Leave your tears to happiness! "S 1, abandon the cat.

The greatest sin in the world is hypocrisy.

In the name of love, do something self-interested, intentionally or unintentionally.

Goodwill is a choice, choose the direction of every fork in the road in life, and choice is the embodiment of human nature. Goodwill in human nature lasts forever, like a single spark, but it is too far away. Goodwill travels light years and falls into your eyes. Even in terms of probability, it should be scattered by dust, become a twinkling little star, appear and disappear.

But believe it, it's there.

"People don't cry when they are angry, but cry when they are wronged."

"Don't cry, the Buddha is here."

"Aren't you a converted Taoist?"

S 1。 On the day I abandoned the cat, I threw three steel shovels like a magic stick. After all, I couldn't figure it out and couldn't grasp the ending.

It was a very difficult time for me. I continued to breathe like a maggot, leaving only a trace of my remaining reason. My chest hurts as soon as I stand up.

"Go to bed early, don't hold the moon, and don't hope."

This article was written on 202 1 Double Ninth Festival.

I suddenly remembered someone. Today is her birthday.

I found her number in a messy address book.

"Take care, teacher."

……

People always like to learn some skills or have fun when they are bored.

For a while, my job was stable, my feelings were stable, I was young and strong, and my heartbeat was stable. I am an extremely boring patient. As a result, I hesitated for a long time between learning English, learning music and falling in love. Finally, I bought a book of sixty-four hexagrams of the Book of Changes, intending to surpass the world and become a magic stick. I strictly follow the contents of the book and only play one divination every day to ensure accuracy.

I just wanted to find some psychological comfort for myself at first. I can see that, but I can't hold my colleagues' curiosity. Every hour, someone always comes to me to calculate and make up a story. They also nodded in amazement, which made me feel that my hidden talents and skills for many years were accidentally lit up.

In order to pretend, I always put three one-dollar coins in my pocket for divination. I throw them around when I jingle every day. I'm a bit of a neat freak. I can't stand it. When the patina can't be erased, I throw it into the coin box of the bus.

One morning, I finished reading divination in the office, and the top one was replaced by the bottom one. Zeshan is salty, not good, but peach blossom.

The leader came in and said that the company had newly recruited some colleagues in the marketing department and asked us to get to know each other at the morning meeting.

It was also at this morning's meeting that I met Yang Xiaobao II for the first time 1.

It was also at that time that I believed that there were really some people with natural temperament in this world. Always listen to coquettish old men say that it is useless to pretend to be cute in front of sexy. However, when you really see a beautiful, hot and playful woman, you will feel young and don't know how happy the world is.

At that time, the company I worked for was the headquarters of a large group. At the morning meeting, there were many people from several departments sitting below. Several other new employees also introduced themselves fairly, including those with southern or northern accents. It's just that her eyes are bent into a crescent moon, her voice is calm, her sentences are fluent, and her Mandarin is quite standard. No one will believe that she was only 19 years old at that time, and this was her first job.

Therefore, many years later, when the old colleagues scattered around the world get together again, they will remember the boring morning meeting with a different taste of breakfast, and they will also remember the smile that flashed like sunshine.

After the meeting, the leaders of the marketing department showed them around various departments and got familiar with the old employees. When they came to our planning department, I had just finished eating a big meat steamed stuffed bun with oil dripping in my mouth. Seeing the office door open, I quickly stuffed the rest into the drawer. NND, don't be a strong man.

My immediate boss is a strong woman. She went out of the back room and introduced her colleagues in the department. She came up to me and stared at me, so I had to wipe my mouth, and then I saw the strong woman pointing at me. I smiled politely and held out my hand. I also planned to have fun, go through the motions and not pick people.

"Well, this is the director of the numerology department of our group."

Everyone laughed, except her. Her watery eyes were full of surprise. She was a little surprised: "Does our company really have this department?"

Hearing this, I put on a polite and embarrassed smile, ready to take advantage of the hand into my pocket and took out three dollars.

"I just took office and am recruiting. Girls are interested in joining."

(1) This hexagram is a pure Yang hexagram, which shows that you are very rigid.

See here, maybe you think this is a vulgar love story, don't worry, let's continue.

As a newcomer, Comrade Yang Xiaobao quickly overtook many female employees in the company and became the goddess in the hearts of all male colleagues, including many poseur leaders, old-school people who tried to mix training and education, and young people who had never seen the world.

