How far can I go with her on the road of dramatic love?

Six years ago, at the age of 25, I was promoted to department head. On the night of the letter of appointment, a good friend invited me to a nearby hotel to celebrate. During the dinner, he invited many friends I didn't know before to join in the fun. In the noisy crowd, Xiaoman, like a daffodil, attracted me instantly. At that time, she sat on the side of the window, wearing a white lining. I think it is very important for a woman to marry a man who is rich, handsome, smart or popular with outsiders. I'm not even welcome. Nobody hates me. I'm just-just Justin. I never make people feel happy, sad or angry, even though I am bored. I think people think I'm a good person, that's all. Clothes, black trousers, and scalded long hair are tied behind the head, fresh and clean, and there is no makeup on the face, and the lips are naturally rosy.

In order to cure her illness, odd jobs have become the only way for him to earn money. Whether it is painting walls, unloading cars, washing dishes or dredging sewers, he will put down his body and do it. Once, I helped others carry cement from the first floor to the fifth floor. A bag 1 yuan, he carried 30 bags by himself. People are amazed at his strength. When they learned about his love story with her, they were moved to tears. Five pairs of men and women are playing a game of mutual choice on the field. As I am the guest of honor, I choose first. I glanced at the little man with a red face, and the little man sat down gracefully beside me in the laughter of everyone. After everyone chooses their own, they will hold each other and whisper to each other like real lovers. I hung my head and didn't know how to speak, but Xiaoman spoke softly about her boyfriend. They are college classmates. After graduation, he stayed in the provincial capital, but Xiaoman returned to his hometown. Every weekend, she takes a six-hour train to her boyfriend's city, washes and cooks for him, prepares enough food for a week in the refrigerator before leaving, and then takes a six-hour train back. I spent two years like this.

I asked piteously, "Why not consider transferring to a city?" The little man said with surprise, "Have you seen Zhou Yu's train? Zhou Yu's love is on that train. The train carries her contradictions, desires and fantasies about love. I like Zhou Yu and I like the feeling of missing someone on the running train. " Although I can't fully understand and agree with Xiaoman's unique love, I was deeply impressed by her beautiful figure and romantic temperament. Summer just wanted to say that she didn't quite understand, but Cai Lan had stood up and started singing. Cai Lan sang the role of Zhao in "Saving the Wind and Dust", with a clear and pleasant voice. Although Charles didn't understand it, he still felt very good, so he smiled and clapped his hands with satisfaction. Very impressive.

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Two months later, I accidentally met Xiao Man in a bar. It's early autumn, and the little man in a purple gauze skirt is leaning in my arms. In the taxi, Xiaoman buried his head in my lap and fell asleep. I had to take her to the small apartment assigned to me by the company.

On the bed, her sleeping position is very beautiful, with feminine charm and nobility. I suppressed my accelerated heartbeat and quietly retreated to the sofa in the living room. At two in the morning, the bedroom door was pushed open. Before I got up, the sleepy little man squatted in front of me and said softly, "I'm going back to the end of September 2006." Yan Min Jr. got a call from home that day and learned that her grandmother, who had always loved her, suddenly suffered a stroke and was paralyzed. Yan Min Jr. immediately rushed home and took care of his grandmother in the hospital and at home for a month. After that, grandma died of cerebral hemorrhage. Suddenly tired of life on the train, I feel that running around like that has turned love into a burden. You can give me a warm "discovery! Found it! " The next afternoon, the ballroom owner came to the headquarters to pay tribute to Qian Dajun, and Qian Dajun couldn't help laughing at Zhan Yan. Life? "I nodded without thinking and held the little man tightly in my arms.

