Record that the child has been here.

I had to choose a test tube for physical reasons. At the beginning of March 217, at the age of 35, I went on this road. At the beginning of the year, I went to check the green light all the way. The doctor suggested that someone should give it to me, once in May and once in June, but it failed. In August, I changed the test tube and injected it to promote ovulation and egg retrieval, but I forgot to take a few. Finally, I made five, two and three incubators. Because my husband was on a business trip, I signed them all. I remember seeing my mother's anxious and worried eyes when I came out of the operating room dizzy after taking the eggs. I was particularly wronged. I had to stay in the hospital for one night on the day of taking the eggs. In fact, I can care nothing about all the pains in the test tube body, but the emotional changes are really difficult to control. My husband will only work hard, and his husband is powerless. Because he has to earn money, he can only work hard for his mother. All grievances and sadness along the way are more easily aroused under the influence of hormone drugs, because they are their own choices, so there is nothing to complain about. In the end, all emotions are slowly digested by themselves. After seven days of taking eggs, they tell that all the breeding bags have failed, waiting for two frozen embryos to be transplanted every other month. The transplantation failed every other month, and the human was given twice, and the test tube failed once.

In November 217, I entered the cycle of egg retrieval again. It was about 1 o'clock at night, and there were few people on the road when it was very cold. I was very scared myself. I was very uncomfortable when I went back to my place after the injection, because everyone else was with me. Hehe, I was melodramatic, right? My husband came to accompany me the night before this egg retrieval, and I didn't see him when I walked out of the operating room after the egg retrieval. He said he went to the toilet, and I didn't know what to say. After taking the eggs, my husband left for work. I had to listen to the hospital to tell me the result of fertilization that night. At that time, when the doctor told me that none of them were matched, I forgot to tell the doctor to change to the second generation. After I came out, I couldn't control it anymore. I burst into tears on the table in the hall, feeling my heart was dying. The nurse came to comfort me, and then I remembered to change to the second generation, but the laboratory was off work, and my husband called at that time. I could feel that he was very uncomfortable. I was worried about me, too. I had a hard night, and called the lab the next day to tell me that there was a miracle in the world for the first time. When I heard the doctor say that there were six, I cried happily. On the third day, I finally made five, two frozen and three capsules. On the seventh day, I told him that there was one capsule, which was a pleasant surprise.

In January 218, that is, at the end of the twelfth lunar month, I entered the transplant cycle. On the 3th of the twelfth lunar month, I went back and forth between the hospital and my home, scheduled to transplant a blastocyst on the seventh day of the first lunar month, and then went home. After seven days, I couldn't help but use test paper to test it, and the first pregnancy test paper mark appeared in my life. My little sister and I cried and laughed happily, and then there were various expectations. On the ninth day of transplantation, the HCG value was higher. At that time, I thought it would not be a split, because I had heard from other test-tube sisters before, so I thought in my mind that there was bleeding below about 18 days after transplantation, and it would happen within five minutes' walk to get an injection, not much. The doctor checked and said it was normal. The first time I had a B-ultrasound, the doctor told me it was twins, but I was not surprised at that time. The doctor also asked me if I knew it was twins before. I said I didn't know, but I was worried at that time, because I had seen that identical twins were in danger of transfusion syndrome before, but it didn't happen very often. I thought I wouldn't be so unlucky. I told my husband that my family were so happy that it was worth it to suffer for two at once, and then morning sickness began to get serious gradually in about 2 days. One morning sickness involved much bleeding and was red, so I was so scared that I went to the hospital. The doctor asked me to stay in the hospital for observation and worried about my work for four or five days. Because I have limited time in accounting work, I actually began to think about resigning. I didn't want to be too distracted. I wanted to take good care of my baby. In the end, I didn't resign for various reasons. The boss's retention was mainly due to financial constraints. Now I really hate myself at that time, so I carefully took care of my