I'm amazing. In the vast crowd, I quickly occupied the position of my friend 1 in the name of a magic wand.

Since then, she has occupied my daily 1 sign and has never been absent. I can exchange a divination for breakfast. I never thought that the skills I learned through boredom could really make a living like shrimp.

I once asked her in a circle of friends how I chose to lick the dog market to sell dogs.

He said that it mainly depends on face and temperament, which has been for many years. Looking back now, I still believe in her narrative words, and I have never questioned whether it is true or not.

At that time, everyone was young people in their twenties. No matter what their relationship is, as long as they are cheerful and outgoing, they will soon become good friends in the workplace. They talk about everything in the office every day, which is very leisurely. In today's words, it is fishing.

Yang Xiaobao Moore dresses very mature in the workplace and even wears a princess dress at private parties. She is young, and I have always wondered how the confident and cheerful temperament in her bones was cultivated.

For a long time when I first met her, no one had seen her lose. When there is no performance, she is in no hurry, gnashing her teeth with joy and being jealous all day.

She is like a lark falling from the sky in early spring when everything recovers and willow branches sprout, cheering and praising the warming of the earth.

She is a big girl, unlike some girls who claim to be beautiful, but people ignore her appearance and experience a kind of freshness like green tea. Note: This green tea is a drink.

She is still a little childish and enthusiastic. At that time, there was no takeout in yellow and blue. She is the youngest, and it is often heard that she has basically taken over the job of running errands and delivering meals at noon in her department. Drinking at several well-connected daily parties is very heroic. I think almost everyone who covers a catty of liquor and a catty of beer has been put down by her.

In view of this, many women in the company are jealous of her, but they can't find her fault.

It was particularly hot that summer, and with the World Cup, everyone was almost listless during the day. In the evening, they get together to drink, watch football, cough and watch football.

Perhaps the leader found that I was depressed at that time, which led to inaccurate divination and caused her anger. On the day of the rematch, he deliberately left me to work overtime in the office. I lost my balance in an instant, and there are still two hours before the game starts. It is human nature to change two 30,000-word copywriters. The editor-in-chief of a publishing house cannot persecute people like this.

Yang Xiaobao and three other friends killed him and volunteered to kill the enemy. I'm not worried about their level. I can only frown and agree to 15 thousand each. Finally, I saved two abstract schemes and got stuck in the company. The food stalls nearby were crowded with people, so we had to go to KTV to watch the game in luxury. Maybe this is destined to be a bad night.

Host Brazil lost to Ramstein at Mineiro Stadium 1-7.

My god, my god samba legion, I am so depressed.

If the plan of the four of us ruined my salary for half a month a few hours ago, then this score ruined my salary for the whole month. I even thought at that time, or I would go back to the company to work overtime ... but Yang Xiaobao stopped me.

Boys respect football very much. She just came to join in the fun. We watch football and she drinks. Her face is red, her eyes are big and her cheeks are bulging, like the face on an apple. It looks like fun.

After the game, everyone turned to singing.

Depressed, I picked up my glass and touched her. I swallowed it. She sat next to me around the table and said something I never expected to hear from her: "Life is rotten, rotten and hopeless."

I didn't catch it clearly at first, but I said grumpily that I needed more wine after I used it. I want to have a drink tonight. Anyway, I can only pay for all the consumption.

But hitting it and hitting your mouth doesn't feel right.

"What did you say?"

"Life is rotten, rotten, and hopeless."

I stare big eyes, watching her sparkling watery eyes keep coming towards me. My mind went cold and I died young. Is Laozi's divination really clever?

I stood up and said I wanted to get some more wine. I drank too much. No, wait a minute. I haven't drunk too much.

When we returned to the box, everyone sang happily together. She sings so well that I have forgotten what she sang.

At that time, the needle and minute hand went to zero, and she came over with a smile.

"A new day, give me divination."

That day, she meditated silently, and I threw three steel shovels like a magic wand.

"Go up and down, pure Yang."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, that means you are fair."

She paused, then smiled, and finally pointed at me. The whole person collapsed on the sofa with laughter, and tears could not stop flowing out.

I was still stunned by her laughter and asked her what was going on. I thought I was free during the day.

"During the day, you can forgive everyone, but at night,no."

I paused, chewing her words.

