First time to see a doctor.

When the teacher of Beijing Normal University replied to my doctoral application, I experienced ups and downs these days. When I saw the excitement of "welcome to apply" and the gratitude of "welcome at any time", I felt that everything was so unrealistic, thank God.

In order to live up to this good pleasure, I have been preparing for many days in a row. Every day, I will "torture" another person, let them watch my PPT and check my English grammar. Everyone says I'm doing well, but I'm still a little worried. I'm only prepared for this one thing, and the rest are not in the mood. Can't sleep well at night. My classmates also encouraged me and said I could.

I carefully took out my train ticket, squeezed into the crowd and stepped into the train bound for Beijing. I'm just like people who went to Beijing to take exams in ancient times, but I'm more confused about the future than them. I sat by and watched people pack their luggage, very calm. Maybe I don't want to go to Beijing. Although the school is good, the subject direction is a bit far away. But I know in my heart that this trip is inevitable. I want to be responsible for myself, so that I have no room for regret.

I slept very uncomfortable on the train. I arrived at seven in the morning. I went to buy a subway ticket cleanly. It was not eight o'clock when I got to school, but I made an appointment with my teacher at nine o'clock. I want to use one minute as five minutes. Watching the students rush into the teachers on campus, I walked slowly, thinking that I should not find the hospital office so soon and spend more time.

After 40 minutes on campus, I finally entered the Institute of Biological Sciences and went directly to the teacher's office. I didn't feel nervous as I thought, and I didn't say what I wanted to say. The teacher is satisfied with my research background, but she is also worried. Finally, it is said that five or six students applied for her this year. Their college is just an ordinary recruitment, and we can only look at the preliminary test results. This result is not good news for me, even bad news. A few simple pleasantries and left. When I left the biology building, I called people who were worried about me and told them that I was calm, as if I already knew the result.

Of course, I'm not only the choice of this school, but I don't know whether I should study PhD or not. I have been hesitating, but I have been trying. I hope I won't regret it in the future.