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Those days were happy. Every day after work, we go shopping together, go to the supermarket, and walk hand in hand after dinner. I give her every penny of my salary in time every month, and then I plan to spend money carefully and lie with Xiaoyao on the day when the house is decorated? "Sister, what should I do? I can't catch it. I want to pay. Fortune tellers are not allowed at all. He said that I would turn over after my birthday and there would be worldly desires. Now I am going crazy. " At the end of summer, I complained to my sister-in-law that I spent a long time in that super-luxury big bed bought for thousands of dollars, and then the little devil stuck up like a fish. She teased me and kissed me, and the boy kept talking from the bed. The coffee on the table has gradually cooled down, and she seems to see countless snowflakes running towards her, shivering and feeling terrible. After thinking for a moment, Wu answered her, but she couldn't do anything, and she couldn't keep back. That night, the little demon comforted me, and I collapsed in bed with my eyes wide open until dawn. We agreed to buy a mortgaged house next autumn. During this period, each of us saw what Shuangliu was doing, and the villagers saw it in their eyes and admired it in their hearts. Fang's parents and the elderly are also very satisfied.

After the Spring Festival, Xiaoman became pregnant. I was trying to persuade her to abort the baby, but she said happily to me, "I'm going to be an unmarried mother." At first I thought she was joking, so I gently reminded her: "According to our plan, we can't get married within six months. Our parents are very conservative, and having children out of wedlock will make them look humiliated. What will colleagues think? Such a small town is not civilized enough to ignore common sense. " The little man stubbornly said, "What's wrong with being the focus of attention? I just want to hear people talking about me behind my back. How interesting this mystery is! "

Xiaoman began to go to the store to buy clothes for the children and asked everyone what it was like to be a mother. Half a month later, I found the incomprehension and contempt in my colleagues' eyes. Sister Xiaoman secretly found my future brother-in-law and had a big fight, asking me if I didn't want to be responsible. At this time, I realized that Xiaoman deliberately wanted to be an unmarried mother.

Just when I was overwhelmed by Xiaoman's unreasonable ideas, the doctor told Xiaoman that she had inflammation and could not have the baby. I felt relaxed when I killed the child, but Xiaoman cried, and then she asked him to carry a satin box from home to the ward. He has sent her cards since she 18 years old. It took all night. The next day, the unit informed me to go to Shenzhen immediately to deal with the emergency. When I came back five days later, Xiaoman was gone. In bed, I saw a DVD specially left by Xiaoman, an Oscar-winning film: Unmarried Mom.

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I have been reflecting on myself in the days when there is no fullness. Although Xiaoman is a bit headstrong and likes to fantasize according to dramatic plots, I love her. If she can come back, I will definitely care more about her and take good care of her.

Half a year later, I was having a meeting with the staff in the office when someone knocked at the door and the little man with long hair and shawl stood at the door. Not so many colleagues were present, so I rushed out: "Xiaoman, you finally came back!" " "

In the western restaurant, Xiaoman cocked his head and asked me if I really didn't have a girlfriend. I nodded with a wry smile and asked her, do you think I will forget you easily? Xiaoman frowned and looked disappointed: "I always think you should have a girlfriend."

In the evening, after Xiaoman fell asleep, I accidentally saw the diary under her pillow. After losing her child, she went to work in a city in the south. On the first day there, she had a plan in mind, that is, one day after half a year, she would look for my mobile phone at the door of my unit and receive a short message from Du Haixin: Blue is smoke, please forgive me. I thought we could go back eight years ago, and my dirty heart tried to destroy that beauty, but I knew we could never go back. No matter how much I want to possess you, how much I want to blackmail you, my spirit once collapsed when I heard the words Mo Xiaoli. There will be no rekindling of old feelings in the world. Even if it really burns again, my heart will not be as warm as before. Time has taught me that the past never comes back. Maybe I don't want to work hard. I used to hate Mo Xiaoli so much, but now I miss her so much. I will never see you again in my life. I returned to * * *, and my days were there. . Then I ate the last bite of steak in the western restaurant and said, I already have a girlfriend. Then she would cry and beg me to give her another chance. Then she will go to this new girlfriend's work and beg her to leave me. Finally, Xiaoman also designed three endings. One is that she figured it out and thought that I no longer loved her and left freely. The other is that after a period of intrigue, the new girlfriend can't bear it and leaves angrily. Finally, two women formed an alliance and left me, a heartless man.