She cried at me for a long time.

Yang Xiaobao Er, no, Huiyang is a real person and a teacher. That summer, I had two special regrets. One is to reverse the score in the semi-final, otherwise I wouldn't meet the person who gambled with me all my life and finally lost money. Secondly, I regret not listening to your story carefully that night.

That night, Brazil lost to Germany, and so did I.

Several friends asked me why I couldn't be serious.

I said, how is that possible? Just a kid. Be serious.

However, it has been two months since I received Yang Xiaobao's letter again, and the message I received is very simple.

"I converted."

I sent another photo. Yang Xiaobao's beautiful and abnormal face doesn't match the strange Taoist bun, nor does this outfit. Is that a decree in his hand? What a mess.

"Which temple?"

"It's the scenery."

I once told her that a person's life is always to find a balanced and loyal person, and finally he will get a loyal and brave person, and finally he will end up brave.

Laughing and crying, so brave and so just.

"I'm going to your temple to reward you. Tell me about you, ok? "

"That's called donating incense, yes, and watching."

(2) Many people have taught me to grow up, but those ways are not worth thanking.

Most people's marriage is festive, because you see, marriage is festive.

Ten miles in the spring breeze, a happy day, peace and joy, and getting what you want are all good words.

Yang Xiaobao's mother's marriage is so short that it can be described in one sentence.

From today, can you stop hitting me?

Here, we are divorced. You can't hit me today.

Since I can remember, Yang Xiaobao has heard this sentence the most in his home.

At that time, she was small and thin. The day when the person she called Dad left was a sunny, dry and cold winter. The kang in the room didn't burn, and the fire in the stove didn't flourish. My mother was afraid that she would catch cold, so she wrapped her cotton trousers and coat tightly, but she still felt cold and curled up under the table next to the stove. Her small nose and mouth are red with cold, and her big eyes are staring at the door.

Children grow fast. In those days, dolls' clothes had to be made bigger. If they can be worn for a long time, she will collapse and hug the cotton-padded jacket like a duck tied in a quilt. When the door closed, she appeared, swinging a sleeve, staggering and holding her mother's leg.

Mom cried, but she didn't. She said that people only cry when they are wronged, and she didn't feel wronged at that time.

Later, my mother converted. She can't remember when, except for elementary school and a period before elementary school. She always goes to the Taoist temple, looking for some white-bearded grandfathers who are close to her to ask for a dime and buy spicy strips.

She didn't think about the concept of "home", because at that time, she didn't know what other people's homes were like, so she didn't think her "home" was different from others'. Her wish is to eat spicy strips, because she sees her classmates eating them after school.

Her mother often collects the pocket money given by the old Taoist priest in front of the Taoist temple. Her mother is very strict and forbids her to eat spicy strips.

My mother sends some vegetables and food home by bike every week, and even checks her homework occasionally. She is very good and never takes the initiative to make her angry, but when her grades are not good, her mother will still hit her, hit her face and kick her ass. At first she didn't cry, but later she grew up and cried once. She said I was wronged.

Her cleverness is different from that of other peers. She seems to know something extra. She found that she was different from others, so she was wronged.

There are no partners in the village. She cooks, cooks kang and cleans the house by herself. She will make every dish exquisite, not rich, but exquisite. She will spend some time setting plates for herself and posing beautiful shapes, such as cucumbers, which can be snake-shaped. This requires good knife skills and careful cutting. Persimmon is red, so it is often a big red flower at this time.

She also studies hard, but her grades just can't get on. Maybe she has too many things to think about. It's too difficult to study at the same time. In the news, many children from poor families were admitted to key universities. Yes, it's too difficult.

She secretly picked up cans in the street and saved them. In this way, she bought the first and only bag of spicy strips, a big bag for one yuan, and put it in her schoolbag, ready to go home and have a good taste. The ups and downs of fate are often reflected in such trivial matters. Mom came back suddenly that day. Her first reaction was not to hide, but to kneel on the ground and cry because of a bag of spicy strips, and she took the initiative to admit her mistake and handed it over to the relevant departments.

I'm curious and ask her if she hasn't eaten spicy strips so far.

When I got the answer, I said I knew I would bring you a bag.

She shook her head and said, I don't want to eat. I really don't want to eat.

Her voice is clean and pure, without any affectation.

