The collapse of faith

Faith

What time cannot bury is the collapse of faith. It's like a multi-story tower. You want to walk up, but you can't find any motivation to support you. The layers are connected, but every layer is empty. I can't hold the handrails or step on the stairs. It seems that all these things no longer exist.

I will walk around the world throughout my life without any thoughts. After experiencing many things in the world, I left with a mind full of satisfaction, desire, unwillingness, regret, joy, etc. But the only thing I lack is faith, which makes me think a lot and keep me awake at night. I once thought of becoming a saint as my life's goal, but the desire for money filled my heart. I thought I could live alone if I was poor. If you achieve it, you will benefit the world. It seems that contradiction is always present. I doubt whether my difficult situation can help me improve my personality, conscience and ideals! I stood at the bottom of society and looked up, and what I saw was endless ridicule, endless sympathy, endless belittlement and lack of confidence. However, I saw that glimmer of light. The accumulation of countless famous examples was part of the light, but more importantly, it was my belief in climbing up, hoping to reach the level I once envied. I worked hard but kept laughing at myself. Finally my heart collapsed.

The so-called faith is just belief. Among all the people in the world, I am so ordinary. I have no natural halo. I am just an ordinary person among the pedestrians on the road from birth to death.

When I finally reached my lifelong goal, I found that as I climbed up, the heavy burden forced me to give up some things but I was very happy to do so. Did I forget what I threw away first? But in the end, I only had my ideals left. Where is conscience? I can't remember when and where I dropped it?

Why I am like this, God tells me. Confusion is not a person, it is an era.