Close the diary, I am really in distress situation. From the whole process, I am not like a little man's lover, just like a doll on the stage. I have always taken this unreasonable idea of Xiaoman as the result. That painting won an award and I became famous. The pace of life is getting faster and faster, and there are many paintings every day. Put down the brush and have to deal with the days when the cup is blocked. In my hurry, I will always remember that day, 2010165438+1October 20th. Because it was Saturday, Jiang went out to eat with friends at noon. We were supposed to have dinner together at night. I waited in his rental house until the early morning, and the electric cooker was steaming, warming the kelp sparerib soup I made. I usually have a lot of work and entertainment, and I often come back drunk. That night, I kept calling him to prevent him from getting drunk. From the beginning, say "go back at once" to not answering, and then turn off the phone. I was so angry that I left a note condemning him and went back to my home. Occasionally I can see Liang Sheng several times, and her eyes are glued to me, but I haven't stopped to talk to her for a long time. As a naive and immature person, I have to seriously consider it now. Does she really want to translate the plot in movies and TV into life?

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At my strong request, Xiaoman became my bride. But I don't know why, since I got married, I have been wary of Xiaoman. For example, which TV series she watched for a long time, I would be shocked. I also dreamed that the plot in the play happened to us many times.

Only after Xiaoman got pregnant again did my heart settle down a little. In those days, Xiaoman has been on holiday at home, sleeping every day when he is full, which makes my heart warm. I think a woman with children will grow up. She can forget her unrealistic ideas and start a real life.

When my daughter was one year old, Xiaoman had a lover. That is a local painter with long hair and artistic temperament. A month later, I blocked the couple in front of the men's studio and looked at the burly little man. I said, let's divorce and have my daughter.

Xiaoman left my life again. Half a month later, I saw a tearful little man peeping outside my house. My heart ached and I fought back my anger and let her in. After kissing her daughter, her eyes were blurred and she asked me, "Why did you agree to let me look after the children?" You should refuse me and then beat me out. " I looked at this neurotic woman coldly: a first love, two betrayals, and Deng Chunhui's experience was sympathetic. However, there is a saying: times have changed and things have changed. When your long-lost first love hits you, should you ask rationally: Is love or conspiracy burning fiercely? Deng Chunhui was carried away by the joy of winning back his first love, and irrational killing made his life fall into hell. "That's" Anna? The plot in Karenina? But Xiaoman, this is not a writer's manor, and you are not Anna. You are just an ordinary woman. Xiaoman, I beg you to wake up. Life is not drama. Face up to real life. This family needs you, and the children need you more. Come back early. "The little man shook his head fiercely and pushed open the door and ran away before I finished. Indoor, I smiled and said to myself, Anna committed suicide lying on the track, Xiaoman wouldn't, because I didn't stop her from taking care of the children according to the plot in the book.

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Xiaoman disappeared again.

Three months later on the weekend, she called me to visit her new home in the north of the city. The moment she opened the door in a pink nightgown, I knew I still loved her, and the sadness in her eyes made me heartache. I patted her on the shoulder and said, come home with me.

Xiaoman is back again. But I feel that there are many times when I can't do it. I subconsciously think of anything she said casually in my mind, no matter the arrangement of a certain drama plot. I have reached the point where I am afraid of snakes.

Five months later, because he was busy with a project at work, he didn't go home for a week, and Xiaoman left without saying goodbye. What was left to me this time was the real script: Nora.

I live with my daughter again. I have been numb to Xiaoman's departure, and I am too lazy to look for her, even too stingy to make a phone call. I know she must still be somewhere in this city, secretly planning the next plot in her heart. As for me, I have long been in no mood to watch a play, and I have no fun in it. I have plenty of regrets and fears, and more helplessness.

A colleague introduced me to a new girlfriend, but I haven't decided whether to give up Xiaoman completely. I once went to the library to check the definition of drama, that is, an actor plays a role and performs in front of an audience. In our dramatic love story, there are only actors and no audience. Everything is just the performance of a little person.

I love Xiaoman, and I am still waiting with expectation, but can Xiaoman really come out? I hope someone can give me an answer.

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