baby. The serious morning sickness and orderly work lasted for four months, and the inspections were normal and non-invasive. At the beginning of May, the morning sickness was slightly better, and all the inspections were fine. The doctor said to have a check-up every half a month, and my husband said to accompany him for the check-up. He always comes back once a month. I think the check-up is quite good. After three months of critical period, I feel relaxed. I started eating in mid-May, and my stomach was blocked after eating a little meal. I have to stroll every day after meals to feel better. Some people say that children will hold their stomachs when they take up more and more space. These are normal, and this is my first pregnancy. When my husband came back at the end of the month, we went to the hospital for examination. The B-ultrasound doctor said that it was suspected to be twin transfusion syndrome, and one amniotic fluid was more than one amniotic fluid. The maternal and child doctor told me that I could only go to the Third Hospital of Beijing for surgery. At present, only a few hospital doctors can do this technology. It was Wednesday, and two days before the examination, I began to have a bad sleep at night, and my back ached. I always felt that there was a child's body part under my ribs, and I didn't know that it was abnormal until I checked it out. We were not sure. We went to the People's Hospital for reexamination on Thursday the next day. The People's Doctor said there was nothing we could do, so we quickly tried to make an appointment with the doctor in Beijing. We arrived in Beijing on Saturday. These days, it became more and more serious, and we could hardly sleep at night. It was like a broken back. It was impossible to lie down. After a few minutes, the back pain was unbearable, so we had to keep changing our posture or just stroll away. On Saturday night, we went to the Third Hospital of Beijing Medical University. I told the doctor about my situation, and the emergency doctor told me that the doctor didn't go to work on weekends. Even if there was a problem, I could only wait for an abortion. It was impossible for the doctor to operate on me on weekends, and I wouldn't be admitted to the hospital. At that time, only I had an abortion, so I couldn't help it. My husband and I could only stay in a hotel near the hospital and wait for the doctor to go to work on Monday. These two days were the most difficult nights in my life, with almost sleepless nights and backache. I had to go out for a walk during the day, and I couldn't sit or lie down. It began to hurt in a few minutes. Finally, I stayed up until Monday. My husband asked the ticket seller to hang up the number of Dr. Wei Yuan who was attending twin transfusion syndrome. On Monday morning, we went early and waited outside the clinic. After a while, I couldn't stand it. It was too painful to cry. Someone told Dr. Han, and then let me go in first and show it to me for admission. Finally, I was admitted smoothly. In the afternoon, I was given a B-ultrasound and said that I was the anterior wall of the placenta. At that time, I couldn't lie down in pain. It was really at the limit. Dr. Han said that I could feel better if I put some amniotic fluid first when I was normal, but the anterior wall of the placenta was difficult to find a place for fear of infection, so I didn't give sheep water. She said that I would have an operation on Tuesday afternoon. When I was doing a basic examination in the hospital corridor, a nurse with short hair had a particularly bad attitude. I said that the pain was very painful. She had a very bad attitude and said how to hurt it. I have never given birth to a child. I really don't know how painful it is to give birth to a child, but it was really painful at that time. She said that it wouldn't hurt if she couldn't compare with giving birth to a child. Hehe, many people later said that I actually had signs of miscarriage at that time, but so many doctors in the hospital didn't know? Or didn't take it seriously at all? Because my husband didn't sleep well with me two nights ago, I was already in the hospital. I had an operation the next afternoon, so I asked my husband to go back to the hotel to have a good sleep and rest. My husband was also worried about leaving late. I couldn't sleep at all and couldn't stick to the bed, so I strolled in the corridor alone. A good nurse told me that it was good for my child to sleep well. I said it wasn't that I didn't sleep, but I couldn't stay in bed. But it didn't work for me at all. After strolling around four o'clock, I still had bloating, so I went to the toilet. In fact, I haven't eaten well for several days, but I always wanted to go to the toilet because of bloating. This time, I tried hard and came out at once. At first, I thought it was urine. I didn't feel right until I couldn't control it more and more. It was because I had too little knowledge in this field and hated myself for not knowing anything. At