist on investing 10,000 hours a day from now on. Yeah, I know. Let's get to work now, okay? In a few months, the exam will definitely be better than it is now, but after a day or two, I will feel that I have no motivation to study alone, and I will begin to doubt why I study so hard, and I will begin to doubt that my learning goals are not so solid and stable …

The hardest part is actually in the beginning I think the beginning here not only refers to the step taken, but also includes the first few steps to ensure your stability.

Just like when I made a plan two days ago, I almost enthusiastically arranged all the skills I wanted to learn, and I did it that day, but what about the next day and the third day? Yesterday, I kept saying that I wanted to see a play in my mind, but many plans were not completed, so I pressed it. As a result, I really want to see a play this morning. I finally watched it for a day.

I think this is probably the difficulty I encountered on the way to develop study habits. The more I resent my depravity, the more I feel that I want to give up on myself. But today, I want to jump out of this strange circle, because I don't think I am willing to be involved. On the contrary, I feel that it hurts me to go against my will, and I am very happy to follow the drama for a while, but when I watch the drama, I will feel so degraded and useless, but this passive entertainment seems to have a magic power, which will make it difficult for you to quit the interface. That's right. After all, the development of the Internet is to distract human attention and earn more capital. Since depravity can't make me really happy, I also decided to reduce the situation of being controlled by passive entertainment. Cultivate good habits, get rid of bad habits, and strive to turn doing what you want into a natural thing, rather than ideological struggle or escape.

It is said that it takes a while to form a habit, and it is easy to fail in the early stage. If you want to stick to one thing for a long time, you'd better form a muscular reaction of your body. It is painless to do something habitually, just as natural as eating and sleeping. Reading and sports are my habits now. I don't have to go through psychological struggle like I did at the beginning. If you don't do it after you get used to it, you feel something is missing.

Habits that have been gradually formed: insist on day shift, practice holding your breath in the water every day, hold your chest and abdomen, watch foreign news and listen to foreign language listening …

It's not so empty to think about it. Even though I sometimes can't help but want to indulge myself, some things have become anodyne habits and really become a part of my life after repeatedly looking directly at difficulties.

Why not start refueling now? You can still make it. We should strive to turn learning into habit and Excellence into habit.