Those loves that were lost to life (Xiao yesterday’s secret love story)

1.

At twelve o'clock in the night, I received a call from Xiao Wei. Afraid of waking up my sleeping daughter, I lowered my voice and tiptoed to the balcony. A gust of cool breeze blew. , I couldn't help shivering!

On the phone, Xiao Wei seemed drunk. She stuttered and asked me vaguely, Ake...Zhao Yiran...Yiran...is he okay?

Alas! Eight years have passed, and Xiao Wei still can't forget Zhao Yiran.

Sure enough, infatuated women have been heartbroken since ancient times! Zhao Yiran has been married for six years and has two lovely daughters.

But Xiao Wei is still going around in circles, going further and further down the road of being an older leftover girl.

It is said that time is a ruthless knife that cuts off cucumbers and ruins appearance, but for Xiao Wei, time is a magical rejuvenation pill.

Seeing that the three women like us who are mothers have been ravaged by life and become yellow-faced women, Xiao Wei is still as beautiful as an eighteen-year-old girl. Of course, her freshness The refined and charming temperament is unmatched by young girls!

However, just like this, a goddess with beautiful appearance, elegant temperament, tall figure and successful career actually fell into the love that was defeated in life and could not extricate herself!

Ake, let me ask you how our family is doing now? Would you rather tell me? What do you mean by not saying anything? Did he have any surprise? Don't scare me, okay? Xiao Wei completely ignored the goddess image and shouted hysterically!

I say with some distress, he is fine! At least better than you!

Is it really good? Xiao Wei murmured to herself!

I was so angry when I saw Xiao Wei being so obsessed with that selfish and cowardly man. His wife had just given birth to a beautiful daughter for him. A family of four had just finished taking a hundred-day photo shoot happily, didn’t you know? Xiao Wei, Zhao Yiran has no relationship with you now, okay? His good, his bad, everything about him belongs to other women.

Xiao Wei murmured, I don’t know! I really don’t know! I have deleted all his contact information. I don't want to disturb his life and become a third party that everyone hates.

I sighed, Xiao Wei, let the past go! Can you please let yourself go?

Xiao Wei burst into tears, but I can’t forget it! You know! Every night when people are quiet, missing him is like a snake crawling on the grass, swallowing my heart silently, even breathing feels a dull pain!

Slowly, Xiao Wei's crying became weaker and weaker, and her speech became slurred. After a while, her delicate snoring came from the phone.

I hung up the phone, crept onto the bed, kissed my sleeping daughter gently, and lay down, but couldn't fall asleep for a long time.

2.

Zhao Yiran was my childhood sweetheart, born on the same year, same month and same day as me.

I heard that our family is still related, so according to seniority, he has to call me "Sister-in-law"! But he always calls me by my first name.

In my dark childhood, Zhao Yiran was like a ray of bright sunshine, driving away my fear, loneliness and sadness.

Okay! It seems like such a literary description, but in other words, when I was a child, I suffered all kinds of bullying from my peers, which is also known as school violence, and Zhao Yiran was the only one who never bullied me.

So much so that for a long time I wondered if this guy liked me.

Until one time, I was tied up by a group of vicious little boys, pulled by my hair, pressed on my head, and forced to drink urine! ! ! !

Yes! You read that right! Forced to drink urine! That was the most humiliating time I've ever been bullied.

I still clearly remember that a group of naughty little boys pushed me to the ground, my face was buried deep in the yellow soil, and my mouth and nose had already penetrated of bitter soil.

I vaguely remember that textbooks often describe soil as very fragrant, but when I tasted the taste of soil for the first time, I found that the textbooks were all lies!

Suddenly, in the midst of the noisy chaos, I heard a burst of hissing sounds, and then, my head, face, and back were covered with a smelly, sour yellow liquid.

I am completely confused! Before I could realize what was happening, they pulled my head up again by my hair, pinched my mouth, and tried to catch the yellow liquid.

At that moment my mind suddenly became clear, and I knew it was urine!

Tears mixed with urine blurred my eyes, and the excited bad boy screamed with joy!