that time, I didn't even know that my child was broken by amniotic fluid. The doctor told me to lie down on the bed at once. At that time, I was still bleeding below. I was afraid that I had soiled the bed and didn't go to bed. When the nurse arrived in the ward, she said that you should go to bed at once. Think about how ridiculous you were. The nurse visited the palace for me with her hand and said that the palace was opened and contacted the operating room. I didn't know that my child would be lost. When I entered the operating room, a male doctor said that I would have an abortion. I cried and told the doctor that this was my baby in vitro. He said that you must save your life first, so let me contact my family. I called my husband and said that my amniotic fluid was broken and I came here quickly. Then I didn't know what I was thinking at that time. My brain was blank, and I listened to the doctor's words mechanically, so I forced myself to give birth to the baby. After a while, my first child came out. Now my heart hurts when I say these words. Every time I think about it, my heart hurts very much. I feel the baby coming out. He must hate me. He didn't protect him well. I didn't have the strength and didn't want to exert myself. After a long time, the doctor said that I couldn't always do this. It is estimated that this child would have no heartbeat in my body and the amniotic fluid would have disappeared. The second child was squeezed out by the doctor. After the child came out, the doctor asked me whether to take it away or treat it in the hospital. I was afraid to face these problems at that time. I didn't even dare to ask the doctor if it was a boy or a girl. Let's ask my husband. The doctor said he wanted to clean my palace, leaving 8CC of blood, and asked me to sign a blood transfusion. After signing the words, I didn't know that the anesthetic was strong. I was confused and remembered that the nurse called someone's family at the door of the operating room, and no one answered many times. The nurse said what happened to this family. The nurse sent me back to the ward. When I returned to the ward, I cried when I heard the bed next to me. Maybe it was because I thought of herself. Maybe it was because I thought of her.

when my parents and sisters knew the situation, they immediately cried when they called my mother, saying that my mother had lost her child. At that time, my mother choked and said that there was nothing I could do, saying that the adults were fine. Before coming to Beijing, my mother said that the children should be kept, but in any case, the adults should be well. When I heard that my mother was upset, I didn't dare to cry. I knew that my mother would be even more upset. My elder sister said that she would come to Beijing, but she didn't have to. On the morning of the same day, there was another patient in the bed next door who was as urgent as me. On the same day, Dr. Han Yuan arranged for her to have surgery in the afternoon. Maybe it was my business that made them somewhat worried. I didn't understand why she could have surgery in the afternoon as soon as she came in. I didn't give me surgery in the afternoon when I came in yesterday morning. The situation was so urgent that I had to arrange surgery the next afternoon. If I could have surgery that day, my child would not be gone. At that time, I couldn't help crying and asked Dr. Han. She said it wasn't necessarily a bad thing. Even after the operation, there was no guarantee that there would be no problem, but I didn't want to, at least give them a chance, but now there is nothing. I really hate why I didn't know anything at that time, even if I begged them on my knees, I should hurry to save my child. I really didn't know that I would have an abortion and I couldn't stick to it. I didn't know that I couldn't use force to go to the toilet. I don't know that I can't walk back and forth all the time, which will increase the risk of miscarriage, but no one told me that I was in the hospital, but no doctor and nurse told me what I should pay attention to. The person who just moved in next door said that the doctor told her that she couldn't walk all the time, and she would have an abortion at any time. Why did someone tell her, and no one told me that I shouldn't do this when I wandered in the corridor at four o'clock in the dead of night because of pain? The nurse was watching me at the nurse's station, but no one told me what to do. My children were in the safest place where they could help us because the hospital didn't care because of my ignorance. Maybe I can't blame the hospital. It's because I, a mother, didn't protect them well. I should read more about maternity knowledge. I should know more about it so as not to lose them. My children may think I'm not qualified enough to be my children. It's too late. I lost them after spending more than four months with my children. I don't know if this will be the only opportunity to be a mother in my life. I missed it and lost them.