Maybe fate is fair. A slightly bumpy life left no trace on her face. She didn't eat anything good, but she thrived and stood out.

The school life after that is similar. Excellent girls are always surrounded by strange voices at school. She is always the one who stands out from the crowd, not necessarily a little green in the flowers, not necessarily that I have blossomed, but in short, it is different.

Life kissed her with pain, and she insisted on singing back. She greeted everything silently, cheerfully and enthusiastically, but this was not what she wanted.

The day she got her ID card was her happiest day, and she was finally qualified to pursue everything she wanted.

"At such a special age, in recent years, I also dreamed and fantasized about family, friendship and love. There will always be some people in this world who will travel across mountains and rivers for me. I have opened my heart, hugged, rejoiced and warmed, but they all have the same dreams and fantasies. Parents will have their own lives, and lovers will have their own dreams. When they met,

"Do you know the cat abandonment effect? The abandoned cat will be especially obedient when it comes home again. They feel pain, loneliness and despair. They are afraid of losing again, so they work hard, they can fight, they will get bored and will be rejected. What should they do? "

"Brother, my memory is too good. I remember every scene, every bit, every detail. As long as I can remember, I have to be careful in my life. I can't help looking at others. I dare not cause trouble to others. I have been looking forward to growing up since I was a child. When I grow up, can I eat spicy strips? "

"For more than ten years, many people have taught me to grow up, but I don't appreciate their way. I'm so tired. I have no place to relax. I was alone in the crowd. When I got home, I was still alone. I know I'm immature. Maybe in a few years, I can get through it and live like you ordinary people. But when I came here that day, I was particularly peaceful and decided to stay here. "

There is no transition, yes, just because it is peaceful here, so I stayed.

My heart is like absorbent cotton and butter. When you meet a red-hot earthen stove and iron pot, it melts in an instant.

It may be that the incense of Taoist temple has smoked our eyes. I lifted my head back and gently touched her head.

"Master Huiyang, don't cry, the Buddha is coming."

King Kong's eyebrows are low, and Bodhisattva's eyes are glaring. As the talk show said, life kisses you with pain. Why did you slap him?

When I left, I threw three steel shovels into the merit box. I'm afraid of vomiting again, but I still can't catch it.

I haven't seen her for seven years, which is this year.

Again and again, I also encountered the biggest trough, struggling on the ground like a maggot, so I was carried to the hotel by several friends for rescue.

Stone objects let me live in the yard for a few days, saying that I wanted to change the environment. In the mountains, the air is good at night and you can have a good sleep. They also made me stewed chicken with hazelnuts and mushrooms. You know, this dish is a perfect match with mountains.

I woke up and ate a toad venom pupa. In the middle of this half-life, she came.

The stone added a bitter chrysanthemum preserved egg to Huiyang's small reality, which provoked her to read it again and again and said that she would not give up meat.

I said, do you abstain from color? It seems that Taoist cultivation of immortals is true. How many years have passed, haven't you grown old?

She said that marriage was theoretically unlimited, but she gave up. She also said that she hadn't seen me for seven years, and I really didn't have that karma. Why did I become so depressed?

She drinks, I drink, and she says let me go with the flow.

What do I mean by letting nature take its course?

"Because I could do nothing, I let go, because I was helpless, so I let go."

I cried and scolded her: you are full of jingles, ready to be an abbot.

She said it was God.

We haven't talked about the specific events in recent years, but according to science, it takes seven years for human cells to upgrade as a whole. Seven years have passed, I am not me, and you are not you. I can see that in these seven years, she crossed herself and really found peace.

She asked me to stay in the prison for a few more days. I said it was buddhist nun, and I'm not kidding now.

Yang Xiaobao said, everything will be fine. Mochow has no confidant in the road ahead, and everyone knows you.

I looked at the liquid all over my face: you are so wordy.

Yang Xiaobao said, are you angry?

I said: people don't cry when they are angry, but they cry when they are wronged.

Huiyang said, don't cry, the Buddha is here.

"Aren't you a converted Taoist?"

Cicada chirps in summer, but how do cicadas live in autumn? Not for seven days.

It's early winter, and it's always in this cooling time, which is both melodramatic and appropriate, but it's okay. Slowly, everyone will get used to the temperature of this world.

In fact, people who insisted on leaving at the beginning were not happy in the end.

Whisper 2021.10.16