With tears in my eyes, I saw Zhao Yiran huddled in the corner, like a frightened cat afraid to come out.

I closed my eyes in despair...

Suddenly I heard the leader of the bad boys, Ashen, yell arrogantly, "Zhao Yiran, you grandson, why don't you come and yell at me?" Wang Ni peed, honestly, do you like this stinky girl?

When the bad boys heard the word "like", they burst into laughter, and some even whistled maliciously. Zhao Yiran blushed so anxiously that he stuttered and said unclearly, "Um...according to seniority, I have to call Ake sister-in-law. My mother grabbed my ears and told me several times that I can't bully sister-in-law Ake, otherwise she will interrupt me. You can't bully her, or I'll tell the teacher! Boy, who dared to use your dog to hit me first? Break your legs. Ashen and those bad boys beat and kicked Zhao Yiran in anger.

Yes! The stupid Zhao Yiran rescued me many years later! Watching "Westward Journey", Zixia Fairy said with longing, the person I love is a great hero, and one day he will come to marry me on the seven-colored clouds. I guessed right, but I couldn't guess the ending...

The image of Zhao Yiran came to mind. According to Xiao Wei, I smiled sweetly.

Yes! That day, when the timid Zhao Yiran straightened his back. When I bravely said, "I will tell the teacher if you bully Auntie Ake again," I felt that his thin body suddenly became much taller, like an unparalleled hero riding on colorful somersault clouds

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From elementary school to high school graduation, Zhao Yiran and I were in the same school

As my compositions got better and better, and after I became the favorite student of the Chinese teacher, more and more students bullied me. The less they do, the more they start to please me intentionally or unintentionally. Because although I still can’t fight back or scold me, I will carry forward Lei Feng’s spirit and write them in my diary and composition. In addition, Chinese and history teachers often ask me to help with corrections. Exam papers, the bad boys were worried that I would take revenge.

As soon as it was time for the big exam, the students sitting next to me began to bribe me, hoping to get me to turn aside so they could copy my answers. .

As my status gets higher and higher, the relationship between Zhao Yiran and I has become colder and colder.

Our relationship has changed since he took a beating for me last time. It's very subtle. He always avoids me intentionally or unintentionally, and I am also a little afraid of seeing him.

Zhao Yiran's mother and my mother are not only uncles and sisters-in-law, but also best friends who talk about everything. When the two families were gathering together, they saw Zhao Yiran and I avoiding each other with twinkling eyes. They thought it was strange that these two children had grown up wearing crotchless pants together. How could they still be separated?

Later? , my open-minded mother quietly asked me with a gossipy face, "Daughter, do you like Zhao Yiran?" "

I blushed and shook my head like a rattle, no... no... how is that possible?

My mother suddenly said seriously, there is no best, Zhao Yiran's mother She is your cousin's cousin. According to the seniority, he calls you sister-in-law. Even if you like him, there is absolutely no way that you two can be together. This is called incest!

I said with a playful smile, it's all a blessing. What’s not incest, old feudal!

I am an old feudal! Zhao Yiran’s parents and grandparents are all old feudal, so it’s impossible for you to be together in this life! !

I pretended to be indifferent and said, oh, how could your daughter like that sissy Zhao Yiran if her taste is not so bad? Everyone says that I look good! Like A'Zhu, even though she is the ugliest version, she looks like Qiao Feng's favorite woman. I feel so honored!

But my heart is bleeding a little bit...

I don’t know if I have the plot of Romeo and Juliet in my heart. The more I know that they can’t be together, the more I miss them desperately.

From that day on, Zhao Yiran became the moon in the mirror, the flower in the water, and the cinnabar mole on my heart.

I don’t know if beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but Zhao Yiran became more and more handsome. By the time he was in high school, his appearance reached its peak, and he looked exactly like Professor Do Minjun in "My Love from the Star" , was once rated as the school idol, surrounded by a lot of fans, but I could only watch from a distance, silently missing him in my heart, and deliberately went to the toilet countless times every day just to sneak a look at him. There was no wine in his dimple, but I was as drunk as a dog.

4.

On the eve of the college entrance examination, we once took the same bus home and sat in the same row. I plucked up the courage to ask him which school he applied to, but he still couldn't open his mouth.

I don’t know how long it took, but when I was about to get home, Zhao Yiran suddenly asked me in a deep voice, "Ake...sister-in-law, which university are you going to apply for?"

I was nervous. My heart was about to burst. I took a deep breath and pretended to be calm and said, I like fashion design and I want to apply for Beijing Institute of Fashion Technology.

Zhao Yiran said happily, what a coincidence, I am also applying for a school in Beijing, and I want to apply for China University of Geosciences. From now on, I can have a companion on my way to school and during holidays. By the way, do you have a QQ account? I'll add you so we can contact you easily.

I shook my head in embarrassment. I don’t have QQ and I never go online.

Zhao Yiran scratched his head and smiled. That's right. You are a good student. When you are not studying, you only draw. You have no time to surf the Internet. I’ll give you one of my two QQ numbers! Take out your notebook. I will write the account number and password into your notebook. Don’t forget it!

Account number: 294457102 Password: wang1987725 Zhao Yiran muttered something while writing down the account number and password in his notebook.

The password is my birthday? I asked in surprise. My heart felt like I had kicked a little rabbit, and it kept jumping.

Zhao Yiran smiled, you are so beautiful! It's obviously my birthday! We were born on the same day, same year, same month, you forgot.

I burst into laughter.

During the time before the college entrance examination, I suddenly became obsessed with Internet cafes. Coincidentally, Zhao Yiran was there every time I went online, and we naturally talked about embarrassing things when we were young.

Zhao Yiran asked with some gossip, Ake, did the crescent-shaped scar on your forehead come from that Ashen beating?

Which time did you say? I asked pretending to be nonchalant.

It was the time I peed on you... Zhao Yiran said carefully.

My heart skipped a beat, my head felt like it had been struck by lightning, and my brain went blank.

Later Zhao Yiran asked, do you know why Ashen always bullied you in elementary school?

I don’t know! I replied dumbly.

Silly girl, because he likes you!

The phrase "silly girl" struck my heart again like lightning. But I still pretended to be calm and said, "You brat, you're really not big or small. Do you know that you want to call me sister-in-law? Silly girl, is that what you should call me?"

Zhao Yiran asked reluctantly, " Do you really not know that Ashen likes you?"

I replied angrily, "No one knows that he bullied me so badly back then! It's so scary for me to like him like this. ! ”

Then do you know that I like you? After a long time, a line of text popped up on the screen.

What am I talking about? Brat, I'm your sister-in-law. Being together is incest. If we have a child, it will grow a pig's tail, just like what was written in "One Hundred Years of Solitude"!

I pretended to be relaxed, but my heart was like kicking 100 little rabbits.

There is no blood relationship, but there are five blessings. What kind of incest is this! You are talking nonsense! Zhao Yiran said unconvinced.

The deep-rooted feudal ideology in your family, our family, and the whole village is a cage that is difficult to break. Stop thinking nonsense, it's impossible for us to do this. I said firmly.

I forgot how I walked out of the Internet cafe that day. I just vaguely remember that I felt like I had lost my soul and wandered around outside for a long time before returning to school.

When I was half an hour late for self-study in the evening, my class teacher scolded me and threatened me. If I entered the Internet cafe again, I would call my parents.

In order to concentrate on preparing for the college entrance examination, I never went to an Internet cafe again.

5.

The secret love of nearly ten years was ruined by my own hands.

In the last two months of the college entrance examination, I was almost in the grief of a broken love. Naturally, I couldn't read the textbooks, and I did surprisingly poorly in the college entrance examination.

I heard that Zhao Yiran also did very poorly in the exam, and none of us got into the school of our choice. I went to Sanya, south of Hainan, while Zhao Yiran stayed in this city to study at a vocational and technical college.

From then on, I could not get over the shadow of broken love and failure in the college entrance examination for a long time.

A few months later, when I calmed down and gathered the courage to log in to QQ as a gift from Zhao Yiran again, I found that Zhao Yiran was playing a couple space with other girls! ! !

There is also a Happiness Relay game similar to Truth or Dare.

In that game where you can only tell the truth, Zhao Yiran’s favorite girl is Xiao Wei.

I clicked on Xiao Wei’s space and looked through all her photos. She was a breathtakingly beautiful girl who looked very much like Liu Shishi.

I feel completely lost, and the single cycled through Yan Qing's "Afraid of Loneliness" to express my love-lorn mood. It is said that the writing style of a lovelorn woman is comparable to that of Mo Yan. Indeed, during that period, my literary talent reached its peak, and I always fantasized about becoming a traditional writer. I, who never bothered to write love stories, actually wrote about the overwhelming sounds of love and love.

After writing articles in the space every day, I habitually go to Zhao Yiran and Xiao Wei’s space, watching them flirting with each other with tingling blood.

Zhao Yiran will write comments on every photo of Xiao Wei, using all kinds of praise.

Zhao Yiran writes his love for Xiao Wei on her message board every day.

QQ Zone knows how much Zhao Yiran loves Xiao Wei, and so do I.

One day, Xiao Wei left a message on my QQ space, who are you? Why do you come to my QQ space every day?

I hurriedly replied, I am Zhao Yiran's sister-in-law. I heard that Zhao Yiran has found a girlfriend. I was very curious, so I came to take a look. I'm sorry to disturb you.

The next day, Xiaowei sent me a friend request. Hello, sister-in-law, your articles in QQ space are very nice. Want to make friends with you?

From then on, Xiao Wei and I became friends. Maybe it's because Xiao Wei is too beautiful, or maybe it's because I love Wujiwu, but I don't feel jealous at all towards Xiao Wei and I like her from the bottom of my heart.

Many years later, when I watched the movie "Just Loving You" starring Aoi Miyazaki, I heard Aoi Miyazaki say to the male protagonist with a look of grievance, "I just want the people I like to like." When someone likes me, I feel a dull pain deep in my heart as if something sharp has been stabbed.

Many people say that this plot is fake, but those who have truly loved know that love can last forever. If you know that you will never be together in the end, then let the person you love choose the person you love. It’s also a different kind of happiness!

In this way, every day I listened to Xiao Wei telling her every detail of her love affair with Zhao Yiran, and my heart felt like I had overturned the five-flavor bottle.

I learned from Xiao Wei that after Zhao Yiran went to college, he was depressed for a long time and would always be alone in the library. Because of her melancholic 45-degree profile, she was rated as a top student by all the female judges in the department! And Xiao Wei was named the flower of the department by the straight men in the electrical and mechanical department because of her tall height of 1.76 meters and her fresh and refined temperament that resembles Liu Shishi.

In the eyes of everyone in the department, the handsome man and the handsome woman are made for each other and naturally go together. In this way, amidst everyone's real or fake "together" jokes, the two people's hearts became closer and closer, and finally came together.

6.

Half a year after graduating from college, just when I thought Zhao Yiran and Xiao Wei would finally get married, Xiao Wei said with red eyes that they had broken up.

Zhao Yiran's mother is a very strong woman, and she has the final say in all matters in the family. At that time, Zhao Yiran's family had expanded from a small shop of more than ten square meters in a village to a large supermarket of two hundred square meters in the town.

When she learned that Zhao Yiran was dating a girlfriend from other provinces and was an only child, Zhao Yiran’s mother refused to agree to anything and was determined to beat them up. He even said cruelly, "I would rather you get stabbed in the back by the whole village and marry Ake than let you become the son-in-law of that goblin Xiao Wei." Being so tall and wearing high heels is too willful.

She is a whole head taller when you two stand next to each other. Doesn’t she care about your dignity? In short, unless I die, you don't want to be with that little goblin.

During that time, Zhao Yiran’s QQ chat was updated once a day, but the content remained the same, all the words “Sorry!”

Just when I guessed that the relationship between the two was and At the same time, news of Zhao Yiran's engagement came. It really shocked me.

From my mother’s mouth, I learned that Zhao Yiran’s fiancée is not Xiao Wei, but an ordinary waiter in a department store. She has a junior high school education. She is half a head shorter than Zhao Yiran, who is 170 meters tall. It is not enough for visual inspection. One meter six. The girl is very beautiful, with a round face, round eyes, fair skin, long hair vertical to her waist, a fluttering white skirt, and tenderness.

When Xiao Wei cried and asked me about Zhao Yiran’s new love, they were already married.

I still clearly remember that when Zhao Yiran called me to invite me to his wedding, his cheerful voice could not hide his inner joy, which was in sharp contrast to Xiao Wei's voice that was hoarse from crying.

I have endured it for a long time, but I still can't hold it back. Zhao Yiran, you proposed a flash marriage to your son so quickly, what do you want Xiao Wei to do? She loves you so much. Less than half a year after you two broke up, she has already lost more than ten pounds. Is your heart made of stone?

Zhao Yiran was silent for a long time, and then said word by word, there are some things I thought I wouldn’t say, but you can understand! It turns out you don’t know anything!

Before I could finish saying "What do you mean?", Zhao Yiran hung up the phone first.

A long time later, I received a text message from Zhao Yiran, "Actually, the bride is not you, it doesn't matter who she is!"

I stared at the text message for a long time, and then sighed. The text messages and Zhao Yiran’s phone calls were deleted.

On the day of Zhao Yiran’s wedding, I boarded the train to Nanjing.

I received a text message from an unknown number on the way, "Why does a girl always want to run away? Isn't it good to guard her parents in her hometown? Why do she always ask for trouble and torture? What about me?”

I deleted that day’s text message with a wry smile. Suddenly remembering his mother's gossip, Zhao Yiran didn't dare to choose the girl he liked at all, because your cousin said that Zhao Yiran was the only boy in their family, and they couldn't cut off their relationship here, so Zhao Yiran's wife had to give birth to a son! In order to make Zhao Yiran give up, your cousin also used a trump card. If he went to find Xiao Wei out of town, the family would cut off all concern with him, and he would not get a penny of the family's property. With such a big property, anyone would be tempted! After all, Zhao Yiran is also a common man, a real giant baby, a mama's boy!

During the few years of working hard outside, Xiao Wei and I became good friends and talked about everything. I could even easily get rid of her obsession with Zhao Yiran when I was a child. She smiled so brightly that she said, "Actually, I know even if you don't tell me." I can feel it in your article! The male protagonists in your stories all look very much like Zhao Yiran.

Seeing that she was about to turn 30, Xiao Wei kept changing her boyfriends. Each of her boys was younger and more handsome than the last, but she still refused to get married.

Zhao Yiran’s wife quit her job to focus on having children at home after she got married. She gave birth to three daughters in one go. Her cousin was so angry that she cursed her every day and threatened to divorce her if she couldn’t have any more sons. The couple's figures were like inflated balloons, so fat that they were out of shape.

Sometimes I deliberately pointed to the photo of their family of five and asked Xiao Wei, do you think we were blind at that time? He was so obsessed with this little pot-bellied man.

Xiao Wei always said with a smile, “Well, I’m blind!” Not only are you blind, but your heart is also blind! Fortunately, I didn't marry him, otherwise we would have become a fertility machine.

After a long silence, Xiao Wei said with tears in her eyes, but I still like him very much, what should I do?

I hugged Xiao Wei tightly and stroked her hair distressedly, saying, Those loves that are lost to life are the most helpless things that you want but cannot get!

Nostalgia for the past in love is not a virtue.

Since the past is like smoke, let them pass with the wind!

We have to look forward and start a new life!

You see, Zhao Yiran and I have started a new life, you can do it too! As long as you are willing, you deserve better love and a better lover!

That night, Xiao Wei updated her signature, "Those loves that have lost to life."

A few hours later, in the early hours of the morning, Zhao Yiran also updated his signature "Those Loves Lost to Life".

I opened my notebook with a smile, kissed my sleeping daughter, and quickly typed the title of the article "Those Loves Lost to Life" in the newly created document.

I want to record the love that was lost to life, so that I can remember it many years later!